his cat [Rebirth]

Xing Yingtai smiled shyly, but said nothing.He didn't speak, and Chongshan didn't take the initiative to speak, he just stared at Xing Yingtai's side face.

After a while, Xing Yingtai finally said, "I...actually, I want to study medicine."

"Huh?" Chongshan was taken aback, and asked, "Why do you want to study medicine all of a sudden?"

"Not suddenly," Xing Yingtai said. "That's why I applied for science. But the medical school scores in good schools are too high. I'm afraid I won't be able to pass the exam."

"Your grades are pretty good."

"Several subjects." Xing Yingtai glanced at Chongshan, hesitated for a while, and said, "Sometimes the English test is 130 points, and sometimes it is only a hundred and ten points."

The English test questions in the coastal areas of Jiangsu and Zhejiang are generally difficult. Xing Yingtai became a monk halfway and only started to recognize the English alphabet in junior high school.Of course Chongshan couldn't understand Xing Yingtai's mood. In his opinion, English was too simple, but he couldn't say it out loud.

Chongshan tapped his chin with his fingers, and said: "If you have time, come to my place, and I will teach you."

Xing Yingtai shook his head, his expression looked very calm, between mature adult and young youth, Xing Yingtai said: "I'm just complaining to you, that's all."

Chong Shan was taken aback by this 'complaint', and his heart was full of joy. He moved to Xing Yingtai's side and said, "Tell me more about your troubles. Hurry up, I love to hear it!"

Although Chongshan used Xing Yingtai as the prototype to write that he fell in love with the people in the story, which made Xing Yingtai feel awkward, but he would not be really angry, and the relationship with Chongshan was even better.

After all, Chongshan doesn't like to go out, and his social circle is narrow. After doing some calculations, Xing Yingtai finds that Chongshan is only closest to him, so he should think that it's okay for him to write himself into the novel.

His heart is so wide, except that Xing Yingtai trusted his uncle wholeheartedly at that time, and he didn't think what would happen to the two men at all.

For Chong Shan, he didn't know whether it was good news or bad news.

At the beginning of June, the weather was sultry and it rained in Hangzhou.

Xing Yingtai ended his high school career in the sound of rain. The moment he walked out of the examination room, he had mixed feelings, looked up at the sky, and was in a daze for a while.

The parents of the students were crowded outside the examination room, and there was a lot of voices.The head teacher of Xing Yingtai's class yelled at the top of his voice, explaining that we will have a breakup meal at the restaurant tomorrow.

That night Chongshan made a special trip to Xing Yingtai's house to congratulate his nephew on getting rid of the sea of ​​misery.Because Xing Yingtai was eighteen years old, Xing's father specially opened a bottle of treasured liquor and poured him a glass.

Chongshan asked Xing Yingtai: "Have you ever had a drink before?"

Xing Yingtai shook her head.

"Then don't drink it." Chongshan said, "You should drink some juice."

Xing's father persuaded: "It's okay, we are all family members, it doesn't get in the way. Chongshan, would you like to have a drink too?"

Chongshan looked at the wine glass in front of him, poked Xing Yingtai's hand, and asked, "Do you want to drink?"

Xing Yingtai nodded.

Chongshan simply said: "Then I will drink too."

Ever since Chongshan was diagnosed with a mental illness, he seldom went out and only kept in touch with Xing Yingtai's family.At the beginning of the dinner, Father Xing was still a little nervous, and he was very polite when talking to Chongshan.But after drinking, he quickly opened up the conversation box.After exchanging a few more words, Xing's father thought, is Chongshan a good person when he is not ill?

This drinking lasted until more than ten o'clock in the evening, and the three adult men in the family except Xing Chunlin were all blushing.After the meal, Chongshan said he wanted to go home, but Xing's father asked him to stay: "Uncle, he can sleep here, the bed in the boss' room is very big."

Chongshan laughed out loud when he heard the words, and asked Xing Yingtai, "How big is it?"

"...Anyway, I can pretend to be you."

"Great," Chong Shan blinked, and said, "I haven't responded yet...I haven't slept with my nephew yet."

Because they drank too much, Chongshan and Xing Yingtai didn't take a bath, they just scrubbed briefly, changed their clothes, and lay down on the bed.

The two fell asleep quickly.At around three o'clock in the middle of the night, Chongshan was awakened by the sound of birds flapping their wings outside the window. He sat up a little confused, feeling very bad.

The badness disappeared after seeing Xing Yingtai lying on the side.I saw Xing Yingtai lying on the bed with a long body on his side, pillowing his arm, with a peaceful expression when he was asleep.

The pajamas on his body were a bit short, and before he raised his hands, a slender waist was exposed.

Chongshan turned his head to look for a while, and was suddenly attracted, he slowly leaned over and kissed Xing Yingtai's waist.

With a completely different sense of touch from his, fiery and full of vitality, Xing Yingtai has a youthful smell on him, which is fascinating.

People are attracted to things that are similar to themselves as well as things that are completely different from them.

Xing Yingtai, who has no blood relationship with Chongshan and has completely different personalities, is the most attractive source of Chongshan in history.

Chongshan's fingers trembled slightly, and he could clearly feel the blood rushing through his brain.Chongshan is afraid of old age, always controls his emotions, keeps himself pure and ascetic, and avoids premature birth.

He hadn't been this excited for a long time.

Chongshan opened his mouth uncontrollably, and bit Xing Yingtai's waist.

Xing Yingtai who was sleeping was awakened by a strong itching and pain, when he lowered his head, Chongshan was also looking up at him.

The two looked at each other, and Xing Yingtai thought he saw something.

He stood up, rubbed his eyes, and asked, "—Uncle?"

Chongshan didn't say a word.

Xing Yingtai shouted again: "Chongshan?"

That person said 'hmm'.

Xing Yingtai rubbed her waist, found a hand full of saliva, and said disgustedly: "What are you doing, it's disgusting. I didn't take a shower."

"..."

Xing Yingtai lay down again and said, "Go to sleep."

Chongshan took a deep breath and lay down beside Xing Yingtai.

There was no wind or cloud, and a waning moon hung outside the window.

Chongshan silently recited Xing Yingtai's words just now, and thought to himself, 'Go to sleep' for the sake of self-hypnosis.

But Xing Yingtai couldn't sleep by himself, he shouted:

"Uncle."

"...Huh?" When Chong Shan spoke, his voice was extremely hoarse.

"I graduated."

"……Um."

Chongshan couldn't say anything funny anymore, the night was so quiet, he was afraid that Xing Yingtai could hear his own heartbeat that sounded like a roar.

"Do you know Chen Banxiao and Xun Xin?"

"Ah."

"That's right," Xing Yingtai said with a smile, "You know everyone who has a good relationship with me."

It's not that she recognizes her, but that Xing Yingtai occasionally mentions it to Chongshan. After a long time, Chongshan will naturally remember it.

Xing Yingtai showed an expression of reminiscence, he said: "The day before the college entrance examination, Chen Banxiao told me that he would study with Xun Xin in a university and a major, no matter whether he passed the exam or not - Xun Xin wanted to be a veterinarian."

Whether she wanted to be a veterinarian or because Xing Yingtai wanted to study medicine, Xing Yingtai couldn't figure it out at that time.

Chongshan didn't care to listen to what Xing Yingtai said about other people, and perfunctorily said 'hmmmhhh'.

"Chen Banxiao likes Xun Xin." After a moment of silence, Xing Yingtai said.

Hearing the word 'like', Chongshan's breathing stopped for half a second.

Xing Yingtai added: "I don't have any girls I like."

Chong Shan stared at the stars, as if he had been hit on the head by a sledgehammer of surprise.

However, Xing Yingtai went on to say: "But if there is, I might also like Xun Xin."

"..."

"Chen Banxiao said he wanted to go to a university with Xun Xin. At that time, I really wanted to say that I would go too. Don't take me with you." Xing Yingtai showed a blank expression, "My grades are better than Chen Banxiao and Xun Xin's. Well, the school I want to apply for is different from them, even though it is in the same city. But I don’t want to be separated from my friends, I’m so lonely.”

The person who said "lonely" has already stood up tall this year and has experienced life and death, but at this time, beside Chongshan, he looks so childish.

The youthful breath is like the morning light in the mountains.

"Should I go to college with them?" Xing Yingtai said, "I want to go. Do I also like Xun Xin? Otherwise, why would I want to go together?"

"..."

Chongshan sat up and looked into Xing Yingtai's eyes by the moonlight.

He wanted to know if Xing Yingtai was joking with himself, or if he saw something and refused in a tactful way.

Under the moonlight, Xing Yingtai's eyes were dark and bright.He asked, "What's wrong?"

Chongshan roared: "You stupid boy, I really want to pry open your head and see how many catties of water are in your brain."

Xing Yingtai said dissatisfiedly, "Why are you swearing?"

"You are the one who scolded," Chong Shan said, "You are so old, you still need someone to accompany you when you study, what does it have to do with being self-reliant and liking, you really don't understand anything."

Xing Yingtai was silent for a while, and said in disbelief, "I understand."

"What do you know?" Chongshan said disdainfully.

"I don't understand now," Xing Yingtai said, "I will understand one day."

——One day you will understand, one day you will know what it feels like to like someone.

Hearing this, Chongshan was startled.After a long time, he nodded, "That's right."

The heart, which was beating violently, slowly sank, as if it was suddenly immersed in the gloomy and cold well water.Sudden cold and hot, it is toothache.

Xing Yingtai defended: "I know this idea is very immature...so I'm just talking casually, don't take it seriously."

Chongshan let out a 'huh' and said vaguely: "...Go to sleep."

Xing Yingtai was still worried, and said, "I applied for the exam at your alma mater. Uncle, will you send me there on the first day of school? I don't know the way."

"……certainly."

"Uncle?"

"..."

This time, Chongshan did not answer.He closed his eyes, thinking that he was destined to have no sleep tonight.Unexpectedly, not only fell asleep quickly, but also had a dream.

Someone greedily kisses the body of the young man.

The pictures in the dream are all piece by piece, and the cause and effect cannot be seen. The only thing that can be realized is that it is not enough, not enough at all.

In the dream, that person was so cowardly, viciously aggressive, he opened his mouth and bit him.

The man swallowed the opponent alive one mouthful at a time.

Warmth and safety are all his.

Chongshan woke up trembling all over, and Xing Yingtai beside him had already got up to wash up, so he didn't see Chongshan's red eyes and clenched teeth.

He used too much force, and through his cheeks, he could see the traces of Chong Shan's gnashing of teeth.In silence, Chong Shan bit his tongue, bleeding but felt no pain.

As if being strangled by the throat, he raised his head and screamed silently.Chong Shan looked at the high ceiling.

At that moment, he felt that if he continued like this, he would become even crazier.So crazy that I can't even act.