want to be your person

Everyone has their own personality, I don't know who I like to be with, I only know what kind of person I hate.When people I don't like come into contact with me, I really want to take off my hypocritical smile and tell her: I don't want to talk to you, so don't come to me and deliberately show off those stupid things. ——XL

In the past few days, Dingka has obviously felt a kind of alienation and indifference between himself and Chen Mo. He is still eating at the same dining table, sleeping next to each other on the same bed, and watching TV on the same sofa, but he just feels that it is missing. Something important, that feeling is more uncomfortable than the Cold War.Chen Mo is still the same as before, cooking for himself, bathing himself, and feeding Momo, all of which seem normal, but Dingka knows that Chen Mo has always had a lump in his heart, he just doesn't want to say it out, afraid Hurt yourself, or rather, hurt yourself.

Betrayal?That kind of taste is more than just pain?

Chen Mo was cooking in the kitchen, and the oil, salt, sauce, vinegar, and sugar were all prepared on the side. Chen Mo skillfully sliced ​​Dingka's favorite carrot, and poured a small amount of sesame oil in the pot for cooking. The hot air rolled over Chen Mo's slightly red face, and his eyes were squinted. He has been feeling very uncomfortable these days, and he also knows that Dingka has been hesitating all the time and wants to say something to himself. what is itIs it a breakup?Don't want to live with yourself?Tired of yourself? !

Every time Dingka has the courage to speak out, Chen Mo shrinks back, he doesn't want to hear those sad words, he has already tasted the taste of betrayal, Chen Mo doesn't want it anymore, he doesn't want to betray .So, just run away, okay?

Dingka entered the kitchen full of oily smoke, hugged Chen Mo's waist from behind, and gently pressed against Chen Mo's back. The warm body temperature passed into Dingka's heart, full, steady, and happy ,Feel.I like the feeling of being with you, it's love, that's love...

"Why did you come in? The kitchen is full of oily fumes. Get out quickly." Chen Mo focused on cooking.

"I...I want to tell you something about..." Ding Ka kissed Chen Mo's neck and paused.

"I'm busy now, my dear, go sit outside first." Chen Mo's voice was obviously displeased and deep.

so fast?Could it be that you want to separate from yourself?

"Listen to me..." Dingka cried anxiously, but was pushed out of the kitchen by Chen Mo.

With a loud "bang", Chen Mo slammed the door of the kitchen, and the kitchen was filled with pungent oily fumes, which enveloped Chen Mo's body like mist, and he was a little lonely.Chen Mo was so lonely that he was cutting vegetables but his finger was cut, blood flowed out and stained the vegetables, which could not be washed off with water.

Dingka was pushed outside, saw Chen Mo's busy back in the kitchen through the light through the glass, twitched with pain in his heart, and had never been so tired since being with Chen Mo, the TV in the living room faintly showed The faint blue halo reflected the wall clock on the wall, and the lights in the room were dimly shining without a trace of heat, which made the whole room feel oppressive and dull. Dinka hated this kind of atmosphere, But I seem to have gotten used to it, and getting used to it is really a terrible thing.

After eating, Chen Mo served the food and ate with Dingka. In the past, Dingka always talked about various things indiscriminately, talking about all kinds of gossip, and the food in his mouth was straight. Spray, and then Chen Mo next to him would laugh and dislike him, but he listened carefully all the time.But now, neither of them speaks, only the sound of picking up food, only the sound of chopsticks touching the bowl, only the sound of chewing food, and the cover-up sound of breaking, something is eroded and smashed, and it cannot be restored with glue. Broken to the ground, reluctant to let go for a long time, but never let go, let the fragments stick into his own flesh, the strength intensified, the pain was unbearable, crying hard, but still holding on to laugh.

"Go see your mother tomorrow and talk about our affairs." Chen Mo ate his meal without looking up.

"Our business?" Ding Ka raised his head and looked at Chen Mo with some doubts.

"Have a wedding and get married." Chen Mo's words sounded very calm and composed.

"So fast?!" Dinka exclaimed excitedly.

"Is it bad? Don't you like it? Don't you want to marry me?!" Chen Mo slightly lost his temper.

"No, you misunderstood, I..."

Before Dingka could explain clearly, Chen Mo put down his chopsticks and went back to the room.

The chopsticks were not placed properly and fell off at night...

Dinka lay on the dining table with his head empty for a long time.

In the evening, it rained suddenly, lightning danced wildly in the sky outside, and there was a loud explosion of thunder and explosion in the distance.Mixed with the sound of pattering and then gradually boiling rainwater.

Dingka was a little scared, and poked Chen Mo on the shoulder with his back turned to him.

"Mo, I'm afraid..." Dingka was wrapped tightly in the quilt, sweating all over his body, feeling a little chilly.

"Mo. Are you asleep?" Dingka poked Chen Mo's shoulder again.

But there is no response.

Dinka covered his head under the quilt in frustration, the moisture in the quilt smelled a bit suffocating.A pair of big hands easily wrapped around Dingka's waist, clinging to Dingka's body, Chen Mo's hot body temperature melted everything about Dingka.

"I am here……"

"So, don't be afraid..."

Dingka got into Chen Mo's arms to absorb the warmth, a little cute and greedy, a little addicted and unable to breathe.

It's pitch black at night, and you can't see anything, but some people can't see even if it's not dark, and some people can see no matter how dark it is.

Early the next morning, when Dingka was still sleeping on the bed in a daze, Chen Mo had already washed and dressed, wearing a very handsome red and white light jacket, with the collar standing up very fashionable, looking youthful Vigorous, with black hair in neat strands, tight black leather pants underneath, strong and well-proportioned thighs, straight, long and slender.Especially the collarbone, the lines are so beautiful, the whole person looks like a lonely prince, independent and cold and distant.

"Get up." Chen Mo pressed Dingka directly, and kissed Dingka's cheek intimately, his movements were gentle.

"Let me sleep again..." Dingka was so pressed that he couldn't move, and his hazy eyes seduced Chen Mo.

"If you don't get up again, I'll eat you." Chen Mo kissed Dingka's lips.

"I want you, and I haven't done it for a long time." Chen Mo gently kissed Dingka's neck, and lifted Dingka's loose T-shirt, revealing a white and thin physique.When Chen Mo saw the bruises on Dingka's body, his mind was shocked.Chen Mo had a severe headache, and with difficulty holding his head, he slipped off Dingka's body and fell to the ground, squatting and hugging an injured child with his head.

"What's wrong with you? Is there something uncomfortable?" Dingka stepped on the air and rolled off the bed directly.

Ding Ka only wanted to help Chen Mo up, but Chen Mo slammed his outstretched hand away.

"I'm fine, hurry up and get ready, we'll set off later." Chen Mo pressed his temple tightly, his face was not good.

Dingka watched Chen Mo go to the entrance to change his shoes, feeling sad and disappointed.

Dingka didn't make Chen Mo wait long, he quickly washed up and was ready to go out.Chen Mo took out milk and bread from the kitchen for Dingka to eat, and then Chen Mo went downstairs to start the car.Dinka drank milk and ate bread, and felt something in his heart. The liquid and solids he swallowed got stuck in his throat and stuck to his entire mouth.

On the way out, Chen Mo drove the car without saying a word.The rapid movement of the buildings outside the car window made people dizzy, causing a feeling of vomiting, and Dinka was not at all uncomfortable.

"Mo, are you ready to meet my mother?" Dinka worried.

Chen Mo didn't speak but just drove the car quietly.

"What if my mother doesn't agree?"

Chen Mo raised his eyebrows sharply, and pulled down the corners of his stiff mouth, but he still didn't speak.

"We will really get married, right?" Dingka was not sure, and could only ask Chen Mo to give him a reassuring answer.

But Chen Mo still didn't speak.

Until the car drove to the flat ground, the European-style buildings greeted the eyes. There was a wide lawn next to each house. The white European-style buildings reminded people of historic castles.

Chen Mo and Dingka got out of the car and came to the high iron fence. Dingka pressed the doorbell next to the door and made a beeping sound.

Chen Mo held Dingka's left hand: "Frankly, I'm not prepared for anything..."

"Trust me I can do it, we can do it."

The sky was still covered with dark clouds, and the sky was gray, and it began to rain lightly, which wet Chen Mo's hair.

"I believe." Dinka's smile was very clear and sunny.

The iron fence door opened slowly, and Chen Mo and Dingka walked in holding hands. No matter what happens this time, they will not let go easily, absolutely, even if they really want to separate.

When Xi Hui saw her son hugging Dingka happily, she saw Chen Mo beside Dingka pull down with a livid face.With a son like Dinka, even if Dinka married a wife, Xi Hui would be very reluctant, but if Dinka married a man, even a mother would not accept it. The love between men and men?What the hell is that? !

"Hello, Auntie." Chen Mo's handsome smile only made Xi Hui feel more disgusted and disgusted.

"I'm not good. Ever since Dinka met you, I've been even worse!" Xi Hui sarcastically sarcastically without leaving any room for it.

"Mom!" Dinka yelled out.

Chen Mo squeezed Dingka's hand tightly, signaling not to talk back.

"I came here in a hurry this time, and I didn't bring any gifts. Please forgive me." Chen Mo's smile was very sincere, exuding charming charm.But Xi Hui doesn't like this!

"You didn't invite yourself here, what are you still worried about, I wish everyone in the world knew about your crap!"

Xi Hui felt a pang of anger in her heart and wanted to vent it.

"The children are here, so don't lose your temper." Xia Liang knew more or less about the relationship between Dingka and Chen Mo.

Regarding this matter, Xia Liang and Xi Hui have different views, but they still have some objections and worries about this matter.

"You guys are here~~~" Xia Jian was also at home, dressed casually, stretched from the spiral staircase and yawned leisurely.

"You guys are going to come out~~~~" Xia Jian walked to Chen Mo and Dingka and lowered his voice.

"En." Chen Mo's answer was firm.

"My dad doesn't mind you guys, but Dingka's mother seems to be more difficult to talk to, but I believe that Mo Da Zonggong can definitely do it~~~" Xia Jian put his arms around Chen Mo's shoulders, like a good buddy from Dingka Chen Mo was taken away by the side.

Xi Hui next to him was about to issue an order to chase away Chen Mo, but seeing how Xia Jian and Chen Mo knew each other, he had no choice but to give up.Dinka also obediently sat on the chair and helped her mother choose dishes.

"Dinka told mom that you like men, right?" Xi Hui's eyes were full of eagerness.

"Mom knows you like girls, right?!" Seeing Dingka's silence, Xi Hui went mad with anger.

"Mom..." Dingka met those old eyes with an inexplicable cry.

"I like Chen Mo, I like him so much, I must have him." Ding Ka's words angered Xi Hui.

With a "slap", a crisp slap slapped Dingka's face fiercely, causing burning pain.

"I didn't give birth to you to let you spoil yourself! What's so good about that man! Don't you even listen to your mother?!" Xi Hui's voice was very loud, and Chen Mo was in Xia Jian's room. He also discussed with Xia Jian how to deal with it, but when he heard the sound, he felt that something was wrong, so he rushed out of Xia Jian's room.

"Dingka!" Chen Mo looked at Dingka's right cheek which was very red and swollen, and breathed in distress.

Xi Hui became even more angry when she saw it, and ran to the kitchen to cook.

"It hurts, right?" Chen Mo lightly stroked Dingka's swollen face.

"It's okay, my mother just needs to let it out to extinguish the fire." Dingka just smiled, which made Chen Mo's heart hurt even more.

"I promise, Dingka, I promise you will get the blessing of your family." Chen Mo's eyes shone with firm belief.

"I know." Dingka kissed Chen Mo's brow bone.

When it was time to eat, Xi Hui deliberately refused to bring the bowl and chopsticks to Chen Mo.

"There are only four bowls and four pairs of chopsticks at home, and he has no share." Xi Hui looked at Chen Mo coldly.

"It's okay, I'm not hungry, you can eat." Chen Mo still smiled politely at Xi Hui.

"You use my bowl and chopsticks." Dingka pushed the bowl and chopsticks to Chen Mo's eyes.

"Yes, yes, use mine!" Xia Jian also helped Chen Mo.

Xi Hui's face became increasingly ugly.

With a whoosh, Xi Hui stood up abruptly.

"You still have the face to come to see me. If you really want Dingka, then you should give up as soon as possible!" Xi Hui smashed the chopsticks on Chen Mo's face, showing red marks.

"Mom, don't do this!" Dingka also stood up and talked back to Xi Hui.

"Let me tell you Dinka, as long as I am still in this world, I will never agree to let you be with this man!"

Xi Hui smashed the bowl on the dining table, and Xi Hui, who was a little out of control, smashed the bowl on Chen Mo's head. There was a gash on Chen Mo's forehead, and blood flowed down, soaking Chen Mo's eyes, staining his eyes. Eyeballs are red.

"Mo!" Dingka panicked, and hurriedly wiped the blood on Chen Mo's head with his sleeve.

"It's okay, I'm fine." Chen Mo still smiled palely.

"Mom, why do you have to do this? You are my mother, can't you care about my feelings?!" Dinka's eyes turned red with excitement, and a fishy-sweet smell gushed out of his throat.

"Do you still know that I'm your mother?! You unfilial son!!!" Xi Hui's anger was gradually extinguished when she saw that she had hurt Chen Mo, but when Dingka talked back, Xi Hui's anger also increased. Burn more and more fiercely.

"I'll make it clear to you today, do you want your mother or this man?!!!"

Shaking with anger, Xi Hui smashed everything on the dining table on the floor, food, chopsticks, knives and forks, glass, pieces...

Before Ding Ka could say anything, Chen Mo stood in front of Ding Ka.

"Auntie, we are sincere. I came here today just to ask for your blessing..." Before Chen Mo could finish speaking, Xi Hui slapped Chen Mo hard. The sound of the slap was too dull. I don't know how much effort was used, Dingka looked at Chen Mo's mouth was cracked, and a little blood flowed from the corner of his mouth.

"Even if I die, I won't bless you!" Xi Hui's words brought Dingka destruction.

"Mom. Didn't you let me choose?" Dingka stood in front of Xi Hui and said every word.

"Dingka, don't..." Chen Mo wanted to hold Dingka's hand hard to signal.

"I choose the man in front of me, I choose Chen Mo, I like him, I love him!" Dingka cried out.

"Then why do you still come to Mom, why do you still ask for my opinion and worry about my feelings?!"

"If you want to get married, get married!" Xi Hui was so angry that she was about to faint, Xia Liang supported Xi Hui who was about to collapse on the ground, and sighed for a long time.

"Because you are my mother, but you never know what I want, what I like, and what I care about."

"Since I was a child, I have listened to you in everything, but this time..."

"Just let me be capricious!"

Chen Mo and Dingka smiled at each other, and both knelt down.

"I'm sorry, Mom, whether you agree or not, we are getting married."

"Because you are my mother and my only relative, so I want to tell you that I also want to get your blessing."

Ding Ka supported Chen Mo to prepare to leave.

"Dinka, if you walk out of this room with this man, from now on you won't have a mother like me, and I won't have a son like you!!!"

Xi Hui's voice howled miserably in the room, and Dingka smiled sadly.