i thought he didn't love me

We broke up, as we should. "

"We are all men, is there any talk of infidelity?"

Luhan really wanted to say, don't you just like men, but he held back, afraid that Wu Shixun would think he was self-righteous, and also afraid that he would think he was stupid.

Wu Shixun talked about breaking up, how could he still be interested in himself, he would be laughed at if he said it.

Lu Han thought about it, but couldn't find a reason, so he had to say truthfully, "But I don't want to share the same bed with you."

I wanted it very much at first, and I still thought about it half an hour ago, and even as soon as this thought flashed in my mind, my heart couldn't stop trembling, and I became shy again, obviously I couldn't show my usual arrogance and indifference, but I still tried my best to pretend It doesn't matter.

But as soon as He Xi appeared, he suddenly lost his mind.

Although it is a special period now, and Wu Shixun said that he wants to go back to the past, he should also put himself in the right place.

Really, how could he be greedy when he was so kind to himself?

Self-righteous words are the most annoying thing, isn't it?

Chapter 6

That night Luhan still slept in the master bedroom, he shared the bed with Laifu, and Wu Shixun made the floor beside him.

The man in pajamas was "making the bed" there, and he couldn't be driven away, because Wu Shixun said, "If I'm not here, will you sleep well at night? What if you have nightmares?"

A series of questions made Lu Han speechless, but the host was sleeping on the floor and the guest was sleeping on the bed, no matter how he thought about it, he felt weird.

Turning off the lights, only the sound of Laifu's heavy breathing is left in the room. Luhan was thinking about the day's affairs and was so troubled that he couldn't sleep, when he heard Wu Shixun's indistinct gasping sound, late autumn night, sleeping on the floor It must be cold.

Luhan endured and endured and called Wu Shixun softly, "Otherwise you can come up and sleep."

Wu Shixun cracked his mouth and smiled, anyway, Luhan can't see him now, that smug expression is undoubtedly on his face.

Of course Lu Han didn’t know, after the National Day, Wu Shixun’s bedroom floor was covered with a layer of fine plush carpet, which was soft and warm even for bare feet, not to mention that Wu Shixun only slept on a blanket. won't be chilled.

Seeing that the bitter trick was working, Wu Shixun didn't know how to restrain himself, "You asked me to come up, so don't drive me down later."

There was a hint of blame in the intentionally low tone, which was standard and unforgiving.

But Lu Han was only concerned about Wu Shixun not catching a cold, he didn't realize it at all, and kicked Lai Fu awake with his feet, making Lai Fu go to sleep on Wu Shixun's floor.

I didn't fall asleep at first, but now I can't fall asleep even more when he comes here. I thought I could sleep well with him around, but after changing my identity, it's awkward to get along like this. Unlike last night, I was too sleepy and didn't have time to worry These.

The people around them obviously didn't sleep either, they lay quietly, and the two of them didn't speak until the silence became more obvious in the darkness.

The people around him spoke up.

"Luhan."

"Ok?"

"A week after we broke up, I went downstairs to your company to find you, but I saw you and your colleagues going downstairs talking and laughing."

Lu Han felt that the person next to him had changed his sleeping position, originally facing his direction, but now his back was facing him.

"After the breakup, you lived a good life, and you are not sad at all. I don't know that my ex-boyfriend has no place in your heart."

Lu Han pursed his lips and smiled, laughing that he could hear a trace of complaint in Wu Shixun's words, if he was the former self, now would be a good time to show off his power, but Lu Han just didn't speak, his pursed mouth turned into biting his lip, Holding back tears.

His sobbing was still heard by Wu Shixun, the man turned over and hugged Luhan into his arms.

How could he have no status in his heart? He was obviously the only one in his heart, and the person who had no status was always himself.

"The day after we broke up, I waited for you downstairs at your house. I was dragging my suitcase and I had nowhere to go. I think no matter how serious you say, if you don't want to see me or look down on me, I will I can pretend not to understand and rely on you to follow you home, anyway, I have a thick skin and I am not afraid of your harsh words, but..." Lu Han's voice paused, and he adjusted his breathing, "But I saw you and Chen Yu together Come back, your hand is on his shoulder, you look intimate, I can't move, I want to make you silent, I watch you kiss him downstairs, I can only hide behind the tree Looking at you while crying."

As Lu Han talked, he couldn't stop crying even more, that day was probably one of the few times when he cried outside.

He put down all his self-esteem to seek peace, carried a heavy suitcase, did countless psychological constructions, and practiced countless times that sentence, can't we break up?Don't be afraid that Wu Shixun will ask him why he has the face to come back, don't be afraid that Wu Shixun will provoke him with many words, and don't be afraid that Wu Shixun will laugh at him for having such a temper last night.

However, when he no longer saw Wu Shixun and Chen Yu together from the photos or other people's mouths, it was the first time he really understood the terrible heartache.

He really lost Wu Shixun.

Wu Shixun tightened his arms around Luhan, he didn't know, he didn't know that he hurt Luhan like this, the person in his arms couldn't stop trembling, and Wu Shixun's heart ached along with it.

"I'm sorry, little deer, I'm sorry..." The soft kiss fell down delicately, kissing away the teardrops on Luhan's face.

"Then...do you still love me?" In the darkness, Wu Shixun's trembling voice was particularly obvious when he asked.

"Love? Wu Shixun, I've never stopped loving you." Luhan cried and said, but what's the use of loving him, if it's not love, wouldn't it be more uncomfortable for the person he falls in love with.

Wu Shixun was startled when he heard that, a surge of joy rushed up, he straightened up and looked at Luhan, "You said you love me?"

It turned out to be a questioning sentence, Luhan cried and laughed, "Wu Shixun, I love you, don't you know?! You brought up the breakup, and you were the one who said you didn't love me. It was never me, and it was also the one who hurt me. you……"

Wu Shixun pulled Luhan up, holding Luhan's cheeks with both hands, "I'm sorry, Luhan, I'm sorry."

Lu Han shook his head, "Don't say I'm sorry, I don't want to listen, why are you so cruel, you know I will get hurt, you still hurt me because of Chen Yu, you hurt me...Wu Shixun, you hurt me because of others, Are you still afraid of being sorry for me? Are you afraid that I will laugh at you if you tell me? Don’t say sorry, you are so hypocritical that I can’t stand it.”

There are such cruel and selfish people in the world. They hurt others for the sake of those they care about, and they know they are sorry before they do it, but they do it anyway, so they have no regrets and are not sorry.

"I didn't break up with you because of Chen Yu." Wu Shixun's voice became low, and Lu Han's words were like cold water extinguishing the flame in his heart.

Lu Han chuckled, "Well, that's right, it's because of my temper. Chen Yu told me that you hate me for getting angry at you, that I have a bad personality, that you are already tired from work, and that I was still self-willed." Temper." Lu Han closed his eyes, and the image of Chen Yu saying this appeared in his mind, Wu Shixun, do you know how sad I am every time I think of you complaining about me in front of Chen Yu?Maybe you were holding him in your arms at that time, thinking about his goodness and his gentleness, highlighting my badness and my waywardness, and finally I was compared.

You love him a little more, but I am becoming more and more a bad person, and should be abandoned by you.

"Sehun, you have complained about this in front of him, can I still believe that you love me?"

Love is to degrade the person who once loved to nothing in order to please another person, isn't it?This is what you thought love was?

Wu Shixun can't refute it, he did say this, he has always known Luhan's temper better than anyone else, when he was in love, Luhan's bad temper, in his eyes, was just a petty temper to increase the mood, and when he knew Luhan's temper After getting close to his own reasons, Wu Shixun thought, he is so easy to get angry because he doesn't love himself, and he likes to lose his temper so much because he wronged him to be with him.

How could the breakup be because of Chen Yu? Although Chen Yu was the third party between them, he was indeed a pawn that he played to anger Lu Han. He was not attracted to Chen Yu at all. After talking too much, I immediately broke up with him and cut off contact.

Wu Shixun really wanted to express his dissatisfaction, but he was afraid of hurting Lu Han even more. His road ahead was a cliff, and he couldn't break the last cable bridge.

Since Luhan said he loves him, he will believe his words, no matter what his original intention of approaching him is, as long as, as long as Luhan loves him now, everything is enough.

It may be difficult to get him back now, but this time, he doesn't want them to miss it again, since he loves Luhan, and Luhan loves him, then nothing can separate them.

At the end of April this year, shortly after Lu Han’s birthday, Wu Shixun received a call from Lin Mu, saying that he had something interesting to tell him.

Whether it's Lin Mu's name or Lin Mu's voice, Wu Shixun actually couldn't remember it clearly until he saw Lin Mu in the coffee shop, a bright-colored thin windbreaker jacket, a slender boy with too long hair combed into a ponytail, Wu Shixun It just occurred to me that there was such a person, during the ridiculous time after he broke up with He Xi, this person was one of his favorites.

How absurd Wu Shixun was at that time, compared to Wu Yifan or other gangsters now, it is even worse, not to mention that there are many fixed sex men and women, if he suddenly falls in love with someone in a bar , You can also transfer a private room to be intimate without asking your name or identity.

Fortunately, no matter how bad he is, he knows that he must wear a condom, so he played like crazy for a few years until he finally met Lu Han and broke his heart.