Nancheng, nothing old.

Lu Yian's first operation went well, but the doctor said that there was too much blood in her brain, which severely compressed the nerves. In the following time, she might lose sight and memory loss.Then die.A craniotomy needs to be performed quickly, but the risk is very high. It is recommended to send it to another hospital, but first wait for Lu Yian to wake up to see if she has survived the first test.

When she saw Lu Yi'an, she was weakly lying on the bed and hadn't woken up yet.Aunt Li kept crying and was helped out by Uncle Lu.

If Lu Yi'an wakes up, everyone will support her.

But what if you can't wake up.

That night, Lu Yian had a high fever.Aunt Li and I have been rubbing her body with alcohol to cool down. I can't imagine what will happen if I really can't see Lu Yian again.Even if I have already planned to leave her and never keep her, I can still come over when I want to see her, and call her once if I want to hear her voice. There is always a chance in a year or two.However, what to do when there is no future.

In a daze, Lu Yi'an kept calling Qinghan, Qinghan, and every time she lost consciousness, she would only shout these two words.Aunt Li couldn't hold back her tears when she heard this, she asked me to take care of Lu Yi'an first, and then went out.

It was not until the early morning of the next day that Lu Yi'an woke up. Her head was tied with a bandage, her head was shaved, her face was thin, her eyes were dull, and she only squinted at people. She kept calling "Mom" and held Aunt Li's hand.

Then he didn't forget to say to me, Jiang Ming, thank you, stay away and be polite, I'm just an outsider.After discussing with Aunt Li and Uncle Lu, it was decided to tell her about Lu Yian's condition. The blood in her brain was too deep, and the medical technology in J County was too risky. She was going to transfer to a hospital in Chongqing or a hospital in Shanghai. Lu Yiping went to contact her. .

I won't go to Shanghai, and I won't go to Chongqing either, just stay here, how long I can live depends on God's will.

Lu Yian was very stubborn.Whenever someone persuades her, she closes her eyes and does not speak. Zhang He has come, and her most respected teacher in high school has also come, but no one can change her decision.

I like it here, I don't want to go anywhere, I just die here.

As she said, she gave back everything that Aunt Li had done to her back then, but Aunt Li didn't cry any more, she just settled down to Lu Yi'an and confessed her as a baby.All of this is just more hard-hearted than anyone else, Lu Yi'an is stubborn like a wayward child, he doesn't care about anything.Aunt Li said, let her go, I can't live without Yi'an.

I asked Lu Yian, are you afraid of seeing Chen Qinghan when you go to Shanghai?

She doesn't speak.

Once, when it was just the two of us, she said.

Jiang Ming, let's go, this is not your home, nor your family, and I may not see you later, and then I will forget you, I will not know how long you stay by my side, you are just a Stranger, don't come again.

Lu Yi'an closed his eyes and said hurtful words.

"Why are you doing this, start pushing away the people around you one by one."

"I'm tired. I only blame those people for not stabbing me to death. I begged them to kill me, but they didn't dare."

Jiang Ming, I'm very tired, very tired, tell me, why are people so tired in this world.She put a pillow over her head and curled up under the blanket.

Lu Yi'an's illness worsened after a week. She often had a high fever, and then she spoke in a daze, and her memory began to blur.But she was lucky, just lucky, there was an investigation team from a hospital in Beijing, experts in brain and surgery, specialized in projects in remote mountainous areas in the southwest, happened to know about Lu Yian's case, and could perform craniotomy for her, The success rate is 60%, half higher than that of J County Hospital.

Lu Yian can accept it.

She said, Jiang Ming, sometimes I want to die, but I don't want to die at all.If I die and never see Qinghan again, she may be sad.I haven't seen Lu Yiping get married yet, and I haven't asked my mother to forgive me yet.I don't want to die, but I feel that living in this world is too tiring, and the strings I've tightened have broken.

The delegation from Beijing will not arrive until the end of February next year.For the next time, Lu Yi'an will rely on medicine to recuperate her body, the doctor doesn't mind her walking and exercising in moderation.But she doesn't want to see the sun, let alone other people. She always says that a bald head is too ugly.

In mid-February, Lu Yian's vision began to blur. She had headaches all day long, and when the pain was severe, she would throw things around. They changed her to a separate ward. I was standing next to her, and she suddenly said to me: "Jiang Ming, Stand up a little bit, I can't see you clearly, should I change my glasses?"

Lu Yian's glasses were newly replaced years ago.As she said, I stood forward and stood beside her.

"Are you Jiang Ming? I can't see your face clearly."

Like a helpless child, Lu Yi'an sat on the hospital bed and began to mutter to himself.

"Chen...Her name is Chen...Chen what?" She looked up at me. "Well, you. Do you know that I have a friend named Chen?"

"Chen Qinghan."

"That's right, you are Jiang Ming. I just forgot again. Jiang Ming, please call me Lu Yiping."

She said to Lu Yiping, there are a lot of photos in the books in my bookcase, Qinghan's, go and find me one by one, I want to see her.

If my eyes can no longer see anything in the world, I must let me take one last look at you. Your smile is enough to accompany me through the rest of my life in darkness.

This is what she said before.

Lu Yiping quickly went home to find photos for Lu Yian. This man, who is nearly 1.8 meters tall, has been haggard a lot recently, and she didn't make anyone feel better.Uncle Lu took Aunt Li back to rest. At that time, she and I were the only ones in the ward.

She leaned against the wall, in order not to irritate her eyes, the curtains were drawn in the room, and the light was very dark.

I sit next to her.

"If you go back in time, will you still let her go?"

"meeting"

"Even if you already know that your farewell is a farewell, you will never see her again in this life, you will never hear her call your name, you will never be able to smile at her, and you will never be able to tell her that you love her. Will it? It will be the same, let her go, let her wait for you all night, and don't even say goodbye?"

"Yes, goodbye, even if I die, I can't say it to her."

"But, you will never see her again, you will forget her name, you will no longer remember her appearance, and even when you think of her again, you will ask me, who is that, you know I have a friend named Chen Instead of asking, do I have a lover named Chen, her name is Qinghan. You can no longer touch her, you will forget her voice and her body temperature. "

"I think about her often. I have pictured her countless times in my heart. Every word she said lingers in my ears every day. Her smile is all in my mind. I say love in my heart every minute. Her, if I forget, I can't see, I can't say I love her anymore, it's because I'm dead."

"Lu Yi'an, do you want to see her?"

"No, don't see her. If I don't see her again, I hope she forgets me and loves someone again, both men and women, and live a happy life."

"If she can't forget you, why should she wait for you?"

"Then I will wait for her too. I have been waiting for her in heaven for 70 years, which is not bad."

Lu Yiping came back very quickly, holding a dozen photos in her hand, Lu Yian quickly took the photos and hugged them in her arms, she looked at those photos, gently slid her fingertips, pasted them on her face, kissed the photos, smiled and shed tears, as if no one was around , didn't look at me again, and didn't speak to me.

Lu Yian, I love you.

I spoke softly, but no one listened.

I said goodbye to Lu Yiping and left the hospital.

"Lu Yi'an, goodbye. After seven years of love, I don't need it anymore."

There is no need to look back, and no need to miss it.

I called Chen Qinghan, but she still didn't change the ringtone, she still called me Jiang Ming kindly, I was silent, she was also silent, didn't ask me a word about Lu Yian.

"If you still love her, come and see her for the last time."

I hung up the phone, turned off the phone, needless to say too much, Lu Yian was tired, and so was I.

Later I heard that Lu Yian's procedure was scheduled for March [-]th. As for whether Chen Qinghan came or not, I don't know how the operation was going. After calling Chen Qinghan that night, I took a private car and went home. There are parents who love me wait for me.It just so happened that I had resigned from my job as a teacher before the winter vacation, and the rent was still two months away. I would go back to pack my luggage after a period of rest.

No matter what, I should have a new start.

Bless Lu Yi'an, I hope she will live a long and healthy life, be safe and sound, and there will be no ups and downs in her future life.

At that time, I left very peacefully. No matter how late, I must return home that night. I am extremely eager to see my parents. Since 2009, I have not returned home. It has been five years. My parents They have always loved me, understood me, and let me do what I like, how can I bear to use their tolerance wantonly.

I believe that Chen Qinghan will definitely come, and I believe that Lu Yian will be fine.They will be happy together in the future.As for me, the years are still very young, so be it.

tomorrow is a new day.

The author has something to say: Tomorrow is another new day,

This sentence appears many times throughout the text.

Hope tomorrow is another day