want to be your person

I can change everything about myself because of your words, I can smirk for a long time because of your concern, I can be sad for a long time because of your sadness, this is what I think, not what you want to give.Wishful thinking can't beat the mutual love between you, and then I become an outsider, a very thorough passer-by, but you will never be my passer-by. ——XL

Dingka dialed Chen Mo's mobile phone number, and there was a beeping sound from the mobile phone. Dingka was so anxious that he was about to cry.As long as there is something about Chen Mo, Dingka can't control his emotions.

Dingka listened to the beeping sound coming from the phone, no one answered at all, tears welled up, his vision was already blurred, even if there was no response, Dinka didn't want to hang up the phone, thinking that he was He will hear a cold mechanical female voice telling him that the number you dialed is temporarily unanswered, please try again later, but the call was connected at a certain moment...

"Dingka..." Chen Mo's hoarse and deep voice came from the other end of the phone, and Mao Mao's voice couldn't hide the endless exhaustion and sadness.

"Is it you? Chen Mo?! Did you put the flowers on the ground? Where are you? Where are you? Why didn't you tell me when you came back? You are nearby, right?! Come out..." Ding Ka heard Chen Mo's voice suppressed and cried out. Six months of torment, six months of longing, and six months of waiting broke out at this moment. It seemed that only tears could vent.

Those tears slid down on the flowers one by one, nourishing the possible damage in the growth.Dinka was crying so hard that he was sobbing.

"..." Chen Mo seemed to have paused for a long time on the other end of the phone. He looked not far away and Dingka was anxiously looking around, trying to find his own appearance.But Chen Mo hid very well, right next to the bushes, and Dinka was hard to find.

"I'm not the happiness you want, am I?" He obviously wanted to ask, but the words he said were too sure.

Chen Mo looked up at the sea-like sky, the white clouds mixed with colorful clouds were light pink, evenly spread in the clear sky, a bit like Dinka's favorite ice cream.There is something hopelessly shattered in my heart, decadence and despair derived from the depths.

After being away for more than six months, it seems that there is already a gap between us. It's not that I don't believe in you, because... because I don't believe in myself, so I will stubbornly think that letting down is the end of my giving up.If I knew it was so far away, I would rather be with you every day, knowing that my heart would fail and gradually die, and I would not alienate you because of my short absence, but there are no ifs, only consequences, losing you...lost Your consequences...

"What are you talking about! I've been waiting for you for so long, come out, I miss you so much, Chen Mo..."

Dinka's crying tears and snot were all mixed together, sticky and sticky on his face, making it a paste.

When Chen Mo heard Dingka crying helplessly, his heart hurt so badly that he was dying.It hurts so much here, Chen Mo clutched his heart through the fabric, thumping and beating irregularly with the sound of heartbreaking, breaking easily, a bit like glass, shattered crisply.

Chen Mo opened his mouth to say something, but found that his throat was strangled by a steel wire, and he couldn't say anything, no matter if it was a disheartened word, or a self-deceiving and comforting word, it seemed that he had no strength or courage to say it .

The courage and faith you gave me, and the hurt and despair you brought me are all given by you, and I am willing to accept it, because I love you without hesitation, because I love you as always... But Chen Mo couldn't say it, and he didn't want to say it.

"I beg you..." Dinka cried too hard, and Wang Kaige who was standing by was startled by the sudden situation.

"Hey, what's wrong with you? Why are you crying?" Wang Kaige knelt down and took out a tissue to wipe Dinka's nose and tears, but Dinka avoided him.

"What the hell are you doing? I'm going to wipe your tears to hide from you!" Wang Kaige's voice clearly reached Chen Mo's ears through the phone. Chen Mo looked not far away, but found Dinka was hugged comfortingly by Wang Kaige.

When Chen Mo came back to his senses, he had already hung up Dingka's phone.

It seems that something has passed, and it will never come back, such as me and you?

After all, Chen Mo chose to leave without looking back even if he wanted to stay, leaving Dingka waiting at a loss.

That day Dinka cried too much listening to the sound of Didi hanging up on the phone.

He clearly remembered that day was the [-] days he had been waiting for Chen Mo.

Some pain happened, hurt, and left indelible marks, even if you love me.

Dinka searched almost every corner of the campus, his clothes were soaked in sweat, and his legs were already shaking with exhaustion.Dinka still refused to stop.When Chen Mo didn't answer the phone, Dingka went crazy in a hurry.Wang Kaige looked at Dingka's madness and didn't dare to ask what happened. He just followed behind Dingka. Ka always stubbornly shook off the hands that supported him.

I don't want anything, I just want you.

Dingka searched everywhere but did not see Chen Mo.Abandoning Wang Kaige and running wildly back home, he hoped that Chen Mo would return to his home.

"Chen Mo!" Dingka returned home, before he even had time to pull out the key, he rushed into the house to look for it.

Dingka searched all over the balcony and bathroom, but there was still no sign of Chen Mo.Dingka sat on the sofa in a daze, and then got up and checked the room several times. He knew that Chen Mo hadn't come back, but Dingka still searched the room many times.Dinka fell asleep on the sofa in the middle of the night, and bounced off the sofa sensitively when he heard a little movement. He heard someone knocking on the door, is it you? !Chen Mo...

Dingka opened the door suddenly, but found that it was not Chen Mo standing in front of the door, but the aunt of the neighbor's next door.

"Young man, put the key on the door and don't put it away. You must know that it is very dangerous to be taken away by bad guys."

"Thank you, auntie." Dinka took the key, feeling too lost.

Dingka watched TV in a daze all night and did not fall asleep. His eyes became red and swollen the next day, like two big walnuts.When I went to school, I slumped on the desk listlessly, and didn't look up to listen to the class all morning.Xia Jian noticed Dingka's abnormality, and went to Dingka's side after class, and asked with concern.

"Why are you lying on the desk all morning?" Xia Jian wondered in his heart, didn't Chen Mo come back yesterday, shouldn't Dingka be happy?

"Why didn't Chen Mo come?" Xia Jian slipped his mouth.

Dingka immediately raised his head vigilantly, Xia Jian stared at Dingka's swollen eyes with fright.

"How do you know that Chen Mo is coming back?!" Ding Ka's suspicious gaze made Xia Jian dodge a little.

"I... saw him yesterday." Xia Jian was lying again.

"Then why didn't you go to the playground yesterday?" Dinka questioned more and more seriously.

"All right, all right, I admit it, I knew Chen Mo was coming back a long time ago!"

"Why didn't you tell me!" Dinka was a little angry.

"Don't you have Wang Kaige? Do you still care about Chen Mo?" Xia Jian reminded deliberately.

"..." What did Dingka think of? It wouldn't be that Chen Mo saw himself and Wang Kaige yesterday...

"Let me tell you, Chen Mo called me last week and told me that he was coming back. Let me keep the news and say something to give you a surprise. I was going to tell you, but that day I Go to your house to see you and Wang Kaige..."

Xia Jian didn't say any more, and looked at Dingka meaningfully.Xia Jian's loss to Chen Mo is nothing, but if Ding Ka and Wang Kaige get back together, I am CAO!Even if I die, I will rape Dinka first and then kill him, hehehe!

"Dingka, think about it for yourself, do you want Wang Kaige or choose Chen Mo?"

Xia Jian left this sentence inexplicably and walked away gracefully.

Dingka called Chen Mo a lot, but he couldn't get through.

In the afternoon, Su Tong actually came to the school to look for him.

Su Tong was wearing a thin red windbreaker, the cold wind blew up the broken hair on his forehead, and the long black hair like a waterfall was casually coiled behind.It is still so noble and elegant, even the ivory necklace around the neck sets off the capable and agile.Dingka felt that Su Tong had lost a lot of weight and looked even more haggard, but it still did not affect the unique temperament that exuded. Those temperament mixed with the strong perfume smell floated into Dinka's nose, and he didn't find it annoying. Smell and comfort.Wearing black high-heeled shoes, Su Tong walked up to Dinka and stopped beside Dinka with the sound of nails. He stared straight at Dinka with a serious look. The sharp aura was outlined between the bland eyebrows, appearing solemn and distant.

"I don't know what happened between you, but Dinka, Chen Mo doesn't even care about his own health because of you. You should know that no matter what he does, it's all because of you, so you can't let him down." There was a trace of hatred in Su Tong's eyes.

"It's my fault, but I can't contact him... Auntie, I beg you, can you tell me where he is?"

Seeing Dingka's painful appearance, Su Tong sighed slightly, feeling a little distressed.

"I came to you just to let you go and see Momo. These few days he was bored in the room alone, neither eating nor drinking. I asked him to open the door but he wouldn't open it. I was worried about him..." Su Tong gradually said nothing Going down, the long eyelashes hang down and cast a shadow.

"Then let's go now!"

Su Tong drove Dingka to the place where Chen Mo lived.

Su Tong pointed to the closed door and signaled to Dingka that it was Chen Mo's room, and Dingka ran to the door and knocked hurriedly.

"Chen Mo, open the door quickly. What's the matter, can we explain it face to face?" Dingka begged bitterly.

But there was no movement in the room, and Dinka was very worried.

"Chen Mo! Open the door for me, I miss you..." Dingka had a sobbing voice and a thick nasal voice.

There was a broken sound in the room, and something splashed all over the floor.

"What are you doing, hurry up and open the door for me!!" Dingka yelled so hard that his head was swollen and he was drowsy.

No matter how Dingka pleaded, no matter how much he called Chen Mo, he just refused to open the door. Dingka's voice gradually became hoarse and uncomfortable, and finally only whispered.

"Why? Why don't you listen to what I have to say?"

"Chen Mo, do you know what I want most? Why don't you know, you pighead! I want you, I can give up everything but I don't want to lose you..."

When Dinka was tired, he leaned against the door and gradually slumped down on the cold ground, his tears wet the ground drop by drop.

"There is nothing between me and Wang Kaige. I don't know if you misunderstood something. You finally came back. Don't leave easily this time, okay?"

No response, no hug from you, no kiss from you...

"You're a liar! You said you wouldn't leave me behind, what happened?! You said you're the only one I like!!!"

Dinka roared hysterically.

Listening to what Dingka said, Chen Mo tightly held the fragments of the beer bottle.The hand was cut deeply, leaving drops of blood, who said that the pain in the heart can be diverted or dispersed through physical torture? !Is it because it doesn't hurt?

Chen Mo tightened his grip on the glass piece, the wound got bigger and deeper, but his heart still hurt.

Chen Mo heard Dingka's voice getting weaker and weaker, and finally there was no sound at all. He was worried, and opened the door after struggling for a while.

The moment the door was opened, Dingka slammed into Chen Mo's arms hard and hard, refusing to let go.

"Hmm..." Chen Mo was knocked back several steps by the sudden impact.

Dingka hugged Chen Mo tightly, and the heavy breathing of the two was very clear in the empty space.

"Please, don't leave me..." Dingka's voice was completely hoarse.

Chen Mo hugged Dingka back hard, trying to embed him into his own flesh and blood, into his body.

Chen Mo kissed Dingka's lips messily, and Dingka felt the spicy taste of alcohol in his mouth. Chen Mo drank a lot of wine, and the smell of wine gradually diffused with the kiss.All the bursts of this moment, all the good and the bad, all melted in this kiss.With Dingka's response, Chen Mo's actions gradually became presumptuous and out of control.Chen Mo put Dingka on the bed and violently tore Dingka's clothes. The sound of the cloth being torn was harsh. Chen Mo bullied Dingka's body and pressed Dingka under him fiercely. The fair face kept getting bigger and closer in front of Dinka's eyes.Dinka was a little suffocated by the fiery lust.

Chen Mo bit every inch of Dingka's skin violently, venting all his longing for the past six months, and at this moment he was released and relieved.Dingka was hurt by Chen Mo but he was willing to bear it.

"Dinka, if one day you die, I will die with you, if one day you want to leave, I will definitely kill you! Do you know that I already...I can't leave you anymore... "Chen Mo suppressed his sobs and looked extraordinarily sad.

Ding Ka hugged Chen Mo's waist tightly, and gently kissed Chen Mo's lips: "I won't leave, I'm so happy staying by your side."

When Chen Mo heard this sentence, his movements became more and more rapid, leaving signs of his aggression on Dingka's body.Chen Mo pushed his avatar into Dingka's private place, and Dingka's forehead was covered with sweat in pain.Because the two of them had no physical contact for six months, the two of them just kissed and shuddered at the slightest movement.With the sprinting and stirring under Chen Mo, Dingka tried his best to suppress himself and wanted to scream.

Chen Mo's fiery naked body was clinging to Dingka's body, and when he was getting better and about to climax, Dingka cried out.When Chen Mo heard Dingka crying, he stopped immediately.

"Dinka, I'm sorry, did I hurt you? It's my fault, it's my fault..."

Chen Mo comforted Dingka, kissing Dingka's cheek, forehead and the corners of his eyes.

"No, it's not, Chen Mo..." Dingka cried until he had no strength left.

"Don't leave after you come back this time, okay?" Ding Ka wanted Chen Mo's answer.

"Okay." With an almost decisive attitude, the word came out of Chen Mo's mouth clearly without hesitation.

Dingka kissed Chen Mo's lips, and Chen Mo gently responded to the slightly wet kiss, and his movements gradually softened.

From today on, I won't leave you alone

From today onwards, I will no longer make you cry

From today on, I won't let you go easily

Nothing, anything, no one can stop me from loving you, I only have you in my heart.

So, don't be afraid, I'm still here.

The temperature in the room is constantly heating up, and the warmth is a little scorching, probably because of love...