Pet me, are you addicted?

This feeling and this scene seem familiar, is it destined to reincarnate, or is it a man-made nostalgia?

For so many years, the relationship between me and Li Xuan has always been in a state of ambiguity, so close, yet so far away.

In the years since high school, I've often thought about that night, how close we were, how free, and yet it all seemed like a dream.

We looked at each other in silence, as if what happened that night never happened.I always tell him about it when I get a chance, but only on the Internet.

I can feel Li Xuan's uneasiness and guilt, he doesn't want to talk about this matter, maybe it doesn't matter, I feel aggrieved, but once I face Li Xuan, I can't bear to bring up the old things again.

Just like that, distracted and uneasy, I climbed onto Li Xuan's bed and lay down under his quilt, while he sat far away in front of the computer on the desk, deliberately concentrating on his own affairs, as if my arrival hadn't happened at all. What affected him, so calm and at ease, so calm.

I held the remote control in my hand and switched the channels of the TV. Many stations were broadcasting the new version of the Gods List. It had been like this for several Spring Festivals.I felt so bored, but Li Xuan looked at the TV with great interest and said it was pretty good.

I wondered for a while, I am lying on your bed right now, we have rarely seen each other for several years, it's fine if you don't tell me I'm pretty, I don't even want to take a serious look at me.But a remake of a bad drama has been on the air for several years, and you don't feel tired at all, so you can boast about it.

If you like to watch it, then put it on this station!I put the remote control aside, and didn't watch the new list of gods on TV, but played with my mobile phone by myself.After a silent stalemate, and I don't know how long it took, Li Xuan finally got up and went to wash up.

I still couldn't hide the excitement in my heart. I lay down for a while, and sat up for a while, and before I sat in my arms, my mind was already confused.I've been fantasizing about this scene for so many years, and now it's actually about to happen.Soon, Li Xuan will sleep with me, just like that summer.

I couldn't believe that this wasn't a dream. I opened my eyes wide and watched every corner of the room, feeling every breath I took.However, after Li Xuan washed up, he didn't climb directly onto the bed, but continued to sit in front of the computer in his pajamas.

He seems to have guessed my mind, deliberately teasing my appetite, so that I can't stop, and then he took the initiative to call him to the bed, so that he can put on a very reluctant posture, as if because of my strong Reluctantly, I slept with me.

I'm not so easy to be fooled. Compared with forbearance, I'm not so easy to reveal my scheming.Even without you, I can still sleep peacefully alone.So, I lay down quietly, closed my eyes tightly, and pretended to be asleep, but my ears were erected vigilantly, listening to Li Xuan's every move.

Although I couldn't see what Li Xuan was doing, I felt very confident that he must have noticed me. I didn't care about him at all. Whether he slept or not, I was asleep anyway.Then, I heard the sound of the computer shutting down, the sound of Li Xuan getting up, and the sound of Li Xuan's footsteps.

The footsteps were getting closer and closer, and finally disappeared by the window. Is he going to bed?I couldn't help laughing, and opened my eyes unapologetically, Li Xuan's figure suddenly came into view.

I saw him get into the bed and glanced at me from the corner of his eye, but he didn't lie beside me, but sat and watched TV, holding the remote control in his hand, constantly switching channels.

What a nuisance, he must have noticed that I was not asleep, so he changed his mind about going to bed temporarily, nasty guy!I wanted to turn around and turn my back to him, but my body refused to obey me. I faced him, with the tip of my nose close to his body, sniffing his scent.I can't even imagine how much I like this man, and I never get tired of everything about him.

Although Lin Fan often told me about Li Xuan, but from what I heard, the Li Xuan that Lin Fan hated happened to be the Li Xuan that I liked.On the contrary, his imperfection attracts me to get to know him. I even envy Lin Fan, who can understand Li Xuan's faults, but I just face Li Xuan helplessly, unable to see his smile or sorrow.His anger, his happiness, I know nothing of.

Li Xuan finally turned off the TV, and finally he was willing to lie down in bed beside me.Just like that night in that summer, at first, we all lay peacefully, our limbs were motionless, and our minds were already full of thoughts.The difference is that Li Xuan awakened my body that summer, but now, it's time for me to relive this memory.

I am impatient, I am afraid that this night will pass in a hurry, I feel that I have worked so hard, even harder than the Cowherd and the Weaver Girl, they love each other at least once a year, but I still don’t know whether Li Xuan loves me or not, we have several times I haven't had the chance to see each other for a year.Perhaps, after this night, we will never meet again.

I hugged Li Xuan tightly, I wanted to tell him that I like him, I love him very much, but I didn't dare to say it, I was afraid that Li Xuan would reject me.I wanted to kiss Li Xuan's mouth and his body, but I didn't dare, I was afraid that my brutal actions would destroy the original beauty.I can only hold him tightly, I can only press my cheeks against his cheeks, feel his temperature, feel his heart.

The next day, I took the car to attend Xiaopang's wedding.At night, I fell asleep again at Xiaopang's house.At that time, Li Xuan sent me a text message asking if I wanted to go to his house to sleep.I was very happy. If it wasn't for the long distance and whether there was any means of transportation, I would definitely rush to Li Xuan's house.

I fantasized that Li Xuan must not be asking politely, but really miss me. He obviously likes me, but he never shows it on his own initiative.That night, because I was so full of thoughts about Li Xuan, I almost went crazy and couldn't sleep all night. I really wanted to break through the night, go to Li Xuan's house, and tell him everything I wanted to say.But the night is so dark that I can't see a ray of light at a glance!

On the third day, I came to Li Xuan's house by car from Xiaopang's house.Li Xuan sent me to the bus station again, and when I got in the car, I really wanted to say goodbye to Li Xuan.How many years have passed, and we have always maintained a close mystery.

The moment the car started, I secretly took a photo of Li Xuan outside the car window.I was shocked to find out, dear Li Xuan, he really got fat.

Three years before that, Li Xuan would occasionally chat with me online, that was in April.

"Hi", Li Xuan sent me two provocative letters.It's rare for Li Xuan to take the initiative to greet me, which makes me flattered.

Even though I was just chatting with text on the Internet, I still acted excited and excited.In fact, I am more lively and playful in words than in words.

"Hi", I replied provocatively, looking melancholy in my loneliness.

"How is my old friend?"

Li Xuan probably felt my melancholy, turned into a literary youth, and came up with an ancient prose.

"Why are you so polite!"

Like being given a dose of stimulant, I turned into the old man Li Xuan said, and my emotions flowed freely, reaching a climax.

"Wen crepe."

Li Xuan corrected my unintentional mistake.Unintentionally?Well, my Chinese pinyin is really not up to standard, at least I can't tell the difference when I roll my tongue.

"Why can't I type this word!"

I found an excuse and blamed all the guilt on the innocent keyboard.

"okay!"

Li Xuan was magnanimous and forgave me extremely generously.

"How are you?"

I asked.Li Xuan did not answer.

"Li Xuan, I really want to have an in-depth exchange with you."

I continued.

"Forehead?"

Li Xuan seemed puzzled.

"I thought I might be gay."

I said it bluntly, but in a false subjunctive.

"Forehead……"

Li Xuan seemed to understand now, but he seemed a little dazed.

"why?"

Li Xuan asked.And that's exactly what I'm trying to say.

"Because I'm always excited when I'm sleeping with a guy."

I typed out this line quickly, with a sly smile on my face.

"Are you thinking too much?"

Li Xuan simply treated me like a child, which made me very speechless.So, I typed six dots in the past.

"..."

"..."

Li Xuan replied with six points provocatively.

"Why would you want to tell me about this?"

Li Xuan continued to ask.

"because I like you."

I could hear my heart beating and feel the pulse expand.

"From where?"

Li Xuan appeared calm and rational.

"You're asking how I like you, aren't you?"

I can't believe that Li Xuan didn't feel anything.

"Ah."

Li Xuan affirmed.

"Life, psychology, physiology, which one do you want to hear."

I deliberately said it mysteriously and mysteriously, and pretended to be closed.

"I want to know."

Li Xuan said slyly.

"When I first heard Lin Fan introduce you, I felt that you were very special. I wanted to know you, so I asked Lin Fan to write a letter of introduction to take this opportunity to get to know you."

I can't believe that I have started talking to Li Xuan from the beginning to the present.

"Special? Why am I so special?"

Li Xuan asked puzzledly.

"He said you looked like a girl!"

I betrayed Lin Fan unintentionally.

"Grass!"

I can hear the word breaking out.

"Would you like to listen later?"

I was afraid that Li Xuan would be really angry, so I asked tentatively.

"Go ahead."

It seems not angry, but also want to hear my confession.

"For some reason, we stopped dating. Sometimes I would meet you on the road and feel very nervous. Seeing you dressed more and more gorgeously, I felt inferior and wanted to avoid it every time."

I spoke from the bottom of my heart.Li Xuan sent an emoji of "wiping sweat" over, expressing his shame.

"Thanks to Lin Fan, we started eating together."

I continued talking, and started to say good things about Lin Fan to make up for the lack of meaning just now.

"Hey, you left me in a few days."

The more I speak, the more sensational I become, the "storyteller" that the writer Mo Yan said.

"I'm dizzy."

After Li Xuan passed out, he sent a spinning emoji.

"Finally, the dream I've been thinking about day and night has finally come true!"

I continued to be provocative and couldn't stop.

"..."

Li Xuan sent an ellipsis.

What I can clearly remember is the first time I talked to you.

I was like a sentinel guarding the back door of the classroom, which happened to be the staircase.I leaned against the window at the top of the stairs, while pretending to look at the scenery downstairs, while secretly paying attention to the classroom door of Class 3 (3).Soon, class one ([-]) of high school was over, and the students walked out of the classroom one after another.I nervously scanned the stream of people passing by in front of his eyes.Finally, your figure has entered the scanning range.I saw that you walked out of the classroom alone and were about to go down the stairs.My heartbeat suddenly accelerated, but I still pretended to be calm and chased after him.I followed you up the stairs and put my hands on your shoulders from behind.On the surface, it looks extremely natural, as if we have known each other for a long time, like an old friend.When you turned to look at yourself, I greeted you just in time.