Youth boy〖comic fanboy〗

"It all depends on the individual's will. As long as you have that kind of heart, no matter where you are, it's not the same!"

"Whatever a child wants, he must tell his parents!"

***

If there is an ideal picture book of a mother in the world, then it must be based on Zhao's mother - not only to raise three children, but even have enough energy - I who take care of the children next door (plus Ping next door grandpa and grandma).

I never expect myself - mothers who are already very busy at work do things like ordinary housewives.Because it was cruel to expect her to do these things.

There is also my father. Before the age of seven, my father and mother were always by my side even though they were busy. After the age of eight, it was my father and me. But from the age of 11 to this year, when I am 15 years old, I am the only one left in the family. up.

Thinking about it now, it has been two years since that incident happened... I don’t know if I was in a period of rebellion at that time, or did I have a habit of going out and wandering?

But the only certainty is that I didn't really want to run away from home at that time.

＊＊＊Time dividing line

midsummer.

Two years ago, I was taller than an ordinary countryman. I wore simple white short-sleeves and my father’s jeans from the closet when I was young. I combed my hair up and then used hair oil. After fixing it, I was only 13 years old when I stood in front of the mirror, and my appearance was no different from that of an ordinary high school student.

At that time, I often ran out to play because I couldn't bear the excitement next door.There's no way, who called A Ping always goes to bed before nine o'clock in the evening, and I'm embarrassed to stay in other people's homes all the time.Thinking about it now, maybe what made me unbearable at that time was the fact that I was the only one in that empty big room.For this reason, in order to use up the rest of my strength during the day, I had to go out at night.

The place I arrived at after going out, I also named it the old place.There are countless men and women like me who don't know the details and look very lonely.

Because of the advantages of appearance, I was very famous there.

As soon as I step in there, the girls will immediately notice my arrival.

Then--

'Thousands of miles! '

'Are you here now? ! '

'It's been a long time! '

'If Wanli is not here, how boring! '

People I know, people who have met once or twice, regardless of gender, will surround me in the middle and greet me like this.

And I enjoyed the excitement, and replied politely with a smile, 'Huh?I just came here yesterday! '

After Huo Han Wen Nuan finished, the girls would go aside to whisper something, while the boys would hand me a cigarette, ask me what I was playing recently, and would I like some wine.

Most of the time, I would smile and say that there is nothing interesting recently, and then ask him what he has been playing recently.

At this time, they will invite me to play some fun they have recently discovered-such as playing pool.

I've never played pool or something, but I thought I'd give it a try.And so the game began.

After the girls discovered the situation here, they gathered around to see the situation.

The person who sparred with me seemed to enjoy this kind of onlooker. After hearing the person who brought me say that I had never played before, he smiled and said that he would give me good advice.

But it turned out that I won, and it was easy.

"Why do you know how to play just after listening to someone say it?" The man looked at me and said.

"Probably because I'm a genius." I replied with a smile.

"Stop bluffing! You must have played it before! Bastard! Don't try to lie to me!"

The man got angry all of a sudden, and I was a little timid, but I still explained with a smile on my face, "I really haven't played before."

"Ghosts will believe you!" The man immediately abducted my hand behind my back, and then pressed my whole body onto the table.

Then the girls started to cheer:

"Haha! Come on!"

"Come on! Wanli!"

I felt bad in my heart, and wondered if I should just admit that I lied. I did have a better time in the past——

"Huh? Fortunately, what's the matter with him? Dejected?" The man pressing me said suddenly.

"Ah, he, I heard that his mother finally decided to divorce his father, and they haven't been together for a long time." A person over there replied from a distance.

"In this way—" the person who was pressing me finally let go of me, and walked towards the person who was said to be dejected, "then there is no need to be depressed because of this, your parents, they are them! Do you know! What a blessing! Get up!"

saved!I rubbed my wrists on the spot, feeling a little grateful to the person named Zhenxing.

For this reason, I also went over there to see the situation.

"At the end of the day, who am I!"

As soon as I got there, I heard Makoto shouting:

"All of a sudden they said that they would not get a divorce because of me, and that it was all because of me, which prevented them from being free... What they meant was that I was actually superfluous, and they didn't need me at all! Then why did they put I was born!"

Hearing these few words, I realized something in my heart.

These people here, men and women, are all students from nearby schools, and some of them are even younger than me.

Although my reasons for coming here are slightly different from theirs, my final choice is indeed the same as theirs, which is to escape.

When I think of this, I am really lucky that the people around me are still persuading me:

"Don't be stupid! You don't have to think about it! You don't care what they do, anyway, you just need to get money from them!"

"That's right! Just take the money! As children, when we meet such parents, we can only take revenge on them in this way!"

——Yes, such parents are indeed everywhere nowadays.And the people gathered here are either regarded as a burden by their parents at home, or they themselves regard their parents who control them as a thorn in their side.

And I, although I never thought about hating my parents, I was still so uneasy.

After spending this hilariously unreal time laughing and joking, it's time to go home.

And when I returned home from the old place, I still couldn't get rid of the psychological boredom.

"I'm back!" I turned on the light and said standing in the porch.

It's still an empty home, it feels like a strange place to live, and I am tired of it.

Is it 22:22 or [-]:[-] now?

Now the next door at this point is still lively like Chinese New Year——

"It's disgusting! Stop it! Xiaocheng, let go! My clothes! Big brother, save me!" Ping's voice.

"Grow up! You have to learn to be independent!" He Ge's voice.

"You two children, stop making trouble in the room!" Zhao's mother said.

I stood by the microwave oven for supper heating, and listened indifferently to the voice next door.

With a sound of "ding--", the food is ready to be heated.

I went to the living room with my supper in hand, turned on the TV, tuned to the channel that played 'Rakugo', listened to those jokes that might or might not be funny, and laughed exaggeratedly, covering my stomach, "Yeah, hahahaha !"

I tossed like this until the sound from the next door could no longer be heard, and only when I was breathing alone, I began to close my eyes.

But it's just closing my eyes. As for when I fell asleep, I don't know.

But before I really fell asleep, I would say "Aijano, good night" to a red cat on the coffee table.

***

The name Aijuno is the name of a little golden mouse that my father gave me when I was less than 5 years old, and I got it for it.

At that time, Aijano's arrival made me very happy, because after the age of three, although my mother was still at home, she had already started to travel all the time, so I would feel a little lonely.The arrival of Aijano filled my blank time.I like Heping very much. Every day on the way from school, I will pick up a lot of fruits like rice and crushed corn when passing the field.Aijie Nuo liked those fruits very much, but I didn’t expect that it was because of those fruits that Ai Jie Nuo died—some of the fruits rolled out from the steep slope in the yard when I poured them out of the bag, Ai Jie In order to recover those fruits, Nuo got out through the gap in the fence of the yard. When I went around the yard and chased out through the gate, Aijanuo had already been knocked down by a car.

After Aijano died, I cried and swore in my heart that I would never keep small animals again.But for the sake of nostalgia, I gave the cat sculpture that Aijienuo liked to climb the most during his lifetime and gave it the same name as Aijienuo.

***

I had no dreams all night, and the first thing I did when I got home from school the next day was to go to the next door to find peace.

Half a year has passed since Pingguo and Pingguo were separated into classes in the next semester.We all made new friends, and we rarely had a chance to talk at school, except about old classmates, or super funny things.Therefore, if I want to talk to him, I can only go to his house.

"Excuse me, Uncle, is Aping at home?" I called from the porch of Aping's house.

"Ah Ping was taken out by his mother to go shopping! Because his clothes were torn by Xiaocheng yesterday!" Ping's father replied with a smile, and asked me as he pushed a strangely shaped spectacles on the bridge of his nose, "Hey! Wanli, do you want to stay and try my new software? It's the latest!"

Ping's father is a programmer, and he is a nerd, shutting himself in the computer room most of the time.

Hearing this, I was about to politely refuse, but at this moment Brother He rushed out of his room——

"Wanli! Ah! Why aren't you a woman! Why?!"

"Ahe, don't make a lifelong mistake!" Ping's father hurriedly hugged He's upper body to prevent him from approaching me.

"Well, Uncle, I remembered that I had to leave beforehand!" I laughed and said haha, then quickly ran out of the yard.

I didn't breathe a sigh of relief until I couldn't hear Brother He's mournful wail.

Alas, everything is the fault of Zhao's mother and my mother after getting married and having children.Their habit of dressing children in all sorts of puppet costumes still terrifies me when I think about them.

＊＊＊About Hege memory dividing line

At that time, I was three years old, and Brother He was five years old.

According to what Brother He said now, the 3-year-old Ping and the 2-year-old Xiaocheng were like demons. Once Zhao's mother was not at home, they would make a mess of the house, and they would always fight back and forth. When the trouble is fierce, they will cry together.Brother He, who is five years old, has to make some simple food for them to make them happy at this time.And at this time, I came to the door, grabbed food with them, and joined in destroying the home furnishings after eating, and I was the third demon in Brother He's heart.

And at this moment, Brother He met the angel in his life—that is, me who was forced by my mother to wear a foreign dress and a wig.

Because in Japanese, Wanli means Mary, so the mother coaxed the five-year-old Kazuko:

"At this moment, our family's Mary is Wan Li's twin sister!"

Because of the above words, poor Kazuo fell into unrequited love for six years——

"It was a fateful encounter that made my young heart cross that horizon and knock on a closed heart.

The first time I saw Mary, who suddenly protruded half of her body like a doll from behind the door, my heart started to burn at that moment. She was only three years old, and she was already a perfect lady in my heart up.Can't believe she's the same age as her demon brother Wan Li.

Ah, I've decided, when Mary grows up, I'm going to marry her! 』

The mother who caused all this suddenly felt guilty after seeing her infatuated love with her brother for several years, so she told her brother the truth.But Brother He couldn't listen to it at all at that time. He deeply believed that there was such a girl named Mary in this world.This kind of belief lasted until He Ge was in the second year of elementary school, and when I was in primary five, he saw my naked body, and it was shattered.

After that, I felt a little sorry in my heart, and kept avoiding Kazu-hyung who would go crazy whenever he saw me.

＊＊＊Memory is over

Now that I am 13 years old, I still seem to still be a third of a woman in the eyes of Brother Kazu.

I don't quite understand this statement, maybe it's because of my slender figure?

Sometimes I often feel that if I were really a woman, maybe the current situation would really be better.In that case, will my mother spend more time with me because she is worried that I will be alone at home in my daughter's house?

Forget it, don’t think about it if you don’t understand it.

I looked at the sun, it seems that it's not even 6 o'clock at this time, right?At this time, even if you go to the old place, there probably isn't half of the people there.It's so boring, what should I do?

I kicked a stone casually, thought for a long time, and suddenly thought of a place in my memory, nodded, so I made up my mind to walk towards the place in my memory——

Walking, walking, when I regain my senses——

"Where is this place? It should be at this station?" I looked around a little at a loss, "It seems that my thinking was too simple. I thought that I would know the way when I arrived at the station, but it turned out that I didn't know the way at all. Remember."

Animals or fish have their own reasons to return to their nests, but I—

"Ah, when you can't figure it out, let God decide." I took out a coin from my pocket and threw it into the sky.

There was a bang, and there was the sound of a coin hitting something.

"OK! Let's go that way!" I encouraged myself, and then started to head in one direction.

It always seemed to be like this, when he was with Aping, the coin was just an ordinary coin, because Aping, he would always rely on himself first before resigning himself to fate, if it was him, he would have the ability to go home by instinct.But a coin is also very useful when I am alone.

Just tossing coins all the way, I reached a beach.

The sky here is extraordinarily blue, and the wind is so comfortable.

"By the way, this seems to be a coastal city."

Talking to myself, I kept walking along the beach.

What exactly is this place?Where is my former home?How far is it from here?

Huh - it's really comfortable!This feeling!No one knows me, I am the only one in the world, I am not-interference-interference, not being monitored.

However, it's a strange way to say it, really strange... I don't know if this feeling is called loneliness?

Just when I was about to fall into a situation of nothingness, a heavy pressure suddenly pressed on my body.

I didn't realize it was a big dog until a hot tongue licked my cheek.

at the same time--

"Baldo, what are you doing? Child, are you okay?" An uncle's voice sounded.