bad daddy

"Do you choose to keep going, or give up?"

Ge Feng was stunned for a moment when he was suddenly presented with a multiple-choice question.He was quick to laugh, though.

The street lamps in the distance are intertwined one by one, like a string of bright beads, stretching to the horizon.

Xiang Jie's mind was confused, he was already confused, and he didn't want to think about it most of the time.Now, the overall situation has come, and he has to face it.

Ge Feng laughed for a long time, laughing so hard that Xiang Jie didn't understand why.After a while, he stopped smiling, "I've thought about this question too."

Xiang Jie looked at him.

"From a methodological point of view, if you can't see the result of doing something, you will inevitably doubt whether it is the darkness before dawn or the long night."

Ge Feng looked at the stars all over the sky—only when he avoided the artificial light and got used to the darkness, could he discover the faintly twinkling little stars.

"I won't encourage you. If you persist, the sky will dawn soon." Ge Feng patted Xiang Jie's shoulder, "Sometimes, if you persist, there may still be an endless night ahead; but if you give up, Then what you face will always be the darkness before dawn."

Xiang Jie held his breath, and he looked at Ge Feng in disbelief.Ge Feng raised his head slightly, his eyes were full of stars.

"Choices are difficult, but you should not be afraid of choices, let alone ask others about choices. Choices mean commitment. When you make a decision, you have to bear all the consequences."

Ge Feng pointed to the stars in the sky, "Your him may be like this star, tall and bright, unattainable. Maybe you think this kind of love is too tiring."

"But if you really stand on the same level as him and become a certain star yourself, you will feel how trivial and boring this mortal world is."

Ge Feng sent him to the subway station and stopped, "In terms of values, I suggest you follow your heart. If you love, stick to it; if you don't love it, give up. But at least give yourself a chance to protect yourself. your love."

Xiang Jie's nose sharpened sharply, and he quickly lowered his head.The pedestrians around him were in a hurry, but no one noticed what kind of mood swings he had.

"Brother." He choked out.

Ge Feng was stunned for a moment, then turned around and hugged him with a smile, "What's the matter?"

"It's okay..." He tried his best not to let his tears and snot rub against Ge Feng's clothes.He was a little ashamed, he was in his twenties, why was he still like this, crying every now and then.

"Don't worry too much about family affairs," Ge Feng comforted him, "There will always be a solution. If you need any help, just contact me."

After finishing speaking, he rushed to Jie and blinked, "Don't worry, I won't tell your brother."

"What's wrong with you today?" Lian Ming shook the wine glass in his hand, the scarlet liquid overflowed the glass and accidentally splashed on his hand.

"Hey." Lian Ming hurriedly took out a handkerchief from his front pocket and wiped it.

"It's nothing." He Yaning leaned in the corner, looking at the men and women who were chatting and chatting, Yingying and Yanyan, who had long lost their attraction to him.

The cup in his hand was already empty, but he didn't want to refill it.A reception that Lian Ming painstakingly organized had ended early at his place.

"Tired? Go back when you're tired. I'll call a driver for you." Lian Ming hugged him affectionately and walked out, "What happened at home? Xiao Zhu? Or Xiang Jie?"

"Xu Yingyue proposed remarriage with me." He Yaning bit the tip of his tongue lightly, frowned in pain, "I..."

Lian Ming raised his eyebrows.

"he?"

"Yeah." He Yaning nodded, followed Lianming to a secluded place, "He said he was willing to bear some things with me..."

"Will?" Lian Ming shrugged and laughed, "This was originally his obligation, okay? He fled the battle, and now he wants to turn around, what 'willing'?"

He Yaning raised his eyes to look at him, "Then what do you think?"

He took out a cigarette from his pocket, held it in his mouth, and lit it tremblingly.Recently, for some reason, Lian Ming has become addicted to smoking again.Especially when thinking about things, there is no smoke.

Slowly exhaling a cloud of smoke rings, the steaming smoke concealed most of his face, "I think you should be careful."

"He is Xiaozhu's biological father, so he shouldn't take the obligations he should have undertaken as a reason to please you. You are not only choosing a father for Xiaozhu, but also choosing a partner for yourself—"

Lian Ming paused, then suddenly remembered something, and looked at He Yaning in surprise, "Where is that soft rice man? You are going to be eliminated from the competition?"

He Yaning smiled, "I didn't say that."

Lian Ming snorted.

To be honest, he doesn't like either of them.One already had a criminal record of running away; the other was a preparatory offender who did not take responsibility.

To put it bluntly, there is essentially no difference between the two.Leaving aside those empty exteriors, Lian Ming thought, this friend of his is just choosing the taller one from the shorter ones.

It's also He Yaning's fate, why did he meet such people?

"You're right," He Yaning let out a long sigh of relief after a long time, "I have to go back and think about it."

Not only to choose a father for Xiaozhu, but also to choose a partner for himself.And he often strips himself out and forgets himself.

He shouldn't make the same mistakes again.

"I'll call a substitute driver for you." Lian Ming stretched out his hand and pressed the other person's shoulder.

Stepping on the moonlight to go home, it was already past ten o'clock in the evening.The living room was empty and lonely, and the clock on the wall was ticking, repeating the inherent pace.

Putting down the briefcase, pulling off the tie deftly with one hand, and moving to the room with tired steps, he was startled by the figure sitting on the ground.

"Xiang Jie?!" He supported the wall and recognized that the guy sitting on the ground was Xiang Jie. "What are you doing sitting here?"

When the sculpture on the ground heard the sound, it moved slightly, as if it had just come to life.

He Yaning was facing the moonlight, and Xiang Jie could see him clearly.The whole person is still so slender, and he can almost hold the other person in the palm of his hand by raising one hand.

Of course Xiang Jie didn't want to do that.He moved his stiff fingers and threw the two pages of paper in front of He Yaning.

He Yaning was taken aback.

He subconsciously reached out to catch the two pieces of paper, and in the darkness, he could clearly read the words on them.

"Diagnostic certificate."

It belongs to Xiaozhu.

"You..." He Yaning faltered for a long time, but couldn't tell why.

"The electric mosquito repellent liquid at home is used up, I remember you seem to have it here." Xiang Jie said dryly, "I'm sorry for breaking into your room."

"..." He was so indifferent and unfamiliar, he didn't look like Xiang Jie at all.

"Aren't you going to explain it to me?" Xiang Jie raised his head, his eyes were shining with the moonlight behind his back, "I really don't understand why you still keep such a big... such a big thing from me .”

A medical certificate, a few thin pages.

The content couldn't be more familiar, it was almost content that He Yaning could memorize with his eyes closed.He swallowed carefully, watching Xiang Jie spread the pieces of paper on the coffee table.He deliberately avoided his eyes and didn't meet Xiang Jie's eyes.

"Kornaud Syndrome," it said in black and white, "is more common in differentiated children."

He Yaning lowered his head and rubbed his fingers unconsciously.

This is an extremely rare condition, occurring in about one or two cases in [-] people.Affected children develop pseudosexuality during the differentiation period.For example, it exhibits alpha sexual characteristics during differentiation, but after the differentiation period passes, it becomes an omega in the end.

The pseudo-gender will disappear after one or two years of differentiation and return to the real gender.

This is nothing less than a serious blow to children with ambiguous gender consciousness.

Xiang Jie pushed the mobile phone in front of He Yaning. It was full of explanations about Kornaud syndrome, "mostly caused by genetics", "lack of alpha pheromone guidance"...

Dazzled.

He Yaning closed his eyes at once.

"Tell me," Xiang Jie sniffed, with a strong nasal voice already in his words, "Say what you want to say."

The fundus of the eyes was a little sour, "Gada" moved his fingers, the little alcohol he had just ingested played a role, and the soaked past turned pale was taken out to dry, dripping dripping.

"Two years ago, Xiao Zhu was diagnosed with this disease during a physical examination." He Yaning lowered his voice, as if squeezing toothpaste, and confided every word, "Children with this disease will usually differentiate into pseudo-alpha in the end. "

...That is to say, after the differentiation period is over, they will usher in the identity of omega.

Xu Yingyue also chose to divorce him because of this.

No, not only that.It was because He Yaning lied to the other party from the beginning to the end.

The condition is more common in genetics.

Twenty years ago, after experiencing a nightmare of pseudosexual degeneration, He Yaning had to accept the cruel truth.

He is an omega.

No matter how good he is, no matter how good he is, he is nothing more than an omega.

He is ashamed of it.He changed schools and started his life again as an omega, but he never mentioned it.At that time, he didn't even know that it was a rare genetic disease, so he kept silent about this past from the time he met Xu Yingyue until he got married and had children.

It was not until Xiaozhu was found to have abnormal pheromone secretion during the physical examination that this old incident was involved.

Lian Ming said that Xu Yingyue lacked responsibility, which was his responsibility.But the source of the fault lies with He Yaning. How can others bear the fault caused by his selfishness?

"Xu Yingyue divorced me because I lied to him. He couldn't accept a defective child for a while. We quarreled for a long time and finally decided to break up."

He Yaning raised his head, his eyes were moist, "And I also used you... I'm sorry."

One hand pinched the tiger's mouth fiercely, and Xiang Jie frowned due to the dull pain.

The man in front of him was sad, ridiculous, and pitiful.

He planned everything meticulously, but nothing could satisfy him.Seemingly shrewd, but actually confused.

The well-dressed He Yaning, the complacent He Yaning, and the unattainable He Yaning are all illusions of nothingness.He's the failed father, the confused lover, the struggling adult, scarred.

He Yaning was apologizing to him.

"I'm sorry," he said.

"...Are you so tired?" After a while, Xiang Jie was the first to laugh.He Yaning raised his head in surprise, as if the person sitting in front of him was a stranger.