if i lose my face

I seem to have had a long, long dream.

In the dream, I was still that invincible Lin Zhou.I am dazzling, I am dazzling, standing on the basketball court, looking around proudly, being sought after and loved like a big star.They used countless gorgeous words to praise my handsomeness, as if they wanted to praise me to the clouds.

Suddenly, I saw Hu Hang again.He stood behind the crowd, looking at me quietly through girls or boys who were as noble as me.He looked so bleak and lonely, looking at me with complex and unspeakable emotions, like a layer of dusty ice.

Suddenly, he took one last deep look at me, turned around and seemed to be leaving.

I have seen his appearance countless times in reality.But at this moment, I really want to rush up and grab his arm, and let him stay for me.

The crowd surrounded me so hard that I could move an inch, and their laughter and praise still lingered in my ears like a magic voice.I struggled helplessly on the spot, and could only watch that gentle and fuzzy figure slowly leave my sight, like a wisp of smoke, and I couldn't hold back even half of it.I wanted to yell, but it was like I was dumb, unable to make any sound.

The laughter of the people around me grew louder and louder, piercing my eardrums.I can't even hear what they're saying!

I closed my eyes irritably, and opened them again, but what I saw was an empty basketball court.The surroundings are silent, except for the wisps of white smoke floating in the distance, I am the only one left in this huge space, feeling terribly lonely.

Hu Hang, who appeared at an unknown time, stood very close to me, looking at me quietly.In addition to the tenderness that I am familiar with in his eyes, there is also an undisguised desire raging.

I was palpitating for him at this moment, just about to open his mouth, he moved a little closer to me, and quietly put his hand into my clothes.Cold fingers caressed my lower abdomen, upward bit by bit irresistibly...

Startled, I quickly grabbed his wrist.He paused for a moment, and then firmly held my two arms with the other hand, stroking my chest roughly, appearing hasty and crazy.

Little did I know that at this moment, someone was stroking my sleeping body back and forth in reality, as if anxiously searching for something.

The more I was touched by him, the more I felt uncomfortable, and I felt extremely afraid of such a Hu Hang.

"Let me let him go!!"

I don't know who yelled like that, I was shocked suddenly, and the dream began to shatter little by little.Immediately afterwards, I opened my eyes in horror, but my eyes were still blurred, and my mind was like a puddle of paste.I remember, I fell asleep on a school bench...

In the dimness, I heard a strange and angry voice. The owner of the voice seemed to be arguing fiercely with another person.

"Hu Hang, don't be so fucking fussy, why don't I just check Lin Zhou's pocket!"

"Flip? You are stealing!"

"Steal... I didn't steal it! Haha, you still think that Lin Zhou is still that handsome guy? Who cares about the little thing on him! You follow him, isn't it just for something!"

"you……"

"Hey, tell me, what exactly are you planning on him?"

"I have pictures of my own, but please return Lin Zhou's phone first..."

When I heard the word "Huhang", I was basically fully awake.Originally, my heart was still a little turbulent by that dream, but the conversation that followed made my heart ache.Yes, I am no longer the Lin Zhou I used to be.

But what made me feel most uncomfortable was what Hu Hang himself said.

That's right, Hu Hang greeted us for two months for no reason, and I myself often lost my temper and played petty temper with him.I want money but I don't have money, and Hu Hang and I are not particularly close, so what is he trying to do?

Thinking of this, I can't help but feel very uncomfortable, like a stone is blocked in my heart.

That night, I hid myself under the quilt and stared blankly at the mobile phone that Hu Hang helped me keep. After thinking about it, I couldn't sleep peacefully all night.

The next day, Zhang Yan and Shao Yang went out, and Hu Hang bought me breakfast.I was still tightly wrapped in the quilt, and I pretended not to hear Hu Hang talking to me.

After a while, I felt that Hu Hang sighed helplessly, climbed up the ladder and shook me.half jokingly said:

"Get up, the sun is drying your ass, you big slob!"

Such a boring routine, but it just made my heart move.How I hope this gentle and tolerant Hu Hang can be like this forever!But what he said yesterday, he overbearingly did not allow me to accept this emotion calmly.

Immediately afterwards, Hu Hang seemed to see that he would not move me, so he threw off my quilt, creaked my waist sensitively, and tickled my itch.I turned my back to him, and my body twitched. He probably thought I was laughing, so he also let out a warm laugh.

But when he turned me over, the smile on his face froze in an instant.

That's because I'm crying!

I sucked my nose, hot tears gushed out of my eyes one by one.I looked at him with some pleading, my voice was choked and broken.

"me……"

"Don't worry, what's the matter? Take your time." Hu Hang seemed a little anxious, looking at me with concern, as if he was afraid that I would be bullied again.

"I... Hu Hang, what are you trying to do with me?"

The sunlight came in from the window, obliquely coating Hu Hang's resolute face with a layer of gold, which was extraordinarily soft and warm, and made him look a little desolate and frightened.

He looked at me hesitantly, his face was reddish, and there seemed to be an unspeakable secret hidden in his heart.So he was sensitively silent.

I don't know what kind of shocking secret he hides in his heart, I just feel that when faced with a question like mine, he refuses to say a word!His silence is driving me crazy!I began to cry more and more, and he didn't seem to want to talk about it anymore, so he comforted me softly.

But I feel more and more that he seems to be plotting something about me.