forgotten boyfriend

After spending two weeks in the dormitory with nothing to do, it was finally time to go home for the New Year. Cheng Fang and I had to carry a lot of things to take the bus and transfer to the subway.With the heavy suitcase and the dirty air mixed with sweat and noise, it is painful to go home every year.

We had to take a taxi to the station early in the morning, and the two of us occupied the side of the road for a long time without seeing a car, but we were blown by the cold wind with car exhaust.

"When will you come?" Cheng Fang stomped on the side of the road.

"It's not too late." I glanced at my watch, "I said to take the bus, so why don't we just walk a short distance? Can you die of exhaustion?"

"Of course you can't die of exhaustion. Last year I helped you with your backpack." He said with disgust, then took out his phone and started listening to music.

I rubbed my hands, which were white with cold, and blew into my palms, and my gaze inadvertently fell on the street behind me.It is still early in the morning, and all the shops are closed, only the cleaners are sweeping the dead leaves on the street, and there are stray cats looking for food beside the trash cans. The whole city is no longer bustling at night, and once again calms down in the gray sky. .

"Don't leave me behind." A figure vaguely appeared on the side of the street, a white shirt with two buttons unbuttoned was exposed under the open gray coat, the scar on the chest had faded, the blond hair was disheveled by the cold wind, sticking to the thin hair on the chin On the stubble, there are a pair of sea-blue eyes in the light red eye sockets, so beautiful that they can drip water, "I'm sorry, I was wrong, don't go." He followed, his voice was crying, and his knuckle-knuckle hands grabbed me sleeves.

"The car is coming!" I heard Cheng Fang's cheers.

"Don't leave me alone." The blond man stepped closer, leaning against the faded billboard.My washed-white trousers looked too short on him, with the legs rolled up like a bum.

"Hurry up and take it away!" Cheng Fang called me, "Where is the promised car?"

I wanted to walk away, but my body remained in place, letting the man approach me.

"Let's go, it's too late if you don't go!" Cheng Fang saw that something was wrong with me, so he dragged me and the suitcase into the taxi, and he grabbed the collar, and the wheels of the suitcase made a "creaking" sound on the red brick road. .

"What's the matter, you, you were fine just now." Cheng Fang told the driver the name of the place.

"I didn't" I didn't abandon you.Subconsciously said such a sentence in my heart, my gaze remained there, and the figure of the man seemed lonely.

"What's there to see?" Cheng Fang turned his head, only seeing the empty intersection.

"I saw him." I took a sip of water, and with the bumps of the car, for some reason, my eyes were a little bit astringent-

Staying at home for a winter vacation, not only received a bunch of red envelopes, but also gained a lot of fat around the waist. It didn't look like he had just been in a car accident, but he was a bit overnourished.In such a comfortable environment, I naturally forgot the man who appeared in my mind—it was not until I returned to the dormitory and saw the box still on the bed that I remembered that mysterious Mr. "M" had not appeared in my mind for a long time pass.

I stuffed the box under the bed and kicked it.

"How much hatred do you have against it?" Cheng Fang struggled to climb back on the bed.

"It made me almost paranoid, and I wanted to put myself in a mental hospital." Cheng Fang really got fat, and his legs became thicker.

"Big grudge, it made us almost miss the bus, remember?" I rolled back on the bed and threw the cross aside.

"You were insane at the time." Cheng Fang looked at the phone.

I ignored him and lay on the bed hugging the quilt, the silver cross shining brightly in the corner.

"Your eyes are as bright as obsidian." I dreamed that I was pillowed on his lap, holding a book full of technical jargon.His long blond hair brushed the tip of my nose, itching, leaving behind a not-so-strong scent of perfume.His eyes were full of smiles, and he brushed my forehead hair away with his right hand.I could smell him - a unique scent, unlike any perfume I'd ever seen, not any kind of floral or anything, reminded me of sunshine.

His face was magnified in front of me, and he pressed against my lips, with the smell of biscuits in his warm lips.Unexpectedly, I didn't refuse, just like when I was at the station that day, I couldn't help it.

stop!I sat up suddenly, and the dream was shattered, only Cheng Fang who was picking his feet.

"Cheater, you." Cheng Fang wiped his hands on his body.

"Let's go out for a while." Staying in the dormitory is also boring, and playing too many games will get boring, "Just walk around." Then he kicked the bottom of the bed again.

"Having a sexual dream again?" He seemed to have guessed something when he saw my reaction, "I said you should find a boyfriend, you look good, don't you like the beauty and weakness like you the most now? ?”

"You are the one who is weak, and you are the one who suffers." He slammed the door of the dormitory casually, "Do you want to look for it? I don't have anyone I like." The last sentence was weak.

"You have." Cheng Fang whispered something, but I still heard, "He's been looking for you recently."

Recently, my memory has gradually recovered. Although there is still no story about Mr. "M", there are some things that I don't want to remember.I was such an idiot back then.

I followed Cheng Fang to the pedestrian street next to the university town. There are several universities here, and there is a square behind it. Most students are used to strolling here.I avoided [-]th Street and everything that reminded me of an "M".

"Jing Yan?" A pleasant voice came from behind, with joy in doubt.Very familiar, it is that person.

"Who called me?" I chewed on the takoyaki and asked vaguely.Turning my head, I saw a face I least wanted to see.

Cheng Fang also stopped, and explained with a little embarrassment: "So you are also here."