masculinity

In love, some things can be left unsaid, pretending to be peaceful and continue to enjoy the nourishment of love, it can be regarded as an anesthetic, but sometimes I don’t want to be anesthetized, and it’s okay to feel pain.

The general atmosphere just now was made stiff and entangled by what I said. Chicheng and I didn't talk anymore, and Chicheng didn't say anything more. He must let me move back to his residence. If he doesn't say anything, I feel uncomfortable. It's just to let him say, "Don't worry, I'm here!"

Instead, he said until the end of the meal, "Let's go, I'll take you back."

How can't stand the real feelings, I mocked myself for being so unbelievable, fell in love with someone who shouldn't love, and suffered on my own time and time again, but I didn't know the pain after another, thinking that the power of love can create miracles, If it's true that I've watched too much love TV, the so-called miracles will only appear in Korean dramas...

Hearing such a heart-wrenching result, what else can I say, the silence is enough to cover up my restless and anxious state of mind, I followed behind him, paying attention to Chicheng's mature and steady steps with a good temperament , Some strange memory fragments floated in my mind, scattered, and I wanted to put these memories together into a complete one, but those fragmented memories disappeared in a flash.

A little boy followed a taller boy also flashed in his mind, and the fragments were replaced by another scene, which was blurry...

Along the way, Chi Cheng didn't say a word, even his breathing was deliberately lowered, as if trying not to breathe and not to breathe.The more Chi Cheng remained silent, the more frightened I felt. When he was silent, it was as if a layer of ice energy was covering his whole body, and the cold air was overwhelming!

Chi Cheng sent me to the downstairs where I live, it is not surprising why Chi Cheng was able to find my house, he was able to find Canada from me, a small rental house, I think it is not difficult for him.

"Thank you for sending me back." I should be revenge Chicheng for not talking to me along the way, nor giving me an answer. He couldn't give me what I wanted, and what made me even more upset was his silence all the way...

Chicheng was finally affected by my words, he began to look at me sternly, I was still hopeful for his answer, and waited for a while before getting out of the car.

"Is there anything else?" Invisibly, I slapped myself hard. I was so naive. When someone had sex with me, I thought he loved me, but I forgot about him. He has a fiancée, and I'm just a tool to vent his physical needs.

I am willing, and of course others will not refuse the prey that comes to my door. No one can blame me, I am not raped by others, I am voluntary, and I was very happy to cater to his offensive at that time. I really want to give myself a few more slaps.

It’s good to wake myself up, every time I get hurt, I swear that I will remember the lesson from this time, what’s the result?Being provoked by someone is another deer in love.

I was speechless... silently closed the car door, dragged my tired body into the stairwell of the apartment, and disappeared into the elevator with insufficient light. Before entering the elevator, I did not look back at Chicheng reluctantly, even if I wanted to look back several times, but I didn't dare, I was afraid that after I looked back, he had already driven away, leaving only the empty road...

After I got out of the car, I didn't notice that there was a pair of bright and clear eyes looking at me in my rented room. I returned home and opened the door with the key. I found Bai Yiyi on the balcony, looking down motionless , She should have heard the sound of me opening the door, she turned her head to look at me, and then continued to look out of the window.

I teased Bai Yiyi, "What's wrong with you? Have you had lunch yet?"

The reason why I asked Bai Yiyi this is because I found that she is still wearing a cute pajamas standing on the balcony. Fortunately, there is a little sun today, and the weather is not very cold.

After a while, I didn't get any answer from Bai Yiyi. I looked at her strangely. She was still looking out of the balcony. I didn't understand. A handsome guy like me didn't look here, but just stared at her. Looking from the outside, there is still a frowning expression, this is a resentful woman!

"Bai Yiyi! What are you looking at? Is there a handsome guy downstairs?" I said and walked over, and then looked downstairs because my eyes were unclear, which surprised me.

"Ahem..." Why hasn't Chi Cheng left? It's been three or four minutes since I got off the car. Why hasn't he left yet? The car is still parked at the spot just now... I can't figure out what Chi Cheng wants to do.

I understand why Bai Yiyi has been looking downstairs. She must have seen me getting out of Chicheng's car, so she stared at Chicheng's car curiously. He wanted to know what kind of Chicheng I was talking about?Do you mind if I'm gay?

I'm worried that Bai Yiyi will dislike me for being gay. She said before that she doesn't mind. Maybe she just heard that Chicheng and I have never met. I can't imagine it. After all, since she came to live with me, I know she is not a rotten person. Female, as a girl with a normal sexual orientation, she must feel a little uncomfortable, and most of the sayings that she doesn't mind are fake.

"Hehe... I'm sorry, I was seen by you." I showed an embarrassed and shy expression.

I just want to ease the awkward atmosphere, I don't know if I'm thinking too much, or Bai Yiyi is just thinking about me and Chi Cheng?

Bai Yiyi still didn't speak, and it took a long time before she said, "He seems to have come up."

I was so confused by what she said, I couldn't understand what she was talking about, what was he talking about, who was it?When I talked to her, how could she answer me with words I didn't understand?

If this is the case, the doorbell rang in a short while... I blinked, who could it be? Could it be the person who rang the doorbell that Bai Yiyi said just now? Alright.

I thought to myself, I really want to meet Bai Yiyi's boyfriend, and I really have a chance to meet her today. No wonder Bai Yiyi stood on my balcony and kept looking downstairs. It turned out that her boyfriend was coming, so I waited I'm a little impatient, haha, it seems that I'm thinking too much, Bai Yiyi doesn't care about me and Chi Cheng, but his boyfriend.

After explaining the matter in this way, my hanging heart landed smoothly and with peace of mind. I was relieved a lot. I rushed to the door and opened it. The moment I opened the door, I was stunned. I can't speak.

What is Chicheng? !What about Bai Yiyi's mysterious boyfriend...disappointed again!

Guiltily, I turned my head and looked into the house. The slender figure on the balcony had disappeared. My eyes searched the room and saw that the door of the bedroom was closed. Bai Yiyi should have gone back to the bedroom to change clothes.

"You don't seem to welcome me, or do you not want me to come to your house? Huh?" There was a provocative and sarcastic tone in Chi Cheng's words, which made me feel uncomfortable again!

"Then you know, why do you have to be so cheeky?" I have always been the one who hates me, and I have to fight back, so I asked him back with confidence.

Chi Cheng suddenly had a wicked smile on his face, then pushed me away with his strong hands, strode into my house, left me at the door, went in and sat on the sofa, where the quilt I used for sleeping was folded... …

I hate this kind of person who comes into my house casually without my consent, always thinking that he can do whatever he wants, without considering the other person's feelings at all, just like he suppressed me to do bad things, only considering his stimulation, everything I don't care if I, Lin Xi, like him, what exactly do I want!

Chicheng was as casual as if he regarded this place as his own home. He sat on the sofa leisurely, picked up a magazine on the coffee table and looked at it, and told me without looking at me: "Guests come to you Home, don’t you even have a glass of water? Huh?”

Fuck!Chi Cheng, who are you? If I let you come into my house, you can already be grateful to me, and even want me to pour water and serve tea for you. How can you not be in heaven!For your comparison, I'll give you 99 points, and I'm afraid you won't be able to bear any more points!

"If you want to drink, pour it yourself, I don't have time." Chicheng's impolite words made me feel full of anger, and I just let him drink and pour it by himself. , there is no obligation to pour water for him.

When you come to other people's house as a guest, you turn against the guest and ask the host to pour water for him. You are such a weird brother, don't be so self-righteous, you are so rich and beautiful, isn't it rare for me?

"Hehe, whatever."

"Any ghost!"

Damn, but he's good at talking, obviously it's Chicheng's own fault, right? Now he's talking about me, the director, who doesn't know how to be polite, he Chicheng is a careless person, yo!I don't believe you can make my hair explode!

"What are you talking about, let it go, labor and capital still have things to do!" I accidentally sweared continuously when I was excited, but what I said, the dirty water that was spilled, I couldn't take it back, I couldn't take it back!

According to Chicheng's temper, I think the consequences are very serious. I wait for Longyan of Chicheng to be furious, and then beat me up, or pick me up and carry me out of the house, and then treat me like death... It's terrible to think about it, I I wanted to apologize quickly, but I was interrupted by the sudden sound of the door opening as soon as I opened my mouth. Both Chi Cheng and I were attracted by the untimely sound. Qi Qi looked at the door of the bedroom, and Bai Yiyi changed into a pale yellow autumn dress and appeared at the door of the bedroom , with an unattractive smile on his face, a little disappointed.Bai Yiyi must have seen that the person who came was not his boyfriend, so she must have been disappointed.

"This is... Bai Yiyi's eyes fell on Chi Cheng who was sitting on the sofa. She looked at Chi Cheng on the sofa, but what she said was for me.

"He is Chicheng, you've heard of it before."

It turned out that Bai Yiyi had never seen Chi Cheng, otherwise he and she wouldn't know this man.It's fine if I don't know each other, it made me worry about something, and I was terrified for a long time. When Bai Yiyi heard Chi Cheng's name, she didn't have any surprised expression on her face, and she actually calmly chatted with Chi Cheng...