Pet me, are you addicted?

In the spring of the second year, he was sent to Africa again to provide free medical treatment for a tribal people there.I once asked him, I heard that everyone only went there once, why did you repeat this mission over and over again, and didn't turn down this task?He said that only there can he feel the meaning of his existence.

Tu Hao, my dear!His soul never returned to my side, he went to his own heaven, where he was able to exist forever.

To this day, it is still difficult for me to determine when he returned to me three years ago, whether he appeared in the same city as me ten years ago, whether he patted the shoulder from behind 13 years ago call me.

Whenever I look back on the past, everything seems like a fleeting dream that never really happened.Perhaps, he never really existed, just like now, he never came or left.

Instead, it was Li Xuan, I could feel his real existence.Last month, he took the initiative to chat with me online.Under normal circumstances, he would not chat with me unless he wanted to tell me something important.

"It's been a long time since I saw you." This was Li Xuan's opening remarks, direct and simple, as if he was reluctantly finding a reason to chat.

"Yes!" I just met a kid from the Normal University. He was in his university dormitory. It was winter vacation and he was the only one in the dormitory.

"Is it in Fuzhou?" Li Xuan asked.

"Yes." I replied.

"When will you go home for vacation?"

"Didn't go home this year."

"I haven't chatted with you for a long time, I didn't expect you to change a lot."

"Has it become what you like?"

"囧... My wedding, do you want to come?"

"For gay weddings, of course!"

"What are you crazy about!"

"Is it true love?"

"Of course! I've always been very serious about relationships."

"What's the matter, how long have you known each other?"

"It's been almost two years! You should get to know girls, and you realize that you can be your ideal boy without any scruples. Someone will take care of you and help you. That feeling is really subtle and touching. and peace of mind."

"I know a lot of girls, you mean, let girls help me?"

"I don't know what to say about you, but no matter what you decide as a good friend, I support you too."

"I may know what you mean, try to date and fall in love with women, just like you did with men. You think there is still a choice."

"I don't know, you should know yourself best!"

"I want to know your experience, tell me about yourself."

"I met a girl worthy of my entrustment, it feels like a dream before!"

"So happy, congratulations!"

"I sincerely hope that you are also happy, so I respect all your choices, if you feel happy yourself."

"We will all be happy for you, especially Lin Fan."

"The kid is getting married soon."

"However, if you serve the wine before him, he might be a little angry!"

"Why?"

"His wedding has been postponed. Of course he will be angry if you suddenly say you are married without saying a word!"

"No wonder you ignored me just now, you postponed it until a few months, you know?"

"You told him?"

"Yes!"

"You should chat with him first."

"Go back to accompany him during the Spring Festival."

Back then, if it wasn't for Lin Fan's letter of introduction, maybe Li Xuan and I would never have had the chance to know each other.Lin Fan must never have imagined at that time that Li Xuan and I were both comrades.To this day, he still seems to be torn between whether introducing the two of us was a good thing or a bad thing.

For a long time, Li Xuan has been hiding his gay status from Lin Fan. It wasn't until I talked about myself with Lin Fan that Lin Fan suddenly realized the truth.Probably because the two of them were young, Li Xuan often showed his pre-mature appearance in front of Lin Fan.

Once, I was chatting with Lin Fan about the class reunion. I said that I was most afraid of the reunion and didn't like nonsense.Lin Fan immediately carried Li Xuan out, saying that Li Xuan was talking nonsense and blasted me for a few blocks. He always felt that what Li Xuan said was not true.At that time, I hadn't heard from Li Xuan for a long time, so I asked, "Does Li Xuan often talk to you?"

"No, once a year, and then I go home. I'm lying almost every day. In fact, I don't like my buddies like this, but I've been like this since I was a child, and I'm used to it." Lin Fan replied.

"Really, once a year, are you Cowherd and Weaver Girl?" I sneered.

"As far as he is like a bird, even if I like men, I can't look down on him."

"Then what do you like?"

"Haha, that's hard to imagine, so don't assume it!"

"When will you get married?"

"It was supposed to be this year, but it was postponed again."

Lin Fan once told me that he found that he had a little marriage phobia and was a little scared.I asked him which aspect, is it because of the relationship between the two of them?Lin Fan said, there is no aspect, everything is good, but I don't want to be so early, get along very well, and this is the only wife in this life.

The news that Li Xuan is going to get married suddenly, I am afraid that Lin Fan is as surprised and puzzled as I am. Although he wants to express more blessings and joys from the bottom of his heart, there is always something blocking him in his heart.After chatting with Li Xuan here, I chatted with Lin Fan.

"Li Xuan is getting married. Actually, I'm very happy for him, as long as he thinks he is happy." I said.

"Yes, I think you and him are really two types of people, so the lifestyles they choose are completely different." Lin Fan replied.

"It's good to be happy, and it's interesting to live a different way!" After I finished speaking, I was surprised at my boldness.

"I agree very much. I remember that a long time ago, I told you that if you delay someone else's girl under pressure, I will despise you."

"You can't think of Li Xuan like this, everyone's situation is different, whether you like a man or a woman, this is not 100%."

"Bisexuality is worse, isn't it?"

"He has really met a woman who can be entrusted to. If it is true love, he should be blessed. As long as it is not at the same time, there is nothing wrong. It is also harmful to like two women at the same time!"

"Damn it, it's not the same time to play with a girl today and a boy tomorrow!"

"The point is to be sincere, not to play, to be happy with each other."

"Haha, I'm not that lucky. Two people at the same time. My wife is very close. I think it will fall into her hands in this life. By the way, how do you know that when someone meets true love."

"I trust him, and you should trust him too."

Although I was typing like this on the keyboard of my mobile phone, I couldn't help muttering in my heart, do I really believe in Li Xuan?That night, I spent the night in the student dormitory of the Normal University, as if I had returned to the time when I was on campus, and my thoughts returned to a few years ago, ten years ago, or even more than ten years ago.

The last time Li Xuan and I met, I think it was already two years ago.That was the first time I went to the hometown of Li Xuan and Lin Fan. At first, it was just to attend the wedding of my high school classmate Xiaopang, and I contacted Lin Fan in advance.Unexpectedly, Lin Fan happened to go to the countryside for a wedding, so Li Xuan received me first.

At that time, Li Xuan and I hadn't been in touch for a long time. We hadn't met formally since we graduated from high school, except for a 2-minute chat at the train station.And six years have passed since the time when they ran into each other at the train station.At this moment, I am still quite nervous and uneasy when I am asked to go to his hometown to meet him so abruptly.

Take the bus from the county seat, head towards the expressway, and get off the expressway in less than an hour.I thought I would arrive soon, but the bus zigzagged on the small roads in the township for a long time before arriving at the destination station.

After getting off the bus, I walked to a pavilion and told Li Xuan that it was a pavilion in front of the station.Li Xuan asked me to wait for a while, so after a few minutes, I saw a familiar but unfamiliar figure approaching from a distance, the figure was getting closer and closer, it was indeed him, dear Li Xuan, long time no see, he has gained weight.

Li Xuan took me to his home, and Li Xuan's mother enthusiastically prepared a simple dinner.After dinner, we sat in front of his house bored, waiting for Lin Fan to come back from the countryside.As the sky gradually dimmed, Li Xuan suddenly decided to take me out for a walk.

We walked all the way from the door of our house through the bustling market to the desolate fields.The field of vision was a pure land, and we walked around the field along a cement road next to the field.During the period, Li Xuan chatted with me about the years in high school. He lamented that many classmates lost contact, everyone lost their previous enthusiasm, and they were not at all active in the party.We chatted about work again. Li Xuan had been to Singapore and originally wanted to work there, but due to various reasons, he came back.

After returning from the field, we went back to our house and waited.After an unknown amount of time, a phone call came from Lin Fan.Li Xuan took me to the street, at an intersection under the dim light, I saw Lin Fan, still the same, without excessive enthusiasm and intense greetings, still so cold and handsome.

We went to Lin Fan's house together and met Lin Fan's girlfriend, so happy!We chatted a little at Lin Fan's house, and we were about to leave.

"Li Xuan, then I will entrust Ouyue to you tonight, you have to take good care of him!"

Lin Fan had ulterior motives, as if he had planned all of this from the very beginning.I followed Li Xuan back to his home and came to the room on the second floor. I saw two beds, and suddenly remembered that in the third year of high school, when Li Xuan came to spend the night in my room, there were also two beds in my room.

But, in Li Xuan's room, who is the other bed for?Li Xuan turned on the TV, but he played computer games there.The bathroom is in the corridor outside the room. I went to take a shower first. Since it was winter, I was wearing warm pajamas and pajamas, so I didn't change any clothes.After washing, I lay down on the bed in my pajamas and pajamas. On the surface, it was as calm as a windless lake, but my heart was already turbulent.I watched TV absent-mindedly, my thoughts were mixed, and I thought that tonight, this night, I was doomed to sleepless again.