overpass
Chapter 1: Overpass
He opened Li Xiang's hand and was stunned for a moment before speaking: "If this is your classmate, I have to beat you out!"
What am I touching them for!
"Your belly looks great! It's muscular, with a little bit of fat, not too much, covered with a thin layer, very soft. Of course, what I'm going to say is not this, that's right, having muscles means you're in good shape .Plus a little fat, it can show that you are not a coolie, and at the same time, you are not a greedy person."
"Really? Then I'll touch yours!" Then he stretched out his hand.
Li Xiang felt itchy before the hand touched his own.He immediately pressed Shi Lei's hand, and laughed out loud.Shi Lei hastily raised his index finger and stuck it to his mouth.Almost "hush" Li Xiang's head was on his head, Li Xiang quickly fell silent, only to hear Shi Lei say: "The sound insulation is not good!"
☆, the beginning (3)
"Are you sleepy?" Shi Lei asked.
"Not sleepy!" I am willing to accompany you no matter what you say now!
"Well, then I'll go to bed first, you can play by yourself."
Li Xiang felt like being tricked by Shi Lei.
The two of them had a cold wind on their foreheads in the afternoon, and they woke up so early in the morning, Shi Lei was already sleepy.And in a familiar home, I fell asleep soon.
In the early morning, Li Xiang was woken up again by Shi Lei: "You can sleep well now!"
"Of course, I'm growing up now!" And my mood fluctuates all day long, can I rest if I don't sleep for a while?
"Don't eat too much breakfast later? E?? br> "Okay, I haven't really gone shopping. "
"Oh, it's shopping in the ancient streets, not going out to buy things."
"Well, I know. When you go shopping, it's so scary. Will you talk to the salesman about economics and sales psychology when you are bargaining, and finally say to him: 'In summary, you have to give me Lower the price, or you're unreasonable.'”
"You brat, you've learned to choreograph me." Shi Lei changed his posture, "I also want to try traveling. Walking around, will you feel free?"
"I don't know, but I know freedom doesn't mean doing whatever you want. Brother, don't you think you are not free?"
"No, I was moved by what you said, but I won't go homeless, I should take my heart, but I won't go homeless, I should just take the train for a walk." br>"Lie. "
"Can you see it? Come, let me see if your eyes are different from ordinary people."
Li Xiang didn't know whether to classify this kind of serious and abnormal words as brain damage or a cold joke.
"Very normal!"
There was a knock on the door, and Mama Shi's voice passed through the door: "Son, get up and eat."
Shi Lei patted him, "Stinky boy, you stay in bed every day, and I get up late because of the trouble."
"Wow, brother, you still have such a side! And I just saw it now!" Li Xiang was half surprised, half unbelievable, sitting cross-legged on the bed and staring at Shi Lei.
Shi Lei threw Li Xiang's shirt on the bed: "Get up, don't be rebellious. You said you were 23 yesterday, why didn't you say you were 28!"
After going out, he shut Li Xiang inside and slowly changed his clothes.
While serving the meal, Shi Lei's mother kept repeating, "You two can talk quite well together. I heard you two laughing last night. Xiao Lei, do you want to go and see your former friends?"
"Those are all former classmates, and we have not been in touch for a long time."
"Do you want to move around more? It's natural to have more contacts with friends."
"Okay, don't worry about the child's affairs."
"Mom." After washing his face, Shi Lei went to the kitchen to serve dinner. "I want to go to the ancient street for a while, and I'll bring you some of the glutinous rice cakes over there?"
"Run around as soon as you get home, don't forget to bring your scarf when you're honest for a while. It's cold outside."
"Okay, take the one you knitted for me."
When he went out, Shi Lei brought the black and white scarf woven by Shi Ma himself. Anyway, Shi Lei lacked artistic cells, he didn't care about beauty or ugliness, as long as he wasn't cold.Li Xiang brought another one, probably Shi Lei bought it himself before.
After taking two bus stops, we arrived at the ancient street that Shi Lei mentioned, and the Damenfang of the ancient street can be seen from a long distance away.And when I went in, I found that apart from antiques, there are really not many places that are 'ancient'.In the middle is a road paved with stone slabs, and on both sides of the road are a variety of merchants, a lively street of snacks and shopping.It's past 10 o'clock now, and it's usually the time to set up stalls and go out to shop, but there are not many people, of course, the Spring Festival is an exception.
As soon as he walked in, Shi Lei regretted a little: "Do you not like these things too much?"
"No, didn't you say you took me to eat delicious food, don't go back on your word!" Li Xiang gripped Shi Lei's wrist.
Shi Lei suddenly realized that what was in front of him was just a young man: "I thought you were unreal!" Shi Lei patted Li Xiang on the shoulder, "Go, brother will take you to eat snacks."
But Li Xiang's attention was not at all. He felt that the two of them had physical contact recently. The shot just now was simply an unfinished hug. After it was over, he felt out of order. Why didn't he look at Shi Lei just now? Maybe there will be a hint of it in his face!
Shi Lei led Li Xiang to walk slowly all the way, pointed to the brands of each family and introduced them, and finally said, "Actually, I think the taste is similar. The two simply found a random family and sat opposite each other. The tables on the street stalls were small and the space was narrow. The two legs were crossed. Li Xiang was next to Shi Lei's leg generously. .
However, Li Xiang looked at Shi Lei's chopsticks with less oil, less salt, and less pepper, and thought, Shi Lei has a light taste and doesn't like noise, so would he be emotionally indifferent?
Shi Lei watched him refuse to eat: "Why, it doesn't suit your taste? If you don't like it, don't eat it. We'll make it ourselves when we get back, and I'll help you."
"Brother, have you ever been in love before?"
"No."
As if verified, Li Xiang took a deep breath.
"There was one who talked for two weeks, but later found out that it was not suitable." Shi Lei thought about Li Xiang's 'X' eyes, and confessed a bit. "I feel like I haven't liked anyone too much. The crush in high school can't be counted. You know it's not true love."
It would be better not to say it!Li Xiang sighed again.
After eating, I left and moved to another one. Now the difference between the north and the south is getting smaller and smaller, and the whole snack street includes everything from the north to the south.
Li Xiang was a little frustrated, Shi Lei had already been defeated, carrying the rice cakes bought in the snack street in his hand, walking slowly as a car.Occasionally, when meeting old friends on the road, Shi Lei would stop to say hello.
"Brother." Li Xiang jumped onto Shi Lei's back like a ready bell, and Shi Lei took advantage of the situation to support him: "Why, fainted from hunger again?"
"No, I can't move anymore."
"Then do you want to go to the temples or go home?" Shi Lei turned a corner and changed to a secluded alley. The tall buildings on both sides made the road even more narrow. There was a line of sky and the gap between the buildings. Shi Lei was like this carry him forward,
"Go home, I've eaten too much, I'm a little sleepy."
Lying on Shi Lei's back, Shi Lei even slightly bent his waist to make Li Xiang more comfortable.Li Xiang shook his feet, the feeling of being suspended in the air made him feel erratic, it is said that dogs or wolves would feel fear when they leave the ground, but he didn't feel this way, instead he felt a sense of relaxation that he gave himself wholeheartedly to Shi Lei.
After exiting the alley and arriving at the spacious street, Shi Lei put down Li Xiang: "Here we are, haven't you slept enough yet?"
Li Xiang jumped down, "If you walk for a while, you will be able to fall asleep. In fact, your ankles are a little cold. Brother, I will carry you on my back next time."
"Let's talk about it, when I can't walk in the future, shouldn't my son carry me?"
For the rest of the time, the two stayed at home together. Dad Shi would go out to meet friends, and Mom Shi would dance in the square every night.Shi Lei would accompany his parents, or read a book, or chat with Li Xiang.Li Xiang was quietly drawing on Shi Lei's desk.
On the third day, the two went back by train, as if they were the same as when they came.The sofa is still lying quietly like that, and the little "potted plants" are still thriving after being watered.Li Xiang moved a small stool, sat in front of them and chatted for a long time, like an old friend whom he hadn't seen for a few days.The two are still in that way of getting along, maybe that's the norm.
☆, germination (1)
Li Xiang felt that the two of them must have accidentally dripped lubricant into their lives, otherwise how could they be so harmonious.And Shi Lei didn't seem to feel anything, just felt that this kid was getting more and more clingy, and his mouth was sweet, coupled with Li Xiang's natural romantic feelings, Shi Lei often felt overwhelmed.
When I first came back on New Year's Day, the third-year senior high school group had a big exam.The papers are judged very quickly, and the teachers at the school seem to be eager to score after the exam, and then use the results to stimulate them. This group of motherland flowers who don't know how to improve themselves, but only take money from their parents with peace of mind.Sure enough, as soon as the papers were released that day, some people were happy and some were worried.Li Xiang was originally indifferent, but Zhang Xu seemed to be even more absent-minded.
Now, the closer to the winter vacation, the more relaxed the atmosphere in the class.As soon as Li Xiang entered the door, he was almost hit by a tape. The little girl over there apologized quickly; a tall boy in front was pretending to be a mental patient, telling jokes with the front table; there were a few people on the left with textbooks Playing with mobile phones; but some academic masters are still writing hard.
For a while, nothing happened to Zhang Xu.But there seemed to be some changes. The friends he had made in the chaos before didn't seem to bring him much happiness.Zhang Xu is not as handsome and unrestrained as he was at the beginning, nor is he the hatred and anger he was later on.Now he doesn't talk much all day long, doesn't know what to do all day long, and is often late.His face was gloomy, and his body smelled of smoke and stench. Sometimes he even forgot to wash his hair.
Usually, a few minutes after the class bell rang, Zhang Xu hurried in with a schoolbag in his arms.The teacher glanced at it and didn't pay much attention.Three or two eat a breakfast, and then fall into a deep sleep, which is different from the previous nap.I slept all morning, ran after class at noon, and still slept when I came back in the afternoon, and so on.After a while, Li Xiang couldn't help but worry a little bit for him.
As soon as the get out of class bell rang in the evening, Li Xiang stopped him: "Zhang Xu, do you have time, let's go for a walk on the playground together?"
Zhang Xu froze for a moment, "Let's go."
The sun slanted very early in winter, and there were not many people on the playground. Maybe they all went to eat?The red rubber track has faded badly, the white ropes on the football goal are shaking in the wind, and the fake lawn on the football seems to be an anomaly in this season.
Zhang Xu, who always left in a hurry, was rarely in a hurry today. He walked with Li Xiang, touching his trouser pockets from time to time, but retreated again.Finally, he took out a pack of cigarettes and lit it on his own.
Li Xiang frowned in confusion, gathered his clothes, and was not in a hurry to speak, because he didn't know what to say, nor did he know how to ask properly.If you ask directly, will you be afraid of poking someone's pain and causing embarrassment?If it's a sideshow, how do you start?
The basketball court is still playing in full swing, and that beam of youthful enthusiasm seems to be irreversible no matter what.But it was so far away that I couldn't even hear the sound. Looking at those dancing figures, it seemed like a distant place, but they also belonged there once.
"Is there anything you want from me?" Zhang Xu finally asked.
"Deskmate, how are you doing recently?"
"There's nothing wrong with it." Zhang Xu replied in a neutral manner, and Zhang Xu was still very unskilled in flicking the cigarette ash.
"I think you have something to say?" Li Xiang asked. "What have you been doing recently? Playing online games?"
"Yeah." It didn't sound like he was interested in talking.
Li Xiang stopped talking, and the two walked back in a bend.
"A lot of things that I thought were normal at first, but now I realize that they are all fucking abnormal!" Zhang Xu's voice trembled a little. "Playing games is very good. No wonder so many people like to play games. It's very free, very free. You are a god."
"I can understand, and I used to think that leaving is freedom."
"What do you understand? Are you like me? Sometimes I think, if I don't spend money on them, will they celebrate my birthday? If I don't buy them milk tea, you say they are still willing to take pictures of me Is it? And my dad, my mom, if I am disobedient and don’t give them face, will I have to sleep on the street! If I don’t sleep with him, he won’t be nice to me at all! And those girls, If I don't give them something to talk about, will they come back to play with me? But that's normal, isn't it? Isn't it all like this?"
Zhang Xu's voice became more and more excited, but finally stopped abruptly, and turned to Li Xiang with a strange expression: "Why are you so kind to me?"
Li Xiang frowned, he didn't like Zhang Xu's tone very much.
"You pity me?" Zhang Xu asked.
"You feel sorry for yourself?" Li Xiang frowned even more seriously.
"Still, you also..." Zhang Xu couldn't say what he said after that, but he still pressed the question, with the posture of "don't ask me anything, I will never be reconciled": "Don't you also like A man? I saw the pictures you drew that day, and they are in your home, in your schoolbag. You are even more disgusting, and you are fucking with you,,,,,, "
Li Xiang didn't wait for him to say the following words, he pushed and grabbed the front of Zhang Xu's clothes: "Enough." It is doubt.He felt that Zhang Xu really made him feel strange, just like those people he had met before: "Let me tell you, first, there is no gender distinction in love, as long as there are two free souls, you can love each other. Two, I never thought you were disgusting, the one who always felt disgusting was you, I just took you as a friend, and you have always been the one who despises yourself."
Zhang Xu swung Li Xiang's arm away and roared, as if loud enough to make sense: "I didn't! You're talking nonsense!"
"And you not only look down on yourself, but also trample on others." Li Xiang decided to add another dose.
"I don't understand what you're talking about!" Zhang Xu angrily pushed Li Xiang away and strode away.
"Escaping won't solve the problem!" Li Xiang shouted at his back, but his voice was not loud, and he didn't know who he was speaking to.
Li Xiang didn't know whether Zhang Xu really didn't understand, or didn't want to understand at all. He had seen many people who liked to be deceived by illusions, and those people just liked false things.Now Li Xiang didn't know what to do.
He once felt that he should tear off that mask with hatred, so that people would not know how beautiful the real life would be. He also treated himself like this at the time, but now it seems that it doesn't work at all.
I'm a little hungry, Shi Lei is probably cooking noodles again, Li Xiang went to the cafeteria, there are not many people now, and of course there is not much food.Li Xiang swiped his meal card, and the balance flashed on the small digital screen on the credit card machine in front of him.Li Xiang fell into a confused inner state.
When he returned after eating, Zhang Xu was already sitting at the desk.The two of them are like elementary school students after a quarrel, no, elementary school students are not as narrow-minded as the two of them.Zhang Xu turned his head to one side, as if afraid of accidentally seeing Li Xiang.However, Li Xianglian's completely indifferent attitude in drawing a painting for an evening class made Zhang Xu even angrier.
Li Xiang stood at the door, but did not open it for a long time.Even through the heavy anti-theft doors and walls, he seems to be able to see the sights, lights, every familiar corner of the house, and the life he cares for.
His mind was full of chaos again, frame after frame of pictures were repeatedly shown in his mind, the roads he traveled, the bridges he crossed, and all kinds of people he saw, all whizzed and turned into one There are doors, glass, iron, steel, and fence-like, but none of them have been opened for him, whether he is walking in the wilderness or in the bustling city.Then Li Xiang remembered, the first time he stood in front of this door, when Shi Lei supported him with one hand and opened the door with the other, just like now, the not too bright light was enough to help him dispel the darkness around him.
Shi Lei saw that Li Xiang hadn't come back for a long time at home, so he wanted to go downstairs and wait for him by the way.But when he opened the door again, he saw Li Xiangzheng standing at the door with hazy eyes.Shocked, Shi Lei quickly grabbed Li Xiang's shoulders and brought him into the room.
"What's the matter, are you okay?" The voice was unusually soft, and Shi Lei carefully looked at Li Xiang's expression.Seeing Li Xiang's pursed mouth, Shi Lei also pursed slightly.It seemed to be infected by Li Xiang's expression.
Li Xiang also watched Shi Lei's expression change, and suddenly felt that Shi Lei opened not only the door of a house for him, he hugged Shi Lei with a tearful smile, and put his head on Shi Lei's shoulder.Both of Shi Lei's arms were hugged by Li Xiang, and his whole body froze like a log, but he felt the emotion in Li Xiang's laughter, and Shi Lei also felt happy.And the uncontrollable sense of joy made him laugh out loud.
The two stood for a while, and after their emotions calmed down, their sense of touch became emotional. Shi Lei could hear Li Xiang's heartbeat and breathing, and feel the strength of Li Xiang's arms, and the air blowing on his neck always made him Feel uncomfortable.
Shi Lei pulled out an arm and patted Li Xiang's back, but only his schoolbag was photographed: "Okay, let's change your clothes first."
Li Xiang dawdled for a while, and then let go of Shi Lei, he was not in a calm mood because he was crying and laughing just now.After changing his shoes and throwing away his schoolbag, Li Xiang went to look at his little potted plant first.The leaves of the carrot exude a delicate fragrance, the leaves are small but the veins are clear, Li Xiang admired its fineness.There is also a new shoot below.
"Li Xiang, do you want milk?" Shi Lei's voice came from behind him.
"drink."
With a reply, Li Xiang continued to look at the sprout.
☆, germination (2)
Shi Lei dug out a carton of milk, glanced at the banana, pretending he didn't see it.Turn on the switch, and soon the pot will heat up.Shi Lei also poured himself a glass, recalling the scene just now, Shi Lei thought: Did he really pick up a younger brother for himself?But he doesn't have a younger brother, but it doesn't mean he hasn't seen other people's younger brothers, there really aren't many of them.And just now, I actually followed him to be emotionally turbulent, lonely with him, happy with him, how long has it been since I experienced this feeling.Now, there is actually the willingness to drink milk with him.What kind of emotion is this?
He remembered what A. Fromm said: "Childish love is that I love you because I need you; mature love is that I need you because I love you." He felt that he had experienced the former, He thought of those two weeks of love, wasn't it because he was too afraid of being alone?
The boiling milk in the pot interrupted Shi Lei's thinking, even if he calmly turned off the fire, the fact that half of the pot of milk was burnt could not be recovered, so let's drink half a cup, Shi Lei calmly rinsed the pot again.Passed the milk to Li Xiang, and looked at Li Xiang's innocent boyish expression. "Anyway, Li Xiang is a good boy, he should be freer and happier, and I am willing to defend him as much as I can." Shi Lei thought in his heart.
After drinking the milk, Li Xiang broke two more bananas, Shi Lei held the book and shook his head, signaling not to eat it.Li Xiang sat cross-legged on the ground alone, leaning against the sofa, and continued to appease his stomach.Shi Lei glanced at him through the book.
Li Xiang caught his gaze keenly: "Brother, why are you peeking at me?"
Shi Lei admitted generously: "Look at you." Then he added: "How are you doing at school recently? Did you feel uncomfortable or encountered trouble?"
Li Xiang glanced at him, still chewing on the banana.
"Of course, it's your freedom to say it or not. I just always listen to you talking about the past, and rarely talk about the current situation. I'm afraid you have something to say." Shi Lei continued.
"I know, it's nothing wrong, anyway, I can handle anything. But there are, I just don't know how to say it?"
Shi Lei put down the book, turned sideways and looked at Li Xiang, looking straight into Li Xiang's eyes, a bit focused.Although he had never experienced a close relationship before, including his parents, Shi Lei often wondered if this was a reason for his lack of affection.But after he experienced Li Xiang's delicate eyes that seemed to be able to see through people, Shi Lei not only didn't feel scary, but responded unconsciously.
Li Xiang changed his posture, and the two got closer.He didn't want to talk, the atmosphere was quiet and reassuring, even the restless heart seemed to be able to calm down here.Right now there are obviously only two people, but it is precisely the one that will make people feel the least lonely. Li Xiang forgot what he wanted to say, and he didn't remember until he was urged to sleep by Shi Lei and returned to the bedroom, but it is not important anymore.
As soon as he walked into Li Xiang's bedroom, it was as if he had entered the wrong house, and the whole painting style was completely wrong.Layers of drawing paper are piled up everywhere, there are inadvertently thrown paints everywhere on the walls, and there are various pasted paintings, some of which are whole sheets, and some are only half sheets.The windows were not spared, an abstract painting painted in colorful colors, Li Xiang liked that window, although at the beginning, the window did not bring him the sunshine he longed for most, but it gave him another kind of protection.
Li Xiang opened a drawer. He had told Shi Lei at the beginning that this was his privacy, and he hoped to be respected by Shi Lei.And at the beginning, to remind Shi Lei, he specially pasted a piece of paper with only one word "private" written on it, but then the paper fell off by itself, probably because he himself felt that his existence was unnecessary.
Although he didn't know how Zhang Xu saw his painting, Li Xiang was sure that Shi Lei hadn't seen it.However, why does Zhang Xu feel that he likes him?Li Xiang flipped through the paintings in his hand, and it wasn't too explicit!Is it because they are the protagonists of every painting?
Neither of the two quarreling was willing to speak first, but they didn't feel any resentment in their hearts, they just felt that they had done nothing wrong, so they didn't try to break the deadlock first.But one day, maybe at a certain moment, Zhang Xu's arm touched Li Xiang, and Li Xiang just wanted to borrow a pen.
But Zhang Xu is still addicted to the game, Li Xiang doesn't say much, it's useless to talk too much, too much is too much.
In a blink of an eye, it was already four days after the Lunar New Year. Apart from hanging out with Zhang Xu and the others for a day, Li Xiang spent the rest of the time drawing at home.
With the half-covered curtains, the room was hazy, and a few drops of paint dripped on the ground, and they followed suit. Anyway, his brother would not be angry.Li Xiang sat on a small stool in front of the drawing board, with his knees curled up.Li Xiang likes the feeling of sitting lower, or simply sitting on the ground, it seems to be one with the earth, and there is a sense of peace of mind hidden in his heart; but Shi Lei seems to like high places, climbing high and looking far, Shi Lei likes Standing on the window sill and looking down, I like to look at the city from the top of the mountain, and of course I also like to watch the sunset from the bridge.Li Xiang was still painting intently, rubbing paint on his hands and face.After stroking my stomach, I was hungry again, went to the kitchen to fetch a plate of pancakes, and continued to come back to look at the painting in front of me.
Shi Lei will be back tomorrow, Li Xiang thought before falling asleep.
Going home for the New Year, Shi Lei bought a lot of things, this time he will not only stay at home with his parents, but also visit relatives.Shi Lei didn't want to go, but he couldn't help it. "Xiao Lei, it's better for this relative and friend to move around more. Go and see him. He came to see you last time."
"Mom, I'll stay with you at home."
"Why do you accompany me? In the future, don't you have to rely on this friend?"
Shi Lei sighed, didn't want to argue anymore, and went out.Light a cigarette first, what do you say?Said that when I make friends, I don't care what benefits he can bring me, what is more important is his character; he said that if someone asks me for help, even if he has no financial resources, power, or friendship, as long as he has good character and the request is reasonable, I will do it. will help him.But in his mother's deep-rooted thinking mode, there is no place for this kind of thinking to survive. Probably because they suffered too much in that era, it made them lose confidence in human nature.
Shi Lei would still sit at his old desk and read for a while in his spare time every day.Or watch news and military programs with his dad, and the father and son can discuss a little bit.Or maybe Li Xiang would send him some pictures, most of which are Li Xiang's works.Shi Lei pinched the phone, Li Xiang was enthusiastic, but it made Shi Lei a little confused, he didn't know how to respond.How can it be serious and sincere without losing its depth and connotation?Shi Lei was in trouble, and said, "Li Xiangyou's drawing is so beautiful!" 'No; if you want to comment, but Shi Lei doesn't know much about the art of painting.In the end, he replied honestly, "It looks good."
In the blink of an eye five days later, Shi Lei came back early, it was already evening when he got home, and in his hand was his New Year gift for the two of them - two scarves of the same style.The moment the door opened, the room was actually dark, and the lights weren't on?Shi Lei yelled twice, no one?
Only then did Shi Lei realize that he was a little disappointed, so that means that he was looking forward to Li Xiang being at home, but when he was at home, he didn't feel particularly anxious to come back?Shi Lei turned on the light, put down his things, changed his shoes, walked around the house twice, and went to the kitchen to find some water to drink.They saw the small potted plants on the window sill, which were growing very well. The two of them had already added a high stool there, and covered the window sill with a wooden plank to form a platform. Now there were three rows of vegetables neatly stacked on it.
The last time Shi Lei stood by and threatened to eat them all in a few days, but Li Xiang ordered him not to approach them because they—the little potted plants—would hear, get scared, get frightened, get sick, and so on.
Shi Lei sat on the sofa bored, seemingly in no mood to do anything, reading?playing games?Shi Lei first scolded Li Xiang for that brat.
Then he lay on the sofa, but Shi Lei instantly found a piece of paper, a piece of paper with drawings on it, the content was his drawing board, beside it was written 'Go and see! '; Shi Lei got up to look, there was also a painting on the drawing board, it was a crack in the balcony of his house, it said 'Follow me! '; As soon as the cold wind from the balcony blew, Shi Lei shivered, and sure enough, he found another one; like this, Shi Lei found the outside from the inside, and then found the inside from the outside.
Shi Lei now has a dozen papers in his hand, but it's still not over, and the hiding place is getting more and more tricky, one of them was even caught on the milk carton of the refrigerator.Shi Lei took out another sheet from under the carpet, it said 'hold on', stood up, Shi Lei thought that if this kid dared to play with himself, he would definitely have to cut him.
Finally walked into the bedroom, Shi Lei looked around, the feeling of being teased became stronger and stronger.Lifting the bedside lamp, a piece of paper is folded, not a painting, but calligraphy, Shi Lei can judge through the paper.When I opened it, I found that the three big characters said that there are no shirts and no shoes, both square and round, swish down, and flowing water, but the information contained is a bit irritating, "to tease you".
Shi Lei was very angry.Overwhelmed with joy, it's almost like seeing something very happy.
But when he turned his eyes, Shi Lei saw that his quilt was bulging, and Shi Lei hesitated for a moment.Then a certain nerve in his brain was instantly connected together, as if he understood it in an instant, and the speed was so fast that he couldn't catch any traces at all, let alone think.Lifting the quilt violently, half of it was thrown to the ground.
☆, germination (3)
The picture album, which is about half a meter wide and less than one meter long, is exquisitely bound.Putting it neatly in the middle of the bed, Shi Lei calmed down and sat down.
The opened cover is very simple white, with a few small floral dots on it, so pale that it seems invisible.However, the oil painting inside directly hit Shi Lei's vision.
In the first picture, the two are sitting opposite each other on the sofa, with the afternoon sun slanting in.The whole picture rendered by a large piece of milky yellow looks very warm. Shi Lei is lazily leaning on the armrest of the sofa behind with a book on his stomach, and Li Xiang is sitting cross-legged on the other armrest opposite. The two seem to be talking Looking at everything, they were all smiling, Shi Lei couldn't remember which day this was, maybe it was like this every day.
The second one is when the two went on an outing to watch the sunrise. It is an oil painting with distinct colors and layers of coverage. It seems to strongly reproduce the scenery and people of that day. Shi Lei doesn't know how long a painting will take and how much it will take. His painstaking effort, but the painting in front of him made Shi Lei feel that he should take good care of it, he even relaxed the flipping action, even knowing that the back of the canvas has been coated with beeswax and the front is also covered with varnish.
The third, the fourth, the fifth, the sixth, Shi Lei slowly flipped through one by one, this painting is like the condensation of their days, walking slowly along the way, also drawing slowly .
The last picture, which is the seventh picture, is by the river where Shi Lei played when he was a child last time when he went home. The two people on the picture are facing the distant sky together.Shi Lei raised his hand subconsciously, he didn't realize it until he touched the bridge of his nose, he sighed, he didn't look at the painting carefully, he just passed by hastily.
He took out his cell phone and called Li Xiang.
Li Xiang opened the door bouncingly: "It's so slow, I've been walking downstairs for half an hour." He put down the beer in his hand.
"Who told you to make such a big circle?"
"It's fun. Also, don't call me a brat, it looks like you are old, you are only 26 years old, why are you so old-fashioned. How about taking you to play golf in two days?"
"Go." Shi Lei raised his head triumphantly, he is also a sporty otaku, but he is always told by this kid that he is old.Shi Lei's competitive heart started to make trouble, so go and see how I can deal with you, a rookie who is just learning basketball.
Li Xiang also quickly found a few side dishes from the refrigerator and heated them up in the microwave.
"You're hungry. I haven't eaten yet."
Shi Lei set the table and chopsticks aside, then sat at the dining table and watched Li Xiang turn around.
Li Xiang also found out the scarf that Shi Lei bought for him, looked at it, and muttered to himself: "It's a guess, it's either for wearing or for use."
"This is practical, it just happens to be cold these days." Shi Lei explained.
Li Xiang looked at his own neck in the full-length mirror, then went to Shi Lei's place and surrounded him.Shi Lei felt awkward, but he didn't move.
"Well, not bad, it looks good." Li Xiang smiled at Shi Lei.
A "ding" reminded the two that their meal was ready.There are only a few simple items, which are what the two of them usually eat, and Li Xiang also took two bottles of beer.The change in the impression of beer is due to Qin Haiyang. When he came to celebrate Shi Lei's birthday last time, the three of them got together.At Qin Haiyang's instigation, Li Xiang took the initiative to pick up the wine glass for the first time.
The frothy beer exudes the fragrance of malt, and the smell of alcohol slightly stimulates people's sense of smell.However, the feeling of drinking it was not so wonderful. Li Xiang was still startled by the sudden strong taste that burst into his mouth.However, the erratic and pleasurable feeling produced by the alcohol's intrusion into the limbs and bones made Li Xiang accidentally pick up the second glass of wine.
After three rounds of drinking, Li Xiang stretched his legs, and the beer bottle under the table fell to the ground with a 'clink'. Drunk-eyed, he obviously took Shi Lei's arm as a pillow, pulled it over and fell down.
Shi Lei let it be manipulated helplessly, half of his body leaned over, and he glanced at the ground overflowing with alcohol, an idea was brewing in his mind: such bad wine should be dragged out Kill him, so as not to cause harm to the world.But he still said: "Li Xiang, let's go back to the bedroom and sleep."
As he said that, he pulled his hand out, and Li Xiang stood up like a shadow puppet tied to a lead line, following Shi Lei directly.Shi Lei led Li Xiang back to his studio and bedroom, but Li Xiang refused to enter anyway.On the contrary, he dragged Shi Lei towards the big bedroom, totally not seeing the state of falling asleep when he was drunk just now, and said excitedly: "Sleep together."
Shi Lei was also sleepy,
What am I touching them for!
"Your belly looks great! It's muscular, with a little bit of fat, not too much, covered with a thin layer, very soft. Of course, what I'm going to say is not this, that's right, having muscles means you're in good shape .Plus a little fat, it can show that you are not a coolie, and at the same time, you are not a greedy person."
"Really? Then I'll touch yours!" Then he stretched out his hand.
Li Xiang felt itchy before the hand touched his own.He immediately pressed Shi Lei's hand, and laughed out loud.Shi Lei hastily raised his index finger and stuck it to his mouth.Almost "hush" Li Xiang's head was on his head, Li Xiang quickly fell silent, only to hear Shi Lei say: "The sound insulation is not good!"
☆, the beginning (3)
"Are you sleepy?" Shi Lei asked.
"Not sleepy!" I am willing to accompany you no matter what you say now!
"Well, then I'll go to bed first, you can play by yourself."
Li Xiang felt like being tricked by Shi Lei.
The two of them had a cold wind on their foreheads in the afternoon, and they woke up so early in the morning, Shi Lei was already sleepy.And in a familiar home, I fell asleep soon.
In the early morning, Li Xiang was woken up again by Shi Lei: "You can sleep well now!"
"Of course, I'm growing up now!" And my mood fluctuates all day long, can I rest if I don't sleep for a while?
"Don't eat too much breakfast later? E?? br> "Okay, I haven't really gone shopping. "
"Oh, it's shopping in the ancient streets, not going out to buy things."
"Well, I know. When you go shopping, it's so scary. Will you talk to the salesman about economics and sales psychology when you are bargaining, and finally say to him: 'In summary, you have to give me Lower the price, or you're unreasonable.'”
"You brat, you've learned to choreograph me." Shi Lei changed his posture, "I also want to try traveling. Walking around, will you feel free?"
"I don't know, but I know freedom doesn't mean doing whatever you want. Brother, don't you think you are not free?"
"No, I was moved by what you said, but I won't go homeless, I should take my heart, but I won't go homeless, I should just take the train for a walk." br>"Lie. "
"Can you see it? Come, let me see if your eyes are different from ordinary people."
Li Xiang didn't know whether to classify this kind of serious and abnormal words as brain damage or a cold joke.
"Very normal!"
There was a knock on the door, and Mama Shi's voice passed through the door: "Son, get up and eat."
Shi Lei patted him, "Stinky boy, you stay in bed every day, and I get up late because of the trouble."
"Wow, brother, you still have such a side! And I just saw it now!" Li Xiang was half surprised, half unbelievable, sitting cross-legged on the bed and staring at Shi Lei.
Shi Lei threw Li Xiang's shirt on the bed: "Get up, don't be rebellious. You said you were 23 yesterday, why didn't you say you were 28!"
After going out, he shut Li Xiang inside and slowly changed his clothes.
While serving the meal, Shi Lei's mother kept repeating, "You two can talk quite well together. I heard you two laughing last night. Xiao Lei, do you want to go and see your former friends?"
"Those are all former classmates, and we have not been in touch for a long time."
"Do you want to move around more? It's natural to have more contacts with friends."
"Okay, don't worry about the child's affairs."
"Mom." After washing his face, Shi Lei went to the kitchen to serve dinner. "I want to go to the ancient street for a while, and I'll bring you some of the glutinous rice cakes over there?"
"Run around as soon as you get home, don't forget to bring your scarf when you're honest for a while. It's cold outside."
"Okay, take the one you knitted for me."
When he went out, Shi Lei brought the black and white scarf woven by Shi Ma himself. Anyway, Shi Lei lacked artistic cells, he didn't care about beauty or ugliness, as long as he wasn't cold.Li Xiang brought another one, probably Shi Lei bought it himself before.
After taking two bus stops, we arrived at the ancient street that Shi Lei mentioned, and the Damenfang of the ancient street can be seen from a long distance away.And when I went in, I found that apart from antiques, there are really not many places that are 'ancient'.In the middle is a road paved with stone slabs, and on both sides of the road are a variety of merchants, a lively street of snacks and shopping.It's past 10 o'clock now, and it's usually the time to set up stalls and go out to shop, but there are not many people, of course, the Spring Festival is an exception.
As soon as he walked in, Shi Lei regretted a little: "Do you not like these things too much?"
"No, didn't you say you took me to eat delicious food, don't go back on your word!" Li Xiang gripped Shi Lei's wrist.
Shi Lei suddenly realized that what was in front of him was just a young man: "I thought you were unreal!" Shi Lei patted Li Xiang on the shoulder, "Go, brother will take you to eat snacks."
But Li Xiang's attention was not at all. He felt that the two of them had physical contact recently. The shot just now was simply an unfinished hug. After it was over, he felt out of order. Why didn't he look at Shi Lei just now? Maybe there will be a hint of it in his face!
Shi Lei led Li Xiang to walk slowly all the way, pointed to the brands of each family and introduced them, and finally said, "Actually, I think the taste is similar. The two simply found a random family and sat opposite each other. The tables on the street stalls were small and the space was narrow. The two legs were crossed. Li Xiang was next to Shi Lei's leg generously. .
However, Li Xiang looked at Shi Lei's chopsticks with less oil, less salt, and less pepper, and thought, Shi Lei has a light taste and doesn't like noise, so would he be emotionally indifferent?
Shi Lei watched him refuse to eat: "Why, it doesn't suit your taste? If you don't like it, don't eat it. We'll make it ourselves when we get back, and I'll help you."
"Brother, have you ever been in love before?"
"No."
As if verified, Li Xiang took a deep breath.
"There was one who talked for two weeks, but later found out that it was not suitable." Shi Lei thought about Li Xiang's 'X' eyes, and confessed a bit. "I feel like I haven't liked anyone too much. The crush in high school can't be counted. You know it's not true love."
It would be better not to say it!Li Xiang sighed again.
After eating, I left and moved to another one. Now the difference between the north and the south is getting smaller and smaller, and the whole snack street includes everything from the north to the south.
Li Xiang was a little frustrated, Shi Lei had already been defeated, carrying the rice cakes bought in the snack street in his hand, walking slowly as a car.Occasionally, when meeting old friends on the road, Shi Lei would stop to say hello.
"Brother." Li Xiang jumped onto Shi Lei's back like a ready bell, and Shi Lei took advantage of the situation to support him: "Why, fainted from hunger again?"
"No, I can't move anymore."
"Then do you want to go to the temples or go home?" Shi Lei turned a corner and changed to a secluded alley. The tall buildings on both sides made the road even more narrow. There was a line of sky and the gap between the buildings. Shi Lei was like this carry him forward,
"Go home, I've eaten too much, I'm a little sleepy."
Lying on Shi Lei's back, Shi Lei even slightly bent his waist to make Li Xiang more comfortable.Li Xiang shook his feet, the feeling of being suspended in the air made him feel erratic, it is said that dogs or wolves would feel fear when they leave the ground, but he didn't feel this way, instead he felt a sense of relaxation that he gave himself wholeheartedly to Shi Lei.
After exiting the alley and arriving at the spacious street, Shi Lei put down Li Xiang: "Here we are, haven't you slept enough yet?"
Li Xiang jumped down, "If you walk for a while, you will be able to fall asleep. In fact, your ankles are a little cold. Brother, I will carry you on my back next time."
"Let's talk about it, when I can't walk in the future, shouldn't my son carry me?"
For the rest of the time, the two stayed at home together. Dad Shi would go out to meet friends, and Mom Shi would dance in the square every night.Shi Lei would accompany his parents, or read a book, or chat with Li Xiang.Li Xiang was quietly drawing on Shi Lei's desk.
On the third day, the two went back by train, as if they were the same as when they came.The sofa is still lying quietly like that, and the little "potted plants" are still thriving after being watered.Li Xiang moved a small stool, sat in front of them and chatted for a long time, like an old friend whom he hadn't seen for a few days.The two are still in that way of getting along, maybe that's the norm.
☆, germination (1)
Li Xiang felt that the two of them must have accidentally dripped lubricant into their lives, otherwise how could they be so harmonious.And Shi Lei didn't seem to feel anything, just felt that this kid was getting more and more clingy, and his mouth was sweet, coupled with Li Xiang's natural romantic feelings, Shi Lei often felt overwhelmed.
When I first came back on New Year's Day, the third-year senior high school group had a big exam.The papers are judged very quickly, and the teachers at the school seem to be eager to score after the exam, and then use the results to stimulate them. This group of motherland flowers who don't know how to improve themselves, but only take money from their parents with peace of mind.Sure enough, as soon as the papers were released that day, some people were happy and some were worried.Li Xiang was originally indifferent, but Zhang Xu seemed to be even more absent-minded.
Now, the closer to the winter vacation, the more relaxed the atmosphere in the class.As soon as Li Xiang entered the door, he was almost hit by a tape. The little girl over there apologized quickly; a tall boy in front was pretending to be a mental patient, telling jokes with the front table; there were a few people on the left with textbooks Playing with mobile phones; but some academic masters are still writing hard.
For a while, nothing happened to Zhang Xu.But there seemed to be some changes. The friends he had made in the chaos before didn't seem to bring him much happiness.Zhang Xu is not as handsome and unrestrained as he was at the beginning, nor is he the hatred and anger he was later on.Now he doesn't talk much all day long, doesn't know what to do all day long, and is often late.His face was gloomy, and his body smelled of smoke and stench. Sometimes he even forgot to wash his hair.
Usually, a few minutes after the class bell rang, Zhang Xu hurried in with a schoolbag in his arms.The teacher glanced at it and didn't pay much attention.Three or two eat a breakfast, and then fall into a deep sleep, which is different from the previous nap.I slept all morning, ran after class at noon, and still slept when I came back in the afternoon, and so on.After a while, Li Xiang couldn't help but worry a little bit for him.
As soon as the get out of class bell rang in the evening, Li Xiang stopped him: "Zhang Xu, do you have time, let's go for a walk on the playground together?"
Zhang Xu froze for a moment, "Let's go."
The sun slanted very early in winter, and there were not many people on the playground. Maybe they all went to eat?The red rubber track has faded badly, the white ropes on the football goal are shaking in the wind, and the fake lawn on the football seems to be an anomaly in this season.
Zhang Xu, who always left in a hurry, was rarely in a hurry today. He walked with Li Xiang, touching his trouser pockets from time to time, but retreated again.Finally, he took out a pack of cigarettes and lit it on his own.
Li Xiang frowned in confusion, gathered his clothes, and was not in a hurry to speak, because he didn't know what to say, nor did he know how to ask properly.If you ask directly, will you be afraid of poking someone's pain and causing embarrassment?If it's a sideshow, how do you start?
The basketball court is still playing in full swing, and that beam of youthful enthusiasm seems to be irreversible no matter what.But it was so far away that I couldn't even hear the sound. Looking at those dancing figures, it seemed like a distant place, but they also belonged there once.
"Is there anything you want from me?" Zhang Xu finally asked.
"Deskmate, how are you doing recently?"
"There's nothing wrong with it." Zhang Xu replied in a neutral manner, and Zhang Xu was still very unskilled in flicking the cigarette ash.
"I think you have something to say?" Li Xiang asked. "What have you been doing recently? Playing online games?"
"Yeah." It didn't sound like he was interested in talking.
Li Xiang stopped talking, and the two walked back in a bend.
"A lot of things that I thought were normal at first, but now I realize that they are all fucking abnormal!" Zhang Xu's voice trembled a little. "Playing games is very good. No wonder so many people like to play games. It's very free, very free. You are a god."
"I can understand, and I used to think that leaving is freedom."
"What do you understand? Are you like me? Sometimes I think, if I don't spend money on them, will they celebrate my birthday? If I don't buy them milk tea, you say they are still willing to take pictures of me Is it? And my dad, my mom, if I am disobedient and don’t give them face, will I have to sleep on the street! If I don’t sleep with him, he won’t be nice to me at all! And those girls, If I don't give them something to talk about, will they come back to play with me? But that's normal, isn't it? Isn't it all like this?"
Zhang Xu's voice became more and more excited, but finally stopped abruptly, and turned to Li Xiang with a strange expression: "Why are you so kind to me?"
Li Xiang frowned, he didn't like Zhang Xu's tone very much.
"You pity me?" Zhang Xu asked.
"You feel sorry for yourself?" Li Xiang frowned even more seriously.
"Still, you also..." Zhang Xu couldn't say what he said after that, but he still pressed the question, with the posture of "don't ask me anything, I will never be reconciled": "Don't you also like A man? I saw the pictures you drew that day, and they are in your home, in your schoolbag. You are even more disgusting, and you are fucking with you,,,,,, "
Li Xiang didn't wait for him to say the following words, he pushed and grabbed the front of Zhang Xu's clothes: "Enough." It is doubt.He felt that Zhang Xu really made him feel strange, just like those people he had met before: "Let me tell you, first, there is no gender distinction in love, as long as there are two free souls, you can love each other. Two, I never thought you were disgusting, the one who always felt disgusting was you, I just took you as a friend, and you have always been the one who despises yourself."
Zhang Xu swung Li Xiang's arm away and roared, as if loud enough to make sense: "I didn't! You're talking nonsense!"
"And you not only look down on yourself, but also trample on others." Li Xiang decided to add another dose.
"I don't understand what you're talking about!" Zhang Xu angrily pushed Li Xiang away and strode away.
"Escaping won't solve the problem!" Li Xiang shouted at his back, but his voice was not loud, and he didn't know who he was speaking to.
Li Xiang didn't know whether Zhang Xu really didn't understand, or didn't want to understand at all. He had seen many people who liked to be deceived by illusions, and those people just liked false things.Now Li Xiang didn't know what to do.
He once felt that he should tear off that mask with hatred, so that people would not know how beautiful the real life would be. He also treated himself like this at the time, but now it seems that it doesn't work at all.
I'm a little hungry, Shi Lei is probably cooking noodles again, Li Xiang went to the cafeteria, there are not many people now, and of course there is not much food.Li Xiang swiped his meal card, and the balance flashed on the small digital screen on the credit card machine in front of him.Li Xiang fell into a confused inner state.
When he returned after eating, Zhang Xu was already sitting at the desk.The two of them are like elementary school students after a quarrel, no, elementary school students are not as narrow-minded as the two of them.Zhang Xu turned his head to one side, as if afraid of accidentally seeing Li Xiang.However, Li Xianglian's completely indifferent attitude in drawing a painting for an evening class made Zhang Xu even angrier.
Li Xiang stood at the door, but did not open it for a long time.Even through the heavy anti-theft doors and walls, he seems to be able to see the sights, lights, every familiar corner of the house, and the life he cares for.
His mind was full of chaos again, frame after frame of pictures were repeatedly shown in his mind, the roads he traveled, the bridges he crossed, and all kinds of people he saw, all whizzed and turned into one There are doors, glass, iron, steel, and fence-like, but none of them have been opened for him, whether he is walking in the wilderness or in the bustling city.Then Li Xiang remembered, the first time he stood in front of this door, when Shi Lei supported him with one hand and opened the door with the other, just like now, the not too bright light was enough to help him dispel the darkness around him.
Shi Lei saw that Li Xiang hadn't come back for a long time at home, so he wanted to go downstairs and wait for him by the way.But when he opened the door again, he saw Li Xiangzheng standing at the door with hazy eyes.Shocked, Shi Lei quickly grabbed Li Xiang's shoulders and brought him into the room.
"What's the matter, are you okay?" The voice was unusually soft, and Shi Lei carefully looked at Li Xiang's expression.Seeing Li Xiang's pursed mouth, Shi Lei also pursed slightly.It seemed to be infected by Li Xiang's expression.
Li Xiang also watched Shi Lei's expression change, and suddenly felt that Shi Lei opened not only the door of a house for him, he hugged Shi Lei with a tearful smile, and put his head on Shi Lei's shoulder.Both of Shi Lei's arms were hugged by Li Xiang, and his whole body froze like a log, but he felt the emotion in Li Xiang's laughter, and Shi Lei also felt happy.And the uncontrollable sense of joy made him laugh out loud.
The two stood for a while, and after their emotions calmed down, their sense of touch became emotional. Shi Lei could hear Li Xiang's heartbeat and breathing, and feel the strength of Li Xiang's arms, and the air blowing on his neck always made him Feel uncomfortable.
Shi Lei pulled out an arm and patted Li Xiang's back, but only his schoolbag was photographed: "Okay, let's change your clothes first."
Li Xiang dawdled for a while, and then let go of Shi Lei, he was not in a calm mood because he was crying and laughing just now.After changing his shoes and throwing away his schoolbag, Li Xiang went to look at his little potted plant first.The leaves of the carrot exude a delicate fragrance, the leaves are small but the veins are clear, Li Xiang admired its fineness.There is also a new shoot below.
"Li Xiang, do you want milk?" Shi Lei's voice came from behind him.
"drink."
With a reply, Li Xiang continued to look at the sprout.
☆, germination (2)
Shi Lei dug out a carton of milk, glanced at the banana, pretending he didn't see it.Turn on the switch, and soon the pot will heat up.Shi Lei also poured himself a glass, recalling the scene just now, Shi Lei thought: Did he really pick up a younger brother for himself?But he doesn't have a younger brother, but it doesn't mean he hasn't seen other people's younger brothers, there really aren't many of them.And just now, I actually followed him to be emotionally turbulent, lonely with him, happy with him, how long has it been since I experienced this feeling.Now, there is actually the willingness to drink milk with him.What kind of emotion is this?
He remembered what A. Fromm said: "Childish love is that I love you because I need you; mature love is that I need you because I love you." He felt that he had experienced the former, He thought of those two weeks of love, wasn't it because he was too afraid of being alone?
The boiling milk in the pot interrupted Shi Lei's thinking, even if he calmly turned off the fire, the fact that half of the pot of milk was burnt could not be recovered, so let's drink half a cup, Shi Lei calmly rinsed the pot again.Passed the milk to Li Xiang, and looked at Li Xiang's innocent boyish expression. "Anyway, Li Xiang is a good boy, he should be freer and happier, and I am willing to defend him as much as I can." Shi Lei thought in his heart.
After drinking the milk, Li Xiang broke two more bananas, Shi Lei held the book and shook his head, signaling not to eat it.Li Xiang sat cross-legged on the ground alone, leaning against the sofa, and continued to appease his stomach.Shi Lei glanced at him through the book.
Li Xiang caught his gaze keenly: "Brother, why are you peeking at me?"
Shi Lei admitted generously: "Look at you." Then he added: "How are you doing at school recently? Did you feel uncomfortable or encountered trouble?"
Li Xiang glanced at him, still chewing on the banana.
"Of course, it's your freedom to say it or not. I just always listen to you talking about the past, and rarely talk about the current situation. I'm afraid you have something to say." Shi Lei continued.
"I know, it's nothing wrong, anyway, I can handle anything. But there are, I just don't know how to say it?"
Shi Lei put down the book, turned sideways and looked at Li Xiang, looking straight into Li Xiang's eyes, a bit focused.Although he had never experienced a close relationship before, including his parents, Shi Lei often wondered if this was a reason for his lack of affection.But after he experienced Li Xiang's delicate eyes that seemed to be able to see through people, Shi Lei not only didn't feel scary, but responded unconsciously.
Li Xiang changed his posture, and the two got closer.He didn't want to talk, the atmosphere was quiet and reassuring, even the restless heart seemed to be able to calm down here.Right now there are obviously only two people, but it is precisely the one that will make people feel the least lonely. Li Xiang forgot what he wanted to say, and he didn't remember until he was urged to sleep by Shi Lei and returned to the bedroom, but it is not important anymore.
As soon as he walked into Li Xiang's bedroom, it was as if he had entered the wrong house, and the whole painting style was completely wrong.Layers of drawing paper are piled up everywhere, there are inadvertently thrown paints everywhere on the walls, and there are various pasted paintings, some of which are whole sheets, and some are only half sheets.The windows were not spared, an abstract painting painted in colorful colors, Li Xiang liked that window, although at the beginning, the window did not bring him the sunshine he longed for most, but it gave him another kind of protection.
Li Xiang opened a drawer. He had told Shi Lei at the beginning that this was his privacy, and he hoped to be respected by Shi Lei.And at the beginning, to remind Shi Lei, he specially pasted a piece of paper with only one word "private" written on it, but then the paper fell off by itself, probably because he himself felt that his existence was unnecessary.
Although he didn't know how Zhang Xu saw his painting, Li Xiang was sure that Shi Lei hadn't seen it.However, why does Zhang Xu feel that he likes him?Li Xiang flipped through the paintings in his hand, and it wasn't too explicit!Is it because they are the protagonists of every painting?
Neither of the two quarreling was willing to speak first, but they didn't feel any resentment in their hearts, they just felt that they had done nothing wrong, so they didn't try to break the deadlock first.But one day, maybe at a certain moment, Zhang Xu's arm touched Li Xiang, and Li Xiang just wanted to borrow a pen.
But Zhang Xu is still addicted to the game, Li Xiang doesn't say much, it's useless to talk too much, too much is too much.
In a blink of an eye, it was already four days after the Lunar New Year. Apart from hanging out with Zhang Xu and the others for a day, Li Xiang spent the rest of the time drawing at home.
With the half-covered curtains, the room was hazy, and a few drops of paint dripped on the ground, and they followed suit. Anyway, his brother would not be angry.Li Xiang sat on a small stool in front of the drawing board, with his knees curled up.Li Xiang likes the feeling of sitting lower, or simply sitting on the ground, it seems to be one with the earth, and there is a sense of peace of mind hidden in his heart; but Shi Lei seems to like high places, climbing high and looking far, Shi Lei likes Standing on the window sill and looking down, I like to look at the city from the top of the mountain, and of course I also like to watch the sunset from the bridge.Li Xiang was still painting intently, rubbing paint on his hands and face.After stroking my stomach, I was hungry again, went to the kitchen to fetch a plate of pancakes, and continued to come back to look at the painting in front of me.
Shi Lei will be back tomorrow, Li Xiang thought before falling asleep.
Going home for the New Year, Shi Lei bought a lot of things, this time he will not only stay at home with his parents, but also visit relatives.Shi Lei didn't want to go, but he couldn't help it. "Xiao Lei, it's better for this relative and friend to move around more. Go and see him. He came to see you last time."
"Mom, I'll stay with you at home."
"Why do you accompany me? In the future, don't you have to rely on this friend?"
Shi Lei sighed, didn't want to argue anymore, and went out.Light a cigarette first, what do you say?Said that when I make friends, I don't care what benefits he can bring me, what is more important is his character; he said that if someone asks me for help, even if he has no financial resources, power, or friendship, as long as he has good character and the request is reasonable, I will do it. will help him.But in his mother's deep-rooted thinking mode, there is no place for this kind of thinking to survive. Probably because they suffered too much in that era, it made them lose confidence in human nature.
Shi Lei would still sit at his old desk and read for a while in his spare time every day.Or watch news and military programs with his dad, and the father and son can discuss a little bit.Or maybe Li Xiang would send him some pictures, most of which are Li Xiang's works.Shi Lei pinched the phone, Li Xiang was enthusiastic, but it made Shi Lei a little confused, he didn't know how to respond.How can it be serious and sincere without losing its depth and connotation?Shi Lei was in trouble, and said, "Li Xiangyou's drawing is so beautiful!" 'No; if you want to comment, but Shi Lei doesn't know much about the art of painting.In the end, he replied honestly, "It looks good."
In the blink of an eye five days later, Shi Lei came back early, it was already evening when he got home, and in his hand was his New Year gift for the two of them - two scarves of the same style.The moment the door opened, the room was actually dark, and the lights weren't on?Shi Lei yelled twice, no one?
Only then did Shi Lei realize that he was a little disappointed, so that means that he was looking forward to Li Xiang being at home, but when he was at home, he didn't feel particularly anxious to come back?Shi Lei turned on the light, put down his things, changed his shoes, walked around the house twice, and went to the kitchen to find some water to drink.They saw the small potted plants on the window sill, which were growing very well. The two of them had already added a high stool there, and covered the window sill with a wooden plank to form a platform. Now there were three rows of vegetables neatly stacked on it.
The last time Shi Lei stood by and threatened to eat them all in a few days, but Li Xiang ordered him not to approach them because they—the little potted plants—would hear, get scared, get frightened, get sick, and so on.
Shi Lei sat on the sofa bored, seemingly in no mood to do anything, reading?playing games?Shi Lei first scolded Li Xiang for that brat.
Then he lay on the sofa, but Shi Lei instantly found a piece of paper, a piece of paper with drawings on it, the content was his drawing board, beside it was written 'Go and see! '; Shi Lei got up to look, there was also a painting on the drawing board, it was a crack in the balcony of his house, it said 'Follow me! '; As soon as the cold wind from the balcony blew, Shi Lei shivered, and sure enough, he found another one; like this, Shi Lei found the outside from the inside, and then found the inside from the outside.
Shi Lei now has a dozen papers in his hand, but it's still not over, and the hiding place is getting more and more tricky, one of them was even caught on the milk carton of the refrigerator.Shi Lei took out another sheet from under the carpet, it said 'hold on', stood up, Shi Lei thought that if this kid dared to play with himself, he would definitely have to cut him.
Finally walked into the bedroom, Shi Lei looked around, the feeling of being teased became stronger and stronger.Lifting the bedside lamp, a piece of paper is folded, not a painting, but calligraphy, Shi Lei can judge through the paper.When I opened it, I found that the three big characters said that there are no shirts and no shoes, both square and round, swish down, and flowing water, but the information contained is a bit irritating, "to tease you".
Shi Lei was very angry.Overwhelmed with joy, it's almost like seeing something very happy.
But when he turned his eyes, Shi Lei saw that his quilt was bulging, and Shi Lei hesitated for a moment.Then a certain nerve in his brain was instantly connected together, as if he understood it in an instant, and the speed was so fast that he couldn't catch any traces at all, let alone think.Lifting the quilt violently, half of it was thrown to the ground.
☆, germination (3)
The picture album, which is about half a meter wide and less than one meter long, is exquisitely bound.Putting it neatly in the middle of the bed, Shi Lei calmed down and sat down.
The opened cover is very simple white, with a few small floral dots on it, so pale that it seems invisible.However, the oil painting inside directly hit Shi Lei's vision.
In the first picture, the two are sitting opposite each other on the sofa, with the afternoon sun slanting in.The whole picture rendered by a large piece of milky yellow looks very warm. Shi Lei is lazily leaning on the armrest of the sofa behind with a book on his stomach, and Li Xiang is sitting cross-legged on the other armrest opposite. The two seem to be talking Looking at everything, they were all smiling, Shi Lei couldn't remember which day this was, maybe it was like this every day.
The second one is when the two went on an outing to watch the sunrise. It is an oil painting with distinct colors and layers of coverage. It seems to strongly reproduce the scenery and people of that day. Shi Lei doesn't know how long a painting will take and how much it will take. His painstaking effort, but the painting in front of him made Shi Lei feel that he should take good care of it, he even relaxed the flipping action, even knowing that the back of the canvas has been coated with beeswax and the front is also covered with varnish.
The third, the fourth, the fifth, the sixth, Shi Lei slowly flipped through one by one, this painting is like the condensation of their days, walking slowly along the way, also drawing slowly .
The last picture, which is the seventh picture, is by the river where Shi Lei played when he was a child last time when he went home. The two people on the picture are facing the distant sky together.Shi Lei raised his hand subconsciously, he didn't realize it until he touched the bridge of his nose, he sighed, he didn't look at the painting carefully, he just passed by hastily.
He took out his cell phone and called Li Xiang.
Li Xiang opened the door bouncingly: "It's so slow, I've been walking downstairs for half an hour." He put down the beer in his hand.
"Who told you to make such a big circle?"
"It's fun. Also, don't call me a brat, it looks like you are old, you are only 26 years old, why are you so old-fashioned. How about taking you to play golf in two days?"
"Go." Shi Lei raised his head triumphantly, he is also a sporty otaku, but he is always told by this kid that he is old.Shi Lei's competitive heart started to make trouble, so go and see how I can deal with you, a rookie who is just learning basketball.
Li Xiang also quickly found a few side dishes from the refrigerator and heated them up in the microwave.
"You're hungry. I haven't eaten yet."
Shi Lei set the table and chopsticks aside, then sat at the dining table and watched Li Xiang turn around.
Li Xiang also found out the scarf that Shi Lei bought for him, looked at it, and muttered to himself: "It's a guess, it's either for wearing or for use."
"This is practical, it just happens to be cold these days." Shi Lei explained.
Li Xiang looked at his own neck in the full-length mirror, then went to Shi Lei's place and surrounded him.Shi Lei felt awkward, but he didn't move.
"Well, not bad, it looks good." Li Xiang smiled at Shi Lei.
A "ding" reminded the two that their meal was ready.There are only a few simple items, which are what the two of them usually eat, and Li Xiang also took two bottles of beer.The change in the impression of beer is due to Qin Haiyang. When he came to celebrate Shi Lei's birthday last time, the three of them got together.At Qin Haiyang's instigation, Li Xiang took the initiative to pick up the wine glass for the first time.
The frothy beer exudes the fragrance of malt, and the smell of alcohol slightly stimulates people's sense of smell.However, the feeling of drinking it was not so wonderful. Li Xiang was still startled by the sudden strong taste that burst into his mouth.However, the erratic and pleasurable feeling produced by the alcohol's intrusion into the limbs and bones made Li Xiang accidentally pick up the second glass of wine.
After three rounds of drinking, Li Xiang stretched his legs, and the beer bottle under the table fell to the ground with a 'clink'. Drunk-eyed, he obviously took Shi Lei's arm as a pillow, pulled it over and fell down.
Shi Lei let it be manipulated helplessly, half of his body leaned over, and he glanced at the ground overflowing with alcohol, an idea was brewing in his mind: such bad wine should be dragged out Kill him, so as not to cause harm to the world.But he still said: "Li Xiang, let's go back to the bedroom and sleep."
As he said that, he pulled his hand out, and Li Xiang stood up like a shadow puppet tied to a lead line, following Shi Lei directly.Shi Lei led Li Xiang back to his studio and bedroom, but Li Xiang refused to enter anyway.On the contrary, he dragged Shi Lei towards the big bedroom, totally not seeing the state of falling asleep when he was drunk just now, and said excitedly: "Sleep together."
Shi Lei was also sleepy,
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