masculinity

I realize that my words have gone too far, but I have to go so far.

Chi Cheng's face became ugly, I knew it very well, like a bright mirror.

He said he loved me, but he still didn't know what I wanted, which gave me any reason to accept him again.

Even if I don't know what I want, how can I talk about giving?

I can take the initiative to ask him what I want, but now he doesn't even know what I want, and he is not prepared, so I will become the one who dominates in love?

No!I just need to do a feeling, that's all!

If I can dominate love, why should I like a man?I can do it well, so what's the use of the so-called attack?

I can find a woman, get married and have children, and live a peaceful and comfortable life without worrying about the judgment of the people around me, right?

"I remember everything, I just want to know where my parents are now?!"

Chi Cheng should know this question best!I have been reminiscing about the past these days. I vaguely remember the dinner between my father and Chicheng in the restaurant in Canada that day, and then my parents left mysteriously.

When I thought about it carefully, what my father said that day was also very strange, and it probably had something to do with Chi Cheng!

"I can tell you, but you must promise to be with me!"

Chi Cheng looked at me ruthlessly and indifferently on his face. In an instant, Chi Cheng was like a stranger negotiating terms with me.

Somewhere in the body was stabbed by a sharp blade, causing heart-wrenching pain.

It seems that it really has something to do with him. I couldn't convince myself to suspect that it was Chi Cheng who hid my parents.

But I learned something later, which made me have to doubt and guess Chi Cheng.

It was a weekend when I was a child. That day a man came to my house, with a sad face, and then he knelt in front of my parents and said, "We can go abroad, and we can stop bothering you."

Then my dad seemed to be refusing to agree to the man's entreaties. Dad threw off the man's entanglement, and then entered the house.

But after a while, I heard a horrible sound coming from outside the door. I was about to see it, but my mother dragged me to the bedroom and locked me in the room.

But I still saw that man was hit by a car in front of my house, and he bled so much that his white clothes were stained red.

I have never mentioned these things before. It was not until today that I found out that the man who was killed was Chi Cheng's grandfather!

Their Chi family was just a small commoner at the time, while my family was the kind of family that has been officials for generations. In order to bury those things, the family opened up all the connections, threatened and lured the Chi family, and then forced them to go abroad.

In fact, this incident is still my fault, because it was a rainy day when I was a child, I went out to play with Chicheng, and Yunlong, because the umbrella was small and a bit crowded. At that time, I was very kind to Chicheng and took good care of him. Chi Cheng is not as tall as he is now, he used to be thinner than me and a little short, so I put him in the middle of the umbrella.

Yunlong and I stood on both sides of the umbrella. When the three of us passed a small bridge, because the bridge was a bit narrow and we only had one umbrella, we had to walk across together.

I don't know what hit me, and then I fell off the bridge and into the river.

I hit my head on a small rock and fell into a coma for more than ten days. When I woke up, I couldn't remember anything...

Later, my family members said that it was Chicheng who pushed me, and the two families began to disagree. The Chi family was forced by my grandfather and father to leave our city.

Because my grandfather loved me very much, he sued the Chi family to the court. Because the family had connections and had a chance of winning the lawsuit, the Chi family came to beg my father.

From then on, the Chi family and the Lin family became friends.

This incident made me think about why my dad went abroad, and then I met Chi Cheng in Canada miraculously, and then Chi Cheng met my dad...

This series of things made me feel that Chicheng is using me!Just for revenge?

It may be an accident that he transferred to our class, but later he knew that I belonged to the Lin family, so he started to act, followed my family to Canada, threatened my parents, and then abandoned me who was worthless...

It's all my own guess, but it seems to be true...

In addition to what Chicheng said now, is there any problem?

"It's really you?" There was a hint of sarcasm in my eyes.

"It seems that you guessed it too?" Chi Cheng's eyes were sharp and bloodthirsty, and I immediately prepared myself on guard.

It turns out that this man has been lying to me all along, but I am all true to him!

"If you want revenge, come here, it has nothing to do with my parents! You are looking for me!" I yelled loudly.

The sound was too loud, and the little guy in the living room was startled by my voice, so he ran over bit by bit.

"Papa, papa."

"Little one, don't come here!" I yelled at the little one anxiously.

I'm worried about what Chi Cheng will do to Xiao BuDian, in case...

"Why are you still standing there? Take him away." The door was opened, and several men in black suits walked in.

"Chicheng, what are you doing?!" I widened my eyes in horror, what is Chicheng doing?kidnap me?

"I'll bring you the little one, hehe, didn't you say you're looking for revenge?" He said he was going to turn around and pick up the little one.

little guy?Is he going to take the little one away?And get me out of it?

hehe! "Then you let my parents go?!" I yelled at Chi Cheng's leaving back.

"Oh, by the way, I forgot to tell you, their fate was bad, and they were killed while going to Australia."

what? !

My world collapsed in an instant because of Chicheng's words "killed", and I have no reason to live!

"Chicheng, now you...hehe...should be happy?"

I burst into tears with a wry smile, did Chi Cheng take revenge now that he has dealt with me?

This man, I have loved for so long, but in the end he still wants to put me to death. God has been playing with me all my life!

Then just die, but the little one... I promised to raise him up, wait for him to enter university and marry a wife...

These are so simple things, I don't have the opportunity to see them now.

Chi family.

Chicheng didn't kill me, but tortured me endlessly every night, and also satisfied his endless needs.

I admit it, this is my life, I want to escape, Chicheng knows me very well, he threatened me with the little one...

I have to continue to be his tool, and I lie beside him like a dead body every day.

I don't know any emotions, and I can't see the little boy, and I don't know where Chicheng hides the little boy.

For this world, I'm nothing but a little one, and that's the only reason I'm alive, that's all, nothing else!

"Come here!" Chi Cheng gave me an order like a king.

I had no expression on my face, and obediently passed by, as usual, at his mercy, and I was just a puppet.

"Smile for me." Chi Cheng's face was extremely gloomy.

"...haha." I force a smile on my stiff face.

"Smile so ugly, cry for me!" Chi Cheng trampled on my dignity like a madman.

Oh, no, I have no dignity anymore, ever since I entered Chi's house.

For him to play every day, then wash and cook, and then...

Thinking about myself is so pitiful that I can't speak.

Is this the repayment that Chi Cheng said?I am paying back with my body and mind...

He has drained all my emotions towards him, including hate!

A person's biggest dislike for a person is that he has no feelings for him, he is dispensable, and he doesn't exist for me.

"Lin Xi, didn't you say you wanted to be with me?" Chi Cheng lifted my chin with his hand coldly, "Is it very comfortable now? I serve you very well every day, right?"

"……"I do not speak.

"I'm satisfied with you now, don't you want to live with me for the rest of your life? Don't you want to enter Chi's house?"

Well, I got all of these, but why is it so painful?

I'm so ridiculous, I used to dream of this, but now it's like this...

"Ah..." There was a sharp pain...

The endless night devours all my senses, drifting erratically in the chaos.

When I woke up, I saw the little one for the first time, and he looked at me with a worried face.

"Papa, you've been asleep for a long time." He cried with a sad face.

I was feeling weak and uncomfortable, and it was hard to reach out and touch the little one's face.

"Papa, don't move around, the angel sister said, you should have a good rest."

Looking at the little one's seriousness, I feel really happy, and I don't even feel the pain on my body.

"Are you awake?" A voice I will never forget rang out.

I look away from him.

"Daddy, you're here..." Xiao BuDian saw Chi Cheng coming, so he took the initiative to walk away, and sat beside him a little unhappy.

This is a hospital, I know why I came here, because that night...

"Well, why is the little one unhappy?" Chi Cheng hugged the little one and pinched his little cheek.

"Papa is in so much pain, I'm so scared." Xiao BuDian began to cry as she spoke, almost crying.

I almost cried before the little boy cried, why is this child so cute, he is so sensible.

"No, didn't Sister Angel just say that she will be fine after a night of sleep."

Chi Cheng comforted Xiao BuDian very gently, this man made me feel unbelievable, how many personalities does he have.

A moment of indifference and bloodthirsty, another moment of tenderness...

Unpredictable men are dangerous goods, it is best not to touch them, because I touched them, I was covered in bruises, and I was reluctant to let go.

I had no choice but to let go until my body was so badly injured...

It is said that love is poison, but I think love is poison, there is no medicine!

"Well, Daddy, let's take Papa back, shall we? It's full of medicinal smells, and there are bad sorghums who like to prick their asses."

"Haha, be careful that they hear you come and stab your ass." Chi Cheng laughed heartily.

Xiaobudian was taken away by Chicheng's secretary, and only he and I were left in the room.

"Better?" Chi Cheng's voice was low.

"This is not what you want, why don't you kill me?"