masculinity

In the blink of an eye, it’s mid-May, and the weather is getting hotter and hotter. Yue Jiaqi and Chi Cheng are slowly approaching each other. The distance between them is gradually shortening because of me, and the distance between me and them is gradually estranged. Some people say that I It deserves it, some people say that I have a kind of love called letting go.

One Sunday afternoon, our third graders needed to go to class, because the college entrance examination was approaching. The school implemented the normal weekend classes for the third graders in April. Sunday afternoons and evenings were free activities, and we could only go home once a month. a day off.

At the beginning, the students naturally had complaints about the school's policies, but it gradually faded away, and they got used to having classes on weekends.

"Lin Xi, let's go to Anxiang tonight."

I was planning to pack up and go home. Anyway, I have nothing to do at school, so I might as well go home, but Yue Jiaqi suddenly asked me to go to Anxiang with her. I was a little embarrassed. I already told my dad that I I want to go home for dinner at night, so I called home, my mother was not at home, and my father answered the phone, although my father heard that I was going back tonight, I didn’t have any obvious emotions, but I was still very happy, he said to me :"come back earlier."

Dad seldom asks about my affairs, such a tone is almost one of the few. Usually he always treats me like a strict father, but I don't feel disgusted. Instead, he sincerely admits his mistakes and gets punished every time.

Now it seems that I can't go back tonight. Will my father be angry with me in my heart? He is a very face-saving person and doesn't want to hurt his face, but I can't refuse Yue Jiaqi, otherwise she will definitely marry me Urgent, in fact, I also want to go. If I am not up to date, I dare not go. If I am timid, I don’t want to see Chicheng and Yue Jiaqi together. One is my friend and the other is the person I love. unbearable.

In the afternoon, I went to Anxiang with Yue Jiaqi and Chu Keke. When I heard the name Anxiang for the first time, I thought it was strange. Why did a KTV choose such a name?

Regardless of it, it's not my family's. Sadly, I can be said to be dragged to Anxiang by Yue Jiaqi and Chu Keke, and they even threatened me.

"No! You have to go, or I will tell your father that you went to Zhanlan at night."

This threat is very effective. As an official of this city, my father always holds conservative traditional ideas. If he knows that I go to an entertainment place like Zhanlan, then he will have to overturn the house and give me Come three months and not go out to relax...

Thinking about it makes me afraid. Poor me, I love and hate my dad’s dictatorial behavior. Anyway, I’m the one who struggles the most at home. One is emotional, the other is gentle and kind, a well-off family of three. Live, carefree.

So I suppressed my reluctance and came to Anxiang with Yue Jiaqi and the others. Since I entered Anxiang, I have no self-awareness. Yue Jiaqi and Chu Keke lead me in everything. I have become a * *, what they do, I do.

I walked to a box, which was very spacious, with colorful lights flickering on everyone's faces and bodies, I was dazzled, and it took me several seconds to see all the people in the box clearly.

The first thing I noticed was Chicheng, dressed in casual sportswear, sitting on the sofa beside him like a college student, with a half-lit cigarette in one hand, and the other hand resting on the sofa On the back of the chair, the image of a playboy is vividly depicted.

The moment I saw Chicheng, he also turned his head and noticed me, nodded slightly to say hello, I nodded immediately, and then I saw several boys and girls in the same class.My relationship with them is okay, not too good, because some of them are the top ones in the class, so I always deal with them when handing in homework, fines and so on.

My eyes moved over several people, and I glanced at them. I found that there were still two people sitting in the innermost corner of the sofa. Because of that direction, the blind spot where the light couldn't reach, so I didn't notice when I entered the box at first.

"Are you here? Come."

"Sit here, come... this way."

Several girls and boys saw the three of us, and they took the initiative to invite us to sit on the sofa. I don’t know if the music here is too loud.

How could I care about them and let Chu Keke pull me to the empty seat on the sofa. After entering the door, Yue Jiaqi took the initiative to keep a distance from me. I think it was because of Chi Cheng.My eyes were fixed on those two people in the corner, I couldn't figure out why they were here?

Yunlong and his girlfriend are cuddling each other on the sofa, it’s so sweet, I started to feel so ironic, hehe... My arm was pushed a few times, and I just came back to my senses, Yue Jiaqi was already sitting in Chicheng On the side, there was an unconcealable shyness on his face.

The expression on Chicheng's face was still neither salty nor dull, calmly looking at the red wine glass he picked up at some point in his hand, under the flickering lights, his eyes were like torches, staring at the wine glass in his hand obsessively in a daze.

Yue Jiaqi didn't care about Chicheng's cold face. I think Yue Jiaqi wanted to stay quietly by Chicheng's side. Slowly, Chicheng would find her good.

A wry smile climbed up the corners of my lips, am I a bad person? I know that Chicheng likes men and doesn’t like women, but I help him give him my best friend. If Yue Jiaqi knew that Chicheng liked men, she would what to do?I don't want to know this...

Do you want to tell Yue Jiaqi, although I didn't help them obviously, I always feel sorry for Yue Jiaqi in my heart, she treats me so well, but I treat her just the opposite.

"Lin Xi, what do you want to drink?"

Chu Keke took good care of me, patted my shoulder, then approached my ear and asked me what I wanted, I was really not in the mood right now, so I said something casually.

"casual."

Chicheng is okay here, I only feel uneasy and sad, and now Yunlong is here again, the problem is that he still has a girlfriend, I just feel that I am not my own, restless, embarrassed, and unable to find the most suitable have to be described by adjectives.

Yunlong's eyes didn't keep looking at me, they just glanced over several times, and didn't stay for long. Facing Yunlong like this, a kind of frustration that was deliberately ignored was born in his heart. , Today's look is so different that you don't even want to look at it.

Hehe, I sneered, I understand, Yunlong's disappearance during this period is to forget me on purpose, he succeeded.I finally forgot about me, and now I am very affectionate with his girlfriend, this is good, even though I feel uncomfortable in my heart, I don’t blame him, he has done enough, everything is my fault, the fault is that I don’t love him……

I also shifted my gaze from Yunlong to Chicheng's Yue Jiaqi. The point is that I want to see Chicheng more. Looking at him, I always feel safe in my heart, with a sense of accomplishment that I want to stop after running for a long time.

My heart is extremely troubled, all kinds of emotions are entangled together, no matter what I think, I still have no clue, I weakly took the juice that Chu Keke handed over, took a sip, suddenly, the box became quiet, and the music was turned off .

"I asked everyone to come and play today, mainly because there is one thing that needs to be witnessed by everyone."

I didn't know what the boy was talking about, but I saw him smiling all over his face and looking around at everyone present, waving his hands in high spirits, as if he was waiting for the next good news.

Next, there is really good news, happy news...

"After the college entrance examination, Yunlong, that is, Brother Long, will be engaged to Chi Yajing!"

Yunlong is getting engaged, he didn't mention it, he never did, he doesn't have himself recently, maybe he is preparing for the wedding, he didn't deliberately hide from me, even if there is a little bit, it can be ignored.

I looked in surprise at Yunlong who was sitting quietly not far away. Chi Yajing next to him leaned on his shoulder shyly. Neither of them spoke. Amidst the cheers and boos of the crowd, they acquiesced.

I thought this would be enough, and we could leave after singing nursery rhymes, but something happened that made me feel even more distressed. Chicheng stood up suddenly, walked to Yunlong's side, straightened his clothes, and said Lang Lang : "Yunlong, you have to be nice to my sister, or you will know. Finally, my brother wishes you a happy life forever."

This sounded like a threat. Even the congratulations added at the end still didn’t sound like a blessing, but the rest of the audience still laughed, but I think it’s so fake. If you have money, you can come and play with ordinary people like us. human dignity?

Although I don't know the relationship between Yunlong and Chicheng, I still don't agree with Chicheng's current behavior and speech. He is too arrogant and always does not take others seriously. Sometimes it is not a good thing to think too much of yourself.

Yunlong actually didn't have the temper he had in the hospital that time, his face was as calm as water, as if nothing had happened, he even smiled back at Chi Cheng, and said "Thank you."

The box was quiet. He heard his voice, and I was also shocked. What happened to him?Why is the voice hoarse?It's like the harsh sound after roaring, which is disgusting.

Chi Yajing also said thank you to Chicheng quietly, and then hooked Yunlong's arm with her wrist involuntarily, clinging to the harmonious picture, in my eyes, no matter Chicheng and Yue Jiaqi, Chi Yajing and Yunlong, they really They are all very happy.

I only now know that Yunlong's girlfriend is Chicheng's older sister. It seems that there are too many things between Chicheng and Yunlong that I don't know.Then in the hospital last time, the two of them fought must be because of Chi Yajing, logically, that's right.

"By the way, sister, I've finished my college entrance examination, and I'm planning to find a girlfriend."

While everyone was still in the mood, Chi Cheng added: "After all, my dad only has me as a son, and he always rushes me, cousin, you know what my dad means, I'm not young anymore."

Chi Cheng smiled slightly. This was the best time I saw Chi Cheng smile. It turned out that he was going to have a girlfriend so worth celebrating. It seemed that he had nothing left to fantasize about.