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"Are you so tired?" Xiang Jie laughed.The laughter was sharp, piercing the silent air.He Yaning opened his mouth and stood still.

It seemed that there was a problem with his hearing, or he couldn't figure out what the other party meant at all.

"I just want to ask you, are you tired?" Xiang Jie grabbed his knee with one hand, leaned forward slightly, and looked at him, "Xiaozhu's condition is not your fault. Why do you have to carry it by yourself?"

He Yaning lowered his head, a strand of hair hanging down his cheek, half of his face was hidden in the darkness, making it difficult to see his expression clearly.

"I know you hired me for some other purpose." Xiang Jie breathed out and smiled, "But I didn't expect it to be because of this. However, this is much better than what I imagined."

Meeting He Yaning's eyes, he smiled brightly, "I thought you... fell in love with my color."

He Yaning laughed dumbfounded.

Of course, there is also a point.Xiang Jie's guess was not completely wrong.

"I like Xiaozhu very much. If my existence can help her, I will be happy." Xiang Jie hugged a pillow in his arms, and when he spoke, he always wanted to grab something, "Even if... You really have no feelings for me."

Xiang Jie stopped, he couldn't continue now.He finally saw clearly the contents of the mass of emotions that were stuck in his chest.

He doesn't mind Xiaozhu's illness, and probably can accept a few more opponents calmly.The most frightening thing is that when he finally made up his mind to risk his life for this person, he realized that there was never any place for him in the other person's heart.

He said he didn't care, but Xiang Jie knew that he cared a lot.

He felt panic for a moment, he was afraid that He Yaning would really let him go without hesitation.

He Yaning opened his mouth, but Xiang Jie raised his hands to cover his ears first, "If you want to break up with me, I won't listen."

Another child's speech.He Yaning raised the corners of his mouth helplessly, "What qualifications do I have to break up with you?"

Xiang Jieben blinked and understood He Yaning's lips.

"I'm not worthy." He Yaning's eyes were full of starlight, and Xiang Jie's youthful face was still reflected in that starlight, "I don't deserve to delay your youth."

Xiang Jie didn't know how to answer.

Of course he wanted to speak out to refute, but he was clumsy and tongue-tied, so how could he speak up against He Yaning, who had been working in the legal profession for many years.So I thought about it, picked and picked in the sea of ​​words, and only choked out one sentence, "Don't talk nonsense".

He Yaning raised the corners of his mouth, showing a hasty and desolate smile.The mess of life has piled up so far. Right now, he really needs some time and space to settle things one by one.

"Give each other some time." He seemed to take a long breath and finally let go of his heart. "I need to take care of my affairs, and you also... plan your own life."

''I..." Xiang Jie wondered, shouldn't he be with He Yaning at this time? But then he remembered a sentence he seemed to have heard somewhere. "Don't look at him as weak, in fact, he is stronger than anyone else. "

It took a long time to think about where the words came from.Until he found out to his chagrin that Xu Yingyue had told him that.

So a little discouraged.

In the end, Xiang Jie himself didn't know whether it was a breakup between them or not.They talked for a long time that night, and the conversation was peaceful.

He Yaning talked a little bit about his recent situation, and Xiang Jie found that it was the first time they had been together for so long, hearing He Yaning talk about him at such a length.

He Yaning said that he can continue to live here, as long as Xiang Jie is willing, they can still live under the same roof.But Xiang Jie still decided to go out and live for a while.

And now.

He Yaning hesitated to stay, but he refused.It seems that if you stay for a while, you will regret it.

Xiang Jie seemed to be under a gu, and He Yaning was afraid of disturbing Xiao Zhu, so he didn't dare to raise his voice.

In the end, he had to follow his wishes.

He Yaning needs space, and so does he.Xiang Jie didn't feel too sad when he went out for a short time to pack his things.

"Can I come back to see you?" Before leaving, Xiang Jie leaned against the door with a smile and asked.

"Anytime." He Yaning's shirt collar was pulled a little low, and with a casual glance, he could see the white skin on his chest and the delicate collarbone.

"That's good." Xiang Jie was relieved.He reached out to touch He Yaning's face, but his fingertips only outlined the outline of nothingness near his cheek.

"Remember to miss me." He smiled, and didn't care about He Yaning's answer, walked to the corridor, reached out and pressed the elevator, "Go back."

He Yaning stood at the door, neither approaching nor retreating.Until the elevator closed the door little by little, completely isolating him from him.

The number of elevators dropped step by step, and the smile on Xiang Jie's face collapsed little by little, like a violent storm that shattered the sand castle by the sea.

The eyes became blurred, and even the stars turned into a crumbling hazy yellow.He lowered his head, and a drop of water slapped on the shoe.

He cried.

Xiang Jie often cries.When I was a child, I was often scolded by my father for this.But some habits can never be changed.For example, Xiang Tao's flowers and his tears.

Stretching out his hand to press his chest, the feeling of soreness and swelling was blocked in his heart, as if the cotton wool was full of water.It suddenly swelled up, jamming every gap in the heart.Standing on the crowded street, Xiang Jie took a deep breath.

The vehicles on the street came and went. He lingered for a long time, and a car slowly passed by him, but Xiang Jie didn't notice them, and those vehicles left in disappointment.

There are not many necessary things.Dragging his suitcase, Xiang Jie checked into a cheap hotel.The broadcast hadn't started for a long time, he logged into the live broadcast room, and there was no one there.

Xiang Jie smiled.There are too many waste things.From studies to love.From interest to the rest of my life.Nothing has been accomplished now, needless to say, Xiang Jie knows his failure.

"I'm Xiaoxiang."

Stumbling into the hot room, his palms slapped on the rough wall, and the tragic incandescent lamp poured down, making his face turn pale.

He left his luggage in the corner and took a hasty shower.

Then hold the phone and look for a good angle of light.

"Today is my second job loss and lovelorn."

For some reason, Xiang Jie always felt that the live broadcast room was a particularly pure existence for him.It's like a small garden outside the barren daily life, where there will always be unique scenery, which makes him excited and lingering.

Even if no one applauds, it is good to satisfy his desire to confide.

"I'm now—" He held up his mobile phone, allowing the non-existent audience to see the appearance of the room clearly, "I'm in a small hotel right now, and I'm in a bad mood today, so I came up to talk."

nobody.No one is better.

He can say whatever he wants.Talk about his work, his lover, and those annoying things that will never be involved.

Xiang Jie didn't drink, but his mind was as dull as if he was drunk.He took out the bubble drink bought from the convenience store downstairs from the plastic bag on the coffee table, and before opening the can, he made gestures in front of the camera to let the non-existent audience see the taste clearly.

Citrus flavor, it tastes like he kissed He Yaning.Tears poured out from Xiang Jie, he put down the jar, raised his arm, and wiped his face hard with the back of his hand.

That night the live broadcast spoke to Jie for a long time.Even sang for a while.No one came to the live broadcast room.Maybe it's because it's a working day, maybe it's because it's too late.

"I'm going to start again now." Xiang Jie said with his chin in one hand, his eyes blurred, "but I don't know where to start again."

This is very lonely to say.He also knows that he owes too much to the relatives and friends around him, and he doesn't have the guts to disturb them rashly.

"Anyway, I'm going to look for a job tomorrow, and I still want to develop in Haishi for a while." After a glass of sparkling drink, Xiang Jie was already slightly drunk, and he smiled at the screen, "Let's stop here today..."

He pressed Exit, and for a vague moment, he seemed to see the number of people change to 1.

Did anyone come here just now?

He was a little surprised.

But it doesn't matter if anyone is there.Even if someone watched his distraught ugly appearance, there would be no loss.

Xiang Jie charged his phone and set a time.The school notice hasn't been issued yet, so he has to go to work as usual.As for the new job...he thought vaguely before going to bed that he had to seriously prepare his resume.

"Miss Jia, you haven't gone back yet?"

Hearing this, the woman pulled her gaze from the phone.Under the thick eye makeup are faint dark circles.She smiled at her colleague, "In a while."

He stuck out his tongue again, as if a little embarrassed, "For some reason, when I looked at the phone, I got a little stuck."

The colleague laughed, "Sister Jia is still a girl with internet addiction."

The woman known as Jiajie smiled and pointed at the other party, then glanced at the darkened phone interface, rolled her eyes, "Help me check someone when you have time."

A colleague with a ponytail came over and read out the above information word by word.

"Student Xiao Xiang..." He paused, his tone hesitant, "Are you looking for him?"

"Well," Sister Jia lowered her head and began to remove her makeup. A pair of ancient eyes were reflected in the makeup mirror, "Look for him. I want to see his information at the latest in the morning of the day after tomorrow."

"...Of course, the sooner the better."