Please, Don't See Me

As if the moon fell into the sea, and the whale roamed the galaxy.

The world becomes more splendid because of the blooming youth-love.

Shu Jin bravely grabbed the corner of Sheng Xinghe's clothes, and Sheng Xinghe responded directly to him.The shocking sentence "I just like you" made the suppressed feelings burst out, regardless of right or wrong, regardless of gender, they held each other tightly that year.

There is no "sneaky".

So Sheng Xinghe always looked at him, pampered him, and cared for him.

Shu Jin ignorantly responded to Sheng Xinghe's response. He not only wanted to give him another kind of favor, but also gave him more and more other favors.

The first time they formally held hands was when Sheng Xinghe sent him to the station the next day.

They were sitting on the bus, shy because of last night's confession, even Sheng Xinghe pretended to look out the window, but gently grasped Shu Jin's hand, intertwined fingers, and sweaty palms.

I had to let go when I got off the train, and when I entered the train station to pick up the ticket and queued up, Shu Jin stuffed his hand back again while no one was looking.

"I'll come to see you next month." Shu Jin lowered his head, even the back of his neck was red, "There will be a three-day long vacation next month."

Sheng Xinghe's small company has just started, so it should be very busy.

Shu Jin was taking the initiative in his own way, Sheng Xinghe knew it, and didn't refuse: "Okay, I'll wait for you."

They held hands quietly, and then turned into hooking fingers as the team moved forward, and finally separated completely reluctantly.

The first official hug came on the day of the kiss, and two things happened together.

It was one night that Shu Jin came to Sheng Xinghe's school again.

The weather is getting hotter and the air is sticky.

Wearing an ordinary T-shirt, clean canvas shoes, and carrying a bag on one shoulder, he just appeared on Sheng Xinghe's campus.Sheng Xinghe looked calm when he saw him, but when they reached a secluded place, Sheng Xinghe suddenly stopped and hugged him tightly.

Xia Ye's cicadas were chirping, Sheng Xinghe was a little fierce when he kissed him.

In a random kiss, they bumped into teeth, Shu Jin opened his lips with a "huh", and Sheng Xinghe rushed straight in without hesitation.

What follows is no first meeting.

In more than a year, they traveled between the two cities several times.

Delivered each other's first night in the last summer vacation.

Shu Jin cried so much that he bit the skin on Sheng Xinghe's shoulder, but when he woke up, he hung on Sheng Xinghe's body, begging softly for a hug.

They talk about ideals and the future.

Shu Jin wants to go to Sheng Xinghe's city after graduation, and then buy a house for them together, which should be very close to Sheng Xinghe's company, adjacent to a supermarket, so that they can learn to cook.The house doesn't need to be too big, only one bedroom is needed, and the balcony is given to puffs.

Sheng Xinghe will choose a suitable time, when he is full-fledged, when he is confident enough to shoulder another person's life, and tell Shu Zhaoyuan the matter.

That year and a half was very beautiful and exciting.

At home, they hide in the room and do i, hide in the kitchen and kiss, and while walking the dog, they hold each other's hands along the deserted river.

Outside, they roamed the streets generously, passing through couple outfits regardless of the gaze of others.

They had quarreled, mostly over trivial matters, for example, too many girls liked Shu Jin's social software, for example, Sheng Xinghe was busy with work and forgot to be late for appointments, and they had almost all the friction between lovers.Shu Jin deliberately stood on the right side of Sheng Xinghe and lost his temper, Sheng Xinghe grabbed him in front of him, and ended up kissing and hugging him.

In the following years, Shu Jin had to rely on those memories to keep from crying out in pain at night.

He once looked into Sheng Xinghe's eyes and thought about it countless times - he was at the scene when the accident happened when he was a child, and it would be great if he could prevent that from happening.

He even hated the instigator. When Sheng Xinghe was euphemistically told by his collaborator that it was best to change to a colleague on the first side of the business, he hated that person uselessly in his heart.

They will be better.Shu Jin thought.

Their years are long, and the rest of their lives can be expected.

Until everything came to an abrupt end.

Shu Zhaoyuan called and asked him where he was in a calm voice. After getting the answer, the next sentence was to ask him: "Where is Sheng Xinghe?"

Like the eve of a storm, such a situation made Shu Jin intuit what his father had discovered.

Shu Jin said that Sheng Xinghe was at school.

Shu Zhaoyuan said, "Last weekend, did you go to his place?"

Shu Jin: "Yes."

Shu Zhaoyuan: "What are you doing holding hands in the square? There are two men chatting in public, people who don't know think you are a couple. When your Uncle Li told me, he joked that I raised a son-in-law for myself, you Do you know how embarrassing I am?"

What about Uncle Li, Shu Jin could recall that he and Sheng Xinghe should have met when Shu Zhaoyuan treated him last time when he was admitted to university.

The world is such a small place, and it can be bumped into like this.

Listening to Shu Jin's silence, Shu Zhaoyuan cleared his throat: "Remember not to do that next time, it's not good to be misunderstood, my son of Shu Zhaoyuan is regarded as gay—"

"There is no misunderstanding." Shu Jin admitted.

At that moment, he seemed a little impulsive, but he didn't regret it.

Shu Jin: "Dad, I'm in a relationship with him, I liked him first."

Shu Jin couldn't quite remember Shu Zhaoyuan's rage.

Shu Zhaoyuan asked him if he wanted to be shameless, if he wanted a good girl, if he wanted to be a pervert, and why he wanted to like a man.Ask him what Sheng Xinghe can do with a disability, and if he is also blind.

Shu Jin hung up the phone.

At that time, he thought it was just a struggle with his father, as long as they were persistent, as long as they could prove their feelings, then one day his father would accept them.

He was afraid that Shu Zhaoyuan would call and scold Sheng Xinghe, so he called his mother and asked her for help.

The tug-of-war with Shu Zhaoyuan lasted for two months.

Shu Jin did not go home during the Mid-Autumn Festival.

Shu Zhaoyuan came to his school, took him to have a meal, and then told him a fact.

"Do you think the love you imagined is deep?" Shu Zhaoyuan said clearly in the attitude of a businessman, "That's because he doesn't know anything."

"What do you mean?" Shu Jin frowned, he thought his father had come to reconcile with him.

"I have never told you about this, Shu Jin." Shu Zhaoyuan said, "I have never told anyone, and I will tell you today. If you don't want him to hate you, you should keep this secret yourself."

"Sheng Xinghe's eyes were blinded by you."

"You were playing in the clearing, and when I heard the screaming, you were still holding a branch in your hand."

"You were less than three years old at the time, and you were so scared that you couldn't speak. I grabbed it and threw it away, and asked someone to send Sheng Xinghe to the health center."

"I'm blind, and I have to pay hundreds of thousands."

"I just invested in the construction of a factory, and I have a lot of foreign debts, and I have no money to pay for it."

"...Although it is said that children's fights are just accidental injuries, and strictness does not count as any responsibility, but my conscience can't make it through all these years. I treat him well to make up for it, but I didn't let you treat him like this! I didn't let you Get gay with him!"

Shu Jin froze in his seat, his face pale.

After a long time, he found his own voice and murmured: "You lied to me, you dare to say anything in order to make us break up."

Shu Zhaoyuan said: "I lied to you? He was also young at the time, so he didn't see people clearly... Think carefully about why I didn't take you there again, because I was afraid that some children would recognize you. Otherwise, you would think that I am really doing charity, and never He started funding at such a young age?!"

Shu Jin's ears buzzed, but he still couldn't believe it.

How could Shu Zhaoyuan speak so lightly?

Must be fake.

"If Sheng Xinghe finds out, do you think you can still be together?" Shu Zhaoyuan roared, "If you don't separate, I will tell the truth even if I don't want this old face!"

"What about the family?"

Shu Jin looked at his father, his eyes were as black as ink, and his lips began to turn white. His whole body was as fragile as paper, and it seemed that he would fall apart with a poke.

Shu Zhaoyuan didn't understand: "Which family?"

Shu Jin was still holding on to the last bit of hope, hoping that the person wasn't himself: "The person who took the responsibility and lost money to the Sheng family, did they admit what they didn't do?"

Shu Zhaoyuan frowned: "They are different. They are poor families, and they can't afford much after adjustment. At that time, his family was working in a factory, and after the children took responsibility, I paid tens of thousands of yuan for them, and they had nothing to lose. "

Shu Jin opened his mouth.

As if meeting Shu Zhaoyuan for the first time, it took him a while to find his voice: "You, did you pass the responsibility to others?"

Shu Zhaoyuan was stuck for a moment, his old face flushed, but he quickly said, "This is not what I'm telling you now!"

Shu Jin stood up suddenly, the chair fell to the ground, and he left without looking back.

The autumn wind was bleak, and it rained that night.

Shu Jin didn't sleep all night, and the next day he didn't buy a high-speed rail ticket, so he spent his wallet on the car and rushed to Sheng Xinghe's place.

Sheng Xinghe's city was also cloudy and rainy. He squatted at the door of Sheng Xinghe's residence. When Sheng Xinghe came back, he asked him gently why he didn't come in.

Shu Jin said, "I didn't bring the key."

Sheng Xinghe pulled him up. Shu Jin's hands were cold and his face was not good-looking. Sheng Xinghe didn't ask him why he didn't call him, but only said to him: "Are you an idiot?"

After entering the room, Sheng Xinghe poured hot water for him, and the moment they turned their heads and looked at each other, Shu Jin turned away immediately.

Sheng Xinghe asked, "What's wrong?"

Shu Jin didn't speak, only started to cry.

"It's uncle who scolded you again?" Sheng Xinghe squatted in front of him, "Then I let you scold me, okay? Or I can call him and ask him to scold me too. When he calms down, he might be able to accept us." .”

Shu Zhaoyuan had already called and scolded Sheng Xinghe to the point where he was utterly beaten.

Call him a white-eyed wolf, a wolf-hearted dog, and bring Shu Jin down, call him a pervert, he looks good on the outside, but who knows that the inside is broken.

"Good."

Sheng Xinghe touched Shu Jin's face, stood up, hugged him on his lap, and kissed the tip of his nose.

Shu Jin sobbed harder, hugged Sheng Xinghe's neck, and called him "brother" loudly.

He said sorry.

But don't say why.