want to be your person

The end is getting closer and closer, and I suddenly feel very reluctant... ——XL

Ding Ka helped Chen Mo, whose head was covered in blood, to go out, ignoring Xi Hui's harsh words behind him.I have come to this point and I can't give up, even if I don't get blessings, so what?It's fine as long as we don't separate from Chen Mo.

"Dingka..." Chen Mo stayed where he was and grabbed Dingka's wrist.

"You stay here first." Chen Mo knew that a relationship without blessings would never be complete.

"No, I want to be with you." Dinka's temper is also very stubborn.

"That's your mother, Dingka, can you be considerate? Chen Mo knows that it is inevitable to be apart for a while.

"But I just want to be with you, I don't care about anything else." Dinka cried, crying sadly.

"You stay here first, and I'll come back when Auntie's anger gradually subsides. Didn't you say you would believe me?"

Chen Mo held Dingka's face in his hands, with a soothing and gentle tone.

"But I... I'm afraid..." Dingka hugged Chen Mo almost out of breath.

"I'm afraid of being separated." What Dinka feared most happened.

"I want you to be blessed by your relatives, and we will be happy." Chen Mo raised his head and forced tears into his eyes.

"Okay, then when will you pick me up?" Dinka didn't know what to do.

"You stay with auntie for a while, I will come every day."

"Don't lie to me..." Dingka was too reluctant, his dependence on Chen Mo had reached the point where his whole world would collapse without him, and Dingka admitted that he was too worthless.

Chen Mo rubbed Dingka's cheek with some itchiness, and slightly loosened his interlocking hands. Although this was not what the two of them wanted, they still had to bear it.There will always be ties in love, and those ties wrap you up so you don’t get hurt. In fact, it’s just the selfishness of confinement. People don’t have to be happy. They always think that we can choose to leave room for us. Where is the room? ?All I can see is the cliff of the abyss, and I am afraid of falling headlong, but if the lover is there, there will always be someone who chooses to jump off, either to live together, or to die together.extreme?But I think it's perfect.

Chen Mo's hand slowly loosened, the fingertips were still warm, entangled in a messy and free and easy heart.

"If I can't be by your side during this time, take care of yourself and don't worry me all the time..."

Chen Mo wanted to look at Dingka a few more times. If he wanted to meet in the future, it might not be so easy.

"Well, you have to take good care of yourself." The moment Chen Mo finally let go, Dinka grabbed him tightly again.

"Take care of Momo..." Dinka's instructions were scattered on the glass window illuminated by floating light.

Chen Mo smiled, nodded vigorously, then gradually turned around, walked to the open iron fence without moving, turned around, and looked at Dingka again, Dingka felt that Chen Mo wanted to say something, But Chen Mo turned his head back again, this time he really didn't know how to turn his head and left.Chen Mo got into the car, tears could no longer be held back, he hit the steering wheel with his fists hard, lay on the steering wheel and closed his eyes for a long time, I hope you can come back to me this time...

Dingka stood outside for a long time before getting into the messy house. At this time, Xi Hui thought that Dingka followed Chen Mo and left regardless of her, so she sat on the ground and cried bitterly. Wiping tears, constantly comforting something.

"Dingka!" Xia Jian also thought that Dingka had followed Chen Mo.

Xia Jian really felt that Chen Mo had put too much effort into Dingka. In order to prevent Dingka from falling out with his mother, Chen Mo could only let Dingka stay and accompany him to restore the family relationship between Dingka and Xihui, so that Dingka and Xihui could be restored. Xi Hui transferred all her anger to herself, so that Dingka would not be hurt, and at least she could feel more comfortable, without always having to suffer between herself and her mother.

Seeing Dingka coming back, Xi Hui didn't believe it at first, she stared wide-eyed for several seconds, then stood up from the ground tremblingly, dragging Dingka and crying and cursing fiercely.

"I knew my son, you still love your mother, right?" Xi Hui cried hard.

"I'm sorry Mom, I was also at fault." Dinka saw his mother become like this for himself, and his heart was torn apart.

"Mom knows you still like girls, right?" Xi Hui grabbed Dingka's arm tightly.

Xi Hui's eyes were helpless and eager, she wanted Dingka to tell herself: Yes, I like girls, I am normal!

but……

"Mom, I will only be Chen Mofei in my life. I beg you not to force me, I am your son..." Dingka closed his eyes in helpless pain, and the tears dried on the dirty marks on his cheeks.

Xi Hui took several steps back uncontrollably, her shoulders trembling violently.Xi Hui stared at Dingka resolutely for a long time, Xia Liang supported Xi Hui who was about to faint, but Xi Hui threw her away.Xi Hui frantically tugged at Dingka's collar, but Dingka could not fight back because it was his mother, and he was afraid of hurting her.Xi Hui pushed Dingka into the room and closed the door hard.Dinka felt bad when he heard the sound of locking the door with a key outside...

"You stay at home these few days, and you are not allowed to go anywhere!" Xi Hui's voice was crazy and sharp. She felt that she did this for the benefit of her son, yes, it was for the benefit of her son.

"Whenever you think it through, I'll let you out!" Xi Hui restricted Dinka's freedom and locked a bird that worshiped the blue sky and could fly in a cage. It is a mediocre but living puppet.But the person who keeps the bird in the cage is selfish and even cruel, watching the beloved bird dying and still refusing to open the cage to set it free.

"Mom!" No matter how Dinka yelled, Xi Hui remained unmoved.

Dinka finally stayed and had an independent room, which was quite big, with a large bathroom, a soft bed, and a TV that could be watched at any time. The sadness that lightens everything.Dingka has been having nightmares these days, dreaming of all bad things, for example, dreaming that he broke up with Chen Mo, and Momo suddenly died one day... He simply didn't sleep and stayed up reading until the early morning, and then Knowing that he was exhausted and exhausted, he fell asleep drowsily.

Chen Mo also abided by the agreement with Dingka, and would visit him every day, but Xi Hui would not open the iron gate to let Chen Mo in. Chen Mo would wait for several hours every day, just standing there, his legs were numb .Dingka was a little tired from doing the questions, so he swayed to the window and looked around and saw Chen Mo standing outside, separated by a tall iron gate, Dingka felt a twinge of pain in his heart.

"Chen Mo! Chen Mo!!" Ding Ka slapped the window and shouted eagerly, but the distance between Ding Ka and Chen Mo in the room on the second floor was too far, even if Ding Ka broke his throat and Chen Mo couldn't hear him .Dingka ran to the door locked by Xi Hui and tried hard to break open the hard door, but unfortunately, he was helpless.

When Ding Ka came to the window, he couldn't see Chen Mo's face clearly. What was his expression at this time?Dingka just stood like this and looked at Chen Mo downstairs quietly. He didn't know how long it took before Chen Mo reluctantly left. The distant back was mixed with the bleak trees in the distance. Sadly suffocated to death.

Dinka wrote on the glass of the window: IIOVEYOU.

Xia Jian would secretly let Dingka out when Xi Hui was not at home. Xia Liang and Xia Jian couldn't take care of Chen Mo and Dingka's affairs.

"Thank you, Xia Jian."

"Okay, hurry up and go back early." Xia Jian released Dingka. Dingka was going to school to find Chen Mo. It had been a week since they had seen each other. Dingka wished he could fly over now!

When Dingka arrived in the school classroom, he didn’t see Chen Mo’s figure. Dingka asked his classmates to know that Chen Mo might have gone to the toilet. Dingka also ran to the toilet in a hurry. After seeing it from the side, he followed Dinka into the school toilet.

"Why haven't you come to school these days?" Wang Kaige suddenly appeared from behind Dinka like a ghost, and closed the door of the toilet.

Dinka didn't want to say a word to Wang Kaige, and wanted to open the toilet door quickly, but Wang Kaige blocked the door.

"I didn't fuck you last time, so I'll try it here today!" Rebelliously, Wang Kaige put a series of studs on the cartilage of his ears, made a small hole in the corner of his mouth, hung a small steel ring, and put his hair on It was dyed jet-black, with strands of silvery white at the ends, and the whole person's temperament was much refreshed, not as rebellious as before, but Dingka was inexplicably afraid, especially when he thought of Wang Kaige's pressure on him that day. Licking my body with my tongue... It's so disgusting that I want to vomit!

"Don't touch me!!!" Dinka responded loudly, screaming excitedly and breathing heavily.

"Is Chen Mo really that good?! How do you know I'm not good if you don't want to try with me?!"

Wang Kaige pulled Dingka's body, pinched Dingka's chin domineeringly, his dark eyes showed unwilling resentment.

"I'd rather die when I'm with you!!!" Dingka slapped Wang Kaige hard, but Wang Kaige licked the corner of his mouth indifferently, showing a distorted smile, which made people panic .

"Then play with me before you die!" Wang Kaige showed a fierce look on his face and was about to tear Dingka's clothes.

The small door of the cubicle in the toilet was pushed open abruptly. Chen Mo had already heard the conversation between Dingka and Wang Kaige. Dingka was stunned for several seconds when he saw Chen Mo suddenly appearing. The endless anger made Chen Mo lose his mind.Chen Mo pulled Wang Kaige's hair fiercely, and punched Wang Kaige heavily. Blood gushed out from Wang Kaige's nose and mouth, dripping on Chen Mo's white shirt, which was particularly dazzling.Wang Kaige was dizzy from being punched.

"The bruises on Dingka's body were caused by you, right?!!!" Chen Mo's eyes turned red with anger, and his bursting fists fell on Wang Kaige's body. Anger often makes people's strength more powerful. .

"That's right, I did it. Do you feel distressed? Did you misunderstand Dinka? Hehehe..."

Wang Kaige's mouth was too harsh, obviously he was beaten badly by Chen Mo, but every sentence hit the most vulnerable place in Chen Mo's heart.

"I'll kill you!!!" Chen Mo dragged Wang Kaige, whose face was covered in blood, to the toilet. Chen Mo kicked Wang Kaige to his knees, and forced Wang Kaige's head into the toilet Pressing it, Wang Kaige's face was soaked by the smelly water from the toilet, and he choked several mouthfuls of toilet water. Chen Mo pressed the toilet button repeatedly, and all the water in the toilet gushed out and covered Wang Kaige's entire head. department.Ding Ka on the side was stunned for a long time, knowing that Wang Kaige was about to be drowned, so he hurriedly stopped Chen Mo's behavior.

"Mo, don't do this, you will go to jail if he dies!" Ding Ka broke Chen Mo's hand.

Seeing Dingka's anxious look, Chen Mo gradually let go of his strength. Wang Kaige sat on the ground and coughed in embarrassment, vomiting out a large pool of gray-white water stains in the toilet.

Chen Mo strangled Wang Kaige's neck, looking terrifying.

"If you play any tricks in the future, I will definitely destroy you!!!"

Chen Mo led Dingka out of the toilet, and Chen Mo and Dingka did not speak along the way.Chen Mo felt uncomfortable, he should believe Dingka, Dingka also felt uncomfortable, he should confess to Chen Mo.

Chen Mo stopped walking, and Dingka retracted one of his legs.

"What's the matter, Mo?" Dingka saw it, and saw the unspeakable bleakness in Chen Mo's eyes.

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry... I'm sorry Dinka, I should believe you..."

Chen Mo's voice was so choked up that his heart really hurt!

"You're not wrong, idiot..." Dingka blinked moistly, letting Chen Mo press himself against him, Dingka knew that Chen Mo was tired, no matter how strong a person would be When he was tired, Chen Mo was always protecting him. No matter how he did it, Dingka knew one thing very clearly: Chen Mo loved him.Honey, if you can, please don't force yourself to smile when you are tired, I will feel bad, I will give you my arms, I will give you my shoulders, I will give you all my love, I just beg you not to go alone I will bear it alone, I will feel bad, really...

The trees on the campus sway freely with the wind, and the torment of the heart is crumbling.Sometimes we simply don't want the other person to suffer a little bit of harm, but after all, we hurt the other person. Pain not only brings pain, but also growth.I am glad that you accompanied me along the way, we will grow old together, die and be buried.

Others won't remember us, so, my dear, we just need to remember each other.

May your dear me, may my dear you, be fearless without knowing the heights of the sky and the earth, and reap happiness with repeated persistence without complaint.

The last is Iloveyou