fall or redemption

Back at the hotel, he took a shower and changed into dry clothes. Sure enough, he felt sleepy and yawned. He thought that Jiang Han must be tired too, so it was just time for him to rest and sleep, so he could eat delicious raw fish Pian Congee snapped his fingers and said, "Perfect!"

He took out his mobile phone and sent Jiang Han a WeChat message:

Sure enough, it was me: Brother Han, you must be tired, you should go to sleep first, and we will go eat together when we wake up.cute little fox/

Jiang Shuihan: Okay, you should take a rest too.

Jiang Han is indeed tired, he hasn't been so presumptuous for a long time.After taking the medicine and replying a message, he really fell asleep.

Sure enough, he went to the kitchen of the restaurant on the first floor, and the fat chef saw him smiling enthusiastically, "Come on, hey, here are the ingredients I prepared for you."

Sure enough, I said thank you repeatedly and started to do it seriously and meticulously.As the saying goes, one time raw and two times cooked, as expected this time it was done very smoothly. He first soaked the rice in water, and then began to process the fish, removing the bones and slicing it in one go. The fat master next to him said in surprise: "I can't tell, the young man's knife skills are good." Ah! You know how to cook at such a young age?" Sure enough, he actually felt that he had a talent for cooking, which might be inherited from his father, and he joked, "No way, a genius can learn everything quickly!" The fresh fish fillets are washed and marinated with pepper, starch and salt, and then the soaked rice is boiled in water.

Sure enough, he stayed in the kitchen all the time, took out his mobile phone and browsed the irrelevant news on Weibo, while replaying everything that was posted today in his mind, with a silly smile on his face from time to time, and the fat master beside him Putting down the food in his hand, he shook his head and said, "Why don't you say that mobile phones are harmful to people? Look, isn't this a person who is fascinated by mobile phones?" What is the content of the swipe in his hand? He smiled awkwardly and put away the phone.Then he suddenly realized something, and inexplicably felt restless, he patted his face and stared intently at the porridge in the pot and became dazed, forcibly shutting all the thoughts in his head into the small black room, keeping his brain in It was blank, but not long after, watching the porridge in the pot slowly become thicker, he really felt that his head had become a pot of bubbling porridge, he sighed, picked up the Put the prepared shredded ginger, pepper and salt into the pot together, then turn to high heat to bring the porridge to a boil, then add the marinated fish fillets, cook for 3 minutes, turn off the heat, and finally put a little green onion.Sure enough, I put the porridge into a special clay pot, put the bowl and spoon on the tray, and borrowed a small dining car to push the porridge upstairs.

Not long after Jiang Han fell asleep, he fell into a nightmare again.Still in the pale ward, there was still the sickly little Jiang Han, accompanied by his crying.

"Hanhan, are you willing to go with me? Find your father." The beautiful woman looked at him sadly.

"Father is already dead." Xiao Jianghan said weakly, "I don't want to die."

The beautiful woman collapsed instantly, tears streaming down her face, and she said after a long time: "I don't want you to die more than anyone else, let me watch you die in front of me, it's better to let me die, I hope you are healthy and live a long life Years old." After saying that, she kissed his forehead and turned to leave.

"Mom, where are you going?" No one answered him.

"Someone jumped off the building!"

"Is there anything you can't think of!"

"My God, it seems to be the family members of bed No. 3..."

"Come on, come on, the patient in bed 3 has fainted..."

Xiao Jianghan knew one thing vaguely and clearly in the sounds of various instruments, he was abandoned, abandoned.

Oh, hope I'm healthy?Wish I lived a hundred years?As soon as you leave, can I be healthy and live a long life?My dear cruel mother...

Jiang Han was very conscious. He knew that he had a fever again. He knew that he had fallen into a nightmare. He couldn't move his whole body. He told himself that this was a dream. Wake up quickly. He tried to regulate his breathing and move his fingers. He was in pain. Struggling, still unable to wake up, gradually breathing became short of breath.

Sure enough, after knocking on the door for a long time, Jiang Han did not come to answer the door. He took out his mobile phone to call Jiang Han, but no one answered after ringing for a long time, and he really started to panic.He hurriedly went to the front desk to find someone to open the door. Sure enough, he briefly explained the situation to the staff, and hurriedly dragged him upstairs. The staff took out the spare room card and opened the door. As expected, he rushed in and ran straight to the bed. It was Jiang Han who was pale, with cold sweat on his forehead, and deeply frowned, feeling very painful.Really terrified,

"Brother Han, Brother Han, Brother Han! Wake up..." Sure enough, he lay on the bedside and shouted while shaking Jiang Han.

Jiang Han had already woken up when Guo Guo called him the first time. He was dizzy when he was shaken by Guo Ruo, and he said quickly, "Don't, don't shake, dizzy..."

As soon as the hoarse voice sounded, the sense of fear in my heart turned into joy in an instant, "Brother Han! You... are you okay!"

Jiang Han sat up, looked at the staff at the door, and after understanding what was going on, he said apologetically to Guo Guo: "I'm sorry, I slept so hard that I made you worry."

The staff member said, "Hi, may I call you a doctor?"

Jiang Han shook his head, "Thank you, I'm fine."

"Then I won't bother you two." After speaking, he exited the door and turned to leave.

Sure enough, he looked at Jiang Han's pale lips, then at the medicine on the bedside, and lowered his head in self-blame, "It's me who should say I'm sorry, obviously I know you...I even dragged you and me to play water polo Fighting, you shouldn't get your whole body wet...I'm sorry Brother Han!" He really didn't expect that for him and even for those children, it was nothing more than getting wet clothes, which would make Jiang Han's body wet. so uncomfortable.

Jiang Han rubbed his hairy head, "What are you talking about, little fool, I'm fine, don't worry!"

The temperature of the palm above his head made Guoruo instantly conclude that Jiang Han must have a fever. He knelt on the bed with one foot and touched Jiang Han's forehead with his own. It was so hot!Even Jiang Han's breathing was scorching.

"Brother Han, you have a fever again!"

Jiang Han lifted the quilt to get up, and sure enough, he immediately covered him again: "What are you doing?"

Jiang Han laughed, "Didn't you say that I have a fever? I'm going to get antipyretics."

"Don't move, I'll go, where is it?"

"The third cell on the second floor of the suitcase."

Sure enough, when he opened the suitcase, the small suitcase was divided into several areas, which looked clean and tidy, just like Jiang Han's people.

Sure enough, he found the medicine box, opened it and saw several bottles of medicine inside, none of which he knew.He has never seen Jiang Han take medicine, but since he has these medicines, he must take them, so every time he feels so uncomfortable that he needs to take medicine, there is no one to pour water.Sure enough, his heart seemed to be pinched, and he began to feel sorry for Jiang Han again.

Jiang Han saw that he was squatting there motionless with his back to him, so he asked, "What's wrong?"

Sure enough, he came back to his senses and brought the medicine box in front of Jiang Han: "Which one is the antipyretic medicine?"

Jiang Han took out a bottle from the middle, unscrewed the cap and poured a pill into his mouth. He picked up the cup on the bedside and was about to drink it. Sure enough, he snatched the cup: "This water is cold, I'll pour it for you again." hot water."

Jiang Han blinked his eyes with the medicine in his mouth, watched him pick up the water glass and trot to pour water, then trot back with the water glass, took the water glass and swallowed the bitter pills that had dissolved with warm water.

Sure enough, he was asked to drink a few more sips of water. After putting the cup away, he remembered that his porridge was still outside the door, so he put down the cup and ran outside.

Jiang Han didn't know why, "What's wrong?"

Sure enough, he pushed the porridge in and said with a smile, "I almost forgot, I made porridge for you."

Jiang Han asked in surprise: "You did it? Where did you do it?"

"Hehe, Shanren has his own tricks. You must be hungry. You only ate a little steak and salad for lunch." He lifted the lid, filled a bowl and brought it to the bed, "Come on, have a taste !"

Sure enough, as soon as he lifted the lid, Jiang Han could smell the sashimi porridge, and happily took the bowl, "Oh, it's really raining after a long drought!"

But he didn't eat it right away, but looked at it in a daze.Sure enough, seeing that he didn't eat it all the time, he tried his best to sell it: "Brother Han, eat it quickly, I poured it into this clay pot and stuffed it for a while after I boiled it, the taste is just right."

Jiang Han's heart is soft. It was a wise choice to pick up this little fox back home. If he hadn't stopped at that time, he and Sure enough would have known each other in another way, just like Jiang Feng and Jiang Yi. He won't stick to himself anymore, and it's impossible for him to give him a chance to stick to him.

Jiang Han picked up the spoon and ate it, and after eating a few spoonfuls, he stopped and looked at it, "It tastes the same as last time, the rice is sticky and glutinous, the fish fillet is tender and refreshing, the smell of fish is mixed with the fragrance of rice, and the saltiness is moderate. Very delicious!"

Sure enough, I laughed so hard that my eyes rolled, "Guest officer, you just need to like it, it's so delicious, you must give it a five-star praise!"

Jiang Han stretched his five fingers out in front of Guo Guo, "I'll count them for you."

Sure enough, I tapped his five fingers one by one with my index finger, "One, two, three, four, five, I accept your praise!"

Jiang Han's five fingers still had the tactile sensation of Guo Guo, he clenched his fist slightly and continued to eat, he finished eating in a while, then handed the bowl to Guo Guo, "Thank you, another bowl!"

Sure enough, he took the bowl happily, "Although the fish porridge is good, don't be greedy!" He said and filled half a bowl for him.

Jiang Han didn't think too little, took the bowl and started to eat again.After the second bowl was finished, Jiang Han realized that he was eating while sitting on the bed. He hated eating in bed because it meant he was fighting death again in the hospital.But today I was happy to do something I hated so naturally.

"My dinner is finished, how about you? What do you want to eat, I'll change into my clothes and go eat with you." Jiang Han lifted the quilt and prepared to change.

Sure enough, he jumped on the bed again and pressed him back, used pillows to help him up his back, and then covered him with the quilt.

"Isn't there still porridge? I'll just eat this, don't get up, take a good rest, and tell me what you need."

It seemed helpless for Jiang Han to be prevented from getting out of bed again, but this kind of willful concern made him greedy for it again.Sighing, let's secretly enjoy this willful and domineering care for the time being.

Seeing that Jiang Han obediently did not get out of bed, he nodded in satisfaction.There were no extra bowls and spoons, so he picked up the bowls and spoons Jiang Han used to serve the porridge and ate it.Looking at this scene, Jiang Han hurriedly said, "This is what I used."

Sure enough, without raising his head, he said, "I'm too lazy to go down and get it." In fact, he could wash it and use it again, but he didn't. He always felt that he and Jiang Han had shared a bowl and spoon at least once. It's like eating a bucket of instant noodles and drinking a cup of milk tea together.He was so guilty that he didn't dare to look up at Jiang Han, and started to eat on his own.

Jiang Han saw that he was eating bite by bite with the spoon he used, and grabbed a magazine beside the bed to look at it.

"Brother Han, I'm done eating, I'll send the food down first and then come up again." Sure enough, he got up and cleaned up.

"Don't be so troublesome, just call room service." Jiang Han reminded.

Sure enough, the movement did not stop, and he said with a smile: "No, this is borrowed, I have to return it in person, and I would like to thank Fat Master for his help."

Jiang Han didn't know when and how he communicated with the fat master. He only knew that even his own younger brother couldn't be as careful and thoughtful as him, and he felt very ironic.

Sure enough, he pushed the small dining cart to the door, turned around and closed the door halfway, and explained with a smile: "I'll be back soon, you won't be bothered to get up and open the door later."

Sure enough, in the corridor, he was humming happily and walked towards the elevator. The out-of-tune humming entered Jiang Han's ears all the way through the half-closed door. He relaxed and rested his head on the pillow, looking at the ceiling and smiling unconsciously. It seemed that the good mood really spread to him.

Sure enough, I returned the things and was waiting for the elevator to go upstairs. I ran into Xia Xiaoqin and Jiang Mingqing, "Hey, Ms. Xia, how are you doing today?"

Xia Xiaoqin intoxicatedly described how quiet the mountains are, how comfortable the hot springs are, and how pleasant it is to ride a bicycle on the tree-lined path.Sure enough, after listening to it, I plan to go with Jiang Han tomorrow.

"By the way, Ranran, have you eaten yet? Let's eat together."

"I've already eaten, you go and eat."

"Hey, why are you alone? What about the three of them?"

"I just had dinner and was going back to the room. Brother Han also had dinner and rested in the room. I don't know if Jiang Feng and Jiang Yi have come back." For some reason, he deliberately didn't mention the matter of cooking porridge.

Sure enough, he went back to his room and took out a set of Chinese test papers from his bag, then went to Jiang Han's room.

Although the door was ajar, he still knocked on the door first, and only went in after hearing Jiang Han's answer.I went in and saw that there was no one on the bed, only to find that he was sitting at the computer desk looking at something seriously.Sure enough, he walked over and took a small thin blanket and put it on his back.Jiang Han looked up at him, "Thank you!"

Sure enough, he put the paper in his hand on the table and pulled out the chair to sit next to him, proficient as if it were an automated program, "Mr. Jiang, since you don't rest in bed, I have to squeeze your labor hard. Help me correct the paper later!"

"What if the score is not as high as the set of questions done on the plane today?" Jiang Han deliberately teased him.

"It's not normal. I still think it's because the set of questions is too simple."

Jiang Han squeezed his neck and said nothing.

Sure enough, he shrunk his neck, Jiang Han's hands seemed not so hot, he pressed his forehead against Jiang Han's forehead again, feeling cold, he touched Jiang Han's forehead again, it still felt cold, he asked strangely : "Brother Han, why is it so cold after you don't have a fever?"

Sure enough, the hand on his forehead didn't move away, and Jiang Han didn't move away either. "After the heat recedes, the skin will become cold due to evaporation. When the body temperature drops, due to the evaporation of sweat, the skin will become cold." Jiang Han explained. road.

"Yeah, I seem to know it, but I forgot."

"Then, are you going to help me warm my forehead?"

Sure enough, he quickly withdrew his hand, lowered his head and unscrewed the cap of the pen: "I've made the paper."

Jiang Han also sat on his own business. After he sent the laboratory materials to Zhou Shen, he received a medical record from Zhou Shen called Zhao Sinan, who was the patient with a similar condition to him.

Sure enough, the sound of rustling strokes and Jiang Han's typing on the keyboard set off the tranquility of this room.Sure enough, he put down the pen after finishing writing, looked up and saw a medical record displayed on Jiang Han's computer screen, he quickly glanced at it, only saw a few words, Jiang Han turned off the document and said, "Finished? "

Sure enough, he handed the paper to Jiang Han. He was looking forward to the result when he just put down the pen, but after Jiang Han quickly closed the document, he was not interested.

Jiang Han corrected him earnestly, but as expected, he lay on the table and watched Jiang Han in a daze.Jiang Han smiled and handed the paper to Guo Guo, the expected expression of happiness or surprise did not appear on Guo Guo's face, and Guo Guo smiled slightly, "If Old Tang knew, he would definitely say, 'Student Guo, you are finally bored. The scenery at the bottom of the mountain starts to go to the top of the mountain'."

"Who is Old Tang?"

"Our head teacher, he always talks to me about things in Chinese."

Jiang Han asked in a calm tone as expected: "He will definitely not talk to you again after school starts, why do you seem unhappy?"

Sure enough, he was silent for a while, moved his chair to face Jiang Han, looked at Jiang Han very seriously and said, "Brother Han, can you tell me about your affairs?"

Jiang Han saw that his eyes were wide open, his expression was very serious, and the small unconscious movements of his hands revealed a trace of uneasiness, and he asked, "What do you want to hear?" Jiang Han really surrendered in the face of such a situation.

"Your childhood, your illness, your parents, everything about you."

"Why do you want to know everything about me?" Jiang Han asked with a smile.

Sure enough, it was like being called by the teacher to answer questions when he was absent in class, and his mind went blank.Yeah, why would he want to know?He vaguely felt that the answer was deep in his heart, but he didn't dare to pry into it, just like he dared not openly cheat in an exam. Once he reached out to look for the answer, he would be caught on the spot.He opened his mouth but couldn't say anything after all, he lowered his head indifferently.

Jiang Han looked at Guo Guo, who was still firm with his eyes just now, and now he looked like an eggplant beaten by frost, and finally sighed.

"You ask, I'll answer, what do you want to know?"

Sure enough, he immediately raised his head: "Brother Han, what is the status of your illness? Grandpa, Uncle Jiang, Second Uncle, Jiang Feng, Jiang Yi, and even yourself, no one has ever mentioned it. My mother said that Grandpa deliberately wanted to hide it from you." You, but this is unreasonable. Since everyone knows that you are a genius, and you are about to graduate from a medical university, there must be no one who understands your illness better than yourself. How could it be because you wanted to hide your illness? What not to mention?"

Jiang Han got up and poured a glass of water, took a sip and began to answer his question.

"You must have heard from my third aunt that I have an extremely rare congenital heart disease, and it is hereditary. My father left at the age of 35 because of this disease. It is said that my great-grandfather also suffered from this disease. Grandpa passed away when he was 10 years old. This disease is extremely rare, and the cure rate is only 20%, so do you know what this means?" Jiang Han smiled bitterly, "People in our family accepted my father's After I left, I subconsciously accepted the fact that I was about to leave, so no one mentioned it because it was meaningless, and of course, I was afraid that it would make me sad if I mentioned it." Jiang Han looked at it for a while and said with a smile: "Of course , that heartless guy like Jiang Feng probably doesn't know yet, and Jiang Yi wouldn't tell him if he knew."

Sure enough, his heart was pulled by his words, and he said anxiously: "No, brother Han, you look good, you must be in the 20%, for sure!"

Jiang Han didn't say much, just nodded with a smile.

Sure enough, she became even more anxious: "Sure, Brother Han, it will be fine... right?"

Jiang Han was silent for a while, "'I don't know which one will come first tomorrow or the accident' is applicable to everyone, so just try to live every day seriously, and let the others do their best and obey the destiny." As he spoke, he pinched Guo Ran's face, "I'm not sad, don't worry."

Sure enough, there were mixed emotions in his heart, and he couldn't say a word. He took advantage of the situation and hugged Jiang Han, his face pressed against his chest, and a strong heartbeat came from his ears. Look, isn't this good?Isn't this heart beating well and alive?It will definitely get better!

Jiang Han looked at Guo Guo who was sadder than himself, and thought it was strange, he patted Guo Guo's back again and again, since when did he and himself become so close?After making it easy for him to say what he didn't want to mention, he wanted to pat him on the back to comfort him instead.

Jiang Han shook his head helplessly, "Okay, it's getting late, let's go back to sleep!"

Sure enough, he slowly let go of him, feeling a little embarrassed about his actions just now, looked up at Jiang Han, scratched his hair and said: "Brother Han, let's go to the deep jungle theme city together tomorrow! You won't be as tired as today , I met Ms. Xia just now, and I heard from her that it's quite pleasant to play there, we can go to the hot springs, ride bicycles and so on. "

Jiang Han nodded: "Okay, we can still camp there at night."

"Really? That's great!" Sure enough, he was instantly happy.

"Do you want to go early or wait until you wake up?"

"Call me when you wake up." Sure enough, he smiled.

"Okay!" Jiang Han bent his index finger and scratched the tip of Guo Guo's nose, the same movement, but this time it was as natural as they had always been so close.

Sure enough, he also touched his nose, and said with some reluctance, "Brother Han, go to bed early, good night!"

Back in the room, as expected, he touched his nose and was inexplicably excited. He fell down on the bed with a smirk, buried his slightly hot face under the quilt, and felt like a deer was jumping around in his heart.This feeling was too wonderful, but also too straightforward, so transparent that he couldn't even pretend to be confused.Sure enough, he slowly recalled and sorted out his stronger emotional reaction to Jiang Han each time. Although he deliberately avoided and suppressed it before, this feeling is like a spring. The more suppressed, the greater the reaction force in the end. At this moment, it was as if he had found a thread and strung together all the broken beads. Everything was so clear that it scared him.

He finally admitted it in his heart, yes, indeed, he fell in love with Jiang Han, and he was hopelessly sunk in it before he knew it himself.His admiration, admiration, sympathy, distress, closeness to Jiang Han, and many emotions can only be summed up in two words - like.

When this answer surfaced, it was as guilty as if she was caught cheating on the spot, because this kind of liking was not visible.

He lay motionless on the bed with his eyes wide open. After confirming his feelings for Jiang Han, his joy turned into helplessness.After a long time, he took out his mobile phone and entered three words in the search bar: homosexuality.The modern Internet is so developed and convenient, so that Xiaobai, who doesn't know anything about it, has a new understanding of homosexuality within an hour. Although the acceptance of homosexuality in society is quite high now, it is not like before. It turns pale when you talk like that, but there are still many people who think that homosexuality is equivalent to words such as disgusting, abnormal, and mental illness.

Sure enough, she turned off her mobile phone, stood in front of the mirror, looked at herself in the mirror carefully, and said to herself: "Have you ever liked a girl before? No. Have you ever had a crush on other same sex? No. You like Jiang Are you cold? Like. Are you gay? Are you?" He didn't know.

He washed his face with cold water, and suddenly remembered Jiang Han's illness, and he no longer entangled in this issue. Life is so precious, since he has made up his mind, why waste time caring about other people's opinions?But, what would Jiang Han think if he knew what he thought about him?You can not care about other people's thoughts, but you can't care about Jiang Han's thoughts.

☆, sleep together