only half a lifetime

Ning Wei felt like a dream, and couldn't believe that Su Jian was going to get divorced, and Su Jian said that she wanted to live with her, so she wanted Ning Wei to treat her well!After a week, Su Jian decided to go home and tell the old man about these things. After hearing this, her parents persuaded her to leave and think about the child. Su Jian said that it was because of the child that she made do with it and spent the past few years with him. Feelings are growing, the child is older, and the child will keep it by himself.Parents also said how difficult it is for you, and they feel distressed and afraid that Su Jian will have a bad life.

Su Jian asked rhetorically: "After giving birth, have I used him? Every penny I spent was earned by myself. What did he control me? Even the money that I give to our family every month is mine. I earned it myself! At that time, I got married with more than 1 dowry money, and my father and I had to go back. I have been making do with it for the past few years, and I don’t want to make do with it anymore!"

After Su Jian finished talking about all the big and small things, the two elders were silent, but after a whole night they still thought that they could never leave. One was afraid that Su Jian would not have a good home, and the other was that it would be embarrassing in the village. What did they say? There must be.The second elder decided to see what it meant over there.

Ning Wei thought that this marriage would not be so easy to divorce, and sure enough, Su Jian's husband backed out, and Su Jian's mother-in-law and father-in-law all went to Su Jian to work.What Su Jian said were trivial matters, not major ones, so there was no need to be so determined to divorce.Su Jian's husband also made a promise, saying that he would transfer 5000 to another card every month, and let Su Jian hold the card. The bad parts would definitely be corrected, and Su Jian would give him another chance.

Ning Wei asked Su Jian what he thought, Su Jian said he would not let go, but Su Jian's parents advised Su Jian to think about it and give him another chance.Su Jian knew that Ning Wei was afraid that she would let go, so she gave Ning Wei a reassurance, and made Ning Wei believe that she didn't lie to her this time, and really wanted to live with her.But Su Jian couldn't help but the family said to take it easy, let's talk about it in two months.

When Ning Wei drove back, she cried for a long time in the high-speed service area. She asked Su Jian what she would do if her family refused to let her leave, but Su Jian was silent.Ning Wei knew what her silence meant. Ning Wei cried very hard. She didn't have the idea of ​​Su Jian's divorce at first, but Su Jian gave her hope. What Su Jian said was so sure that Ning Wei couldn't help but start planning Future life and work direction.But all of this is likely to become a bubble, Ning Wei cried and said to Su Jian, why did you give me hope yourself, why, why do you always do this, what you say will never count, but I still believe it.Ning Wei knew that if Su Jian couldn't get divorced this time, she would live together in the future, and there would be no future between the two of them.

Ning Wei sent Su Jian and the child to the community, and asked her to go down first, and find a parking space by herself.Because it was already past twelve o'clock in the morning, the cars on the road would be driving very fast, and Ning Wei had a car accident when he turned around.It has been two days since Ning Wei woke up again, and Ning Wei's brain is not very flexible when she just woke up, so people ask her what is what, it's a bit silly.Although the other party hit her, but the other party found someone, Ning Wei was held accountable for the accident when she was unconscious.

After waiting for another day, Ning Wei called her family after she woke up. The other party had a reason for this matter, and Ning Wei couldn't solve it by herself, so she could only tell her family.

After Ning Wei's accident, a passer-by called Su Jian. Su Jian was busy running around the hospital with the child, until Ning Wei woke up, and he was relieved.

Ning Wei stayed in the hospital for another four days, and when she was released from the hospital, her family took her back home.Because Ning Wei's previously arranged marriage is coming to an end soon, Ning Wei and the other party agreed that it will be a physical marriage. After a year, if they still don't have feelings for each other, they will separate. It happens that the man is young and not old enough to get a marriage certificate.

Su Jian's birthday is approaching, just a few days before Ning Wei's errand.It was originally planned that the two of them would go out to play, but now it is impossible.Ning Wei took Su Jian and the child home and spent her birthday with her at home.

On the fourth day after the wedding, Ning Wei took Su Jian to Guangzhou, because Su Jian said that he also wanted to go to Guangzhou, Su Jian and Ning Wei returned to Tianjin in advance, played in Tianjin for a day, and took her to see it in the evening Night scene, took a lot of photos.After the two went back, Ning Wei's mood was not very good and very unstable.She asked Su Jian about her husband's changes, and Su Jian said that there were no major changes.Su Jian also said this time, if she can't leave, she can only make do with it.Since the divorce broke out, Su Jian's father has been in poor health. Su Jian said that he didn't want to worry his family.Anyway, I have been making do with it all the time, Ning Wei asked what about me, Su Jian said it depends on you, I naturally want you to accompany me.

Ning Wei's mood was getting worse and worse, Su Jian decided to go back and talk to her parents again.Ning Wei knew that after the divorce happened, Su Jian's husband's family said a lot of bad things about Ning Wei to Su Jian's parents, which meant that Ning Wei provoked Su Jian to divorce, and this friend could not be trusted.Although Su Jian's parents had great trust in Ning Wei, they were wavered after all.

This time to accompany Su Jian back to his hometown, Ning Wei stayed in the hotel in the town, and stayed there for two days, waiting for Su Jian.Su Jian never contacted Ning Wei, and Ning Wei thought of the result.Su Jian and Ning Wei made an appointment to meet at the bus stop. After the meeting, the two went to the city to take the high-speed train, returned to Beijing, and then walked around the working environment where Su Jian used to work at the Beijing Railway Station. I took the high-speed rail again and went back to my place of residence.Su Jian told Ning Wei that the marriage would not be divorced. She said that she had a big fight with her family, and no one agreed with her divorce, and her father said that if she divorced, she would kill her father.Su Jian cried and said, I'm sorry, I want my dad to live another year.

Ning Wei was very calm, didn't cry, just said: "Then if I wait for you, wait for you for 20 years, and you don't have to take care of your dad anymore, will you be with me?"

Su Jian said: "Yes, if I have a bad time, I will."

Ning Wei smiled: "Have I always been just a spare tire? Su Jian, I know you like me, have you ever loved me a little bit, even just a little bit?"

"Yes." Su Jian said, "How can I have the face to tell you to wait for me, what if something happens?"

Ning Wei didn't dare to trust Su Jian anymore. In the relationship between the two of them, Ning Wei never had any hope. At first, she just wanted to treat her well and take good care of her, so that she was not alone when she suffered.But Su Jian gave herself hope time and time again, but let herself despair to the bottom time and time again.

Just before, although Su Jian's family had a prejudice against Ning Wei, when she knew that Su Jian was going to buy a sofa and TV for her family, Ning Wei placed an order from Jingdong and told Su Jian not to tell her family that she bought it. The family thinks about it.

Ning Wei may have suppressed it for too long, and finally the string collapsed.Ning Wei is depressed. She is fine before others, but she suffers from insomnia at night and cries, crying heartbreakingly.Finally one day, she drank and cut her wrists.It's just that God kept her, so she didn't die. She looked at the scar on her left hand and smiled wryly. This scar was made by herself.Because she had told Su Jian not to hurt herself when she was angry, and if she found out, Ning Wei would pay back double on her.That day, Su Jian got angry and hit her hand, which was red and swollen.

Ning Wei asked her: "Why are you doing this, do you remember what I said?" Su Jian replied angrily: Forgot.

Ning Wei said: "I said you are not allowed to hurt yourself, otherwise you will get back twice as much from me!" After speaking, Ning Wei picked up the wallpaper knife on the table and slashed it.The wound was open, and the tendons and fat inside were very clear.Ning Wei just said tremblingly: "I'm not you, I mean what I say, this time you remember it for me, don't hurt yourself in the future, you don't feel bad, I feel bad!"

The blood kept flowing, Ning Wei went to two clinics, and people said to go to the hospital, but it couldn't be solved, and stitches couldn't be done.Ning Wei went to the hospital by herself and queued up, paid for medicine and waited for stitches.Ning Wei stood in the hospital corridor and cried, she scolded herself in her heart, how could she be so cheap, how could she love someone so much, how could she be so disrespectful!Ever since she was young, Ning Wei sewed stitches for the first time. She gritted her teeth and cried out. She sewed six stitches. She didn't let Su Jian follow her because Su Jian was at work and it was not easy to ask for leave. She didn't want to burden her. .

Pulling back her thoughts, Ning Wei smiled, and a few new scars appeared on her right wrist.Ning Wei knew that she was suffering from depression through cutting her wrists. She didn't tell her family, fearing that they would be worried and asked her to go back.She was afraid that she would lose sight of Su Jian, so Su Jian cried and said, "There are so many people who love each other and can't be together, we are just one of them."

"Can it be the same?" Ning Wei cried. She endured what she had experienced from the beginning to the present. Only she knew how much she had endured. She knew she couldn't bear it.

When Su Jian was joking with Ning Wei, he asked Ning Wei to figure out how much Ning Wei spent and see how much he owed Ning Wei.Ning Wei got angry and did the math. From the beginning of returning to Wenyun to August 2018, she spent a total of 8 yuan, and she could find out everything she bought, because basically she bought it from the Internet.Except for gold and silver jewelry, which are bought in stores.In addition, the ones bought in the store must be 6 to [-].

Su Jian was also surprised when she saw the bill. She knew that Ning Wei spent a lot of money for herself, but she didn't expect it to be so much. Su Jian said, "My heart hurts." , Why do you go step by step.She thought that the rare two years had passed, and the disease had been overcome, but she didn't expect that because of a woman, she became depressed and committed suicide by cutting her wrists.

Ever since he committed suicide by cutting his wrists, Ning Wei knew that if he really couldn't get out and was trapped in it, he would have to go to a dead end sooner or later.So she wrote a will, in case of accidents.

Ning Wei asked Su Jian: "Is it because my leaving is according to the wishes of all your family members?"

Su Jian said, "No."

On September 2018, 9, Ning Wei said to Su Jian, I should go, since you have chosen the path, I can't disturb you by your side.Su Jian asked her: "Where are you going?" Ning Wei said: "Without you, it's the same wherever you go, it doesn't matter."

On September 2018, 9, Ning Wei handed over the photos and the 20th birthday card left to Su Jian: "It's getting cold, I bought you thick clothes, remember to keep warm, remember to wash your socks, thick I also bought socks for you. The pajamas in my hometown are too thin. I bought thick ones for you. Remember to take them back. No one will wash your clothes for you in the future. Don’t squat to wash them yourself. If you are too tired, use the washing machine to protect yourself. Waist. Remember to love yourself in the future..."

Ning Wei felt that the only person she owed was her parents. She was powerless, so she had to repay the favor in the next life.

Ning Wei sent the last message, there are several, all with the same content: as you wish.

Leaping forward, he closed his eyes.

Su Jian said:

We went back to our hometown to buy a house, closer to my parents.

We travel every year, twice a year, okay?

I really like you, I also have love, but not as much as you do to me

I'm divorced this time, you have to treat me well and don't let me down!

Will you always be so nice to me?Will you stay with me forever?