The ex-boyfriend is fierce and cowardly

"I don't know." Ning Xiushi rebuffed straight away: "I'm too lazy to know about your affairs. I don't have that much time to spare. I'm just asking you if you're in a bad mood."

Gu Ji didn't believe what Ning Xiushi said, but he didn't ask.

Ning Xiushi is different from Chi Yan, if Gu Ji is willing, he is not unable to ask something from Ning Xiushi's mouth, even if he doesn't say everything, Gu Ji is still very confident knowing some details.

Gu already had confidence that he could do it, but he didn't.

He still wanted to know the secret that Chi Yan was keeping, but he didn't particularly want to know.

Chi Yan's state made him feel that his persistence was wrong and unnecessary.

No matter what the reason for leaving was in the past, it is impossible to change Gu Ji's thoughts and determination to spend the rest of his life with Chi Yan, so can he just let it go, after all, Chi Yan is the most important thing now.

"I seem to have made a mistake." Gu Ji said such a sentence after a long time.

Ning Xiushi stopped drinking water because of Gu Ji's words, and looked at Gu Ji: "What's wrong?"

"I shouldn't be obsessed with the reasons of the past and ignore Chi Yan's present." When Gu Ji didn't look at Ning Xiu, he looked at the delicious dishes in front of him without focus: "Actually, how long has Chi Yan been troubled by nightmares? I haven't slept well for a long time, and it's not that I don't feel sorry for him when he looks tense even in sleep, I just don't like the feeling of being shut out by him."

"I want to carry it with him, no matter what."

"I understand." Ning Xiushi put down his water glass and patted him on the shoulder: "But there are some things you don't even..."

"Can't bear it, can't you? You said before that I'm afraid I can't resist when the truth is revealed." Gu Ji looked at him: "You told me today that I was too paranoid, and Chi Yan was worried that I would get into a dead end. I can’t get out so I don’t say anything. I admit it. I am indeed such a person. Because of paranoia, Chi Yan has been protecting me for ten years. If I don’t change, he may be like this forever , afraid that I would get hurt, that I would not be able to bear it, so he carried everything for me, even though he was about to be unable to bear it himself."

"Gu Ji, Chi Yan, he..."

"I also want to protect him, and I also want to carry it for him." When Gu Ji looked at Ning Xiu, he smiled slowly: "I just want him to be well, nothing is more important than this."

Gu Ji is a person who doesn't talk much, because of his personality and because of his growing environment, he didn't speak for a long time after Chi Yan left. Since then, he hasn't said such a long word to anyone for a long, long time. Open up your heart and speak the truth.

As his friend, Ning Xiushi had no chance to hear it. This was the first time. Ning Xiushi was surprised but also relieved inexplicably.

For Gu Ji, but also for Chi Yan.

"It will be fine." Ning Xiushi said: "No matter what reason Chi Yan has, you just need to know that he is for you and that you are always in his heart. Try to be good for each other as much as possible, and want to be good for each other, so even if there are any difficulties in the future, we will definitely be able to get through it, and it is much easier for two people to be together than to be alone."

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When Gu Ji returned home, he was surprised that the house was pitch dark without any light. He subconsciously frowned, thinking that Chi Yan hadn't come back at all, but when he turned on the light in the porch, after changing his shoes, he walked into the living room, ready to give Chi Yan When Homura made a phone call, she suddenly stopped.

Chi Yan was at home, just sitting on the sofa.

The light in the porch couldn't illuminate the living room, so Gu Ji could only see the silhouette of Chi Yan, who seemed to be asleep, leaning his head on the back of the sofa chair, and didn't make any movement because of his return.

He was too tired and stretched himself too tight.

Gu Ji didn't turn on the light, and walked over with very light steps, as if he was afraid of disturbing the sleeping person.

Chi Yan still didn't wake up when he came to the front, and intentionally woke him up to let him sleep in the room, but thinking about Chi Yan's sleep state recently, he felt that he might not be able to sleep when he woke up, so he didn't make a sound, just turned the sofa He took the blanket from his bed and carefully covered Chi Yan's body.

The weight of the blanket was no more than just touching Chi Yan's body, when he opened his eyes instantly, even Gu Ji, who had been with him day and night, couldn't help being startled by the hostility in those eyes.

It seems that he is not the person he likes, but his enemy.

Chi Yan reacted after a few seconds, and immediately suppressed her expression:

"Come back? I accidentally fell asleep."

Gu Ji looked at Chi Yan without moving or speaking.

Chi Yan's gaze began to change from hostile to cautious, and when he was about to say something, Gu Ji interrupted him: "Why don't you go to sleep in your room?"

Chi Yan looked at Gu Ji, confirmed that there was no other emotion on his expression, then smiled and said:

"I don't want to sleep, I just sit for a while."

"Didn't eat?"

Chi Yan shook her head: "Not too hungry."

"Go wash your face and refresh yourself, I'll make you something to eat." Gu Ji said as he took off his coat and put it on the sofa, then unbuttoned the cuffs of his shirt and rolled up to go to the kitchen, but he was caught before he left. Chi Yan grabbed his hand, Gu Ji looked back at him.

"Brother Ji, I'm really not hungry."

"Just stay with me." Gu Ji said: "The place where Ning Xiu invited me to eat today was terrible, I didn't eat much."

Chi Yan didn't refuse any more, stood up: "Then I'll do it."

"No, just rest."

After saying this, Gu Ji walked to the kitchen, opened the refrigerator, took out the ingredients inside, and thought about what to cook.

Although it was nearly nine o'clock, Gu Ji still made two dishes, both of which Chi Yan likes.

Gu Ji asked Chi Yan to wash his face, but Chi Yan checked the time and went directly to take a shower. When he came back, Gu Ji had just put the food on the table. Chi Yan went over to give Gu Ji a hug, and said with a smile:

"Thank you bro."

Gu Ji also smiled because of the sudden closeness, and raised his hand to pat his waist: "Eat."

Chi Yan knew that Gu Ji was lying, and it was impossible for Ning Xiu to take Gu Ji to a bad place to eat, so when Gu Ji also filled a bowl of rice and sat down opposite him, Chi Yan took the rice immediately past:

"Brother, stop eating."

Gu Ji raised his eyebrows: "Steal my meal?"

"Ah." Chi Yan said with a smile: "Brother Ji made it for me, even if it was for you to eat, I would not bear it."

Gu Ji really couldn't take it anymore, so he simply didn't want to rob him. He just looked at Chi Yan. Chi Yan didn't feel uncomfortable being stared at by him, but he still quietly glanced at Gu Ji several times, and Gu Ji was stared at by him. Laughed:

"Look what I do?"

"It's nothing." Chi Yan said, "You look good."

Gu Ji smiled and didn't say anything. After being silent for a while, he got up and left. Before leaving, he rubbed Chi Yan's head and told him: "Don't eat too much, or you won't sleep well."

"it is good."

After eating and washing the dishes, Chi Yan didn't go back to the bedroom. He sat down in the living room and turned on the TV. When Gu Ji walked over and sat next to him, he was watching the variety show that Gu Ji recorded recently. He glanced back at Gu Ji, Finding that he had already taken a bath, he smiled slightly.

Gu already asked him: "How much longer?"

"Huh?" Chi Yan didn't quite understand Gu Ji's meaning: "Is there something wrong with Brother Ji? If so, I don't need to watch it now."

"Yes." Gu Ji said.

Gu Ji's expression was very serious, what Chi Yan could think of when looking at his expression was the problem that he had not been able to sleep well recently, but before he could say anything, Gu Ji handed something to Chi Yan In front of him, Chi Yan lowered his eyes and looked at Gu Ji in disbelief:

"Brother Ji wants to..."

A small boxy plastic package with a classic logo, Chi Yan knew what it was at a glance.

"Yes." Gu Ji nodded and admitted, "I want to do it."

Chi Yan never thought that what Gu Ji wanted to tell him so seriously was this, and he was a little dazed for a moment.

It has been more than three months since he came to Gu Ji's side, and he was ready for this matter from the very beginning, but Chi Yan teased him twice and hinted at him a few times, but Gu Ji was unmoved. Chi Yan gradually stopped thinking about it.

He knew that Gu Ji didn't want to. Gu Ji took his relationship seriously. He didn't do it before, but he didn't want to have a relationship when the two were awkward, and there would be a cold war from time to time. He was afraid that it would really make him feel like a friend with sex. Worry about your own feelings.

Chi Yan even felt that the two of them would not have any intimacy until the ice was completely broken, even though they had been sleeping on the same bed.

At this time, Gu Ji suddenly changed his attention, and Chi Yan didn't feel that Gu Ji couldn't bear it anymore, but he noticed something from Gu Ji's almost abnormal behavior.

This is Gu Ji's compromise.

He wanted to restore a normal relationship with Chi Yan and live a good life, but he didn't care about anything else.

Chi Yan doesn't know why Gu Ji made such a change, but he has to say that he likes this change, so much so that his brows and eyes are stained with a smile:

"If Brother Ji thinks about it now, I don't have to watch it."

"Look first." Gu already handed the item into Chi Yan's palm: "You put it on for me later."

"Ah, good." Chi Yan squeezed the thing between his fingers, then smiled and asked Gu Ji: "Do you use your hands or your mouth?"

"Don't be coquettish." Gu Ji glanced at him, leaned on the sofa and watched TV leisurely, Chi Yan smiled and didn't say anything, just played with the things in his hands and leaned on the back of the sofa. Watching TV carefully, it can be seen that the eyes and mind will always drift uncontrollably to Gu Ji.

But Gu Ji was very calm, he watched the variety show he filmed more seriously than Chi Yan, and he didn't seem to care about the next thing at all.

In the end, until the end of the variety show, the hype commercials started to play on TV, Gu Ji didn't say anything, and finally Chi Yan couldn't help turning his head to look at Gu Ji:

"Brother Ji, do you want to stay here or go back to the bedroom?"

Gu Ji slowly turned his head to look at him, with a serious look on his face, as if he was going to talk about some serious topic, for a moment Chi Yan thought he would tell him something, but he grabbed his wrist without saying a word He got up and strode back to the bedroom.

He was not as calm as he appeared.

Gu has wanted Chi Yan for a long time.

The movements of opening the door, kicking the door, and throwing Chi Yan onto the bed were all done in one go without wasting a second. Chi Yan was jolted on the bed, looked at the ceiling and smiled, then got up immediately, without even thinking about opening his mouth, just Take off your clothes.

Gu Ji has been standing by the bed and watching him, he can feel that Chi Yan at this moment is real, he doesn't think about anything, the smile on his face is also real, even for a moment Gu Ji felt that he was watching It was the young and frivolous Chi Yan when he was with him many years ago.

It seems that they have not been so close in a lifetime, and neither of them is gentle and obedient, so they are full of wildness from the beginning, their actions are not gentle, but they also try their best to please each other, wanting to make The other party is happy.

In the end, Gu Ji pressed Chi Yan's back of the head to suppress him, and the sudden dizzying transfer made Chi Yan pause for two seconds before slowing down, leaning his face on the bed sheet, smiled indifferently, and said, "Brother Ji ,Come."

Gu Ji didn't move immediately, he relaxed the strength of his hands, touched the back of his head lightly, pinched his red ears, then wiped off a drop of sweat from his temples with his index finger, leaned over and kissed the corner of his eyes the scar.

"Chi Yan..." Gu Ji shortened the distance with him little by little: "I don't care anymore."

Chi Yan breathed rapidly, and a flower bloomed on the bed sheet under her five fingers.

"Why did you leave, why didn't you tell me, I don't care anymore." Gu Ji looked at Chi Yan's tense neck line, and the veins appeared because of patience: "You just have to be good, I will guard you."

Chi Yan snorted, and closed his eyes a few seconds later, hiding all his emotions inside.

Gu Ji bit his ear, reached the depth, and told him softly: "Don't be afraid."

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