want to be your person

Believe that there will be such a person behind you silently supporting the sky. ——XL

When Dinka woke up, he was lying on the hospital bed, his whole body was in severe pain and he had no strength.There was bursts of warmth in the palm of his hand, and Dingka glanced wearily at Chen Mo who was sleeping next to the hospital bed, and the heavy stone in his heart was lightly thrown away, but the memory of Wang Kaige became forever in Dingka's memory. Scar, there is a knot in my heart that has not been solved. Dingka will not tell Chen Mo about that matter, not because he wants to hide it, because there is nothing wrong with it, but Dingka doesn’t know how to open it. Dinka doesn’t want to let this kind of thing happen. Chen Mo knew, what would Chen Mo think if he knew?Will he be sad, will he be angry?Will he go back on the matter of marrying himself in the future?Because I love and care too much, I chose to hide it, but this method will only make myself more painful, and it will also make my lover uncomfortable. Humans are inherently complicated.One moment I was grateful for God's blessings on me, and the next moment I began to complain about the boring life.

But for Dingka, he didn't want to be grateful or complain about anything, he just imagined that he would be very happy by Chen Mo's side like now.He doesn't need a wedding or blessings, he is satisfied with someone he can love.

Chen Mo sat on a chair and fell asleep lying beside the hospital bed, breathing evenly.Even in the dream, Chen Mo held Dingka's hand tightly.

Dingka couldn't help counting Chen Mo's thick eyelashes, looking at Chen Mo's sleeping face, his smile gradually spread sweetly.Dingka looked at Chen Mo's eyes that were red and swollen, his hair was a little messy, and some blue stubbles were exposed under his chin, showing a haggard maturity.Chen Mo and Dingka have been together for more than a year. Unknowingly, the two have grown a lot. Because they want to protect each other, because they want to cherish and cherish each other, they are constantly tolerant and growing... Everything can be forgotten forever. But we can't forget love, love ourselves, and love each other, the old traces of time can smooth all the water chestnuts and polish out the most perfect structure, but you are my truest and most beautiful flaw, you let me know who I am It is also possible not to pretend to be so strong every day, and use hypocritical kindness to humbly watch the silent downturn of the world.

Dingka couldn't help stroking the corners of Chen Mo's eyes gently from his forehead, his movements were gentle and careful.

"Hmm..." Chen Mo's tightly knit brows became more intense, and he didn't know what dream he was having.

Dingka hastily withdrew his hand, letting Chen Moduo sleep for a while.

Ding Ka sat at the head of the bed for a long time, leaning against the pillow and gradually felt uncomfortable. With just a slight movement, Chen Mo woke up sensitively.Chen Mo stayed by the side for a long time recently because of Dingka's injury, and stayed up late at night. He just wanted to watch Dingka wake up.

"Why didn't you call me when you woke up? Is it still uncomfortable? Where does it still hurt? Are you thirsty, or are you hungry, do you want to go to the toilet..." Chen Mo asked Dingka many questions with a look of eagerness. Flushed and disheveled.

"It's okay, I'm okay..." Dinka just shook his head.

"What did you do?! Why did you get hit by a car so accidentally? Don't you know that you should pay attention to cars when crossing the road?! Why do you worry me so much every time?!" Chen Mo hugged Dingka's emaciated body shoulder, voice choked up badly.

Dingka endured Wang Kaige's injury to him, and also endured the severe pain of being hit by a car, and he endured it with tears in his eyes, but he heard Chen Mo choking in his ear , tears fell on the bed sheet easily, the broken stains spread, every inch of the air was filled with unbearable sadness, and the traces of drifting permeated into the chills of the bone marrow.

"Dingka, you fucking never thought about what I would do if you had any accidents?!" Chen Mo's tone was resentful and helpless. He didn't want Dingka to have an accident, and his greatest wish was that Dingka could be safe and sound. As for those bad things, just let him bear them, it doesn't matter, because I am his husband, because I am his lover.

When Ding Ka heard those words that were more uncomfortable than beating and scolding himself, he wanted to say something, and wanted to apologize to Chen Mo. He always made Chen Mo worry, and he was always the one who worried the most.Dingka just cried, tears soaked Chen Mo's shoulders.

"When you recover from your injury, let's hold a wedding, okay?" Chen Mo gently held Dingka's face, kissed the corners of Dingka's eyes, then the nose, and then the corners of the mouth. Dinka's lips, Dinka's tears are mixed in the kiss of two people, some love is so deep that people can't resist, and it is these deep attachments that make inexplicable sadness and inexplicable crying.

"Okay, I dream about it." Dinka cried and laughed like a madman.

The smell of disinfectant in the hospital was unusually strong, making people feel a little dull and dizzy. Dingka and Chen Mo kept hugging each other like this. Neither of them wanted to let go at this moment. The body temperature of the two people was rising tightly. , The two people's heavy breathing alternately erupted on each other's face, which was lingering and unreal.

I don't know how long it took, but both Dingka and Chen Mo's arms were sore, and their moods were much calmer.

"If you hold me like this again, I'll suffocate to pee!" Ding Ka shook his shoulders, motioning Chen Mo to let go of the hands that were restraining his waist.

"No, let me hug you more." Chen Mo closed his eyes, put his chin on Dingka's shoulder, and let out a tired sigh of relief.

"I want to pee~~~" Dinka deliberately shook his shoulders again.

"Can't you hold me back for a while longer!" Chen Mo cursed like this, but he had already come to the bathroom with Dingka in his arms.

"I can do it by myself, you don't need to hug me." Dingka's arm wrapped around the back of Chen Mo's neck, his heart was so sweet~~~

"You've been sleeping for a long time, your second brother must be miserable~~~" Chen Mo sucked Dingka's little mouth badly, biting it lightly, his eyes filled with joy and happiness.

"Hmph..." Ding Ka bit Chen Mo's lip arrogantly, much stronger than Chen Mo's biting himself.

Chen Mo personally unbuttoned Dingka's pants, took out Dingka's second brother, and wanted to watch Dingka pee with his own eyes.Dingka felt a little embarrassed, obviously he and Chen Mo had done it intimately, but Dingka just felt awkward.

"Don't look at it, just turn your head away!" Dinka protested.

"What the hell are you pretending to be innocent? You don't know how many times you've been licked by me, and you don't know what you're doing awkwardly like a girl." Chen Mo gave Dinka a white look, eyes full of contempt.

"…………"

After Dingka went to the toilet, Chen Mo carried Dingka back to the bed, covered Dingka with the quilt, bought food for Dingka, made soup, got water, and took medicine for skin trauma.Chen Mo watched Dingka devouring the food, and carefully blowing hot water for Dingka.

Chen Mo thought of something, and his expression became gloomy and serious.

"Dingka..." Chen Mo finally couldn't help but speak out.

"What's the matter?" Dinka vaguely agreed with his mouth full of food and rice grains still hanging from the corner of his mouth.

"You only hurt your feet when you had an accident. Why did you have bruises when I scrubbed your body?"

Chen Mo's eyelids were raised, his thick eyelashes drooped in frustration, and his heart was dripping with blood.

When Dingka heard it, he was taken aback. Those bruises... those bruises were hickey marks, Wang Kaige...

Dingka's eating speed suddenly slowed down, and he didn't move his chopsticks at the end, just in a blank trance.

As long as he thought of that incident, he was almost violated, Dinka panicked, and the shadow of fear became deeper and deeper.

When Chen Mo saw Dingka's expression, he couldn't express the feeling in his heart. He knew that those were hickey marks, but he didn't make them by himself...

Chen Mo did not believe that Dingka would betray him.

"Just pretend I didn't agree, you can finish your meal first..." Chen Moqiang chose to escape with a smile on his face.

So what if Dinka betrayed himself?I... I can't do without him anymore... What can I do? !

Ding Ka looked at Chen Mo's wry smile, and anxiously wanted to explain, but he didn't know how to say it.

Chen Mo turned his back to Dingka: "I'll go home and bring you some change of clothes..."

Dingka saw that Chen Mo was about to get up, and wanted to grab the corner of Chen Mo's clothes.

"It's not what you think..." Dinka pleaded, you have to believe me, okay?

"I know..." Chen Mo pampered Dingka's soft hair.

But what is left is only his lost back, the back that is gradually going away...

Maybe there is a gap between the two today, not because they don't love each other, but because they care too much and don't want to hurt each other's hands, but this will make people more sad, and even create a gap in estrangement.

Dingka ran weakly to the corridor of the hospital and looked at Chen Moyuan's walking back, slumped on the ground, moaning weakly.

"How should I say it?"

"Why can't you trust me just once..."

Dinka curled up his body in the corner, the rotten wounds oozing pus on his body...