Please, Don't See Me

Later, Shu Jin couldn't remember whether Sheng Xinghe was interviewed by the newspaper.

After parting again, he would always think of the way Sheng Xinghe looked at him in the car, and then return to the moment when his heart beat faster.Ambiguous emotions seemed to be quietly growing between them, Shu Jin seemed to be unable to figure it out, but he was vaguely looking forward to something.

During that time, the thoughts grew wildly.

Whenever he thought of Sheng Xinghe, he would run with his classmates on the court, go swimming in the swimming pool, go for a walk with the dog, go to study, write one set of test papers after another, and get close to him desperately in the days when Sheng Xinghe was not around. , to become a better person.

The young man's energy was fully released, Shu Jin quickly rose from a limp child, his body stretched out, and he grew solid shoulders and a thin back.

Sheng Xinghe didn't have many days back from college, and the delicate balance allowed them to control themselves, neither taking a step forward nor taking a step back.

By the time Shu Jin finished his college entrance examination, he seemed to have been completely reborn.

After receiving the admission notice, Shu Zhaoyuan entertained relatives and friends, and entertained the Quartet.

Shu Zhaoyuan spent a lot of money, booked the best hotel in the area, and invited people to set off fireworks at night. He wanted everyone to know how promising his son Shu Zhaoyuan was.

The guests gathered, Shu Zhaoyuan drank one cup after another, none of the guests said that he taught well.

First, he subsidizes the orphan and poor student, educates him carefully, and sends him to one of the top prestigious universities, and then his own son is not far behind, and is admitted to a famous university in one fell swoop.Shu Zhaoyuan's business is booming, and the children in the family are also taking credit for him. During the exchange of cups and cups, he can't help boasting a few words, saying that a tiger father has no dogs.

Sheng Xinghe came later that day.

Shu Jin was forced to attend the banquet, and followed his father around as the protagonist.

As soon as she turned her head and saw Sheng Xinghe walking in from the door, Shu Jin's first thought was whether she would look ugly in such clothes.

For the first time in his life, he was wearing a formal shirt and trousers, which outlined his thin waist and long straight legs. The refreshing young man stood beside his fat father, full of vigor.

The hall was full of guests, Shu Jin saw Sheng Xinghe walking towards him, first called "Uncle" politely, and then whispered in his ear: "You have grown taller".

Shu Jin acted as if nothing had happened: "Oh, you just know, maybe I will catch up with you when you come back next time."

Sheng Xinghe stood up straight, lowered his eyes and said, "That's still far away."

Shu Jin's ears were feverish, so he stood up straighter: "I'm not yet eighteen, and I'll still grow!"

Sheng Xinghe said, "Soon."

Sheng Xinghe is not boasting, Shu Jin is always half a head shorter than Sheng Xinghe.

There is only a two-year gap between the two, one is growing up, and the other is also growing up, after all, even the fact that they are raising their height together makes Shu Jin feel secretly happy in his heart, as if only they have such a tacit understanding.

Sheng Xinghe came, and Shu Jin didn't feel that this occasion bored him.I was busy until the end, as long as I could look back at Sheng Xinghe occasionally, the meal would not be so difficult.

"Both of you are very proud of me!" Shu Zhaoyuan was drunk, and praised them in front of everyone, "I will be more promising in the future! Let me, Shu Zhaoyuan, go out, not relying on money or status, just rely on the two of you Proud!"

Later, Shu Zhaoyuan's eyes turned red again, and he put his arms around Shu Jin's shoulders: "Son, you are the pride of Dad!"

After everything was over, Shu Jin's mother called to congratulate him and gave him a red envelope.

Shu Jin was very happy today.

Sheng Xinghe stayed at home for one night, played games with Shu Jin, and walked the dog. It was the same as before, but a little different from before.

Shu Jin didn't dare to stand on Sheng Xinghe's right side to look at him anymore.

Because Sheng Xinghe's gaze was always on him, letting Shu Jin know that he was being watched all the time, he even stuttered when he spoke, and the deer bumped wildly.

But Sheng Xinghe was so natural, so Shu Jin was worried about gains and losses, and dared not ask or say anything.

During that summer vacation, Sheng Xinghe did not return to Yuecheng, but stayed in the city where he was studying. He said that he would do a small project with his classmates and set up a small company.Shu Jin watched all the movies about homosexuality he could find at home.

Some make him feel happy, some make him feel sad.

The beautiful plot of the movie gave him a new discovery, that is, liking a person has nothing to do with gender. It is not wrong to like the same sex, but it is really difficult to be in love with each other.

If there is a misunderstanding, if there is a wrong expectation, the best way is to keep silent.

On Sheng Xinghe's 20th birthday, Shu Jin bought a ticket to see him.

That night Shu Jin met Sheng Xinghe's roommates, classmates, and alumni who started the company together.Sheng Xinghe was the youngest in the class in the university that skipped the grade exam, and now there was a younger Shu Jin, and everyone teased him for being old.

"Is it my brother?"

"how old are you?"

"You look so cute, do you have a girlfriend?"

"Where did you go to college?"

These brothers and sisters gossiped a lot, and Shu Jin was almost overwhelmed by their inquisition. Sheng Xinghe came to rescue him and pulled him up from his seat to sit beside him.

Holding hands, very brief touch.

Sheng Xinghe's eyes swept across his face, with a smile on his lips, he continued to talk to his friends.

Shu Jin looked at his perfect right face, looked at his gray eyes, and felt a throbbing in his heart.

Someone made a joke about Sheng Xinghe and another female classmate who was not there.

Shu Jin listened, and seriously ate the food on the table.

I heard Sheng Xinghe say, "No more, my eyes."

The man said: "You are so nice, who cares about your eyes, don't use it as an excuse!"

Sheng Xinghe's tone didn't change, and he said with ease: "Parents will mind, and I'd better not waste girls' time than being taken apart."

Sheng Xinghe also used this excuse to prevaricate female classmates in high school.

Only Shu Jin knew that he didn't think so at all, he just felt that falling in love was a waste of study time and precious energy.But girls are always getting more and more courageous, unless they use physical defects as an excuse to be truly quiet.

But this time when he heard him say that again, Shu Jin felt a slight pain in his heart.

After the game ended, Sheng Xinghe's roommate offered to go home and sleep, and let Shu Jin go to their dormitory for the night.

Sheng Xinghe said: "He's not used to sleeping, I'll take him outside."

The roommate smiled: "Look at you, your brother won't sleep in the dormitory at his school?"

In the end, Sheng Xinghe took Shu Jin to book a hotel.

Shu Jin really didn't sleep in the dormitory.He was spoiled and obsessed with cleanliness, so Shu Zhaoyuan rented him a one-bedroom apartment outside the school on the first day of entering the university.Having never experienced group life, Shu Jin must not be used to sleeping in a stranger's dormitory.

On the way, Shu Jin asked: "Brother, do you really think girls would mind your eyes?"

Sheng Xinghe: "Why do you ask this?"

Shu Jin blinked: "I just want to ask, are you talking casually, or do you really think so."

Sheng Xinghe looked at him: "What's the difference between talking casually and really thinking so?"

"Oh, this." Shu Jin thought about choosing his words carefully, "I don't want to talk casually, I don't like to listen to it, and if I really think so, it's even more unnecessary. Like your classmate said, you are so nice, Who cares?"

Sheng Xinghe responded lightly, as if he didn't take it to heart.

Shu Jin's heart was sour, and he was a little anxious: "Are you listening?"

Sheng Xinghe said, "Yes."

Shu Jin was really mad at him.

The emperor was not in a hurry with the eunuchs, Sheng Xinghe always had a way to make Shu Jin angry in this regard, and with Shu Jin, no one could say that Sheng Xinghe was bad, not even Sheng Xinghe himself.

When you arrive at the hotel, you swipe your card to enter the room.

Sheng Xinghe asked suddenly: "Do you mind?"

The card hadn't been inserted into the card slot yet, and the room was pitch black, only the sensor light behind the door turned on briefly.

Shu Jin thought he heard it wrong: "Huh?"

Looking up, he found that Sheng Xinghe was looking at him again, he took a step back unconsciously, the light shone on half of Sheng Xinghe's face, his black eyes were as bright as starlight.

Sheng Xinghe asked again: "My eyes are not as convenient as ordinary people, and there are many places in my life that I can't follow my heart. The world I see is half less than yours. If it were you, would you mind?"

The impenetrable ambiguity that I felt before came again.

Like the dark road without street lights, and also like the dull back seat of a car after returning from Lingjiang.

Once again, Shu Jin clearly felt Sheng Xinghe's tentacles carefully stretched out from the depths, as if they were waiting for him to touch them, and then they could be tightly entangled. Finally, the sky thunder touched the ground fire, and the sparks burst.

"I, how could I mind?" Shu Jin stammered, "Otherwise, why would I call you brother and still be so nice to you?"

"I don't need you to be so nice to me." Sheng Xinghe said.

The sensor light went off.

In the darkness, Sheng Xinghe's voice sounded again: "Shu Jin, what I want is another kind of good."

boom--

Shu Jin heard exactly what kind of burning sound.

He trembled involuntarily, and he didn't know how long it had been before he heard a soft "ding", and the room was instantly brightly lit.

It was the first time he saw Sheng Xinghe's uncontrollable look, and it was also the first time he saw Sheng Xinghe showing the annoyed expression that only people of this age would have. Although Sheng Xinghe hid it well, but he knew Sheng Xinghe like him, and he understood something in an instant: Sheng Xinghe Sure enough, she also likes him.

Perhaps because of his identity and physiology, Sheng Xinghe hid it well, he had to think more, and he had to bear far more than Shu Jin.

Tempting each other, needing each other, and getting restless at the same time.

The feeling of sourness rising and beginning to ferment, I don't know when it has reached the limit.

Neither of them could control its expansion anymore, not even Sheng Xinghe, so they could only say it vaguely.

They've longed for a little catharsis.

Before waiting for a response, Sheng Xinghe turned around and walked in.

Shu Jin called his name, and then grabbed the corner of his clothes.

The entrance of the hotel room.

They stand one behind the other.

"What do you mean by that sentence?" Shu Jin blushed like a tomato, "Do you secretly like me? Tell me!"

About 1 minutes passed.

Shu Jin started to stutter, and said nonsense: "Are you kidding me? Let me tell you, it's not funny at all. Don't rely on my generosity and kindness to dare to make such a joke—"

"There's no 'sneak'."

Sheng Xinghe interrupted him.

"I just like you, Shu Jin."