overpass

Too lazy to struggle: "Okay, but brush your teeth first."

"Brush your teeth first." Li Xiang read it like a repeater.

Li Xiang, who had drunk, was shaking in action, but quite excited in spirit.

The two huddled together in front of the sink, facing the mirror, Li Xiang leaned against Shi Lei with foam on his lips.Shi Lei's body was stiff, but he didn't move. He was observing Li Xiang closely. He was obviously by his side, but only in the mirror could Shi Lei take a closer look at him. Could it be because he couldn't bear Li Xiang's enthusiasm? Filled with brows and eyes.Shi Lei rinsed his mouth, then patted Li Xiang again: "Okay, it's over."

After hearing the order, Li Xiang also finished brushing his teeth, and followed Shi Lei out of the bathroom.

"Brother, carry me on your back!" As he said that, he jumped on Shi Lei's body, but he didn't even have a shot, so Shi Lei was so scared that he quickly supported him.

"Brother also drank too much, I will recite it tomorrow."

"You drank too much, that's great, I'll carry you! I'm not drunk!"

Shi Lei felt that there was nothing to talk nonsense about with the drunk, so he led Li Xiang back, saying something comforting from time to time, but it was nothing more than "good, good, good, good."Shi Lei didn't know whether it was because Li Xiang became heavier, or he drank too much, and he couldn't move Li Xiang, so he simply pushed Li Xiang on the bed, and Li Xiang fell down.

Just as Shi Lei breathed a sigh of relief, he was about to change into his pajamas when Li Xiang sat up again.Shi Lei glanced at it, and kept moving his hands, "You should change your pajamas, too."

But Li Xiang seemed to have never heard of it, and rolled his eyes: "Brother."

"Ok?"

"If I fail the college entrance examination, will you be disappointed?" Shi Lei seldom asks these things, but today Li Xiang actually brought it up by himself.

After Shi Lei changed his pants, he turned to him and said "No."

Li Xiang followed Shi Lei's eyes, as if looking for further answers.

Shi Lei sat on the bed so that the two of them could look at each other. After a short pause, Shi Lei was organizing his words: "Li Xiang, I don't want to, and I can't force you to do anything. And you should be free. I want to protect yours." This kind of freedom." Shi Lei was vague, a little unclear about this feeling.

"Well, do you expect anything from me?"

"Of course, you are very independent, just do what you think is right, don't have too many worries. Then wait until three years, or ten years later, when you look back on your life, just never regret it " Shi Lei was the one who said this, but the words that express emotion so bluntly made him look away first.

"Brother!" Li Xiang moved his head closer, "I love you."

A strong smell of alcohol rushed towards his face, Shi Lei felt that his ears were buzzing and had failed.Shi Lei picked up his pajamas again and began to help Li Xiang change.

"Brother, have you seen today's painting?"

"I saw it."

"Do you like it? Are you happy?" At this time, Shi Lei was taking off Li Xiang's shirt, and the clothes were covering Li Xiang's head, making his voice a little muffled.

"Like it, happy."

"I knew you would like it, and besides, when I think of you, I will be happy, and I will be happy when I draw it." Li Xiang was muttering, but he looked like a child. Shi Lei was a little curious about Li Xiang's appearance when he was a child. Sullen and resentful adults?

Shi Lei guessed in his mind, and then began to take off Li Xiang's pants. When he pulled off Li Xiang's sweatpants, Shi Lei was surprised to find that Li Xiang's black boxer underwear had bulged.

Shi Lei picked up his pajama pants and patted it, Li Xiang shrank back in shock, and giggled silly.

"You kid is really talented! Other people drink too much and they will decline, but you are fine!"

Li Xiang stretched his body and lay on the bed, not paying much attention to his own sex.

Shi Lei ordered: "Hurry up and put on your pants, and then go out to deal with it."

"Hmph." Li Xiang arranged the pillow, not only did not move, but lay down.

Shi Lei didn't speak anymore, although he felt embarrassed, but if he went out, it would be too deliberate.So he also lay on the other side, deciding to ignore Li Xiang's existence.After a while, everything quieted down.The bedside lamp was still dimly lit, and neither of them slept.

"Li Xiang, you are eighteen this year. Have you ever been in a relationship? Have you seen any movies?" Shi Lei thought that Li Xiang hadn't lived a normal life in the past two years, so he must have never taken any physical health classes. Yes, do you want to popularize your own science?

"Love? Watching a movie?" Li Xiang was still repeating the words, as if he was chewing on the true meaning of these two words. "Watch the movie!" Li Xiang sat up sideways, as if he had discovered something important: "You actually watched the movie! How can you watch the movie!"

The surprised tone, the reproachful look, and the finger that poked Shi Lei's shoulder hurt.

It made Shi Leizheng angry, but Li Xiang didn't know it, and continued: "You watch the movie!? Then when you and your blue friend are having sex, are you thinking of him? Or him? Do you know Know what you're doing! You're a spirit! God! Out! Derailed!"

good!Shi Lei thought, he knew a lot, so he didn't need to worry about him.

Then he picked up the pillow and killed with one blow. "It's really upside down! I'm alone, and I'm out of the fucking woolen track!"

☆, germination (4)

In the early morning sunshine, the two were lying face to face, Shi Lei was still fast asleep, and Li Xiang had quietly opened his eyes.His fingers followed Shi Lei's face out of thin air, and he even raised his head to sniff, the warm breath fell on Shi Lei's face, and a kiss was precarious.Shi Lei seemed startled, wrinkled his nose.

Li Xiang jumped up in shock, got out of bed and walked to the door, his heart pounding, he was a little afraid of being discovered, what did he find?He firmly believes that he loves his brother, and his brother loves him, then what?Li Xiang felt sad when he thought of the word 'later' in his head.

On the other hand, Shi Lei on the bed didn't move, opened his eyes, and didn't feel sleepy at all.

After waking up, Shi Lei stood in front of the window smoking a cigarette, the winter wind was still very cold, Shi Lei turned it on for a while and then turned it off again.Li Xiang appeared behind him briskly, wearing a floral apron, stretched his arms around Shi Lei's shoulders and grabbed the cigarette directly.

Li Xiang sucked on this cigarette holder, and then spit it out: "This, this smell is too disgusting! How can anyone smoke?"

Shi Lei turned his head and tried to get it back, but Li Xiang dodged it, wrung out the cigarette in the ashtray, raised his hand and flicked it with his fingers, and threw most of the cigarette into the trash can. His skillful technique was similar to Li Xiang's shooting. for similar,

Shi Lei folded his hands on his chest, "Didn't you say beer was bad before? Who was the one who drank too much yesterday?"

"That's right." Li Xiang nodded suddenly.

Two bowls of light noodle soup comforted the bodies of the two who drank too much wine.After eating, the two went out together wearing the scarf Shi Lei bought.Shi Lei took Li Xiangxian to the local museum, and Shi Lei felt that the museum was a good place to take the children out.

The long ring-shaped building, the words on the wall, and the items in the booth lead the two people to understand the city, from the primitive human tribe to the later ruling class, a brutal war, and now the stability develop.

Li Xiang was very absorbed in walking, as if the long years had made him unable to walk. When he saw a ruin that simulated a war, the dark night sky, the burning house, and the dead child were deeply mourned. Woman, everything here makes Li Xiang fall into deep sadness.

Shi Lei kept looking at Li Xiang, even though he knew that everything in front of him was fake, but Li Xiang's emotions and his inner feelings were real.In this dark space, Shi Lei hugged Li Xiang, held Li Xiang's back with one hand, and pulled him towards him, as if he could bear the sadness with him.

The next day, Shi Lei went to work, and within a few days, Li Xiang also went to school.Both of them got busy at the same time, Shi Lei was planning to resign, and Li Xiang was stimulated and wanted to study.

Life is still the same, but Shi Lei smokes a bit a lot these days, even Qin Haiyang advised him to take it easy, and bought two packs of candy to put in his drawer.And Li Xiangxue is very impatient in learning. He is usually fine, but he is a little annoying when he is in class.

In the spring of March, it was already very warm. One day, Zhang Xu patted the ball and entered the classroom. With that arrogant smile again, he said to Li Xiang, "It's noon, the basketball court."

"Let's go." Wishing for nothing.

It rains in April and the air is a bit humid.Shi Lei's resignation has been submitted, and now it's time to hand over some work.What Shi Lei has to do every day is to make breakfast for Li Xiang. At the beginning, Shi Lei tried to regard cooking as an art like Li Xiang. Or, read on the sofa; or, go to school to see Li Xiang.

Shi Lei changed into casual clothes, got on the bus, and traveled halfway across the city.Shi Lei remembered that Li Xiang told him that he would play basketball in the evening, and walked slowly while walking.The campus scene in front of him made Shi Lei feel dazed, time flies so fast, but Shi Lei was neither sad nor lamented by it.

There were many people on the basketball court, Shi Lei looked around in a daze, but he was not in a hurry.Looking slowly at the basketball courts one by one, a figure in the distance came into view, and Shi Lei recognized Li Xiang at a glance.

At this time, Li Xiang was wearing a jersey, his arms and calves were naked, and his face was sweating profusely.He is obviously the same as everyone else, but Shi Lei feels amazing, how sunny and full of vitality, it turns out that a person can change so much, Shi Lei realizes that such a person should be appreciated, whether as his friend or younger brother , or a stranger.

At the end of the match, Li Xiang wiped the sweat from the corners of his eyes, and when he turned his head, he saw Shi Lei looking at him with all eyes.Li Xiang felt that his heartbeat that hadn't calmed down after strenuous exercise started to speed up again.He ran over a few steps, hugged Shi Lei affectionately and called 'Brother'.

Shi Lei watched two more episodes with him, and took a lot of photos of Li Xiang. He picked and liked all of them, so he saved them all.Li Xiang took Shi Lei to eat together, took Shi Lei to visit the campus together, took Shi Lei to look at this supposedly familiar campus from another perspective, and even wanted to take Shi Lei to class, but Shi Lei resolutely refused.

When Shi Lei left, Li Xiang was a little unhappy.Shi Lei looked a little funny, and patted his head: "I'll see you when I get home."

The sun in May is already very hot.Shi Lei was idling around in the house in his home clothes, this time he was completely fine, on the front of the clothes and on the left sleeve were Li Xiang's graffiti, Shi Lei couldn't understand abstract paintings, but thought the colors matched beautifully.Except for the fading of the clothes after washing, Shi Lei thinks everything is fine.

Along with the fever, there are people's hearts. Hearing that someone in the third year of Jingwen high school jumped off the building, the whole city's senior three group was shocked, and the teachers and parents were panicked.

However, the life of the two of them is still stable, Shi Lei is free, and accompanied Li Xiang to the professional class

Flowers in June, the balcony of Shi Lei's house is already covered with bright flowers of various colors, most of them were dug back when the two of them went out to play, Shi Lei also specially ordered a flower basket with wooden boards for this purpose, filled with park trees under the soil.

Li Xiang had been looking forward to the day of the college entrance examination for a long time, and Shi Lei was also waiting silently. There was a newly bought outdoor backpack in his bedroom. Shi Lei thought about it for a long time, and finally decided to go on a trip after Li Xiang graduated.

The last subject, out of the examination room.Li Xiang and Shi Lei were looking for each other's figure in the crowded crowd. Shi Lei saw Li Xiangzheng intending to approach from a distance, but Li Xiang also turned his head.

In the crowded crowd, there are too many people desperately pinning their lives on the college entrance examination, so people worry about the college entrance examination and laugh at it. Parents bring their children, asking and inquiring.

Shi Lei stood outside the circle of people, opened his arms, and waited for Li Xiang to get out of everything in front of him and go home together.And today, Li Xiang seemed to be very happy. The two hugged each other lightly and left side by side. The crowd was too noisy for them.

The roads that were blocked because of the exam are still impassable. It is rare that there is no car on the road in the city. The two seem to have something to say, but they look at each other and smile and forget everything.

"elder brother."

"Ok?"

"It's okay." Li Xiang smiled, a little embarrassed.

"How do we celebrate today?"

"Go home, candlelight dinner today! As for what to do next, let's talk about it, don't make plans."

They continued walking in silence, walked out of the closed road area, and the two took a taxi to go home.Li Xiang in the car leaned very close to Shi Lei, Li Xiang felt a delicate and secret emotion pervading in his heart, very suitable for savoring slowly in the quiet time.However, the uncle driver chatted enthusiastically: "Today I finally received the children who took the college entrance examination. I always heard from them a few days ago. Let me tell you, this is good luck. After the college entrance examination, the children may have good fortune." !"

And Shi Lei also responded enthusiastically, his posture was really like a parent accompanying his child's college entrance examination, the two of them listed all kinds of education experience all the way, completely ignoring Li Xiang, Li Xiang was depressed, but he was not good at messing around.

Finally got out of the car, turned around and Li Xiang jumped on Shi Lei's back, Shi Lei raised his hand to support him: "Why, you are not happy that you are a child?" Li Xiang was thinking about how to bite Shi Lei to relieve his anger ?Then Shi Lei added, "You were originally a child."

The two walked a few steps, and a little girl came out from the neighborhood and stared at the two of them for a long time, and turned back until they missed it.Li Xiangquan didn't care, but Shi Lei realized that it was a bit weird for the two of them to behave like this, so he let Li Xiang go.

"Li Xiang, shall we talk?"

"Now?" Li Xiang felt a little sudden, after all, he was not ready yet. "Actually, I also have something to tell you."

They were talking about the same conversation, but the two people walking side by side had different expressions.

☆, germination (5)

The rays of the setting sun, reflected on the glass of the house, are bright red.There are hurried travelers on the road, and there are also people returning home slowly.The few fish in the pond were the same as before, with a little green algae on the wall of the pond, which was how the two of them walked this time last year.Li Xiang stared at the ground, wondering what was imagining in his head, with a smile on his lips.Shi Lei's voice also seemed normal.

"Li Xiang, do you know?"

Could it be a hallucination? Li Xiang felt that Shi Lei's voice today seemed extraordinarily gentle.

"When a person is in a brand new environment. It's like you went to college after a while, or just started working. In a strange environment, people will feel lonely and scared." Shi Lei controlled his voice , I hope it can lead Li Xiang to accept it calmly, he can guess what Li Xiang wants to say, but Shi Lei decided to let those words be silent, let him rot in the soil, and become the nourishment for Li Xiang's next love. "At that time, people will be more eager for love and care than usual, so love will arise, Li Xiang, you will meet you in college,,,,,,"

"Shi Lei." Li Xiang pulled Shi Lei's shoulders, wanting to look at his face, and then verify whether there is something wrong with his ears.Li Xiang was puzzled, and he bent down slightly, as if he was begging, or in pain, "What do you mean by that? What exactly do you want to say?"

Shi Lei pushed away Li Xiang's hand holding his shoulder, avoiding his eyes, a sense of fatigue invaded him.Li Xiang pulled Shi Lei's arm relentlessly.

"Why?" Shi Lei obviously responded before, Li Xiang felt that he really felt Shi Lei's love.

"Why did you tell me today?" Li Xiang turned in his mind suddenly, he remembered that Shi Lei smoked heavily, and also remembered that Shi Lei was always in a trance recently, but why didn't he think of it before, was it because Shi Lei was anxious?So what was the previous response!Are you worried that you won't be able to take the college entrance examination with peace of mind?Li Xiang searched for Shi Lei's expression, but Shi Lei still avoided his gaze and frowned.Li Xiang felt that Shi Lei was impatient. He first felt a sense of grievance pressing on his heart, and then when he realized that he had been fooled, that emotion was mixed with a little resentment. He felt that Shi Lei was like a giver , From the beginning to the end, it is high and high, not only giving myself a place to live, but also giving myself feelings.And he could only bear it passively, he thought he was actively loving Shi Lei, but his love was easily trampled under his feet.

When Li Xiang let go of his hand in despair, Shi Lei held him instead: "Stop making trouble, go home."

A sneer appeared on Li Xiang's distorted crying face, and he asked, "Are you worried about me again?"

Shi Lei felt that his head was hurting terribly, tiredness almost crushed him, his voice couldn't be louder: "Li Xiang, you are too young, you are still a child, but we are still friends anyway, right?"

"No." Li Xiang shook off Shi Lei's hand and ran out.He wanted to escape, to run far away, to keep running, as if he could escape everything he didn't want to face.He didn't know how long he had been running, but when he stopped, he realized that his legs were weak, and he fell on the road. The depression in his heart almost tied his throat.When he thought of the resentment towards Shi Lei that had sprouted just now, the thought of ungratefulness aggravated the depression again.

Shi Lei was a little slumped, and seemed to be extremely tired, but a little numb on the contrary, he moved his steps mechanically.Too young, yes, Li Xiang is too young.Shi Lei had thought about this problem before, how could he not understand Li Xiang when the two lived together.He thought about a lot of obstacles, whether his family agrees, social tolerance, or working in another place in the future, but he didn't figure out which one stopped the two of them, Shi Lei felt that they could not be together.That means Li Xiang is too young, he is too young to understand love, he is too young and should have better development, is he too young?

The lady walking in front of her is holding a big dog in one hand and her grandson in the other.Shi Lei didn't see it either, it wasn't until the dog barked fiercely at him that Shi Lei came back to his senses.

"Grandma, look at him crying because of the dog." The child's chubby finger pointed at Shi Lei, with a child's fright.

"Young man, are you all right?"

Shi Lei waved his hands in embarrassment, and fled back home.

Shi Lei forgot whether he ate or not that day, and he couldn't remember clearly for the next few days.Shi Lei rubbed his swollen head, sat up from the sofa, the sky outside was not too bright yet.In the past few days, I either woke up early, suffered from insomnia, and lost my appetite.The ashtray was full of cigarette butts, and there were two empty wine bottles lying on the table, which he drank yesterday.A thick cloud of melancholy enveloped Shi Lei, which couldn't be shaken off or dispelled.After sitting blankly for a while, Shi Lei lay back down again. Now Shi Lei can finally understand why some people can sleep more than ten hours a day, because sleeping is almost like not sleeping, and the quality of sleep is extremely poor.Shi Lei doesn't like to sleep in the bedroom these days, instead it's more comfortable to lie on the sofa, or to put his mind at ease.Sometimes Shi Lei sat on it and wanted to cry. He was so sad that he even wanted to call Li Xiang and tell him to come back!But when the impulsiveness passed, Shi Lei would laugh at himself again, alas, Shi Lei felt that his rationality was completely useless in this situation.

When he heard the doorbell, Shi Lei almost ran over.

"Oh, are you planning to poison yourself to death?" Qin Haiyang covered his nose, the smell filled the room, he looked at the ground and felt that he didn't need to change his shoes, so he went straight to open the window.Shi Lei leaned back on the sofa again.

"Look at you, what you look like!" Qin Haiyang was not polite.

"I'm unemployed and lovelorn now?" Shi Lei took out a cigarette.

"Why do I feel that both of these are caused by you?"

"You're here to make trouble."

"Come on, go for a walk and talk to me."

"I don't want to go out. And I can't explain it clearly, I can't even understand it myself." Shi Lei took a puff of cigarette slowly, watching the smoke ring turn around. "Why don't you cook me something, I want noodles."

Qin Haiyang showed his true qualities as a good man at home, cooked the noodles, and even tidied up the house briefly.Then he looked at Shi Lei with blue eyes and stubble around his mouth, holding a bowl of noodles, his eyes were a little dull under the heat.

"I went to my aunt's house a few days ago, and my brother's nephews are all in kindergarten."

Shi Lei's eyes gathered together, listening to Qin Haiyang's speech.

"That kid is so white and cute."

"Why, you are in a hurry to get married, what did Xu Jiao say?"

"No, listen to me first. Then, he is very smart. When I go to the supermarket to buy things, my sister-in-law won't let him buy snacks, so he will say: 'Mom, I have a sore throat, but you have to give me some snacks. Whichever one I buy, I'll be fine.'”

Shi Lei heard what he meant and couldn't help laughing.

"So, you are similar to that child. However, you think that if you make yourself into such a desolate look, he will come back to coax you. Don't forget, he can't see it!"

Shi Lei couldn't stop laughing, but he was too lazy to correct Qin Haiyang's misunderstanding, so he could only wish them happiness, and hope that Qin Haiyang would not feel the pain of being broken up.

After sitting for a long time, Qin Haiyang got up and went back.After leaving the house, he called Li Xiang first. Qin Haiyang didn't have Shi Lei's familiarity and understanding of Li Xiang's temperament, nor did Li Xiang's emotional delicacy and sensitivity.He only saw one cause and effect: Li Xiang couldn't make love, so he became resentful, and left Shi Lei alone at home.So the speech is also unambiguous, and it is a scolding meal.

At that time, Li Xiang was working outside and went home after work.Didn't call Shi Lei, anyway, the key is still with him.When he opened the door, Shi Lei had already packed himself up and was cooking in the kitchen.

"I'm back." A familiar voice.

"Yeah." Li Xiang stood at the door without moving.

"I thought you would keep avoiding me!" The boy who broke his mind didn't speak, and still stood at the door without moving.

"Come in, wait for me to change your shoes?"

Li Xiang just started to move, put down the keys, change shoes, and the next step should be to change clothes, it's the same as before, but it's obviously different.

Shi Lei's cooking skills still haven't improved much.

"What school did you apply for?"

Li Xiang finished a few words, and then explained.

Shi Lei listened to his grades and majors, and nodded in satisfaction with his attitude of 'responsible for himself': "Fortunately, I didn't make a fool of myself."

"Am I so immature in your eyes!" Li Xiang didn't forget that Shi Lei said 'you are too young, you are still a child', he felt that his self-esteem had been severely hit, like a wronged child, Angrily point out a grown-up's mistake.But he lacked confidence, because what he wanted more was love.

Shi Lei reflected on himself and realized that he couldn't talk nonsense: "Stop, I don't want to talk about this, my head hurts."

In the days that followed, Shi Lei's plan to travel had to be delayed.The two still sit on the sofa facing each other every day. Li Xiang hasn't drawn any pictures these days, but is reading Shi Lei's usual books. Shi Lei is clutching a copy of "Three Essays on Aesthetics". Thanks to Li Xiang, now Shi Lei Not only do I know a little about painting, but I also have a little interest in art.Sometimes, Li Xiang would still stare at him, but when Shi Lei turned his head to look at him, Li Xiang turned his eyes away instead.At this time, Shi Lei would feel that he owed Li Xiang a little, but he was at a loss as to how to make it up.The flowers on the window sill were a little wilted, and Li Xiang also felt that he was not interested, so the two of them transplanted the flowers back to the land where she should have been.When he put it back, Shi Lei wondered if he also put Li Xiang back to nature?However, the flower baskets are still placed on the balcony, which can be regarded as traces of their past existence.

☆, escape (1)

In this slightly depressing atmosphere, most of August has already passed.Shi Lei would think that he should break it simply, otherwise it would be disrespectful to Li Xiang if he procrastinated like this.But seeing Li Xiang's aggrieved expression, Shi Lei felt that he couldn't be ruthless no matter what.As for Li Xiang, sometimes he really wanted to grab Shi Lei's clothes and ask what was going on.The two people's relationship now is obviously the same as before, they still chat and take the same walks, but why did Shi Lei refuse?Is it really because of my young age?What can I do then?It's like a gap that's filled forever.But why does Shi Lei care about this?Li Xiang thought desperately.Then I flipped through the book in my hand, and was attracted by the stories in the book again.

Shi Lei came back from shopping outside, and when he entered the room, he found Li Xiang sitting on the sofa with a listless look, the light was not turned on, and the room was already a little dark.The light shines.Shi Lei saw Li Xiang's face, his eyes were red, it was obvious that he had cried.A book was thrown beside him, and he had already seen the end.

Shi Lei picked it up and took a look: "What's wrong, I feel sad."

"Fate just likes to play tricks on people, doesn't it?" Shi Lei was so angry that he didn't know whether it was for the author or himself.

"Isn't the theme of this book to see how much suffering a person can endure?" Shi Lei closed the book, put it aside, and patiently explained. "Li Xiang, have I told you that in my opinion, you are a very strong and brave person."

Li Xiang looked up at Shi Lei, Shi Lei patted him on the shoulder, stopped talking, got up to cook.Maybe when Li went to university, it would be better if he changed his environment.Recently, Shi Lei didn't dare to talk nonsense anymore, and he was not sure that those words would poke Li Xiang's sensitive and slender nerves, but there were some things he had to say.For example, right now, Li Xiang is randomly sketching with a paintbrush. Shi Lei knows that this is the time when Li Xiang's mind is active, and he is excited and happy, but it still seems inappropriate.So I didn't say anything tonight.

But procrastination is useless, what should be faced will be faced sooner or later, long-term pain is worse than short-term pain, and a sharp knife can cut through the mess.When Shi Lei encouraged himself repeatedly like this, he realized that he had unknowingly started to procrastinate when facing problems, or in other words, when facing Li Xiang, from 'breakup problem' to 'travel date', and then to a What I want to say is trying to delay as much as possible, even if I know it can't solve the problem, I still keep using illusions to paralyze and deceive myself, and all this is just because I don't want to face Li Xiang's unhappiness.

"Li Xiang."

Li Xiang raised his eyes from behind the drawing board with a little vigilance.

"You're leaving right away, and I want to go on a trip too. Both of us have an undecided return date, so I thought about returning the house in a few days. Anyway, we both have few things, so we can put them at Qin Haiyang's place first. And Your picture album is always a sweet burden, and you can’t drag it around the world, you can keep it with me until you have a stable residence in the future. Of course, I will return to this city to work in the end, and you are always available You can come back." Shi Lei finished in one breath.In fact, this was what he planned in the morning, the house was all retired, but at this time, Shi Lei felt deeply reluctant, people always start to be more attached to each other when they are about to part, and Shi Lei is no exception. "Why don't we leave a picture in this room, since we can't take it away, then let's break up with him with a smile, okay?"

'Then let's say goodbye with a smile! Li Xiang didn't think about it at the beginning. When he heard Shi Lei's words, he just felt a kind of sadness that his emotions were about to fall apart, but at the end he felt a little ironic. Concise and concise, now I have learned a pun!

Seeing Li Xiang glaring at him resentfully, he slammed his pen and left, the door frame slammed, Shi Lei was surprised at first, "Did I say the wrong thing again?" ’, and then I remembered to be angry, ‘what’s the fuss again, why can’t I talk about it properly!You only get angry all day long, are you in adolescence! '.

Let this matter go unnoticed, Shi Lei is really reluctant to part with this house where he has lived for a long time and has many memories. Dead objects seem extraordinarily beautiful when they intrude on the air of emotion.The sofa where we chatted together seems to have become a warm cradle, the stove has become the most magical stage for Li Xiang to perform magic cooking skills, and the balcony that once supported life, and the one that supported their spiritual life The small bookcase, and Li Xiang's favorite studio.Shi Lei was ambivalently attached to everything here, but he still left the house without hesitation.

On the day of leaving, Li Xiang cried very sadly and hugged Shi Lei's shoulders tightly, as if the separation of geography and time also separates people's hearts. This is the real separation, Li Xiang realized.Shi Lei's memory of that day was a bit confused, Li Xiang's sadness seemed to spread to himself, making him feel painful and tired.When Li Xiang left, Shi Lei clearly felt a sense of relief and a emptiness that cannot be ignored.What I said at that time was, 'I will be back after a while. ', or 'I'll wait for you here'.

Shi Lei didn't buy a ticket in advance, looking at the driving information scrolling back and forth on the screen, there are so many strange place names, so many strange places, China is too big, the world is bigger, there are countless ethnic customs, and there are endless The high mountains and the deep sea seem to be endless in a lifetime.Shi Lei saw a familiar name in the red LED lights, it should be the place Li Xiang mentioned, so let's go there.

Shi Lei's travel in the past two months was simply wandering around by himself, he would go wherever everyone went, browsed through various travel websites, and followed the scenic spots and cities with the highest click-through rate one by one.Eat local specialties, live in youth hostels, just like everyone in the huge poor travel crowd in China, wandering around.Shi Lei was a little tired, he walked several provinces in a row, his heart, which was stimulated by the magnificence of China's mountains, rivers and seas, the profound cultural relics, and the majesty of the red culture at the beginning, has begun to numb.Just like Beijing’s bean juice, pea yellow, Tianjin’s Goubuli, [-]th Street Twist, Wuhan’s hot dry noodles, Changsha’s stinky tofu, etc., the first time I ate it, it was fresh and delicious; the second time, Delicious; third time, fourth time, fifth time, potluck.People always get used to it.

Shi Lei found an ancient city, although it has become very commercialized, the charm of the ancient city still exists.The high mountains in the distance are overlapping and flying, getting farther and farther away, and getting higher and higher.An indigo river meanders through, and two stone bridges connect the two banks.There are some ancient buildings inside and outside the city, surrounded by city walls, with increased stone floors, ancient houses, ancient tiles and ancient cornices.It doesn't matter if it's real or imitation.The daytime in the ancient city is quite hot, so the nightlife is more abundant.There are restaurants on both sides of the river bank, and there are bars all along the street. If you look inside, there are still a few clear bars.Shi Lei thought it was good, so he stayed in a small hotel far away from the downtown area, the room price was not expensive, and it was very quiet.The boss is a girl, who seems to be a bit romantic, and the room is decorated with a literary atmosphere.The door directly in front was as wide as the house, and there was always a breeze.There are also three little black dogs in the house, which are said to be stray dogs. Apart from lazily putting their bellies on the ground to cool off, they don’t see any other movements.Of course, what Shi Lei likes the most is the big wooden table in the hall, with all kinds of books beside it.Therefore, the roommates in the same room changed back and forth, but he never left.

Until a week later, two companion tenants came to the house.Most of the people Shi Lei met were students, especially college students. Occasionally, a few would quit their jobs and come out to see how big the world is.But today, the two look different at first glance.

One of them, with dark skin, has wild hair and a high ponytail, and the stubble on his face has grown all over his cheeks.not tall, but