Please, Don't See Me

Shu Jin couldn't escape.

As a family member, Shu Zhaoyuan needed Shu Jin to come forward for the examination and other results. Because of the fight and the matter of Shu Jin and Sheng Xinghe, he was so anxious and irritable that Shu Jin had to bear the reprimand of other patients and nurses.

Two hours later, the police came to the hospital to take notes, and Shu Jin learned that Shu Zhaoyuan also beat the other party to the head. The two were not in the same hospital, but the other party proposed to sue Shu Zhaoyuan, who had a criminal record and was released with a commutation of sentence.

In the evening, amidst Shu Zhaoyuan's gradually weakening scolding voices of "eat the inside out", "unfilial son", "betray my good son", etc., Shu Jin had time to close the door and send Sheng Xinghe a message again in the empty corridor.

Shu Jin: [Go back first, really, don't wait for me. ]

Sheng Xinghe: [I bought you a meal. ]

Shu Jin replied: [I have eaten. ]

Afraid that Sheng Xinghe would be worried, he sent another message: [I will feel more at ease when you go home. ]

Shu Jin refused repeatedly, but Sheng Xinghe did not insist.

But when Sheng Xinghe called again the next morning, Shu Jin said that he was not free - besides the injury on his forehead, there were five more bulging fingerprints on his face, and Shu Zhaoyuan hadn't touched him for more than 20 years. Everything is complete.

The corner of Shu Jin's mouth was broken, and it hurt when he moved.

"I'm sorry, brother." Shu Jin said on the phone, "I can't accompany you for the New Year. Tomorrow is the Spring Festival. I can't let him stay in the hospital alone."

"Okay." Sheng Xinghe didn't force it, and cared about Shu Zhaoyuan's situation, and then said, "I brought you a change of clothes, come out and get them."

Shu Jin walked to the door and looked outside. The corridor was outside the glass of the ward door. He didn't dare to let Sheng Xinghe see his current appearance, so he only took a quick look, but couldn't tell whether Sheng Xinghe was there.

"Can you put it in the nurse's station for me, I can't get away now." He lied.

"Don't carry it yourself." Sheng Xinghe knew that Shu Jin had something to hide from him, but he didn't ask, but just said, "As long as you want, I can stand in front of you at any time."

Shu Jin was almost overwhelmed with guilt.

Sometimes he really wanted to leave everything behind and run home, don't care about anything, just rush into Sheng Xinghe's arms, but he couldn't.

Not only because of his own injury, but also because of an invisible but tangible barrier between them.

Shu Zhaoyuan's condition was not serious, and after a few days of observation in the hospital, the doctor suggested to leave the hospital for conservative treatment.

In the past few days, he didn't have much contact with Sheng Xinghe, but knowing that Sheng Xinghe was living in his house, Shu Jin felt a sense of expectation.They didn't discuss any more emotional issues, and Sheng Xinghe didn't ask any more questions. On the morning of the first day of the new year, someone brought a small cake to the hospital with a blue whale drawn on it.

Shu Jin watched it all day before he was willing to eat it at night.

On the morning of the third day of the Lunar New Year, Sheng Xinghe said that he had to go back to work first.

Shu Jin panicked: "So fast?"

Was Sheng Xinghe angry because he was avoiding him?

"The next time I come, I may have to wait until the end of March." Sheng Xinghe said on the phone, "My schedule is full before the end of March, and there will be a few days at the end of the month. I will try my best to take time off and see if I can come back on the weekend, no affect your work."

Sheng Xinghe was not angry.

Shu Jin wanted to cry a little, but managed to hold back: "It doesn't matter."

Sheng Xinghe: "Or you can come over."

Shu Jin: "..."

"Basically, I won't be traveling for the whole month of March. You can come over on weekends, they all know you." Sheng Xinghe asked, "Is it possible?"

Shu Jin felt a burst of panic.

For this kind of mode of getting along in different places after confirming the relationship.

He didn't know why this happened.

He knew that he should at least give Sheng Xinghe an affirmative answer, a reassurance, instead of a vague "I don't have" or "I don't know", which would make Sheng Xinghe feel insecure, but he failed.

Sheng Xinghe asked again: "Is it possible?"

He finally responded in a low voice: "Okay."

Before Sheng Xinghe left, they didn't meet each other.

On the last day of Shu Zhaoyuan's hospitalization, Shu Jin came forward to seek reconciliation with the other party, and under the mediation of the police, he paid a sum of money to apologize.

The man whose head was broken saw that he couldn't lose his temper anymore, complained a few words and asked his son to see him off.

Shu Jin walked out of the alley with the young man, and the other party said, "I'm sorry, my dad didn't target you, so don't worry about it."

Shu Jin nodded: "I know."

The other party has a round figure, and he is no longer the boy who worked in the barbecue restaurant. He has been married and had children these years, and he has not lived much.The young man scratched his hair and asked with some embarrassment: "Your father, did he blame you for knowing about that?"

There was still a small piece of gauze on Shu Jin's forehead, and he looked a little haggard, which he couldn't deny.

The man said again: "Shu Jin, you are fine. You are different from your father. Although I blamed you before, I have forgiven you a long time ago."

Shu Jin lowered his eyelashes, not knowing what he was thinking.

Man: "Actually, it's not your fault. It's normal for you to forget. We were all too young at that time. Just like me, I remember that I should have told the adults that it was not me. One of my hair was also young at the beginning. I told the adults that it wasn't me, but after being asked and told several times by them, I felt that I did it."

It was the first time he said these words to Shu Jin.

Shu Jin originally wanted to calm down, but he didn't expect to be so sad when he heard the sentence "We were all too young at that time, it wasn't your fault", so that tears almost fell out uncontrollably.

"Actually, in the final analysis, we are quite sorry." The man said, "You did that, and my dad even went to report Shu Zhaoyuan and take revenge on him..."

Shu Jin wiped his eyes, shook his head and said, "It's him who wants to do something illegal."

Before parting, the man asked, "Are you still in touch with Sheng Xinghe?"

Shu Jin was stunned by the question, not knowing how to answer this question.

"He has been in your house for so many years. I think you two had a good relationship at that time." The man felt that his question was inappropriate when he said this, and said reassuringly, "In fact, he is really a nice person. Someone scolded me before, He even spoke for me, and it’s not necessarily because I hurt him that he would hate me to death.”

Shu Jin: "..."

"Let's stop this matter, you don't owe us anything long ago." The man said, "Even if you want to make compensation, he is the one who should make it up."

After Shu Zhaoyuan was discharged from the hospital, he insisted on staying in the hotel instead of staying at his son's house. Shu Jin guessed that this had something to do with his shady sexual orientation.

The father and son rarely spoke, and Shu Zhaoyuan almost regarded him as an enemy. The strange thing was that Shu Jin didn't feel sad about it.

Returning to the empty home alone, Shu Jin suddenly felt very tired.

The moment he entered the door, he lost all his strength, leaned against the door and slowly slid to the ground, feeling that his life had not really improved, as if he had never come out in the muddle-headed days five years ago .

He kept thinking of the phrase "you don't owe us anything long ago" that person said, trying to comfort himself to live more easily.

At least that's what he did well.

He sat on the floor and called his mother to explain the situation here. After chatting for a while, he obviously felt his frustration fade away.

The mother said: "You have done a good job, Xiao Jin. There is nothing wrong with the child, but the adults who did it all. You just corrected the facts. What he did caused him to reap what he did. Sooner or later, what he did backfired on him. It was supposed to be this day.”

Except that the thing with Sheng Xinghe was too unacceptable at the beginning, my mother hardly blamed him, but after so many years, my mother asked the same question as that person this night: "You and Xiao Sheng, is it still possible now?"

Shu Jin didn't tell her about the reunion with Sheng Xinghe.

So she didn't know that Shu Zhaoyuan's tantrum this time had something to do with Sheng Xinghe.

She said: "If you still like him, can you still contact him? Xiao Sheng is a good boy who works hard. I heard from your father that at that time Xiao Sheng told him that even if it was you who hurt him, he I want you too."

"He said that he would not look down on you or neglect you because of this matter, and would treat you well for the rest of his life. If you are afraid that the future will change, then he can guarantee that he will never change. He also said that he does not want any compensation, as long as You are enough."

"At that time, you were still children, and you didn't know if what you said was serious." She said, "I didn't intend to tell you this at first, but you have been alone for so many years, and I always feel that I did something wrong."

After hanging up the phone, Shu Jin stood up from the ground in a daze.

He opened the thin shoe cabinet to change his shoes, and found a pair of new men's slippers, which he personally selected and belonged to Sheng Xinghe.

Walking into the living room, there are two more pillows on the sofa, and the books that were originally piled up in a mess have become neat.

He walked into the room again and found that the bedding had been changed. The heavy but not warm quilt had been replaced with a light and comfortable duvet. There were two fluffy pillows on the head of the bed and an extra one for him to use at night. desk lamp.

In the bathroom, there were two toothbrushes in the mouthwash cups, leaning against each other.

Shu Jin only regards this place as a temporary residence, but some people regard it as a home.

He had a sore nose, as if he had been completely awakened by something.

This is not the case five years ago.

They met again five years later, and Sheng Xinghe came to his city under uncertain circumstances to get close to his life, even though he never opened his heart, Sheng Xinghe did not stop.Shu Jin has always been a coward, but when they reunited, he only gently stretched out a corner and asked the guest room for Sheng Xinghe's phone number, and Sheng Xinghe grabbed him.

Shu Zhaoyuan's sudden release from prison and a fight ruined their Spring Festival.

But it was strange that at this moment five years later, when everything hadn't been dealt with, he suddenly wanted to be willful for a while.This feeling came on suddenly, as if the backlog should have exploded five years ago.

It is neither too early nor too late.

Even though he was still running away the last moment, the desire to run to Sheng Xinghe's side filled his chest at this moment.

Five years, he should be brave.

He took out his mobile phone to look at high-speed rail tickets and air tickets. Unfortunately, during the return trip during the spring break, the Spring Festival Transport did not give him a choice at all, and all the tickets were sold out.

He began to look for suitable online car-hailing services.

For such a long distance, there may not be many drivers who will pick up the order during the Spring Festival holiday, and the process is a bit long.

During this period, Shu Jin kept thinking about what the people around him said.

Lin Xiang said, "He must have forgiven you long ago."

The person who has been responsible for him for more than ten years said: "He is the one you should make up for."

Mother said: "He doesn't want any compensation, as long as you are enough."

Sheng Xinghe said: "If you still feel sorry for me, then from now on, it is you who are atonement."

He wants to take an all-night online car-hailing car and head to Sheng Xinghe's city.

He wants to tell Sheng Xinghe whether it is "I will talk about it later", not "I don't have it", and it is not a "good" word with unclear meaning and no guarantee, he wants to tell Sheng Xinghe——

He is greedy, he wants him all the time, there is no burden to want him.