Husky and Sunflower

"Wow wow wow..." A frightened and powerless cry of a child rang in my ears.

I opened my eyes profusely with sweat, sat up with my head in my arms, my head was pounding like a bomb was stuffed, there were countless faces, and countless pairs of blood-red eyeballs dangling in front of my eyes .I beat my head hard, and the pain seemed to ease a little.

"Father..." A ball of meat quickly fell into my arms, and floated over softly with a crying voice.

I looked down at the child in my arms, then suddenly raised my head to look at where I was, my thoughts gradually returning to their original position.

I am lying in a simple room covered by thick curtains. On the walls are stickers of children’s literacy cards, yellow and dark walls with handprints, and a writing desk with mottled paint that has been used for many years. And the cupboard... This is my home, and the little meat ball in my arms is Zheng Neng, my son.

My name is Zheng Yiyang, I am a homeless person, I have no siblings or even cousins.My parents divorced more than ten years ago, and my mother brought me here.Not long ago, after my wife divorced me, I left a little chubby to find my own happiness, and my mother who had been taking care of me died of illness half a year ago.

This is Zheng Yiyang's life, which is also my life.

In the first 26 years, being lazy has become synonymous with me, and my fondness for daydreaming has become my only characteristic in the eyes of people around me.

Just now, I had a super long, almost endless daydream.I dreamed of my father whom I hadn’t seen for many years, dreamed that I had a rich and handsome brother, dreamed of the car I’ve always wanted to own, dreamed of many handsome men, and the love that was almost at hand…

I was almost intoxicated in such a dream and couldn't wake up.However, a dream is a dream, and no matter how long the dream is, it will wake up one day.

"Dad, Dad..." The little meat ball in his arms raised his face, staring at me with bright eyes.Then, he stretched out his chubby claws and tried to reach my face.

"Little fat, what's wrong?" I hugged his little body.

"Why are you crying?" Xiaopang asked.

"..." I wiped my face with one free hand and sniffled, "Dad is fine, Dad is happy to see you!"

Xiaopang struggled to get out of my arms, ran out of the bedroom all the way, then ran over with small steps, rushed towards me with half a steamed bun in his hand, "Dad, are you hungry?"

"I wanted to eat it at noon, but I thought you would be hungry when you woke up in the afternoon, so I didn't eat it, I wanted to keep it for you!" Xiaopang pouted and wiped his face a little aggrieved.

"You haven't woken up, you haven't woken up, I'm so scared! I want to go out to find Grandma Wang, but I can't open the door, no matter how I call you, you won't wake up... woo woo woo..."

As Xiaopang talked, tears rolled out, and then plunged into my arms again, "Dad, are you still angry with me to ignore me? I will never be angry with you again, never again Eat a lollipop!"

My throat was stuck, as uncomfortable as a fishbone stuck.I stood up from the bed, hugged Xiaopang in my arms, kissed his face, and asked, "Little Fatty, Daddy is not angry with you! How many days has Daddy been asleep?"

Xiaopang stretched out his little hand from my arms, pawed his little finger for a while, thought for a while and said, "I heard Grandpa Liu who sells breakfast downstairs shouted three times, no, it seems to be four times..."

"Father, I'm sorry!" My tears flowed down my face, and I slapped myself hard.

"Father will love you well in the future!"

Xiaopang obediently lay on my body, hugging my neck vigorously and being very obedient.

I thought, I really really am an incompetent dad.Now, I can understand the reason why Lin Lin is going to leave me.No woman would want to live with a man who only knows how to eat, be lazy, and daydream all day long.

Yes, it is Lin Lin.My ex-wife, Lin Lin.She is not a wealthy daughter, but an ordinary woman who was forced to leave her husband to pursue happiness.

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I live on the fifth floor of this building, and the electricity has been cut off by the grid because of arrears.The first thing I did when I woke up, I helped Xiaopang get dressed, went out to have a good dinner, and then paid the electricity bill.

In the afternoon, after the sun went down, the temperature in the air was slowly dropping, and the shady green trees on the side of the road almost covered half of the road.There was a comfortable smell in the air, not the heart-wrenching cold in the dream at all.

And the sadness in the dream, the angry, frustrated and painful eyes staring at me all the time, the pain that I can't let go of, the memory that I can't forget... just let it stay in the dream.

I'm just me, just Zheng Yiyang, just a person who is working hard for his son, for life, for daily necessities.From the beginning to the present to the future, I have been like this!

In the evening, after dinner, I took Xiaopang to the house.Xiaopang insisted not to be hugged by me, and took my hand to climb up step by step with his short legs. Although he was panting heavily, he could see his happiness and excitement.From time to time, he raised his little head to look at me, bent his eyes and grinned silly, then lowered his head and tried hard to climb upstairs.

"Why are you so happy?" I couldn't help asking.

Xiaopang lowered his head and said cautiously, "I'm afraid my father won't want me anymore, but if my father still wants me, I'm very happy!"

I have mixed feelings in my heart, and I feel that I am really a jerk.After lying down and sleeping like this for so many days, Xiaopang, a three-year-old baby, has been guarding me like this for the past few days. If I really just fell asleep like this and passed away... What should Xiaopang do?

"Ah... Isn't this Yangyang? When did you come back?" A woman's voice suddenly came from the corner of the stairs.I raised my head and squinted to see that it was Aunt Wang on the fourth floor.

"Hello, Grandma Wang!" Xiaopang called out sweetly, broke away from my hand, and threw himself on Aunt Wang.

Aunt Wang's chubby body almost failed to catch Xiaopang. She put down the things in her hands and hugged Xiaopang. What? I made a meal a few days ago and wanted you to eat it, but your house has been locked..."

"My father...", "I just came back today!" Xiaopang was about to speak, but I interrupted him immediately, "I had some business to go back to my hometown a few days ago, and I just came back today!"

"Oh, that's it!" Aunt Wang nodded, and she teased Xiaopang for a while, as if thinking of something, she suddenly said, "By the way, is your work settled? Don't blame Auntie for talking too much, you Now you’re not alone, even if you can’t eat much, what about your baby? It’s time to go to kindergarten, you can’t... Your uncle said yesterday that the hotel is recruiting, so go try it, I heard Food, housing, high wages, five social insurances and one housing fund...you are a serious college graduate, as long as you go to other people, they will definitely want you, besides..."

"Okay!" I agreed.

"..." Aunt Wang, who was still rambling on, stopped suddenly, looked at me as if she couldn't believe it, looked at me for two seconds, and then at Xiaopang, "You really think about it? Didn't you always... ..."

"Yeah!" I smiled at her, "I've made up my mind. I've wanted to go out and look for a job a long time ago. It's not a problem to stay at home all the time. I'll go to the talent market tomorrow. You can help me and talk to me later." Uncle inquire about it!"

"Alas!" Aunt Wang nodded repeatedly, fearing that I would change my mind if I slowed down.

"Then..." I waved at Xiaopang, then turned to look at Aunt Wang, "Let's go back first, Aunt Wang, if you have anything to do, just call me!"

"Okay, okay!" Aunt Wang turned her head and kissed Xiaopang reluctantly, then put the child down, and gave me another look with good eyes, "Bring the baby to my house to play when you have time, don't be shy, I will I just like this kid, he's really good!"

"Yeah! Fatty, say goodbye to grandma!" I carried Xiaopang and walked upstairs, telling me as I walked.

"Goodbye, Grandma Wang!" Fatty turned his head obediently and waved his paw.

"Goodbye baby, remember to come, grandma is ready to eat!"

"Thank you grandma!"

When I got back to the door of the house, I took out the keys from my pocket, and couldn't help looking up at the stairs on the sixth floor.The sixth floor is a rental room, and the tenants have never stopped one after another.

However, this has nothing to do with me.

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When I got home, I put the hot water on and gave Xiaopang a bath.After tidying up, Xiaopang obviously started to feel sleepy.I looked at the wall clock on the wall, it was nine o'clock in the evening.So he made the bed for Xiaopang, put him away, and tucked in the quilt. After a while, Xiaopang's even breathing sound came.

I turned off the light, went to the living room, and found a notebook from under the coffee table.Inside is an account book of my mother. From the time my mother was hospitalized to her death, the phone numbers and addresses of all the relatives who borrowed money are recorded on it.

You don't need a calculator to calculate, just glance at it and you will know how big a number it is.It is so big that the future life can almost be compared with the cycle of making money and paying off debts.I found a pencil and ticked off the names of the first few borrowers.

Starting tomorrow, return to reality, make money to support Xiaopang and pay off debts...

Zheng Tai, he is just a dream.He can only live in my dream forever, and after waking up from the dream, he is gone.In my life, there is no Zheng Tai, no uncle, no aunt, no Zou Huang, no Liu Jia, no husky, no big house, no car, not even a father... only Xiaopang.

Putting down the account book, I looked up tiredly, and my face was reflected in the mirror opposite the living room.It was still the same face in memory, thin and pointed chin, pale almost pale skin, messy hair that almost covered the eyes that hadn't been combed for many days... It looked like a person recovering from a serious illness.

Isn't it just recovering from a serious illness!To be able to sleep for so many days in a single sleep, and to have such a daydream, is it not a disease?

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Making money seems to be a strange and familiar word.For a person like me who doesn't work hard and doesn't distinguish between five grains, it's really similar to climbing to the sky.

After thinking about it all night, I got up early in the morning, rummaged through the box to find the phone, and looked at the communication records inside.The last call was Director Chen, the company warehouse supervisor who was working before. The last thing he said to me was that I was fired.

Scrolling up, in addition to some advertising calls, there is also a call, which was contacted a week ago.His surname is Liu, he is in his 30s, and he is a very shrewd and capable small businessman.

I thought for a while, then dialed his mobile phone number, and there was a sound of 'beep beep' being connected through the phone.Listening to such a voice, my heart is a little uneasy.

"Hey, brother, why is it you? You never call me, what's the matter today? Miss me, Lao Liu?" The man's usual hippie smile came from the phone and made fun of him.

The corners of my mouth curled up involuntarily, and I changed my ear to answer the phone, "Yes, I miss you! I want to ask you for a favor!"

"You're welcome! How much do you need? I'll turn around for you later!" Brother Liu agreed boldly.

"No, no!" I hurriedly waved my hands across the phone, "I want to ask if you have any way to make money!"

"It's not you..." Brother Liu said in disbelief, "You want to make money? Have you figured it out? Want to hang out with brother?"

I took a deep breath and nodded, "That's right!"

"Let's do this!" Brother Liu said after thinking for a few seconds, "I still have some goods to deal with today, let's do it tomorrow, come out tomorrow, let's make an appointment to have a good talk, I really can't make it clear in a few words on the phone !"

"Okay, thanks Brother Liu, see you tomorrow, I'll treat you then!" I patted my chest boldly and hung up the phone.

Brother Liu, whose real name is Liu Qiang, is a small peddler and a small businessman.Faji, a roadside hawker, although he is still doing the business of a small peddler, has indeed saved a lot of money. He bought a house, drove a car, married a wife and gave birth to a baby. Several major events in life have been completed two quarters.

In fact, I haven’t known him for a long time. The reason is that when I was in college, sometimes I would go out to eat supper with my roommate at night, and patronize his food stall from time to time.

To be honest, his business is doing well not because of how delicious his food is, but because he is very good at creating atmosphere, he is very good at coming, and his talk is quite interesting, and he often makes the diners laugh. .

Brother Liu has a wide range of businesses. Not only does he have his own food stall, but he also owns several nearby stalls selling clothes, jewelry and toys, and even a whole series of nearby book stalls.My acquaintance with him is actually quite simple. The most important thing is that I helped him see the stall.

He was busy buying goods, and sometimes he couldn't take care of the stalls. I happened to help him look for a while when I passed by, and the work fell on my shoulders a few times.It's not heavy work, and I have time, so I agreed.

I can't tell why he thought of letting me look after the stall for him, probably because he thinks that I'm a relatively honest person, and I don't have so many tricks, so I feel more at ease.

Before he knew that I was unemployed, and he was very enthusiastic to help me find a job.Regardless of what his intentions are, I don't think it was in vain to help him see so many stalls with his enthusiasm.

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After breakfast, I looked at the money left in my wallet and became more determined to find a job as soon as possible.Although I am a regular university graduate, I am studying an unpopular major.Instead of waiting like this, it is better to find a professional with fast money.Asking Brother Wang for help, most of them are going to set up a stall to sell things...

In the past, I couldn't hold back my face, but now I feel that my face is much thicker.What's the big deal?I have seen the prosperity of the small business market, as long as it can make money.

I helped Xiaopang get dressed, put a hat on him before going out, checked the key wallet, locked the door and left the house.Still waiting for the bus at the gate of the community, Xiaopang insisted on not being hugged by me, and insisted on walking by himself, even though he walked out of breath, he was still stubborn as hell.

The bus came, and when I squeezed Xiaopang onto the bus, Xiaopang finally let me hug him.I think that although I am not a woman or a pregnant woman or an elderly person, but because I still hold a three-year-old baby in my arms, someone gave up my seat, which made me extremely embarrassed.

My face changed a few times, and after a few pushbacks, I sat down unceremoniously, and smiled and nodded at the boy who gave up my seat.The handsome boy was very polite, and even touched Xiaopang's hat-wearing head, smiling.

"Thank you!" I said hastily.

"You're welcome!" The boy waved his hand indifferently.

Xiaopang climbed down from me, raised his head to look at the tall boy who gave up his seat, pouted and shouted in a cute voice, "Thank you, brother! You are so handsome!"

"Hahaha..." Everyone in the car started laughing.

The boy who gave up his seat seemed to be happier, smiling so much that he even narrowed his eyes.

The bus arrived a little earlier than I expected, and the chubby in my arms had fallen asleep half an hour ago, and I didn't even know when I got off the bus with him.

After getting out of the car, I went straight to Brother Liu's stronghold.Brother Liu's store is on the side of the university town. He opens the store during the day and goes to the night market at night, so that there is no delay during the day and night.When we arrived, it was almost noon, and the weather was just as hot as hell.From far away, Xiaopang began to cheer happily, "Uncle Liu, Uncle Liu!"

Brother Liu stood at the door like a door god. He was fierce at first and didn't know who he was angry with. When he saw Xiaopang, his rounded eyes instantly bent into a slit. He took two steps quickly and took it from my hand. Guo Xiaopang kissed him hard, "Oh, fat man, you're sinking again! Have you thought about Uncle?"

While talking, he took out a small toy from his pocket and put it in Xiaopang's hands, "Here, uncle gave it to you! Take it and play!"

Xiao Pang glanced back at me, seeing that I was not angry, he boldly took the toy and shook it a few times, "Thank you Uncle Liu! I thought about it..."

I walked in and wiped the sweat off my forehead, "Brother Liu, are you going out or something?"

"I was going to go out, but seeing you came, I stopped going out. Have you had lunch? If you haven't eaten, let's go together. I just have something to discuss with you. You see, you came too timely! "

"it is good!"

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Brother Liu is going to buy goods during the day, and I help him watch his physical store. From time to time, someone will come in to pick up the goods. I just need to be responsible for collecting the money and counting the specifications and quantities of the incoming and outgoing goods.It's not a heavy job, and there is still time to take care of Xiaopang.

In the evening, follow him to set up a stall in the night market outside the University City.People come and go here, and the source of tourists is not only college students, but mainly because this is a relatively famous night market street in S City.It stretches several miles from north to south, and it is densely packed with small stalls selling things.You can find everything from famous brands from all over the world, you can find fake textiles here, and the price is so low that you can cut your ankles off.It attracts many people to come here to join in the fun and kill time.

Brother Liu's small stall is located near the gate of a university town with a relatively superior geographical location. People who come out of the school, those who want to go in, or even those who are bored, will first notice this place, but anyone who passes by this place Everyone couldn't help but stop at Brother Liu's booth. This is where he excels, knowing how to market.

During the day, there are no stalls in the night market.I spend most of my time in Brother Liu's shop taking care of the business. At four or five o'clock in the afternoon, I will load the goods into the car, and put the goods on the stalls that have been fixed before, waiting for customers to visit.

The neighbors are still friendly people, and there is no obvious hostility towards me because I just came here.However, even if there is hostility, most of it is aimed at Brother Liu, and I am just working for him.

Brother Liu is a nice guy, knowing that I'm short on cash, he would invite me to have dinner every night after the night market is over, and share some of the money I earned at night with me.

"Thank you Brother Liu!" I shook the money a few times embarrassedly.

"Why are you talking so much?" Brother Liu swallowed half a bottle of beer in one breath, and then continued after taking a breath, "Who doesn't have a problem these days? You need me now, and if I use it later If I get you, don’t I still have to ask you for help? Don’t be rude to me, besides, I didn’t help you, I’m really busy here, even if you didn’t come, I still have to find someone to help!”

Pushing and yelling, I collected the money.The two had dinner and it was already ten o'clock at night. I checked the time and there was the last bus. I was going to catch the bus, but Brother Liu grabbed me. He stuffed a car key into my hand. .

"You, just drive my car, take me home first, and then take yourself home, okay? Oh, brother, don't say thank you, brother, I am really tired today, that's it, hurry up Come back a little later, your sister-in-law will scold me again!" Brother Liu put his hand on my shoulder, muttering drunkenly as if he was joking but also as if he really couldn't hold on.

"..." I laughed silently, dragged him by the shoulders and sent him to the car. After settling down, I drove him home, and then went to the deli to buy some food and drove home.

I received Xiaopang, who was already sleeping, from Aunt Wang's house, and after tidying up Xiaopang, I cleaned up myself. Finally, I lay flat on the bed and checked that the time was almost twelve o'clock at night.

Sighing, he threw the phone aside, closed his eyes and fell asleep.Tomorrow morning, I will have an interview. Uncle Wang asked someone to help me find out. The Mei'ao International Hotel in S City is conducting a large-scale recruitment. Although the target is mainly for fresh college graduates, they did not say anything.As long as you have a chance, you should try it first!