want to be your person

I was originally a mature child, ignorantly stagnant by your side, I can't mature at all in front of you, I think this is the so-called liking, I like to show helplessness and dependence in front of you, but forget that you are not only me , separated by too vulgar questions, I can't break the secular barrier, there is only kindness, ambiguous kindness between us. ——XL

Today is Dinka's first day of tutoring for Wang Kaige, but Dinka did not expect Wang Kaige to go home without even saying hello.Dingka was in a hurry to find Teacher Wang at school, and wanted to get Wang Kaige's address, so he could go to his home to give him tutoring.

Xia Jian saw Dingka's anxious look from a long distance, and waved to Dingka worriedly.

"Why are you going, get out of class is over now, let's go have dinner together!"

Xia Jian approached Dingka slowly, the breeze blew Xia Jian's clean collar, and Dingka smelled the scent of fragrant washing powder.Some gray clouds and smoke rose in the sky, reflecting the chaos and emptiness of the world.Dingka saw Xia Jian who was full of energy in front of him, with a smile on his mouth. The empty background and the shadowy trees in the distance were used as the background, but Xia Jian looked very real and warm.

"I still have some things to do, I won't go today, you and Mu Yang, Xiaosan, let's go eat." Ding Ka obviously felt Xia Jian's unhappiness, Xia Jian's expression was all written on his face, Ding Ka was apologetic bow your head.

"What's the matter, it's so important, is it so difficult for you to have a meal with us now?"

Xia Jian is not happy anymore, he just found out that Dingka doesn't eat every night, Xia Jian is worried about Dingka's emaciated body, in case something goes wrong, such as starving to death.

"I'm going to give tutoring to others, so I may not be able to have dinner with you these days."

"Who are you tutoring for?"

"Male and female?!"

"Don't give him tutoring, can't you?"

Xia Jian looked at Dingka who was hesitant to speak with a resentful expression, and narrowed his peach blossom eyes, very upset.

"It's Mr. Wang's nephew. Mr. Wang is very kind to me, and I can't refuse this matter and agree to the teacher to help him with tutoring."

Dingka just saw that Xia Jian's face became more and more ugly, and the originally raised corners of his mouth were tightened into a tight line.

"CAO! Is that the one named Wang Kaige!" Xia Jian became a little nervous. You must know that Wang Kaige is a well-known playboy and a fighting gangster in the school!

"How do you know?" Dinka didn't know about it at all.

"You are not allowed to give him tutoring, you are not allowed to go!" Xia Jian held Dingka's hand a little domineeringly and walked back. Dingka was dragged up by Xia Jian's wrist.

"But I promised Teacher Wang!" Dingka tried to pull out the wrist that was restrained by Xia Jian, struggling hard.

Xia Jian looked at Dingka helplessly. Wang Kaige is definitely not a good guy. A dwarf like Dingka will definitely suffer. No matter what, Dingka can't let him go to tutor him!

"It hurts...it hurts..." Dingka's wrist was tightly grasped by Xia Jian, leaving a circle of red marks.

"As long as you promise me not to give him tutoring, I will let you go." Xia Jian frowned beautifully, with fierce eyes surging in his eyes.

"I promised others, I just give him tutoring and nothing will happen..." Ding Ka wanted to say something but was interrupted by Xia Jian, who was so angry that the bloodshot eyes slowly spread, and his eyes were glowing Scary red light.

"You idiot! Are you going to be a bitch like this!" Xia Jian scolded anxiously, and the outburst was like a thunderous explosion in Dingka's ears. Dingka was stunned by Xia Jian's scolding, Dingka looked at Xia Jian and wanted to say something, his throat was as dry as a fire.

"Let go." Dingka said softly with a cold touch, which made Xia Jian wake up.

"Dingka, I..." Xia Jian wanted to explain.

"Let go!" Dinka squeezed out two words from his throat, feeling uncomfortable.

People who care too much will also be hurt by themselves, whether intentionally or unintentionally,

The things done and the words said will never be rewound,

I want to protect you from harm,

But I forgot I had a knife.

I picked up that knife to protect you, but I forgot to put it down to hug you.

"I was wrong, Dingka, can you forgive me?" Xia Jian anxiously grabbed Dingka's sleeve, begging sadly.

Dingka was not angry with Xia Jian, nor was he angry because Xia Jian scolded him.Dingka was just afraid that Xia Jian would always fall into this hopeless and unresponsive love swamp. Dingka knew that he couldn't give anything, and he couldn't afford it either.

"You are right, we will always be good friends..." Dingka's words completely shattered the only joy and hope left in Xia Jian's heart. I hope that I can use my apology for hurting you to let you learn to cherish Others, in order to meet the next person who is better than themselves and loves you even more.

The sky began to become dark and dense, with big dark clouds gathering and spreading, but the rain hadn't fallen yet.

"Why don't you like me?" At the moment when Xia Jian's body collapsed and was about to be paralyzed, Dingka tightly hugged the precarious Xia Jian.

"Actually, you are fine, really..." Dinka's eyes were a little moist.

"Can we only be friends?" Xia Jian rested his chin on Dingka's thin shoulders, and then buried his delicate face between Dingka's necks. He wanted it so much, but he was so unwilling let go.

"En." Dinka felt a wet liquid dripping from his shoulders, which was cold, messy, and full of scars.

Dingka hugged Xia Jian tightly, and did not let go until Xia Jian gradually gained strength.

"This is the first time you hug me, and this is the last time I like you." Xia Jian's eyes were swollen.

Xia Jian staggered back a few steps, with poignant humility and bright sadness.

"I like you, I like you, Dingka." Xia Jian laughed, crying out loud while laughing, and shedding tears while laughing.

Dingka was also crying, but Xia Jian couldn't see the moment he turned his head.

In fact, Xia Jian really wanted to ask a question: "Would you like me if Chen Mo didn't show up?"

Xia Jian didn't ask, so naturally he couldn't get Dingka's answer, so what if he knew the answer?There is no if in the world...

I don't regret meeting you, I don't regret falling in love with you, and I don't regret speaking my love out loud.

Because you are the one I have liked, the one I have loved deeply.

But Xia Jian didn't know, Ding Ka actually thought about this question: "If Chen Mo didn't show up, would I like Xia Jian?"

The answer is... the answer is... what?Perhaps, only Dinka knows.

Dinka rushed over after getting the address of Wang Kaige's home from Mr. Wang.Dingka was in a heavy mood along the way. When he left, he hardly dared to look Xia Jian in the eyes. He only wanted to escape, and only wanted to stay away. He was a jerk! ! !

Dinka sighed slightly, why?Why did it happen? !

Dinka looked at the address Mr. Wang had written for him, and soon found Wang Kaige's home.

Dinka wiped off the tears on his face and knocked on the door.

"........." No one came to open the door.

Dinka knocked heavily again many times, but no one came to answer the door.

"Wang Kaige!" Dinka tried to call out, and put his ear on the door to listen carefully to the movement inside.

Dinka suddenly thought of something, and took out a key from his backpack, which was the key Wang Kaige gave him.Dinka poked the key into the door, turned it a few times, and sure enough, the door opened.

Dinka saw the pattern of the room, the walls inside were painted pink, which looked very warm, but why is the room of a big man pink?Don't you think it's weird?

Dinka thought that the room of a person like Wang Kaige must be messy, but the reality is just the opposite. Everything in the room is clean and there is no trace of dirt. Dinka thinks that Wang Kaige must have a serious cleanliness , because on the balcony Dinka saw many brands of washing powder, a lot of soap, and bottles and jars of disinfectant and hand sanitizer.

Dinka heard the continuous sound of water coming from the bathroom.

He is taking a shower?

Dingka waited for a long time but still did not see Wang Kaige coming out, so he had to take out his math notebook and scratch paper to read.

"Crunch—" After an unknown amount of time, Wang Kaige finally opened the bathroom door, and all the water vapor in the bathroom burst out, and the smoke drifted into the living room.

Dingka ran to the bathroom with notebooks, draft paper and pens, and saw...

She saw Wang Kaige walk out of the bathroom naked, and stood in front of Dingka naked.

"..." Dinka had a panoramic view of Wang Kaige's whole body, and then his face turned red to the ears in embarrassment.

Dingka unnaturally shifted his eyes to other places quickly, and coughed a few times unnaturally.

On the other hand, Wang Kaige didn't feel ashamed about anything, and ran to the living room naked to find bath towels on the sofa.

"You really know how to pick your time, gays are gays!" Wang Kaige's wine-red hair was wet and pressed against his forehead.

Wang Kaige deliberately walked into Dinka's side and shook his hair, dripping water on Dinka's face.

"Put on your clothes quickly!" Dinka was speechless.

"I can't find my bath towel, please help me find it!"

Dinka felt that there was something sitting under his buttocks, and when he got up, he saw that it was a large white bath towel.

"That...the bath towel is here..." Dingka didn't dare to open his eyes to see the lively scene in front of him.

Knowing that Dinka was shy, Wang Kaige deliberately refused to take the towel and sat down beside Dinka.

"Why don't you just help me with tutoring like this!" Wang Kaige put his arm around Dinka, and Dinka reacted greatly and stood up and ran to the side.

Dingka is unwilling and not used to being touched by others except Chen Mo.

"Put on your clothes first!"

"What should I do? I just like to let others see my naked body~~~"

"……………………"

"Hey, why the hell are you pretending to be reserved, I'm naked now, don't you want to look at me?"

Wang Kaige deliberately went to Dinka's side and clasped Dinka's waist from behind, with a pair of big hands walking on Dinka's body.

"Get out!" Dinka suddenly turned his head and pushed, and Wang Kaige fell down.The moment he fell down, Wang Kaige grabbed Dingka's arm and pulled desperately, turning Dinka's position and his own.

Dinka was crushed under the naked Wang Kaige.

"Let me see if you have an erection~~~" Wang Kaige's expression was too enchanting.

"Get out!!!" Dinka got angry, and scratched out big shreds of meat on Wang Kaige's smooth back.

"Fuck your mother, I'm just joking with you!" Wang Kaige was in pain from being scratched by Dingka.

Wang Kaige wears a bath towel around his waist, and the lines of his upper body's eight-pack abs are very smooth. When Wang Kaige turns around, he reveals the looming mermaid line extending from his back to his buttocks. The buttocks and the straight posture are perfectly revealed.

"I'm going to the room to change clothes, do you want to come?" Wang Kaige's eyes were as bright and deep as amber, and he just smiled wickedly.

"……………………"

The weather outside is becoming more and more sultry, the dark clouds in the sky are constantly churning and moving, and then through the clouds, raindrops are falling, a little urgent and a little hot.Dinka glanced out of the window, and there was something crackling outside. Looking carefully, it turned out that there was some kind of hailstone falling.

When Dinka saw Wang Kaige's clothes drying on the open-air balcony, he immediately wanted to put them in the house.