letter of commitment

Shen Qingshu felt that everything was over, so he quickly changed into clean clothes and chased him out.

"Grandma, did you see Mu Chu?!"

Shen Qingshu's pale face was anxious, she was not outside, nor in Li's house, where would she go?

"Didn't Chu girl come to look for you?" Mrs. Li saw that Shen Qingshu's expression was wrong, and she was about to leave, so she stopped her.

"But what happened!?"

Shen Qingshu was in a bit of a dilemma, and Mrs. Li realized that it was not a trivial matter:

"Miss He went to decoct the medicine for me, so I came to your room and said."

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"I still think what's going on, I'm making you anxious." Mrs. Li didn't react much, but Shen Qingshu made a big fuss in comparison.

"Grandma, this matter is not trivial, I have to find Mu Chu and explain it to her."

Although I just brought her to get familiar with the village today, there are many places she is not familiar with, and I am afraid that she will go to the mountains, where wild beasts often appear, and it will be very dangerous for her to be alone.

"What about after you make it clear? What are you going to do?"

Shen Qingshu was stopped by Mrs. Li's words, yes, after she made it clear, Shen Qingshu didn't dare to think about it, and she didn't expect to be exposed in this way.

"I, I don't know. But she must be found." As he said that, he was about to go out.

"Stop!" Mrs. Li stopped Shen Qingshu, Shen Qingshu was very puzzled, and even begged: "Grandma!"

"Where are you going to look for it? Chu girl just wants to hide, can you find it?"

Shen Qingshu clenched his fists, trying to contain his emotions: "Something will happen to her..."

Shen Qingshu couldn't help but think of Mu Chu's performance during the period when the Mu Mansion was destroyed. She finally walked out, how could he let her suffer another blow?He clearly promised Ling Luoqian that he would take good care of her... Shen Qingshu only knew that he was very worried about her safety, and that nothing happened to her!

"If you go to her now, you are forcing her. What she needs now is a calm space, not you appearing in front of her."

Mrs. Li remained calm from beginning to end, and she also knew that Shen Qingshu's worry was not unreasonable, but at this moment, worrying is the most useless.

Shen Qingshu let go of his fist, feeling helpless like never before.

"Grandma... what should I do, what should I do..."

In a trance, Mrs. Li saw the tears in Shen Qingshu's eyes...

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Mu Chu's mood is difficult to calm down, she feels that she is a joke.Did, said, all.

What's even more pathetic is her own stupidity, which should have been thought of long ago, whether it was in her usual behavior, or at the inn that night, or herself.

As long as you are careful enough, you can find the difference between her and ordinary men.

Her eyebrows, her posture... Mu Chu shook his head, trying to get everything about Shen Qingshu out of his mind, but more and more memories came to his mind, making Mu Chu almost suffocate.

Because she is a woman, she refuses, and because she is a woman, she contacts her subconsciously...

Sitting on the ridge of the field, the people watching the field work began to pack up their farm tools and go back.

Ah... When Mu Chu raised his head, he realized that the sun had already set, and he had stayed here for so long. Mu Chu curled up and buried his head in his knees.

Let's go, let's go, it's just me.

"Woo..." Mu Chu raised his head and wiped away the remaining tears from the corners of his eyes, forced a smile on his face and asked himself:

"Muchu, does your liking go so far? Then it's no wonder that Mr. doesn't like you anymore."

After thinking for a long time, Mu Chu eased his sobs, and didn't care if the makeup on his face was already spent, whether he was embarrassed or not.

She got up and patted on her dress, adjusted her condition and decided to go back to Shen's house.

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Seeing that the sun had already set, Shen Qingshu paced back and forth anxiously before Mu Chu came back, and kept looking outside the door.

"Grandma..."

"Sit down and don't walk around."

"No, mother, my younger brother Qingshu is right to be worried. It's this time, and if she hasn't come back, what if something happens to her as a little girl!?"

After Li Erzhu and the others came back, they were also anxious when they heard that Mu Chu had disappeared, but Mrs. Li never allowed them to look for him.

Here Xiaohe can't wait any longer:

"Miss doesn't know where she is now, and I don't know if she is safe or not. If Mrs. Li insists on not letting me find her, then I can only go and find Miss by myself!"

Xiao He was furious, but just as she stepped out the door, she saw a figure approaching from a distance.

Even though she couldn't see his face clearly, she knew it must be Mu Chu, so she turned her anger into joy and ran over.

When she got closer, she saw that the exquisite makeup that she had put on for Mu Chu had faded away, and her well-combed hair was messed up.

Looking at the reddish eyes in her eyes, Xiao He felt her nose sore, hugged her and started crying.

"Miss, where have you been... Ugh, what will I do if something happens to you..."

Seeing Xiao He like this, Mu Chu stroked her back expressionlessly: "I'm fine."

Xu Shi heard Xiao He's cry outside, and the people in the house poked their heads out again and again, and when they saw the people clearly, they all turned their sorrows into joy.

Shen Qingshu was an exception, she should have been happy.But when she saw Mu Chu, she was timid, and she didn't know how to face her.

Li Erzhu and Mrs. Li welcomed them in, but Shen Qingshu had fled back to his room.

Glancing around the room, Mu Chu didn't find the person he wanted to meet.

I expressed my apologies to everyone for suppressing the emotions that were about to rise again.Fortunately, everyone thinks that it is good for people to be fine, but this should not happen again.

Look at what they said is almost the same.

Mrs. Li felt that it was time to go out on her own.

"Chu girl, come to my room."

Mu Chu was a little hesitant, and Granny must have known about it.

Mrs. Li seemed to be able to see through her thoughts, and sighed: "Come here when you think about it." She said that she entered her room with a cane, but she also ordered not to come if there is anything during the period, except for Mu Chu. bother yourself.

Mu Chu was hesitant, thinking about it, and decided to see what Grandma said first.

"Grandma."

"Come, come to me." Mrs. Li said in a friendly tone, and patted the side of the bed.

"No need, grandma should tell you what you want to say."

Mrs. Li, who was rejected, didn't feel embarrassed, but smiled.

"You knew already?"

"Ah."

"You feel that we deliberately concealed you, and that you have been deceived, and you feel very uncomfortable?"

"Ah."

Mrs. Li asked a series of questions, and Mu Chu's answer was only in response, without too many answers.

"Chu girl, I know that you find it difficult to accept, but I will ask you a few more digressions, okay?"

Mu Chu nodded.

"Do you like small books?" Although it was a questioning tone, Mrs. Li had already finalized the answer in her heart.As expected, Mu Chu nodded.

"But you hate her for hiding it from you now."

"Ah."

"Do you hate her?"

Hate sir?At the same time, Mu Chu also asked himself.Seeing that Mu Chu hadn't answered, Mrs. Li changed the way of asking: "Do you still like her?"

Mu Chu nodded decisively, even faster than the previous few times.

Mrs. Li frowned and said to Mu Chu: "Let's talk to Xiaoshu, she is very worried about you."

Mu Chu opened his eyes wide in disbelief and met Mrs. Li's smiling and kind eyebrows.

"Grandma..."

"Ok?"

"Women, can I also like women..." Mu Chu's voice was very weak. On the way back, Mu Chu had been thinking about this question all the time. She needed someone to answer her so that she would stop hesitating.

"Chu girl, I can't tell you that, but if you both come from the heart and want to stay with each other, then there is nothing that is impossible."

"But... only me..." I was the only one with this feeling.

Mrs. Li shook her head, but she didn't say it clearly. Some people have feelings but don't know it.

"Go, boy, go to her. Explain it all."

Mu Chu saw the affirmation in Mrs. Li's eyes, and understood that he should not hesitate. She is a woman and a husband, He Wei?

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When Mu Chu knocked on the door of Shen Qing's study, Shen Qingshu opened the door after a while. Her nose was red, and there were still a few teardrops hanging from her eyelashes.

Mu Chu's heart skipped a beat, did Mr. cry?

"Mu, Mu Chu..." Shen Qingshu lowered his head and opened his mouth for a long time, and Mu Chu also felt her dodging intentionally.

"Can I go in?"

Shen Qingshu raised his head abruptly, meeting Mu Chu's cold face.There was an inexplicable tug in my heart, and I lowered my voice again, with a trembling voice: "Come in, come in."

Shen Qingshu poured tea for Mu Chu, but he never raised his head to look at her, and kept sitting opposite her with his head shrugged.

"Sir, I want to talk to you."

Without waiting for Shen Qingshu to express his opinion, Mu Chu went on to say: "Why do you want to dress up as a man?"

"I..." Shen Qingshu raised his head vigorously, and met Mu Chu's eyes eager to learn.

"Tell me everything about you, everything about you." Tell me everything that Grandma has said and what Grandma has not said, from your mouth.

"It all started when I was still in the womb..."

Shen Qingshu hesitated for a moment, but decided to tell Mu Chu everything about himself, but at the end of the story, Shen Qingshu put his hands on his head, almost going crazy: "I don't want to, I don't want to be like this..."

I didn't want to do this, but I had no choice at all. Over the years, every day has been a torment, especially when I get along with other people, I always have to be careful and pretend.

Every day I have to live in fear of what will happen if my identity is revealed.

Shen Qingshu felt that she was very tired, she shouldn't bear these burdens, but now, she couldn't get rid of it.

Mu Chu could feel the pain emanating from Shen Qingshu, and instead of sitting still, he held Shen Qingshu's hand across the table.

"Sir, look at me." Mu Chu's tone was extremely gentle, gently brushing over the tip of Shen Qingshu's heart, soothing her restlessness.

"Sir, you are amazing. You have carried everything alone. If you persist until now, your family will be proud of you. And I will follow your example. I will accompany you on the next road. You will no longer was alone."

With the sincerity of what Mu Chu said, Shen Qingshu's mood gradually calmed down, and she felt very warm in her heart.

"Sir, I like you..."

This time, before Mu Chu finished speaking, Shen Qingshu lost control of his emotions again, opened Mu Chu's hand, and stood up suddenly.

"No, you know I'm a woman, so how can you say that!"

Although Mu Chu had already expected this result, but hearing her say it personally, it was inevitable that she would be hurt. However, she did not intend to just give up this time.

If you compromise just because you refuse, isn't your love too childish?

"I also thought about it, my husband is actually a woman, so I shouldn't have feelings for him, but I found that they settled down in my heart like a scourge, and I can't drive them away... Let me ask you, sir, what is really in my heart? Don't you have a place for Mu Chu?" Mu Chu tried his best to suppress the tears in his eyes, but his voice was already choked up.

Shen Qingshu didn't know how to respond to Mu Chu's words, her face turned red for a while, then turned pale for a while, looking at Mu Chu's wet eyes, there were trust, respect, pleading, tenderness, and admiration that made her whole body tremble slightly, she was very happy. Afraid, she was afraid of Mu Chu's feelings.

Covering her eyes with trembling hands, she could no longer look into her eyes.She was afraid that she would fall.

She loves Mu Chu, when did she realize it?When Mu Chu left, and during the time when he couldn't find her, Shen Qingshu only felt that every second he spent was as long as spring, summer, autumn and winter.Knowing his emotions, he couldn't face her, so he could only hide in his room and let the tears flow down.

At that moment, strong emotions pressed down on Shen Qingshu like Mount Tai, making her hands and feet numb, her blood coagulated, and her heart was about to suffocate.

It was as if a sharp knife had pierced into her heart, and her internal organs were shattered, making her unable to say anything.Only then did she know that she was the one who didn't know her feelings.

But she can't show it, such feelings are against Chang Lun, they will be cast aside by the world, they shouldn't have it!