The ex-boyfriend is fierce and cowardly

Gu Ji looked at Chi Yan and said nothing.

He suddenly remembered that Chi Yan had asked himself this question many years ago. At that time, Gu Ji had just entered the showbiz not long ago. From an ignorant high school student to suddenly breaking into the world of adults, he still faced things that he didn't like. He couldn't relieve the pressure, and his mood was very wrong.

But no matter how wrong his emotions were, Gu Ji didn't show the slightest bit in front of Chi Yan, but Gu Ji didn't say anything, Chi Yan could also find that Gu Ji couldn't sleep all night, and Chi Yan woke up in the middle of the night to find that he was still When he opened his eyes, Chi Yan asked him:

"Brother Ji, what do you think of me?"

Gu Ji still clearly remembered his answer until now, he turned his head and looked at Chi Yan with a smile, and said:

"Boyfriend."

Now Gu Ji also wants to say, boyfriend.

Even if you leave me for ten years, you are still a boyfriend.

But he couldn't say it.

Gu Ji's silence made Chi Yan smile, with imperceptible sarcasm: "Sounds like a package/raised one, does Brother Ji mean that?"

Gu Ji still didn't speak, but his expression turned ugly.

Chi Yan didn't know where he stole it from. After eating it, the fire in his heart couldn't be suppressed. People are emotional animals, especially Gu Ji and Chi Yan. Tempered people, on the one hand, have been suppressed for too long, and will always rebound.

A saint without any emotion is called a saint, but Chi Yan is not, so even if he feels that he owes Gu Ji, it is impossible for him not to be wronged by such an arrangement.

But he still stretched out his hand to pick it up, even with a smile on his face:

"I said that I will listen to you this year. I will do whatever you ask me to do. Since Brother Ji gave it to me, I will keep it. Thank you Brother Ji."

But before Chi Yan could completely take the things into his hands, Gu Ji had already taken them back and put them back in his pocket:

"Since you don't want to go out, just stay at home honestly. You don't want to know how much I really want to lock you in the room and not allow you to go anywhere. I have been thinking about this for ten years."

Chi Yan didn't say anything, and Gu Ji didn't say anything more, they slammed the door and left.

The peaceful relationship between them has been broken since that dream, but Chi Yan wanted to make up for it before, but today, with his emotions out of control, he may have to regress to a position that is not as good as the original point.

Chi Yan stood in the porch for a long time without recovering. Later, he gradually calmed down and scolded himself for being hypocritical. He wondered if he had been on the road all day, which caused his brain to fail. Pao/friends accepted it. Well, what's wrong with the package/support?What's more, it's impossible for Gu Ji to mean that.

Chi Yan sent Gu Ji a WeChat message: [Brother Ji, I said something wrong, don't take it to heart. 】

Gu didn't reply.

It was too late, Chi Yan didn't wait any longer, and pushed the suitcase back to the master bedroom. When he was in the hotel, Chi Yan thought that he would leave at any time, so the clothes were all piled up in the suitcase, and it was useless to have a cloakroom, but now Back in Beicheng, probably not leaving for a long time, Chi Yan pushed the suitcase into the cloakroom connected to the master bedroom without any hesitation.

But before he opened the suitcase, he looked at the cloakroom and was stunned. All the clothes in the closet were black, and he didn't think it belonged to Gu Ji.

It should have been prepared by Gu Ji before he came to Beicheng. He wasn't quite sure what Gu Ji's mood was when he was preparing these, but Chi Yan saw mixed feelings at this moment.

Gu Ji didn't show up for the next few days. He seemed to have completely finished his vacation. Chi Yan could only see news about him on Weibo, knowing which day he attended the press conference and which day he went to record the show , Shoot Magazine.

During the few days when Gu Ji didn't show up, Chi Yan didn't go out either. Firstly, he knew that Gu Ji wanted him to stay at home all the time, and secondly, he hadn't come back for so many years. In fact, Chi Yan had nowhere to go.

Chi Yan was mostly alone when he was in the small town, but it was different from being alone now.

In the small town, if he is in a bad mood, he can go around on a motorcycle. If he doesn’t want to, he can move a chair and sit at the door of the tavern to watch life. The old lady’s occasional caring, and Chu Yiqi’s daily harassment can all be solved. Let him clearly feel that time is flowing.

But now, everything was lifeless, and the height of the 27th floor made it impossible for him to see the people below clearly even if he stood in front of the window.

When Chi Yan called Chu Yiqi quite frequently, Chu Yiqi obviously noticed something was wrong and asked him:

"Brother Yan, you are not right. You have contacted me so frequently these days, do you really miss me, or do you mean that I don't want you anymore?"

Chi Yan was worried that Chu Yiqi would come up with another sadomasochistic love story, so she stopped calling him at all.

He may not speak a word all day.

It was early in the morning that Chi Yan realized that he was not in the right state. When he got up to wash himself in the morning, he looked at himself in the mirror and suddenly felt strange like never before, and then he developed a sense of meaninglessness.

Nothing interesting.

Chi Yan was taken aback when he realized what he was thinking, and he didn't even feel the razor in his hand cut a gash on his chin. Later, when he saw a drop of blood in the pool, he realized what he was thinking What.

He hadn't had this kind of thought for too long, so long that he felt scared and panicked.

He knew he couldn't be alone anymore.

Chi Yan went out today and went to the hospital. His arm was slightly fractured. It has been almost a month now, and it can be removed. The hospital in Beicheng is different from that in Nanhe City. It only takes registration and queuing. It took one morning, and it was almost time for the doctor to get off work by the time the filming and removal of the plaster cast was done in the afternoon.

In the eyes of normal people, this day's grinding and chirping is about to collapse, but it is very likely that Chi Yan has nothing to do and has not been in contact with people for too long, so he actually enjoys it a little bit, and even bought some food on the way back. Decided to do it myself.

A few children downstairs in the apartment were playing skateboards. Chi Yan was not in a hurry to go home. He sat on the bench next to him with the ingredients and watched for a while. When the children returned home with their skateboards, Chi Yan also got up and prepared to leave. Only then did he realize that a person was looking at him not far away.

Gu has.

It's been 8 days, and they haven't seen each other for 8 days since Gu Ji left that night, and they haven't even contacted by WeChat or phone.

Chi Yan didn't know how long Gu Ji stood there looking at him, Chi Yan stared at him for a while before walking over:

"Brother already."

Gu Ji didn't speak, but took the ingredients in his hand and walked upstairs. Chi Yan stood there for a few seconds, smiled silently, and followed up.

In the elevator, the two people were not as silent as before. Gu Ji looked at Chi Yan's arm with plaster removed:

"When was it dismantled?"

"Today." Chi Yan said, "It's fine after the filming and reexamination. The doctor said it can be removed."

Gu Ji looked at his arm for a few seconds, before speaking after a few seconds:

"why did not you tell me?"

Chi Yan smiled: "I just don't want Brother Ji to accompany me, it will be troublesome if I get photographed."

Gu Ji didn't speak, just looked at Chi Yan, neither of them mentioned the unhappiness last time, and the matter seemed to pass like that.

After returning home, Chi Yan went to the bathroom to wash his hands. Before he finished washing, Gu Ji came in. He moved aside, and the two of them stood by the sink. Yan is on the right side, so I didn’t see the wound on his left chin. Standing on the left side, I can see it clearly without looking. to myself:

"how did you make it?"

Chi Yan was stunned for a moment before realizing what Gu Ji was referring to, and smiled indifferently:

"It's okay if you accidentally shave in the morning."

Chi Yan avoids his hands, washes off the foam, takes out a tissue and wipes his hands: "I'm going out first Brother Ji."

Gu Ji frowned slightly watching Chi Yan's leaving back, he didn't know if it was his illusion, he always felt that Chi Yan was avoiding him intentionally or unintentionally today.

Chi Yan went to the kitchen to cook, but Gu Ji came over and kicked him out before he started. Chi Yan didn't insist, and left the kitchen after saying "Brother Ji, you've worked hard."

Gu Ji stayed here that night, Chi Yan was a little surprised, but he had no right to say anything, but Gu Ji could feel that Chi Yan was a little nervous when he was lying down, so he glanced at Chi Yan:

"Not today."

Chi Yan smiled when he heard the words: "Brother Ji can do what he wants."

Gu has ignored him.

In the next few days, Gu Ji would appear every day, the time was not fixed, sometimes it would be before dinner, sometimes it would be before going to bed, the time to get up early and leave was about the same, quite early.

And Chi Yan started to go out frequently, casually, without any purpose, as long as he was not at home holding him back, but before dinner, he would always send Gu Ji a WeChat message, asking if he would come back.

If you come back, Chi Yan will go home early, if you don't come back, Chi Yan will sometimes finish dinner outside.

On this day, Chi Yan returned to the village in the city. He and his father lived in the place for 16 years. It was demolished and rebuilt 9 years ago, and the old house has long since disappeared, so Chi Yan never thought of coming back to take a look. It may be recently. Too boring to think of such a place.

The former snack street in the village in the city is gone, and now it has turned into serious shops, which look tidy and high-end, which is very different from the previous fly house. It wasn't the one he had eaten before, and he was hesitant to go in to have a look, even though he wasn't too hungry.

"Chi Yan?" When a voice suddenly sounded behind him, Chi Yan was stunned for a moment before turning his head to look. He hadn't seen him for 7 years, but the person in front of him hadn't changed much. He was still fierce and murderous.

"Brother Hu." Chi Yan called out.

"Fuck!" Cheng Hu cursed, and immediately stepped forward to hug Chi Yan tightly: "You know how to come back, kid, I fucking thought you died outside!"

Cheng Hu is Chi Yan's old neighbor in the village in the city, because his father is a gangster, so for a long time Chi Yan and him have nothing to do with each other, but when Chi Pingsheng was bullied, Cheng Hu helped out too much, Chi Yan Thinking of his kindness, Cheng Hu gave him 1 yuan when Chi Pingsheng was hospitalized.

1 yuan is not much now, but for Cheng Hu who was just in his early 13s 20 years ago, it was a lot of money. It is impossible for Chi Yan not to remember him.

Those who treat him well will be remembered forever.

What's more, Cheng Hu also helped him a lot with the incident ten years ago.

Chi Yan was in pain from being strangled by him, but still patted him on the back with a smile:

"Not dead, come back."

Cheng Hu let him go, but still looked at Chi Yan with disbelief on his face, and couldn't help but cursed again after a few seconds:

"What the hell, let's go, go to my store for a while, I want to have a good chat with you, you brat, where have you been all these years?"

Chi Yan thought that Cheng Hu would have to open a KTV in order to match his temperament, but he didn't expect that he opened a teahouse. The antique decoration inside was very different from his temperament.

As soon as he walked into the store, Chi Yan's gaze swung between him and the store. Cheng Hu laughed and scolded:

"Fuck your grandma, who are you scolding?"

Chi Yan also laughed: "Brother Hu, you are the one who is scolding me now."

"You boy, I know what you're thinking even if you don't talk! I don't think I'm compatible with this place. I don't even think it's compatible. This store is not mine, but your sister-in-law's. She has gone to pick up the child."

"married?"

"It's settled down in the morning." Cheng Hu sat with him in a cubicle on the first floor. The space was quite large and quiet, and asked him, "What would you like to drink?"

"It's very rough, don't pick it."

Cheng Hu smiled, went out and said a few words to the waiter, then sat back down again, his gaze stayed on Chi Yan, looking him up and down, Chi Yan had nothing he couldn't let him see, so he smiled and let him see, but he didn't want to He almost couldn't answer Cheng Hu's first question:

"You came back this time for Gu Ji?"

Chi Yan was stunned for a moment, then smiled: "Why do you say that?"

"He hasn't come to my place for almost half a year. He would visit me once a month or two to ask if there is any news about you. He hasn't come recently. I don't think he doesn't want to look for you anymore. China is so big. Where can you hide, [-]% of them will be caught by him."

Chi Yan didn't speak.

"Are you right?"

Chi Yan nodded and smiled wryly: "Well, I found you."

"Very good." Cheng Hu leaned on the back of the chair and sighed: "Ten years, maybe even the death date can be forgotten after ten years of parents' death, but he never forgot you in these ten years , although I don't really understand the love between the two old men, but I admire it from the bottom of my heart."

Chi Yan didn't speak, staring at a set of tea sets on the table.

"You didn't have a date when I found you, right?" Cheng Hu looked at Chi Yan: "Don't admit it, I'm afraid he will kill you."

Chi Yan smiled: "No."

"That's good, that kid Gu Ji is bewildered by you, so you are together again now?"

"Brother Hu." Chi Yan smiled: "Why am I with him?"

Cheng Hu choked for a moment, then kept silent for a few seconds and said almost shamelessly:

"Why can't we be together? Isn't it over if we don't mention what happened ten years ago?"

That's right, it's over if you don't mention things ten years ago. It would be better if there were no things ten years ago, but ten years is not ten days, not ten months. The reason, ten years of separation is still a thorn in Gu Ji's heart.

One day, one month, or even one year can not be mentioned, can you not mention it for a lifetime?It can't be done, none of them can start over without any grievances, which is why Gu Ji would rather say that he can be a gun/friend than talk about getting back together.

It's not that he doesn't want to, it's not that he's afraid of rejection, it's that he can't do it, Gu Ji's pride can't make him humiliate after being abandoned for ten years.

Chi Yan can indeed feel that Gu Ji still likes him, but his liking will never compromise, and will never be mixed with any sand.

I do want to be with you again, but not until I figure out what happened ten years ago.

From the reunion until now, Gu Ji has been conveying this message to Chi Yan.

Although he never pressed himself to ask why he left ten years ago, it doesn't mean that he doesn't want to know, Chi Yan knows that he will find the truth, and he will definitely get to the bottom of it and explain everything.

That's him, that's Gu Ji.

After Cheng Hu said this sentence, he also felt that it was inappropriate. Cheng Hu understood what kind of temperament Gu Ji was, and sighed helplessly, trying to persuade Chi Yan:

"It's been ten years, why don't you just tell him? It's been so long, and I shouldn't be digging into the horns anymore."

Chi Yan shook his head:

"He is an extreme person himself. If time can really change anything, he won't look for me for ten years."

"Then what's the matter?" Cheng Hu said: "You like him, and he likes you, so they won't be together? What a pity! What the hell is going on here? Why did you two get together."

Chi Yan didn't speak, and he couldn't say anything about this question. Cheng Hu also knew what Chi Yan was thinking, so he didn't feel emotional, but just asked:

"Then what's your relationship now? He brought you back to be friends with you, right?"

Chi Yan can't say what the relationship is, but it is definitely a relationship that is constantly being cut and messed up.

"I don't know either, let's take it one step at a time." Chi Yan said.

Although Cheng Hu didn't understand everything about the things between them, he still participated in big events. Not only did he participate, but he never had a life in peace these years. He has never seen anyone who is more persistent than Gu Ji. The secret in the book made him want to pee when he saw Gu Ji, and he had to think about every word, for fear that he might miss something.

Now that the Lord is finally back, Cheng Hu can't let Chi Yan go no matter what he says:

"I've kept secrets for you for so many years. Today you have to drink with me no matter what. I haven't been drunk in so many years. I'm afraid I said something I shouldn't. If I can't do it today, I won't go home until I'm drunk."

Chi Yan had nothing he couldn't agree to, but the time was almost up, so he had to ask Gu Ji if he would go back tonight:

"Wait for a while, I'll call Brother Ji."

"Yo." Cheng Hu smiled: "They all live together?"

Chi Yan smiled, got up and went to make a call, Gu Ji answered quickly, and asked him, "What's the matter?"

"It's okay." Chi Yan said, "Just ask Brother Ji if he's coming back for dinner tonight?"

Gu Ji was silent for a few seconds: "I won't go back."

"Row."

The two didn't say anything and hung up the phone.

Cheng Hu was really happy when Chi Yan came back, he didn't even care about his wife and children, he took Chi Yan to the restaurant directly, just the two of them, but they ordered two boxes of wine in a random manner, Chi Yan didn't like it at first. I don't want to drink too much, after all, it's not easy to explain to Gu Ji when I go back, but Cheng Hu is also a good brother to him, I haven't seen him for many years, and I have kept a secret for myself for so many years, so I should drink it no matter what.

For this meal, I didn't eat much food, let alone the staple food, and I didn't even serve it, but there were only two or three bottles of beer left in the two boxes of beer.

They all drank too much.

Cheng Hu looks like a rough man, but he loves his wife very much, and he doesn't make trouble after drinking too much, so he waved to Chi Yan directly and said:

"I can't do it, I can't do it today, I'm going to go crazy with alcohol after drinking it, your sister-in-law doesn't like me like that, I have to ask her to pick me up."

Chi Yan watched him on the phone, and heard him acting like a baby with the woman on the phone, and felt that this scene made people's eyes hot no matter how warm it looked.

Cheng Hu's daughter-in-law came very quickly, and she is also different from Chi Yan's imagination. If Cheng Hu looks like a rough person, his wife is a typical gentle girl in Jiangnan water town. I don't know why come together.

Chi Yan helped send Cheng Hu to the car, and watched them out of sight before reaching out to stop the car and go home.

Chi Yan actually drank too much, but he was a little better than Cheng Hu, probably because he drank the bar wine as water after staying in the tavern for so many years, but it was still a bit too much tonight, but he didn't need anyone to pick him up, he could go back by himself .

After taking a taxi back to the apartment, Chi Yan sat on the bench downstairs and didn't get up for a long time. Firstly, it hurts from being exposed to the limelight, and secondly, it hurts from talking too much about the past with Cheng Hu today.

He knew that when Gu Ji said he would not come back for dinner, he would usually come back very late, and now there was no one at home, but maybe it was because there was no one that Chi Yan didn't want to go up.

Alcohol can paralyze a person's nerves, and it can also make a person who has been strong for ten years suddenly weak.

Chi Yan has been alone for ten years, but today he doesn't want to be alone, but this city he should be familiar with can't find anyone who can talk to him at this time.

Chi Yan propped his elbows on his knees and maintained a posture for a long time, until his eyes were shrouded in shadows before he came back to his senses. Looking up, Gu Jizheng was standing in front of him, looking down at him.

He was wearing house clothes and had obviously come down from upstairs.

"Brother Ji." Chi Yan called out.

"Have you been drinking?" Gu Ji asked.

Chi Yan nodded: "Drink it."

"drunk?"

Chi Yan nodded again: "A little bit."

"Do you want to go home or continue to sit for a while?"

Chi Yan stood up in silence for a few seconds: "Go home."

Was he drunk after all, he didn't stand still and swayed a few times when he got up, Gu Ji looked at him and didn't help him, but stretched out his hand in front of him after he stood still, Chi Yan stared at his hand for a few seconds , smiled, stretched out and held her.

Gu Ji's face showed no joy or anger, and he didn't show any other emotions about Chi Yan's drunkenness. He held Chi Yan's hand from the beginning to the end, and Chi Yan was also very obedient, leaning against the elevator without making noise. Nao, the fingers held by Gu Ji in the palm of the hand from time to time to pick Gu Ji's palm.

Gu Ji let him make trouble without even giving him a look.

Back home, Gu Ji stared at Chi Yan changing shoes at the entrance, and said, "Go take a shower."

Chi Yan nodded: "Okay."

He behaved like a child, and even knew to get a change of clothes before going in. Gu Ji didn't follow, and went to the restaurant refrigerator to get a bottle of ice water to drink.

Before he went downstairs, he had a bit of a temper. When Chi Yan called him, he had something to do and couldn't come back, but he was inexplicably worried, so he finally pushed back everything and came back, but there was no one at home.

Gu has been waiting at home for nearly 4 hours. After countless times of wanting to call him to ask him why he hasn't come back, and in the fear of wondering whether Chi Yan ran away again, he finally waited for him.

He was supposed to get angry, but all of Gu Ji's temper disappeared when he saw Chi Yan sitting on the bench with his head in his hands, his pain could be seen from his movements and eyes, He didn't ask who he drank with, or why he drank so much, he felt that there was nothing more important than bringing Chi Yan home.

Gu Ji still went to the bathroom, afraid that Chi Yan would fall, or that he would bump into him.

When Gu Ji opened the door and went in, Chi Yan was standing in the shower room with his head upturned to take a shower. He didn't know whether he was unresponsive after drinking or thinking about other things. He didn't realize anything until Gu Ji stood behind him. I looked back.

It might be that the hot water from the bath got into the eyes, or it might be some other reason, Chi Yan's eyes were red.

But no matter what the reason was, Gu Ji couldn't see Chi Yan like this. Just as he was about to say something, Chi Yan suddenly turned around and pushed him against the wall. The touch was not so comfortable, but Gu Ji didn't care, he just looked at Chi Yan.

"What?" Gu asked.

"Love." Chi Yan said, "Is that okay?"

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