want to be your person

In the process of life, gain and loss are interactive. ——XL

Dingka frantically took Wang Kaige's clothes into the house quickly. The dried clothes were wet with rainwater because of the rain and hail, and the rainwater was mixed with the faded and cloudy liquid of the clothes.

"Damn, you are so fucking stupid, you made the living room full of water!" Wang Kaige belonged to that kind of heartless person.

"Your clothes seem to be all wet..." Dingka pointed to the clothes in his hand.

"You're fucking wet too!" Wang Kaige rolled his eyes at Dinka who was drenched by the rain.

Dinka was wearing a white shirt, and as long as it got wet from the rain, he could clearly see his thin upper body.Wang Kaige vaguely saw that Dinka's chest was wet a lot due to the wetness, and the two spots on the chest showed a seductive outline through the fabric.Dinka's face was too pale, almost morbidly transparent, and his bony posture shocked Wang Kaige a bit.

"What a trouble! Hey, do you want to take a shower and change your clothes?" Wang Kaige picked up a towel from the sofa and wiped his hair decadently. Thin eyelids.

Ding Ka was stunned, and now Wang Kaige looks more and more like Chen Mo...

"I asked you something! Are you fucking brain-dead or mentally retarded!" Wang Kaige's eyes are brown amber, deep and fascinating, and it also makes Dinka fall into deep memories. Dinka thinks about it. It was blank, and he opened his mouth and couldn't make any sound.

"Here are towels and clothes." Wang Kaige casually threw them on Dinka's face.

Dingka smelled the smell of washing powder on the clothes, and thought of the unique fragrance on Chen Mo's body.

"Thank you..." Dinka looked lonely at the clothes and towels in his hand.

After all, he...is not Chen Mo...

"You will also say this sentence, take a shower quickly, and waste the water in my house!"

Wang Kaige rubbed his hair vigorously, the ends of his hair were dripping with water, he raised his feet to the table impatiently, and Erlang kicked his legs straight.

Dinka took the towel and clothes into the bathroom and closed the bathroom door.

Dingka leaned against the door weakly, his eyes gradually turned blank, he was so tired...

I am pretty tired……

Chen Mo...

Dinka stared at the mirror in front of him in a daze. In the mirror, Dinka's face was pale, his lips were tightly closed, holding back his thoughts.My eyes are no longer so clear and bright, my cheeks are no longer so red and moist, it seems that only the endless face is ashen, Dinka smiled stiffly, but found that he could no longer have the feeling of happiness, Chen Mo's departure brought me an unhealable pain, and Chen Mo's departure left me with only serious sequelae. Without you by my side, everything seems to be blurred and unreal, and the world has become not beautiful at all.

Dinka's eye circles were red, and he turned on the tap and washed his face with biting cold water.

I think all I can do is wait where I am. I hope you will not forget that you want to come back...

Dingka didn't take a shower, but just took off his clothes, wiped off the wetness of the rain on his upper body, and then changed into Wang Kaige's clothes.Wang Kaige's clothes are very big, and Dinka's clothes are a bit too big and funny, revealing his crispy collarbone, the roundness of his shoulders looks thinner, and the collar of his clothes is a bit loose, as long as he shrinks his shoulders a little, most of his arms are exposed .Dinka put on another jacket over his clothes, and the biting chill seeped into his bone marrow, and what melted into his blood was the melancholy of loneliness.

"It's been washed so soon?" Wang Kaige saw that Dingka was wearing his own clothes, loose and lazy.

"En." Dinka saw that Wang Kaige's hair was messed up and he didn't have any image at all, but that wild temperament seemed to be born with him, just a slight smile and a faint look in his eyes made people instantly fearful.The demeanor that cannot be easily approached makes Wang Keig look even more unique.

"Dry my hair." Wang Kaige didn't know where to find the hair dryer.

"Ah?" Before Dinka could react, Wang Kaige stuffed the hair dryer into Dinka's hand.

Dinka thinks that Wang Kaige is actually like a child sometimes, but he is just an unusual king of children.

"Blow my hair clean!"

Wang Kaige moved a chair and sat on it himself, while Dinka stood and dried his hair.

In the past, Chen Mo liked to blow-dry his hair after taking a bath. Chen Mo's broad palm gently stroked Dingka's head. The gentleness of his movements made Dingka addicted to it, and Dingka would wet himself Chen Mo's hair was deliberately thrown on Chen Mo's face, and then he got a kiss. Chen Mo's lips were very beautiful, and he kissed Dingka's mouth like a dragonfly. Dingka felt Chen Mo's patience and carefulness. Love, give it all to yourself, if you keep like this all the time, you will be very happy, very happy...

"Don't move around, you will also blow my hair in the future, you know?"

Listening to what Chen Mo said, Ding Ka giggled.

I like the feeling of being with you, no matter bitter, sweet, sour or spicy, I think it is very sweet.

I like to fight with you, I like to lie in your arms, and I like to hold your hand to live a peaceful life. Even if I quarrel, I will feel very relaxed, soothing, and very real.

You don't know that my biggest secret is actually very simple, just like wanting to be with you, growing old slowly until deathly determined.

"You're fucking scalding me to death! Dinka didn't notice that the hair dryer in his hand was too hot, and it was always blowing in one place.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to..."

"If you fucking intentionally kill you!" Wang Kaige angrily pulled out the plug of the hair dryer.

"Stop blowing your hair?"

"What a fart, I was almost scalded to death by you!" Wang Kaige rubbed the back of his head and stared at Dinka resentfully.

"Why don't I help you with tutoring now." Wang Kaige sighed at Dinka's proposal, what a hassle to study!

"Then you might as well let me blow-dry my hair!"

Dinka and Wang Kaige sat at the desk and spread out their math notes and scratch paper.

"Is there anything you don't understand?"

"I don't even understand!"

"..." Dinka lowered his head and flipped through the math book.

"Then do you think you can do those questions?" Dinka must understand Wang Kaige's basic level, and then make a tutoring plan, so that he can realize his shortcomings in a short time and make up for his own gaps.

"I can't even do it! You fucking did it on purpose!!" Wang Kaige frowned completely, tearing his wine red hair.

"I have to know that you don't know anything, otherwise how can I help you with tutoring?" Dinka also went out of his way.

"Then you will teach me from scratch!"

"Is it primary school, junior high school, high school, or university?" Dinka looked innocently.

"Your mother is a jerk, you did it on purpose!" Wang Kaige was annoyed by Dinka.

"Then I'll start teaching you mathematics from freshman year."

Wang Kaige acquiesced by not saying anything.

Then Dinka worked very hard to explain the knowledge points to Wang Kaige, anyway, he told him everything he had learned.

"You try this problem!" Dingka pointed to a moderately difficult math problem in the book.

A frustrated expression appeared on Wang Kaige's face, with a somewhat bitter sense of déjà vu.

Wang Kaige picked up the pen, looked at the title for a long time, and then wrote a neat word under the title: solution.

Then Wang Kaige gave up, lying on the table listlessly looking at the math problem.Then every few minutes, I either go to drink water, go to the toilet, or take out my mobile phone to chat with Biren and then stare at the topic in a daze.

"Let me teach you how to do it..." Dingka couldn't stand it anymore, and if he continued like this, two hours of tutoring time could only solve one problem...

"Get lost! I don't need you to teach me what I can do!" Wang Kaige stared at the topic again and racked his brains.

Dinka looked at Wang Kaige's serious profile by the light from the desk lamp, and was a little dazed.Wang Kaige's drooping eyebrows and eyes had a profound toughness, but the usually rebellious person seemed very quiet and serious at this moment.

"Don't worry, you have to be patient when doing the questions." Dinka smiled.

In the room, only the nib of the pen in Wang Kaige's hand rubbed against the paper, making a rustling sound.

Dingka suddenly thought that Chen Mo would accompany him to do his homework until dawn in the early morning.

The hail outside is violently mixed with loud crackling noises, the stars are dark tonight, the sky is dim, the years are impermanent, in the boundless depths, in the wild background, dying in an intoxicated dream.I still love you, you are in every inch of me...