Rolls Royce

It was at night when I received Fu Lili's call. At that time, Tan Xianghui had just taken a shower, and with a dry towel on his head, he was sitting on the sofa, changing the TV station casually.His roommate recently went to see his long-distance girlfriend, and when he lived outside, he would not return to the shared apartment for three or four days.Tan Xianghui's relationship with his roommates was okay, but not so good that they exchanged privacy, so he was quite happy to be able to occupy such a large space by himself.

After graduating from university, he stayed at his alma mater as a teaching assistant, occasionally lecturing, and spending most of his time in the laboratory doing research projects. He lived a nine-to-five life every day, which was stable but boring.The only thing that made him feel a little different in the past two months was the wedding that Fu Lili was preparing for, so when he received her call, this was the first thing he thought of.

"Xiang Hui?" It's just that Fu Lili's voice is very different from usual today, timid, as if afraid of disturbing others' sleep.He thought it was a little unusual.

"Huh? What's the matter?" He asked, although his brows were slightly frowned, but his voice was still gentle and gentle, like a lake warmed by the sun.

Fu Lili on the other end didn't reply, and could only hear her slightly heavy breathing. Tan Xianghui thought that she probably had something on her mind to say, so he quickly eased the atmosphere: "Are you suffering from premarital phobia?"

"That's not it!" After scolding him with a smile, Fu Lili finally made up her mind and said to him, "I saw He Yinrong."

Unexpectedly, Tan Xianghui's reaction was the same as that of He Yinrong when he dealt with Lili in the coffee shop a few days later, as if he was listening to a piece of news that had nothing to do with him. Fu Lili couldn't help feeling a little frustrated when he heard him say "Oh", and added : "I'm going to meet him next Monday and have a little chat... Do you want to meet him someday?"

This proposal brought about Tan Xianghui's silence. After a while, Tan Xianghui asked, "How is he now?"

"Being a bartender in a bar is still as handsome as before." Fu Lili said playfully, her smile was almost the same as when she was in high school.

"I don't have time for the time being, wait until next week."

"It's a lie... Don't you have no classes on weekends? Could it be that you can't even out the time to go to the laboratory?" Facing her doubts, Tan Xianghui raised his hand and stroked his forehead before answering: "I have something to do on weekends."

"What's the matter? Have you got a girlfriend?" Fu Lili's voice became louder: "You promised that once you have someone you like, you must tell me!"

He sighed: "No... It's just that you don't understand what I said." He was going to participate in national academic competitions with the professors in the school. If he told them about their topics, it's fine if Fu Lili didn't understand. She wanted to ask every detail of the matter clearly, he didn't want to popularize professional knowledge to laymen.

"Okay..." Fu Lili muttered, and said helplessly, "If you want to arrange it yourself, then I won't mention it to him?"

"Ah."

After getting Tan Xianghui's answer, Fu Lili felt a little more relaxed, and continued: "By the way, I have to remind you, don't drink the wine made by He Yinrong, it's not good..."

"Really?" Tan Xianghui's face was always tense, and he smiled inadvertently after hearing this.

The two chatted for a few more words, and Tan Xianghui asked Fu Lili to turn off the line first.When only the sound of the TV program was left in the living room, Tan Xianghui suddenly felt that this situation was unreal.He Yinrong... He Yinrong... How many years since he graduated, this name should have been forgotten by him in a corner, covered with a thick layer of dust, but now it reappears in his life, but it is still so vivid and specific.He took the remote control, turned off the TV, took off the towel on his head, spread it on the back of the sofa, turned sideways, and lay down.

Lying on his back, Tan Xianghui's eyes were facing the electric lights on the ceiling. After staring for a long time, his eyes were a little stinging, but he still didn't want to close them.What if this is a dream, then he should wake up later, after waking up, will he want to find news about He Yinrong, even though he hasn't done this for seven years?He didn't know where he got this idea - even if he didn't ask, he would always meet He Yinrong again.Although he couldn't guess which day and where it would be, he still believed in it.But this sudden moment did not make him feel relaxed. He thought of many things that happened in the past, and what he felt was only heavy.

He Yinrong's suspension of school was completely unexpected for these students.But for Tan Xianghui, the incident that happened in the provincial capital Convention and Exhibition Center a few weeks ago was already unexpected enough. After that, He Yinrong didn't talk to him anymore. The beam is just like this.Tan Xianghui couldn't figure out the reason for He Yinrong's anger, so he could only pin his hope on time, maybe it could clear up the barrier between the two.Only a few weeks later, He Yinrong left the school, and his place was left vacant, left in a corner at the back of the classroom.Occasionally, when Tan Xianghui saw the lonely table and chair, he could still think of He Yinrong lying on the table, sleeping like a cat.Unfortunately, this can only be his imagination.

He wondered where He Yinrong was, but he just thought about it.The last time I sneaked away to the provincial capital, the head teacher didn't show mercy and treated it as an absence from class.This surprised Tan Xianghui's father. The father and son finally had a good talk. Tan Xianghui promised him that he would work hard in school until the end of the college entrance examination.It wasn't that his promise was wrong, it was only when he fulfilled it that he realized that it was not easy.He began to think wildly. When he was at school, the efficiency of listening to lectures declined, and when he returned home, his sleep quality declined. He couldn't help but think of He Yinrong's indifferent and even resentful eyes at that time, and the moment when Deng Kai wrote his name on the beach. A picture, and the gentle hand of his mother when he was very young... He is not a person with rich feelings, so he doesn't miss the old days, but now he has abnormally started to feel sad for the memories.

But at the moment when he was a little dazed, He Yin dropped out of school, and immediately withdrew from everyone's sight.It's like a gust of wind blows by, and you can't catch it no matter how you chase it.

It was followed by a long period of high-intensity study and endless exams, but Tan Xianghui could no longer bring up his previous energy.He hasn't spent much time on his mind. Now that these burdens are coming, he is like a boat lost in the ocean. Facing the thunderstorm, he can only barely stabilize his balance, and his advance and retreat are all in the hands of others. inside.

He knew that his state was really bad, and he also knew that he needed to come up with a remedy immediately, but he was always powerless. No matter who persuaded him or anything, he couldn't change the status quo.After the results of the last city-wide model test came out, he and Fu Lili made an appointment to meet, and when they learned of his score, Fu Lili covered her eyes and started crying.It took him by surprise.Although Fu Lili looked like a weak and docile girl, she was actually very strong. After her parents divorced, her father soon remarried, and her mother left the city and never came back.Fu Lili didn't want to live with her father anymore. She had been boarding at the school since junior high school, and rarely went home even during holidays.She has survived many setbacks, so she can control her emotions better than her peers, so her gaffe at this moment, in Tan Xianghui's view, is a very serious matter.After frantically trying to persuade Fu Lili to stop her tears, Tan Xianghui apologized in a deep voice: "I'm sorry."

"You didn't feel sorry for me..." Fu Lili covered her red nose with a tissue, her voice trembling with tears: "But you have to be worthy of yourself."

These words finally pulled Tan Xianghui out of his confusion.After more than half a month, he began to desperately make up for the homework that he had missed before, and he made significant progress in the daily quiz, but there was still not enough time, and he failed to return to his best state in time, and the college entrance examination began.His grades weren't good, but they weren't bad either. At least his father patted him on the shoulder after seeing the results and said, "The exam was good."

After that, it's a long vacation.

As soon as he was free, he fell into a state of cranky thinking again. It has been more than two months since He Yin dropped out of school, and he still hasn't heard from him.The only thing he thought was a rumor, but several boys who played with him said so.They said that He Yinrong left school because of a serious mental illness, and they don't know where he is recuperating now.He was inexplicably disgusted when he heard these words, and the expressions of those boys also made him feel uncomfortable, so he didn't ask them anything.Thinking about it now, this became another clue, he thought, he should ask.

Although the idea was vague, he really wanted to see He Yinrong.

After contacting those boys, Tan Xianghui's mood became subtle.Only today did he know the reason why their expressions made him feel uncomfortable at that time - the so-called mental illness they said was related to sex.Straight men make that look when they talk about being gay.

"He Yinrong is gay." One of the boys said firmly.

This fact caught Tan Xianghui off guard.

After returning home, he turned on the computer and started searching for "Rolls Royce" in the browser again.Among the information that pops up, the most popular one is of course the car.However, there is another category. Only now did Tan Xianghui know that "Rolls Royce" is actually...a song?

This discovery immediately reminded Tan Xianghui of what He Yinrong said the night before he went to the provincial capital. He didn't hear clearly at that time, and only remembered a "Rolls Royce".Later, he took it for granted that He Yinrong liked Rolls-Royce cars, but now that he thinks about it, he may have been mistaken all along.

His hands trembled a little, and he already had a vague guess in his heart, just like when he saw the photo of Deng Kai.His mood was terribly confused—how dull and dull was he to be ignorant of the truth that was so close at hand?He had never hated himself so deeply as at this moment.

Moving the mouse, Tan Xianghui clicked on the song.