Circus...Circus!!!

day-3230

10:40AM

1.

After crossing a small bridge, encountering a downhill, with a favorable wind, Li Lang slid his car into the staff dormitory of the textile factory. When he passed the fruit stand at the gate, he was stopped by the proprietress.

"The peaches that just arrived, take them to eat with Liu Lu." The proprietress carried a red plastic bag and hung the bag on Li Lang's car handle.Li Lang looked down and said, "Wow, Aunt Jiang, you have at least five catties of peaches in here, right?!"

Aunt Jiang patted him on the shoulder and said cheerfully, "Are you looking for Liu Lu to watch a movie again?" "Yes, I will teach him English after watching."

"Oh, I really didn't see it." Aunt Jiang looked Li Lang from head to toe, "You can still help Liu Lu with homework!"

Li Lang raised his chin and raised his nose, "That's not true. Later, I will help him apply for a foreign school, and the two of us will go abroad together! Tuition fees... Liu Lu is so smart, she will definitely be able to apply for a scholarship!"

Aunt Jiang clapped her hands and smiled, and pushed Li Lang: "If Liu Lu is not with me, she will go back to her home. Do you know which building he lives in?"

Li Lang nodded, rode out for a while, then fell back and asked, "Is he going to live back?"

Aunt Jiang walked away, turned her back to Li Lang to clean up the fruits on the stall, piled up the apples one by one, and said in a low voice: "If you have time, you can find Liu Lou to play more, let's go, take him to pay more friend."

Li Lang stopped on the side of the road. The handlebar of the bicycle was unbalanced and crooked into a slanted line due to the heavy weight on one side. He agreed, took out a peach from the plastic bag, wiped it on his clothes, and opened his mouth to bite.

Aunt Jiang turned to look at him, beckoning him to come back angrily and amusedly: "Oh! You should wash up! Li Lang! Come back! Auntie give you a wash!"

"Goodbye, Aunt Jiang! Peaches are so sweet! Liu Lu must like them!" Li Lang smiled while holding peaches with one hand. behind.He walked through a narrow path lined with elm trees and three rows of gray buildings, and stopped in front of the 23rd building.

Building 23 is also a small gray building, no different from the previous 21 and 19 buildings.The building is four stories high. On the balcony of a family on the second floor, a bright red lantern is hung high. The bonsai on the fourth floor is thriving.

Li Lang shouted: "Liu Lu! Classmate Liu Lu! I have bought a movie ticket!"

The yellow tassels under the red lanterns swayed with the wind, and the briars growing everywhere in the courtyard downstairs of the dormitory were blooming, many bees crawled in and out of the flowers, and the kitsch scent entered Li Lang's nose along the wind, he sneezed, Looking at the high place, he shouted again: "I didn't get a ticket for the premiere, don't be angry! I will definitely take you to the premiere next time!"

"Midnight show!"

"Premiere!"

"Is it good to go to England?"

The bees, attracted by the fragrance of the flower, were attracted by the fruity peach, flapping their wings and circling close. Li Lang waved them away, hiding here and there, complaining: "If you don't come down again, I'll go up to find you Lah, is it 402 on the fourth floor?"

He didn't say these words loudly, but just after he finished speaking, Liu Lu's figure appeared on a row of balconies on the third floor.He lay on the balcony and looked down, at Li Lang.Because of the backlight, Li Lang couldn't see his expression clearly, so he covered his forehead with all his might, looked out with all his might, his eyes widened for a while, then narrowed for a while, and said, "Come down, the show starts in four or ten minutes." .”

He still couldn't see Liu Lu's appearance clearly, Liu Lu's bangs were kept very long, and when she lowered her head, they could almost cover most of his face.

"I'm not going." Liu Lu said, his voice seemed to be hidden behind something, and it sounded like there was an echo.

"Ah?" Li Lang lifted the red plastic bag, "Auntie Jiang gave us a lot of peaches, I'll bring them to you."

"Don't come up." Liu Lu said, the echo was even stronger.

"Then come down, let's go fishing for lobsters." Li Lang parked the car, sat on the back seat of the car and stretched his neck to talk to Liu Lu.

"You go." Liu Lu stretched out her hand and pointed to the distance.

Li Lang took a bite of the peach, put his hands behind his neck, and said, "Do you know that I have cervical spondylitis? This treatment is very good, and my neck is much more comfortable."

The black shadow of Liu Lu moved, and Li Lang could see that he had changed his posture, a posture he was best at and Li Lang was most familiar with - he buried his face in his arms.

Li Lang ate peaches, and the peach juice flowed down his wrists to his arms.He sat quietly, Liu Lu didn't speak, and he didn't say anything, just looked at him.There are a lot of clothes hanging on the balcony of Liu Lu’s house, and the wind blows the clothes. Liu Lu is thin, like a piece of clothing, swaying in the wind.

"You go..." It was still Liu Lu who couldn't hold back, urged him to go, and drove him away.

A huge white cloud blocked the sun, Li Lang chewed the peach meat in his mouth carefully, and he recognized that it was not an echo, but a nasal sound, or a crying voice.

A drop of water landed on his face.

Li Lang sighed, touched his face, and laughed at himself: "My mother refuses to divorce even if she dies. He just plays around with her. She has seen a lot, she knows a lot, and in turn persuades me to relax and think about it. It takes a long time, I am so sad, I shed tears."

Liu Lu said, "That person is me."

Li Lang licked off the peach juice on his wrist, he lowered his hand, followed by his head, turning the fruit core with two fingers.One cycle, another cycle.He swallowed the peach flesh which he had chewed to some tasteless.

Li Lang raised his head and said, "I know."

The clouds were so white, but it rained heavily, one drop turned into two, then three.

Liu Lu said, "The police are coming."

"Ah?" Li Lang turned pale with shock, "You are underage, so if you want to arrest him, you must arrest him!"

Liu Lu said, "My mother is dead..."

"gas poisoning."

"She's dead."

Li Lang threw away the core and flew out like an arrow.The bicycle behind him fell to the ground, and the peaches rolled everywhere. Li Lang plunged into the dormitory building, rushed to the third floor, and rushed to the front of Liu Lu's house.The door was open, Liu Lu was standing at the entrance, not far away, a woman was lying on the ground.Liu Lu's shoulders trembled, and he sobbed softly, wiping his face with his hands while crying.

Li Lang gasped for breath, stretched out his hand towards Liu Lu, Liu Lu bounced back, hid far away, stood against the wall with his hands behind his back, he looked sideways at the woman.

Li Lang covered his nose, the gas smell in the room was still strong, he coughed uncomfortably, and said, "Did you forget to turn off the gas after cooking, where is your dad? Do you want to inform him..."

Liu Lu didn't look at him, her tears were still flowing, but her expression was calm."I met him when I went upstairs," he said.

Li Lang covered his mouth, he went to pull Liulu: "Let's go outside and wait for the police."

Liu Lu pushed him away in disgust, Li Lang didn't care, and dragged him back to her side, Liu Lu glared at him, as if she wanted to eat people, but Li Lang was not afraid, held his hand tightly, and dragged him out of the house.Liu Lu was ruthless, grabbed his arm and bit it.Li Lang gasped, and leaned against the door frame, his breathing gradually became even and steady.He looked at Liu Lu's shiny black hair, Li Lang embraced Liu Lu's shoulders, and slowly tightened his arms.

His arm was cool, Li Lang looked down, Liu Lu didn't bite him to bleed, his arm was just cool, as if wet from rain.

Liu Lu's head rested on Li Lang's chest, he hunched over, bent over, hid his face and shrunk his body to a very small size.He said he wanted to go back to his mother's arms, he said he didn't want to be born.

He also resented Li Lang, blamed him, and even scolded him harshly.

"What were you doing when you were 16? Why didn't you come here a year earlier? You're sick, are you sick? You're not normal... I feel sick when I see you, I hate you, I hate you. You bastard!"

It was rare for him to say a foul word: "You fucking bastard, you are not human!"

Li Lang didn't say anything, he lowered his head and kissed Liu Lu's hair lightly.

Liu Lu was at a loss for words and couldn't continue cursing, so he grabbed Li Lang's arm tightly, refusing to let go no matter what.

2.

Liu Lu still returned to the second floor, he walked to the deepest part of the corridor, and looked around for a figure standing there.The man was half-hidden, his body was leaning against a pile of sundries, a lock of hair was exposed from time to time, showing the outline of a smoker.When Liu Lu was only one step away from this person, the person panicked and turned around to run, but Liu Lu stepped forward to stop him.

"What are you doing here sneakily?" Liu Lu said, sweeping over the smoker, the scar on the man's face twitched, and said with a smile, "Have a cigarette and go home."

"A cigarette?" Liu Lu counted the cigarette butts scattered on the ground, at least five.

The man laughed dryly and stretched out his hand, but Liu Lu avoided it and stood a little further away from him.The man cleared his throat and asked, "Are you moving back?"

"My mom is at work today, so I'll find her for lunch." Liu Lu said, "What about you? Are you off work?"

The man threw the cigarette away, clenched his hands into fists and leaned against his mouth, coughing, and the eyes that were originally on Liu Lu were shaken away.After a while, the man said: "Don't talk about your mother, let's talk about you."

Liu Lu turned to leave, but the man grabbed him, Liu Lu shook off his hand, rubbed her wrist, looked away, and said, "Don't you think I'm disgusting..."

The man put on a serious face, looked at him, and said seriously: "Xiao Lu, how can you talk to Dad like this?"

Liu Lu was stunned, and she couldn't help but laugh. The man felt that he was losing his composure, and smoothed things over for himself, saying, "If your mother could talk, she would definitely give you this nickname."

Liu Lu replied unceremoniously: "It is because my mother can't speak that I married you, otherwise I wouldn't have been born at all."

"Ah!" The man scratched his hair, looking flattering, "Isn't it great to be in this world?! How lucky to be born!"

Liu Lu turned her wrist, her thin and tender skin was flushed by him, he looked into the man's eyes, his eyelashes were shaking: "You know what I mean."

The man waved his hand again, waving goodbye to this topic, and turned to ask Liu Lu: "Have you...haven't been polite lately..."

The man paused, coughed, lowered his head and picked up the cigarette butt, put his hands in his pockets, quickly glanced at Liu Lu, and sorted out the old newspapers piled up at the door for the people on the second floor.

"Didn't you meet Li Zhao?" He spoke quickly, but his words were clear.

Liu Lu walked away without looking back, there was not even a hint of anger, loss or bewilderment on his face.He was calm.

The man ran ahead of him and dragged him back to the original hidden corner.

"Xiaolu, Xiaolu, listen to me..." The man's voice was suddenly tinged with indescribable sadness and resentment. He prayed, clasping his hands in a gesture of praying to God and Buddha, begging Liu Lu, "I listen Xiao Jiang said, do you want to study abroad? Li Zhao is willing to subsidize your tuition. He is rich, very rich. As long as you study hard, you don’t have to worry about tuition and living expenses. He will help you. I Knowing that you always want to leave here, this ghost place, I've had enough of it, really."

"I can apply for a scholarship." Liu Lu said, "I don't need his help."

"A good university abroad needs a letter of introduction!" The man held Liu Lu firmly, the sweat in his palms slipped from the back of Liu Lu's hand to the palm of his hand, Liu Lu withdrew his hand, and the man hurriedly grabbed it again, Holding it, he said, "You can meet him, let's have a good talk, the three of us."

The more Liu Lu listened, the more impatient and contemptuous she became. Both eyebrows were knit together. He broke free from the man's shackles and said, "You think I'm disgusting. Now...I think you're disgusting. We're talking about it." draw."

"Little Lu!" The man unleashed his trump card. He knelt down for Liu Lu, hugged his legs, and pleaded, "Listen to my father's advice, don't sever contact with Li Zhao, father please ...Is it because you know that his son is your classmate? Do you feel embarrassed? Then we will suspend school, we will study at home, and then take the IELTS and TOEFL exams. There is always a way to study abroad!"

Liu Lu's fingers stuck to the seam of his trousers. He took a deep breath and didn't let it out for a long time. He asked the man, "Do you know what you're talking about?"

"Can you hear yourself?"

The man raised his face, apart from tears, there was also bottomless innocence in those eyes.

"I've already lost him once, and I can't lose him a second time." The man's eyes were moist, "If it wasn't for his girlfriend scratching my face at that time..." His face changed, and the fierce light flickered, "If it wasn't for that woman!"

The man held Liu Lu hard to keep him from moving, pointed at himself with a finger, and said with a smile: "You are very similar to me, right, you are very similar to me, like me when I was young. "

"If I were like you, I would have cut my own face with a knife." Liu Lu replied.

The man said again: "Xiao Lu, Dad and Li Zhao have talked, if you are willing to go back to him, we can go through the adoption procedures... You can live in his house, you, you and his son will be brothers, so that you Don't be embarrassed, this is your own person!"

Liu Lu pulled her pants back, but he didn't speak, and pulled harder each time.

"Xiao Lu, listen to me, this is fate, it is fate, if you feel that your current appearance is inconvenient," the man smiled, "shall we dress up as girls? If you become a girl, you can still Get married, do you like wearing a white wedding dress? Do you like white?"

Liu Lu strenuously kicked the man away.The man sat on the ground, blinked his eyes, stood up with difficulty while leaning on the wall, the tip of his nose was covered with sweat.The man was silent. He turned around on the spot, raised his hands and put them on the back of his head, turned to Liu Lu and said, "You... You, go and see your mother."

For some unknown reason, his lips lost their color, and the passion just faded away.He fled from the other side of the stairs in a daze.

Liu Lu was also sweating, weak sweating, his mouth was closed tightly, his nostrils were closed, he was stuffing himself, it was so uncomfortable, he was about to suffocate, Liu Lu turned around and lay down on the fence to look down, Looking into the distance.

Far, far away, a bean-sized figure shuttles between the shade and the sun, he looks so happy, he is like a thin needle for mending, splicing all the shadows and lights together.

Liu Lu gasped heavily, and walked towards the entrance of the corridor, leaning against the fence.

He goes to the third floor.