if i lose my face

That night, Hu Hang did not come back.I curled up on his bed, wrapped in his quilt.It was hot and uncomfortable, but I just wished I could make myself feel a little more miserable.In the end, I don't know how I fell asleep.

The next day, my eyes were sore and my mind was groggy.I struggled to open my eyes, and saw Zhang Yan tinkering with his broken laptop again.

As soon as I sat up, I heard him staring at the computer screen and laughing casually:

"Hey, I didn't say you, you just wash your feet! If you lose your appearance, you really have no energy to live?" Hearing this, I looked at my feet depressingly.

"I really don't know how he has put up with you for so many years! He even fights for you! Oops... you two will take good care of you these two days. If you need anything, just remember to find me and Shaoyang, you hear me?"

I didn't answer him.Then he only laughed at himself, suppressed his discomfort and asked him, "Have you seen Hu Hang?"

"No." Zhang Yan turned his head to glance at me, and was suddenly taken aback. "Cao Cao Cao Cao is here, so Hu Hang is back—— Hu Hang, where did you go last night?"

"I didn't go anywhere." Hu Hang returned lightly.

This time it was my turn to be dumbfounded.I raised my head hesitantly, and glanced at Hu Hang uneasily, seeing that he was also staring at me, I panicked, and immediately lowered my head again.

Hu Hang looked at me coldly, which made me suddenly feel so embarrassed that I sat on his bed carelessly and made his bed so messy.I wanted to stand up, but I was so dizzy that I couldn't move.

Then, Hu Hang put three breakfasts on the table.Zhang Yan cheered, but I felt nauseated.He had already opened the bag, saw that I was not moving, and shouted at me: "Lin Zhou! Why are you so dazed!"

I didn't answer.I was so distressed that I didn't want to say a word.Hu Hang just bought three copies, maybe it was him, Shao Yang, and Zhang Yan, one for each is just right...

I pursed my lips tightly, and my eyes became hot.

Hu Hang suddenly said indifferently: "Lin Zhou, come over for dinner."

His tone was so blunt that I stood up involuntarily.But instead of walking towards him, I ran towards the bedroom door.Hu Hang seemed a little excited and walked towards me quickly.He seemed to say something else, but I didn't catch it.Because my eyes went dark, I passed out so tenderly.

I have a fever.The hospital happened to be very crowded that day, and there was no bed, so I could only sit on a chair and get an IV drip.Hu Hang accompanied me, but Zhang Yan went back first because he had a class.

When I was unconscious, I leaned on Hu Hang's shoulder.I was on a drip with my right hand, and Hu Hang held my left hand tightly, very quiet.

Even just now, when he was talking to Zhang Yan, his voice was insignificant, as if he was very afraid of waking me up.There were people coming and going in the hospital, and the corridor was filled with a unique smell of medicine in the hospital.Gradually at noon, the sun slanted in, very warm.Coupled with the suffocating silence here, it makes people drowsy.

I opened my eyes slightly, and I could see Hu Hang and I holding hands tightly.

Hu Hang's hands are not particularly fair, but they are very slender.This seems to have carried out his delicate style as always, and people can't help but feel that this person is clean and young after seeing it.Compared with my claws, which do not touch the spring water, his fingers are more realistic.

I watched like this for a long time.After a while, I realized that Hu Hang seemed to be asleep.He closed his eyes and shook his head.

If the two were sober, it would definitely be impossible to snuggle together like this.I'm devastated by this.

When I opened my eyes the next day, my consciousness regained a little bit.

It was very hot at that time, and it seemed to be noon.And I was surprised to find that I was lying on Hu Hang's bed again.I was very hungry, but my stomach was very uncomfortable, but the breakfast he left for me with a note on the table, I didn't stop my chopsticks until I was about to throw up.The enthusiasm in my heart under the torment did not retreat, but intensified, burning my heart alive.

But after that, Huhang seemed to disappear and didn't come back for a whole day.I waited until the next day, and he still didn't come back.

It seemed that the cold breakfast was his last farewell to me.Zhang Yan told me that when Hu Hang returned home, he needed to walk for a day or two.In addition, Shaoyang also quietly revealed a piece of news to me: Hu Hang's parents, there seems to be a girl who wants Hu Hang to meet.

I couldn't say a word.In the few days when Hu Hang was away, I didn't go anywhere in the dormitory except for class and dinner, and my heart was always dull.The day I learned that Hu Hang was coming back the next day, I felt panicked and ran away in the heavy rain.

Yes, I ran.I ran from the south of the city to the north of the city, all the way forward, wishing I could run back to the city where Hu Hang and I grew up together, grab Hu Hang's arm, and bring him back without any scruples.

In the end, I ran to Mu Qiao's house.

Mu Qiao seemed to have just returned from a business trip. There were suitcases and messy clothes in the living room, and he happened to have just finished taking a shower, and his hair was still dripping when he came out to open the door for me.He asked me a few words, but I didn't understand and didn't answer, so he simply stopped asking.

At any rate, he's pretty awesome now, and the house he lives in won't have a place to take me in.I stayed at his house, and he played racing games with me all night.And he didn't ask anything until I was so drunk I fell asleep on the couch.

Before he left the next day, he asked me while tying his bow tie: "Xiao Zhou, you..."

"Don't say anything. I'm very upset right now." I interrupted him without hesitation, and then flew the turned off phone onto the bed.

Of course, I didn't know anything about it—how Hu Hang ran all over the city in the heavy rain like crazy when he came back and found me missing.

Not wanting to see Hu Hang is nothing more than not knowing how to face him.I like him and I'm afraid he's taking that girl back.Furthermore, I have a fever and he takes care of me so much, if he likes me, why won't he tell me?If you don't like it, should I ask clearly?But what to do after asking clearly?Give up liking him?

The sky was overcast, and my mood had already changed from the initial pain to a calm dullness.

Mu Qiao's house is very big and clean, and someone will always come to clean it.Through the huge floor-to-ceiling windows, I could vaguely see the school through the tall buildings.

The outline of Hu Hang began to be drawn stroke by stroke in my mind.Every stroke is so vivid, as if he is right in front of my eyes...

Mu Qiao didn't know when she came back, she was standing next to me with a cigarette in her mouth, "What's wrong? Miss that kid?"

"I don't want to." I felt a little weird in my heart.I remember that I didn't seem to have told him about Hu Hang?

"lie."

I don't say anything.After a long silence, he said again: "Hey, Xiao Zhou, do you know how happy it feels to have two sincere fools turning around in front of your eyes?"

I was baffled by the question, and a premonition that I couldn't grasp flashed in my heart, and I couldn't help but say: "Where is the fool?"

"The fool in front of me." He looked at me with a smile.

I was taken aback.

"What do you mean?"

What Mu Qiao said next was enough to make me jump straight out of his eighteen-story window.

He said that Hu Hang approached him twice in total.

Once, the day he broke up with me.At that time, I was crying badly in front of Hu Hang, Hu Hang thought he was bullying me, ran to confront him without saying a word, and almost fought.

"The second time was at your hometown a few days ago. I just went there on a business trip, and Huhang found me and asked me a lot about you. He said he wanted to take good care of you. He didn't want to make you sad. But Hu Hang felt unconfidently that, compared to me, maybe he didn't know much about you. So, he asked me to tell him one by one..." Mu Qiao turned his head and looked at me.

I am stunned.

House Air, House Air.

I call out to him in my heart.

I couldn't help raising my hand to cover my eyes, but the tears slowly overflowed through my fingers, and slowly flowed down the back of my hand...

A sudden realization was like a puddle of water, washing away all the hesitation in my heart...

It turned out to be so.

Mu Qiao stared at me softly and helplessly. Faced with my sobbing, he gently put his hands on my shoulders and embraced me. "I know, you feel sad because of him. But you have to know, Hu Hang, you fucking can't let go! You will follow him for the rest of your life!"

"You...why didn't you tell me earlier?" I cried weakly and punched him limply.But he suddenly thought of something, and he was a little discouraged, "Besides, since he has looked for you before, wouldn't he expect me to come to you..."

"I called, of course I did! But I didn't tell him that you were here. I just wanted to see you two in a hurry. It's so fun, you know!" Mu Qiao smiled lazily.

I immediately had tears in my eyes, and shouted loudly at him as an asshole.Mu Qiao was indifferent, smiling like a beast in clothes.

Suddenly, the door opened.

I turned my head, but I never expected that it was Hu Hang.Standing next to him was the aunt cleaner, who was holding the key and was looking at us in surprise at the moment.

For some reason, blood rushed up all of a sudden.

At this moment, my eyes were red and I was crying embarrassingly, but Mu Qiao looked at me calmly, with a playful smile on the corner of her mouth.

But before I had time to explain anything, Hu Hang stared at me suspiciously, then suddenly glared at Mu Qiao with a stern expression, and quickly walked around me.Before I could react, he had already grabbed Mu Qiao by the collar!

I rushed forward to stop him, and shouted: "Stop! Hu Hang... Hu Hang! You misunderstood!"

Hu Hang suddenly turned around and stared at me.

I really can't describe the look in his eyes when he looked at me at that time... It was like the joy, anger, heartache and sadness that were lost and regained were shattered and fused together, shining brightly.

He took my hand and rushed out.

Running all the way in the wet rainy season, the whole world is spinning for us, everything is rushing!I can feel the strength of his grip on me. I have never felt that this body is so light, as if it will rise into the air in the next second... I am desperate for air, and my heart is beating violently. The flames of ** were burning fiercely, the wind rushed towards me and then brushed my cheeks, ** intertwined surprises ran across my body, everything I felt through the open pores made me excited...

We parked on the side of the street, soaking wet.

I couldn't bear it anymore, so I grabbed his collar and yelled at him: "Hu Hang, what the hell are you planning!! I, Lin Zhou, will give it to you, will it work for you!!"

To be honest, I never felt like I had such a loud voice!

Hu Hang stopped talking.I bumped my head against his chest one after another, screaming heart-piercingly. "Don't lie to me! You like me at all! Why do you lie to me! Why do you lie to me!"

My tears soaked his skirt, and after a while, he suddenly took a deep breath, as if he had made a big decision.

"If I told you that I want to be with you for the rest of my life...you...would you hate it?"

At that moment, we hugged each other tightly like lovers who climbed over mountains and ridges, climbed through thorns, and even crossed centuries just to see each other.

END.