right eye life

Chapter 85 Love and liking and obsession

Shen Qing originally thought that even if Zhang Shiyu didn't like him, his impression of him wouldn't be too bad, but he didn't expect Zhang Shiyu to have such an image in his mind, but every word Zhang Shiyu said that poked his heart was true , not bad.

Shen Qing considers himself to be stubborn, but he feels that his heart is still good. Although he occasionally gets into trouble, it is not a big thing that hurts nature and reason, but he finds that the person who hurts the most is the person he likes.Shen Qing would rather go back to the past and slap her two big mouths hard to wake herself up, but unfortunately there is no turning back in the world.

He used to be self-righteous and felt that the biggest resistance between him and Zhang Shiyu was worldly vision and pressure. Who knew that Zhang Shiyu's rejection of him was based on morality and ethics, and Zhang Shiyu simply hated him.

Zhang Shiyu should hate him, which one of the things he did to him is a trivial matter, if Shen Qing is Zhang Shiyu, he would have to cut him into pieces in order to vent his anger, Zhang Shiyu can only get along with him on the surface He is broad-minded, what else can he ask for.

"But Shi Yuge, I know I was wrong now, I changed it, I really changed it..."

How would Zhang Shiyu answer?He would probably squint at Shen Qing with contempt and taunt: "I will forgive you if you change it? How can there be such a perfect thing in the world."

No, not even a contemptuous squint, because his brother Shi Yu couldn't see it anymore.

In just half a year, Zhang Shiyu seems to have completely changed himself. He used to be able to maintain the illusion of being a brother and friend on the surface, but now he doesn't even want to put on that face, and speaks more and more harshly.

Only then did Shen Qing realize that he knew very little about Zhang Shiyu. He didn't know why Zhang Shiyu went abroad, what Zhang Shiyu experienced abroad, and what Zhang Shiyu thought in his heart.Shen Qing knew that he liked Zhang Shiyu wishfully. From the anxiety at the beginning to the calm acceptance later, it was all Shen Qing's business alone. He never considered Zhang Shiyu's thoughts, as if he liked Zhang Shiyu, Zhang Shiyu Should like him too.

Isn't this normal?This has been the case with everyone and everything he has encountered since he was a child.

Of course not.Only now Shen Qing figured it out.

give up?Shen Qing was not reconciled, that was the person he had loved with all his heart for ten years.Ten years is enough for him to grow from a kid to his present age, how many decades can a person have.

As soon as Shen Zhan came home, the housekeeper rushed to report to him. The young master had been sulking all night in the room, and he wouldn't open the door no matter what.Shen Zhan pushed open the door of Shen Qing's room with a smile, and sure enough, he saw him lying on the bed with his arms behind his head, with a melancholy expression.

Sitting by the bed, Shen Zhan touched Shen Qing's butt in fear, "Yo, who made our young master unhappy?"

"Brother, I don't want to chat today." Shen Qing turned his back to his brother.

Shen Zhan rubbed the soft short hair on Shen Shenqing's head, "Now we, Ah Qing, are doing well, and we have started to hide things from his brother. It really is a big deal."

Shen Qing waved the hand on his forehead, "Brother! My hair is all messed up!"

"Okay, okay, I'll go." Shen Zhan stood up and pretended to leave, then quietly went around in front of Shen Qing, squatting in front of his bed to look at him: "Really don't want to say?"

Shen Qing sat up straight, raked his hair twice and said, "Brother, am I vicious?"

Shen Zhan stood up and laughed, "Our Ah Qing can be called vicious, so there are no good people in this world."

"I'm selfish and arrogant. I never consider other people's feelings. I cause trouble everywhere and often hurt others... Isn't it vicious?"

"Ah Qing, did you go to see Zhang Shiyu today?"

Shen Qing bowed his head and remained silent.

Shen Zhan sighed: "Ah Qing, you have been such a dead temper since you were a child. You will definitely get something if you see it, and you will never give up until you achieve your goal. But have you ever thought about whether you really like Zhang Shiyu? Or, do you love Zhang Shiyu?" Is it Zhang Shiyu?"

The word love made Shen Qing panic for no reason, he liked Zhang Shiyu very much, so much that he could put all of himself in front of him, but Shen Qing never thought of "love".

The word "love" is too heavy, Shen Qing feels that he still can't afford it.

"What do you love or not? I like him and I am willing to give everything for him. Isn't that enough?" Shen Qing's words flickered.

"But you don't even dare to say a word of love." Shen Zhan said, "Ah Qing, I have never told you this before, now I want to ask you, how do you know that you are not obsessed with him?"

"How could it be an obsession?" Shen Qing was anxious, "I have liked him for ten years, how many ten years have there been in my life, are the feelings of ten years all obsession..." Shen Qing couldn't go on talking, he I began to feel that what Shen Zhan said might be right.

Shen Qing was too obsessed with his ten years of unrequited love, as if Zhang Shiyu had to give him something in return after ten years of dedication. Shen Zhan was right, he was too obsessed with Zhang Shiyu.

But Shen Qing always felt that something was wrong, he would be happy when he saw Zhang Shiyu, he wanted to be with him, he wanted to hug him, he didn't want to be separated from him... How could all these throbbing be obsessions.

"Brother, I can't say no to you, I only know that I really like him."

After chatting with Shen Qing, Shen Zhan was relieved a lot. Shen Qing didn't like Zhang Shiyu as much as he imagined, at least not love, he was so timid that he couldn't even say love.

Shen Qing is still too young to be able to distinguish the vast difference between liking and love.

Shen Zhan hugged Shen Qing, "Ah Qing, if you are wronged, tell your brother that he will protect you."

"Brother, you should learn to let me take it on myself, can you still protect me for the rest of my life?"

Of course.But Shen Zhan didn't say anything.

……

Shen Wu didn't show up for several days, but reappeared after Shen Zhan and Shen Qing left.

But Zhang Shiyu didn't want to see him at all, and Shen Qing reminded him of those past events. Without Shen Wu's acquiescence, those various insults would not have happened. Shen Wu just paid a little attention to him, and he would not As for being bullied, there is no room to fight back.

He still fought back, that is, the year he first came to Shen's house, he had a fight with a little fat man who called him a bastard, and the reward he received was a whip, and the medal is still crawling on his arm to this day on the scar.

"Shi Yu, did Ah Qing come to see you today?"

Shen Qing was a stone in Shen Wu's heart, which was neither painful nor itchy.

"Come, I scolded you away."

"Ah Qing is just like a child, don't be as knowledgeable as him."

"I'm a cripple who can't do anything now, how can I meet him? Why don't you tie him up and don't let him come out and bite people." Zhang Shiyu fumbled for the scar on his arm through his clothes, and said to Shen Wu The attitude is also polite.

Shen Wu noticed something was wrong with Zhang Shiyu, and asked carefully, "Shiyu, did that kid mess up again?"

"Shen Wu, I don't want to talk today."

"What did Ah Qing do to you? See how I teach him."

Zhang Shiyu pulled the corners of his mouth in a self-deprecating manner, "If you want to teach him a lesson, go quickly and don't bother me."

Shen Wu was so choked by him that he couldn't speak, and he said after a while: "Shi Yu, you can tell me if you are unhappy."

Shen Wu didn't understand why Zhang Shiyu's attitude towards him became so bad after he admitted that he liked him.

"Shen Wu, do you think my eyes can still be cured?"

"Definitely."

But Zhang Shiyu has been passively refusing treatment, he even refused to let the doctor give him painkillers.Shen Wu didn't understand why Zhang Shiyu wanted to be cured so much, but at the same time resisted any actions of the doctor.

"Lend your auspicious words."

Zhang Shiyu dreamed again at night. For a while, he dreamed that he was being bullied, while Shen Wu was watching coldly, and for a while, he dreamed that Shen Wu died to save him, and before he died, he said he loved him.

He woke up in a cold sweat, with a headache that was about to explode. He didn't know the time, and turned over and over on the bed with his head covered. Beans of sweat rolled down his forehead, and the pillow towel was wet.

"Shen Wu, you are really a disaster star."