Please, Don't See Me

Sheng Xinghe's home is actually quite far from their company, and it's neither a small one-bedroom apartment nor a location close to the subway entrance. It's completely different from what the two of them had envisioned.

The privacy and security of the real estate are very high. After entering the elevator with your fingerprint, you can directly enter the door of the house, eliminating the barrier of the entrance door.

Sheng Xinghe bought the house two or three years ago, and it hasn't been long since it was renovated and officially moved in, so there are no traces of life yet.

Shu Jin thought, maybe both of them thought about breaking up for real.

Just like he stopped going to the cinema after the breakup, Sheng Xinghe also no longer chose the future he originally planned, but chose a way that was more suitable for him, and tried his best to move forward in the direction of life that no longer had each other.

"I took the driver's license test a few years ago, and bought a car by the way." Sheng Xinghe said, "When I was planning to buy a property, the environment here happened to be good, and the route to work was not congested, so I bought it."

Sheng Xinghe's situation allowed him to drive, Shu Jin knew this, so he nodded.

Seeing him standing in an unfamiliar environment, Sheng Xinghe walked over and led him to sit on the sofa, then said, "I'll get you a glass of honey water."

"No need." Shu Jin grabbed the hem of his clothes, "I can drink very well now."

Sheng Xinghe sat down with raised eyebrows, expressing doubts.

Shu Jin said: "When I first graduated, the company I joined was relatively small, and everyone had several jobs. As a newcomer, I not only did design, but also served as the boss's assistant, and often accompanied him to social events. "

When Shu Jin talked about the past, it was something that Sheng Xinghe didn't know, "I got drunk many times, I don't remember how many times, anyway, you were the only one who got drunk so easily. Sometimes I would pretend to be drunk Well, anyway, they can’t tell the truth from the fake.”

It is very common for newcomers in the workplace who have just graduated from university to encounter such things.

Sheng Xinghe heard him talk about things that he hadn't participated in, except for a little distress, he didn't feel sorry for him. Shu Jin is also a strong person, and has never been an idiot.The more you listen to him, the more you can understand him.

"At that time, I didn't dare to resign." Shu Jin said, "Although the salary is not very high, it is enough for me to stabilize. And because the company has just started, the more things are piled on my head, the more I can learn. , It added a lot of points to my resume for job-hopping later.”

Sheng Xinghe asked, "Why don't you dare to resign?"

He could hear that Shu Jin's topic was consciously opening up.

Shu Jin tilted his head and leaned on the back of the sofa, with his legs crossed, playing with Sheng Xinghe's fingers one after another: "I don't have any money."

After saying these three words, Shu Jin felt embarrassed, took a look at him before continuing: "Actually, Shu Zhaoyuan left a sum of money for me when he went in, and I didn't move a single cent."

Is it guilt?

may be.

Shu Jin, who was only 19 years old at the time, couldn't draw the line between family affection and the law well. He knew that Shu Zhaoyuan deserved what he deserved, but as long as he thought that he was the culprit who indirectly caused Shu Zhaoyuan's imprisonment, he couldn't get rid of the torment of his conscience.

In that year, he seemed to owe the whole world.

All that he should pay back appeared in that year.

Shu Zhaoyuan suddenly revealed the truth in order to force him to break up with Sheng Xinghe, Shu Jin couldn't accept it, and he thought numbly that he would let this secret continue. As long as Shu Zhaoyuan didn't tell, then Sheng Xinghe might never know.

But after he met the person who had been blamed for him for more than ten years in the barbecue restaurant, after seeing the frostbite on his hands, he couldn't continue.

It was not easy to tell the truth, the news brought by Shu Jin subverted that person's cognition, and caused quite a stir in that family.

The tens of thousands of yuan in compensation to the Sheng family was paid by Shu Zhaoyuan on their behalf. The family has always been grateful to Dade, and has worked for free in the factory for a long time without pay, but the expensive medical expenses are also unbearable for them. light.

The fact that Shu Zhaoyuan took the initiative to compensate the poor workers and voluntarily subsidized the victim Sheng Xinghe received the attention of the government. Whenever Shu Zhaoyuan was commended, it was the time for the family to bear the condemnation of conscience.Even if they have to go far away in the end, they often buy things and send them to Sheng's family, and visit them every year and festival.

Because of that incident, the family paid a lot.

At that time, Shu Jin just wanted to make amends.

He took out all the money he had saved over the years to treat the family's sick mother, and he has always supported him until these years, but at that time he never thought that after the family learned the truth, they would report Shu Zhaoyuan's illegal activities. operate.

Perhaps at the beginning, Shu Zhaoyuan, as he himself said, had to let others take the blame and reduce compensation because of financial difficulties, but this was only the first thing he did that corrupted morals.

But after his "good deeds" were taken seriously, everything deteriorated further.

After he tasted the sweetness, he continued to fund Sheng Xinghe, and continued to receive government support as a "charitable entrepreneur".

People's hearts cannot stand comparison.

The family who had been wronged before saw the better life of the culprit, the harder it was to control their inner anger.That family had grasped a lot of secrets about the beginning of Shu Zhaoyuan's career, and in a fit of anger submitted them all to the inspection agency.

Shu Jin's so-called compensation was just wishful thinking. Just when he first started to rectify the matter, one month after he and Sheng Xinghe confessed the truth, Shu Zhaoyuan was officially detained for inspection.

Shu Jin did nothing well.

"Correction" does not exist in this kind of love-hate entanglement, everything starts because of him, and he can't control it or turn it around, so when Sheng Xinghe came to him, he couldn't answer the question "Have you ever loved me?" ".

Back then, Shu Zhaoyuan didn't know the reason, but this time they met each other on a narrow road, and only then did they know what Shu Jin did back then.

The money he left was legitimate income. The reason why Shu Jin didn't move was because of guilt rather than filial piety. He wanted to save his father and make a comeback. For a man, he doesn't even care about family affection.

In winter, Shu Jin's forehead wound hadn't healed yet, but fortunately it wasn't big at all, and there were shallow marks.

Sheng Xinghe had seen it a long time ago, maybe he knew how the wound came about when he was in the hospital, but he didn't ask anything, and gave Shu Jin a chance to confess.

After speaking these words, Shu Jin was a little tired.

It may be because of the alcohol, or it may have taken too long to say these words, his body leaning on the sofa became weaker and weaker, and his eyelids were so tired that he barely opened them.

Sheng Xinghe stroked the wound with his thumb and asked, "Why didn't you tell me these things before?"

Shu Jin was quiet for a while before telling him: "I don't want you to know...the warmth is all fake."

There was no one else in Sheng Xinghe's family.

Shu Zhaoyuan brought him to Shu's house and took care of him, so even if he was not happy to appear in a newspaper interview, he would agree to Shu Zhaoyuan's request.For a while, Sheng Xinghe showed Shu Zhaoyuan a kind of admiration that even Shu Jin had never shown to him. As Sheng Xinghe said before, Shu Zhaoyuan once played the role of his "father".

"For you, it's too much for him to hide the facts and lie to you for so many years. I don't want you to find out that even his guilt and compensation are fake." After Shu Jin finished speaking, he laughed at himself, "Brother, I Isn’t it very holy? I just think that we have broken up anyway and we can’t be together anymore, so it’s not bad for you to keep some good things.”

In fact, Shu Jin also saved some money, and planned to transfer it to Sheng Xinghe if he had the opportunity, but seeing that the other party was getting better and better, he knew that no matter how much he expressed, it was nothing more than being hypocritical.

Of course, if he didn't dare to say this, Sheng Xinghe would be angry.

Sheng Xinghe was silent for a long time.

Shu Jin was a little flustered, so when he raised his head to meet Sheng Xinghe's gaze, he subconsciously jumped and looked away.

"Why don't you look at me?" Sheng Xinghe stretched out his hand to touch his face, his eyes were burning, "You are so thoughtful, you have considered everything, why don't you dare to look at me?"

Oops.

Shu Jin thought it was not good.

"say."

Shu Jin became short of breath, and whispered, "I didn't..."

"Shu Jin." Sheng Xinghe let go of his chin, stood up and looked at him condescendingly, "No one likes your thoughtfulness, and no one likes your self-sacrifice! You want to correct your mistakes and make up for that family. True, fine, but I don't need it."

After finishing speaking, Sheng Xinghe turned around coldly and left the living room.

Shu Jin sat on the sofa in astonishment, he didn't expect him to react like this, and after a while, tears fell from his eyes.

A few minutes later, he suddenly got up from the sofa without even wearing slippers, and went looking for Sheng Xinghe's figure with his bare feet.This house is very big, with several rooms, Shu Jin opened two doors in a row, but Sheng Xinghe was not found.

Did he drive everyone away?

Shu Jin is getting more and more flustered, he didn't come here to screw things up this time, he came here to get back together, he had developed very well before, why did it suddenly happen like this?

In the last room, messy clothes fell all over the floor.

This room is quite large, it looks like a master bedroom, and there is the sound of water rushing from the bathroom.

Shu Jin held back her tears, pushed open the bathroom door and rushed in without thinking, and hugged Sheng Xinghe's waist.

The hot water poured down on his head, soaking Shu Jin's whole body in a blink of an eye, even his sweater was almost soaked. He called Sheng Xinghe over and over again, saying "Don't be angry", he didn't know what to do.

Sheng Xinghe didn't intend to talk to him, and after letting the water drench for a while, he turned around and pushed him against the wall for a deep kiss.

Shu Jin's whole body was softened by the kiss, and he choked on a few sips. Sheng Xinghe stripped him naked on the spot, pinched Shu Jin's face mercilessly with his fingers, and said bitterly: "Look at me!"

Both of them were in a terrible state of distress, Shu Jin's wet hair was thrown back, and the water continued to flow down the ends of his hair and his body.

Sheng Xinghe's nose and eyelashes were dripping, and his gray eyes were soaked, looking like broken glass balls.

Shu Jin was panting, his face hurt from being pinched, so mist appeared in his red eyes again.

He looked at Sheng Xinghe for a moment, looked at the eye that had been destroyed in his own hands, and stared at it so directly for the first time, his teeth chattered uncontrollably.

"Look at it." Sheng Xinghe gritted his teeth, "You did this eye, but I don't want you to pay for it, and I don't want you to make it up, and I don't need you to arrange my life experience for me!"

Shu Jin's body trembled, tears streaming down his face.

Sheng Xinghe seemed to want to engrave the words into Shu Jin's mind: "What's 'we broke up anyway, we won't be together in the future', that's just what you think, I never think that way, I don't want to keep what you think is better There is only one thing I want to keep, and that is you."

Shu Jin cried and nodded desperately: "I know, I know now!"

Sheng Xinghe gradually calmed down, let go of his face, and rubbed his lips with his thumb, his voice was hoarse: "...so you can look at it, and you can look at it with ordinary, normal eyes."

"It's part of me."

"It's also Sheng Xinghe."

Shu Jin wrapped his arms around the neck of the person in front of him, and was forced to stare at the gray pupil. He still couldn't control his trembling, but he persisted.

Before Sheng Xinghe was about to speak, Shu Jin raised his hand to caress the right eye, feeling the temperature of the eyelid gently.

The hot water splashed, and Shu Jin's cold hands became hot.

He pulled Sheng Xinghe down a little, sealed his soft lips, and sealed it with a kiss.