The ex-boyfriend is fierce and cowardly

Gu Ji didn't speak, nor did he look at Chi Yan.

This kind of state is rarely seen in the relationship between two people. Gu Ji's gaze falls on Chi Yan most of the time as long as he allows, and he can't see enough, but now, he seems to be a little different. Dare to read.

So after a long silence, Chi Yan looked at Gu Ji and asked him softly:

"Shall Brother Ji listen now, or wait?"

Gu Ji didn't speak, as if he didn't hear Chi Yan's words.

His hands were tightly clasped together, so hard that his nails turned red, Chi Yan's eyes fell on Gu Ji's fingertips, and he didn't speak any more.

He knew and understood Gu Ji's daring at this time.

Yes, Gu Ji didn't dare.

After so many things happened, even involving one person's life and one person's serious injury, perhaps all Gu Ji's guesses about Chi Yan's departure in the past ten years will be overturned, because any one guess is not enough to express the out of control of the current situation.

Gu Ji never thought that the reason for Chi Yan's departure would be so involved, so big, and so tragic.

But for that reason, Gu Ji still wanted to know, but he didn't dare, he and Chi Yan finally calmed down a bit, became happier and happier, is the truth so important?

He has been asking himself this question for a whole day. Ever since he learned of Li Jun's accident, Gu already guessed that it was related to Chi Yan's departure.

If the truth will change the present, make Chi Yan feel pressured, and Gu Qinghui worried, and it is worth letting everyone hide himself, then, does he really need to know?What's wrong with living in a stable environment that everyone is desperately trying to maintain?

Gu Ji firmly believes that any truth will not change the fact that he likes Chi Yan.

But he was still afraid... He suddenly felt that he might not be able to bear the reason for this tragedy.

But after all, he still couldn't resist the obsession of the past ten years.

"Chi Yan..." After a long time, Gu Ji spoke out, maybe it was because he hadn't spoken for a long time, or maybe it was because of nervousness, his voice was so tight that even he himself found it unpleasant, but he didn't care, he just kept silent After a few seconds, he spoke again: "You left at the beginning because of me... right?"

Chi Yan looked at Gu Ji's fingers, her heart was desolate to the limit, but she still replied very lightly:

"Yes."

"For my good."

"Yes."

"The dead Wu Zhuo is related to me, and also related to your departure?" Gu Ji asked.

Chi Yan's eyes seemed to blink slightly, but he didn't seem to blink. He still stared at Gu Ji's finger and said, "...Yes."

Gu has fallen silent.

"He..." He didn't make a sound for a long time, but he stopped after saying only one word, like a machine that suddenly got stuck, without even a low-quality noise.

Chi Yan waited quietly for a while, but didn't wait for his next words. After a few seconds, he smiled desolately, got up, walked up to Gu Ji, squatted down slowly, and intertwined Gu Ji's hands. Break apart one by one and hold it in the palm of your hand.

Gu Ji looked at Chi Yan, his eyes were red, and Chi Yan was not much better.

"Brother Ji, you don't need to ask, I'll tell you everything, I'll tell you everything you want to know, where I went, why I left without saying goodbye, and why didn't I come back, I'll tell you everything, I won't hide anything But don’t be here, let’s go home, I’ll tell you slowly, okay?”

Chi Yan's voice was very soft, so soft that it sounded like she was coaxing a baby.

The truth can be revealed today, and it is impossible for Chi Yan to hide it anymore, and she can't hide it anymore, but Gu is already a public figure and cannot be in the hospital.

It was at this time that Ning Xiushi appeared in the corridor, and he was called back by a text message from Chi Yan within a short time.

Chi Yan and Gu Ji were going to leave, so someone in the hospital had to watch them.

Ning Xiushi walked over. For some reason, just looking at the two people now, he felt very depressed and uncomfortable. He couldn't bear this atmosphere, so he said:

"Drive me back, it's downstairs."

Chi Yan looked back at him, got up, took the key and smiled: "Thank you."

Ning Xiu wanted to ask something, but when the words came to his lips, he felt that it was inappropriate to say anything, and some things could not be persuaded, so he had no choice but to step aside and remain silent.

Chi Yan took Gu Ji's hand, led him up, even tidied Gu Ji's clothes a little, and said with a smile:

"Let's go home."

Gu Ji was like a child, he was held by Chi Yan without breaking free, making noise, or resisting, so he was led away from the hospital step by step by Chi Yan.

On the way back, no one spoke. The oppressive atmosphere in the hospital corridor seemed to be brought into the car, but who cares?

When Chi Yan was driving, Gu Ji sat on the co-pilot's seat and looked out the window, wondering what he was thinking, Chi Yan would occasionally turn his head to look at him, but Gu Ji never changed.

Later, Chi Yan held his slightly cool hand and did not let go.

They didn't go back to the villa, there were grandma and Chu Yiqi in the villa, it was not convenient, and it was not a good place to talk, they went back to the apartment, only the two of them.

It was almost early morning, but the manager of the apartment was still very energetic. When he saw Gu Ji and Chi Yan coming in, he greeted him politely, and by the way told Gu Ji to stop:

"Mr. Gu, there is your courier."

As he spoke, he took out a courier envelope from the front desk and handed it in front of Gu Ji. Gu Ji was a bit slow to react before he took it:

"Thank you."

In the elevator, Chi Yan wanted to break the dull atmosphere, glanced at the envelope in Gu Ji's hand, and asked:

"What courier?"

"I don't know." Gu Ji responded without any interest.

Chi Yan squeezed his palm and didn't speak.

When I got home, Chi Yan's phone rang as soon as I entered the door. Chi Yan glanced at the caller ID and told Gu Ji:

"It's grandma, I'll answer the phone, Brother Ji go to the bedroom and wait for me."

Gu Ji responded and was very quiet.

Chi Yan shouldn't have answered the phone, especially at this time, but the old lady would never call herself at this time.

Chi Yan was also worried that something else had happened, so she picked it up. Fortunately, it was not. It was just that the old lady had a dream. I talked to the old lady for a while, saying that I was fine and that I was fine.

Gu already stood where he was, watching Chi Yan who was on the phone in front of the floor-to-ceiling window for nearly a minute before walking back to the bedroom.

He has been waiting for ten years for the truth to come, and Gu Ji himself can't tell what kind of mood he is in. There are apprehensions, tensions, fears, and shrinking... Also, his body is full of all the emotions that are not positive, but with At the same time, he didn't want to escape.

Even if Chi Yan didn't say anything, the doubts in front of him were enough for him to guess. He couldn't control his thoughts not to look for an answer, but he promised Chi Yan that he would listen to Chi Yan himself about the reason. .

No matter what the truth is.

The temperature in the house has been kept constant, and the clothes worn outside in winter are still a little hot inside. When Gu Ji was about to take off his clothes, he realized that the courier that the manager of the apartment downstairs gave him just now was still in his hand.

He shouldn't look at it, he's not in the mood and doesn't have that emotion, but sometimes you have to admit that your body is out of control. Gu Ji obviously wanted to put the courier on the table, but he couldn't help opening it. .

There is nothing valuable inside, just a few light photos, and a USB flash drive.

Gu already took out the photo, and the first time he saw the content of the photo, the envelope fell from his hand in an instant.

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When Chi Yan ended the phone call, he sighed softly at the neon lights outside the window, took a deep breath a few seconds later, put down the phone and walked back, he went to the guest bathroom to wash his hands, and then walked back to the bedroom .

Gu Ji stood beside the bedside table in front of the bed, with his back to Chi Yan, motionless like a statue, with a torn express envelope at his feet.

Until this time, Chi Yan hadn't realized what was wrong. He walked over, thinking about the next topic, and trying to make the atmosphere more relaxed, so he said:

"What is Brother Ji looking at? Whose courier?"

The two are very close, but they also have an absolute passion. They don't check each other's phones, and they don't ask too much about each other's social life. After ten years of separation, they are not familiar with each other.

Chi Yan asked this question just to break the dullness, and didn't really want to get any answer, but Chi Yan also didn't think about it, so Gu Ji would reply to himself:

"I left without saying goodbye because I was in jail?"

At this time, Chi Yan was still a few steps away from Gu Ji, but when he heard the words, he stopped in place as if he had stepped on a sudden brake. He never expected that Gu Ji would ask him a second before he was about to speak. Way to say this secret, with a cold, trembling voice, ask yourself.

Chi Yan didn't answer, time was stretched to infinity at this moment, and his thoughts seemed a little slow to react, did you guess it?still……

Gu Ji didn't give Chi Yan too much time, he turned around slowly and looked at Chi Yan, his eyes were scarlet, his expression was forbearing, his teeth were clenched, it seemed that only in this way could he force himself not to lose control.

Chi Yan wanted to say something, but noticed the distorted photo in Gu Ji's hand, and frowned in disbelief. The photo of the court hearing ten years ago, the photo of him standing in the defendant's position, I don't know why it appeared in Gu Ji's hand.

"already……"

"Chi—flame—!" Looking at Gu Ji's expression, he probably wanted to shout out the name, yelling at him to hide himself, yelling at him to make his own decisions, yelling at him to go away for ten years, yelling at him to destroy himself and protect himself for the rest of his life. He was safe, but the second before the voice rushed out of his throat, he suddenly lost his voice, like sandpaper rubbing against the cement surface, it was extremely difficult to hear.

The voice was stuck in his throat, as if a pair of invisible hands held back his breathing, and took away all his strength along the way.

The moment Gu Ji's body softened and he knelt down, Chi Yan strode over to catch him: "Brother Ji!"

"Chi..." Gu Ji knelt on the ground, stared at him with scarlet eyes, opened his mouth several times to say something, even if it was just to call the name of the person in front of him, but he couldn't make a sound, his throat hurt, His chest hurts, his whole body hurts, he is dying of pain.

"Brother Ji." Chi Yan also had a hoarse voice: "Don't be like this, you..."

"You..." Gu Ji held Chi Yan's sleeve tightly, looked at him, as if he was using his strength for the rest of his life to look at him for the last time, Chi Yan couldn't hear his voice, but understood the shape of his lips , what he wanted to say, he said: "You, does it hurt?"

Chi Yan looked at Gu Ji for a long time, and said slowly, "It hurts."

Seeing Gu Ji like this, it is impossible for him not to feel pain, why did he hide it for ten years?Isn't it because Gu Ji hated himself and blamed himself, and didn't want him to feel guilty about himself, and didn't want him to hurt?

He knows Gu Ji well, so he knows very well that when the truth is presented in blood, it is like drawing thousands of knives on Gu Ji's body, so he wants to speak slowly and well, to relieve the pain a little bit, and let Gu Ji heal a little bit. Accepted, but when it came, he was still caught off guard, without giving anyone a chance to buffer.

Chi Yan's pain was like a switch, triggering Gu Ji's madness. He stared at Chi Yan for a few seconds, his eyes full of pity, and then thought of something, and after a moment of silence, he pushed Chi Yan away and stood up. Stumbling towards the door, Chi Yan stopped him at the door without any delay:

"What is brother going to do?"

Gu Ji didn't seem to see Chi Yan, so he rushed directly, but was pushed back by Chi Yan: "Brother Ji!"

"I'm going to kill him!" Gu Ji recovered a little voice, but it was so hoarse because of the roar that it didn't look like his at all: "Damn him!"

"He's dead!" Chi Yan stood at the door, not giving Gu Ji any chance to escape: "You don't need to do it, he's dead."

"Is it enough to be dead?" Gu Ji's gaze fell on Chi Yan's face, and he looked at him suspiciously, with a little madness: "Huh? If he is dead, I can't do anything about him." Yet?"

Gu Ji approached Chi Yan, word by word: "How can it be so easy? His dead life, how can I get your life back!"

"Then what else do you want?" Chi Yan looked at him: "The body is in the police station, break in and drag it out to flog the body? Or find his family and vent the resentment on them?"

Gu Ji stared at Chi Yan and roared, "Can't I?!"

"Of course you can't! I won't allow you to do this either! I've been in prison for three years, isn't that enough? So you want to go in too?" Chi Yan looked back at him: "We've been apart for ten years, isn't that enough? Another ten years?"

Gu Ji's chest heaved violently, three years, ten years, these two words stimulated his tense nerves, reminding him of the suffering Chi Yan suffered, the difference between them was all because of himself, but he himself made a mistake again What?

He loves Chi Yan so much.

I love him so much that I am afraid that he will be cold, afraid that he will be hungry, afraid that he will be sad, and afraid that he will be lonely. I will hold him carefully, protect him, and watch over him. I will love him so much that even if he disappears for ten years, when we meet again, I just want to kiss him and say Just come back.

The person on his heart.

But he suffered so much, and in the time he didn't know, he tasted all the suffering in this world for himself.

Gu Ji can feel a breath being held in his chest, and he can't vent it out. He feels that he is going to break down, he is going to explode, and if he doesn't do something, he will go crazy.

He wants to go out, he wants to go out, he has to do something to relieve it, but Chi Yan is standing there, he can't get out, of course he can force it, it doesn't mean there is no way out, but he will hurt Chi flame.

He didn't want to, and couldn't hurt him, so he could only beg, beg Chi Yan to let him go.

"Please..." Gu Ji said tremblingly, "Let me go out, I have to go out, I'm about to suffocate to death, I'm going to break down."

Chi Yan has never seen such Gu Ji before, his begging made Chi Yan almost collapse, but he was ruthless and did not move, the last thing he could do was walk over to hug Gu Ji, Coax him softly:

"Brother Ji, don't torture yourself...don't think about it anymore..."

Gu Ji was stiff in Chi Yan's arms, trembling forbearance, but in the end he couldn't resist the wave of catharsis, he pushed Chi Yan away, went back to the bedroom, and smashed the whole room to pieces.

Chi Yan just stood at the door of the bedroom, watching him vent, watching him almost crazy.

Chi Yan didn't care, let him alone, he knew that if he couldn't get out that tone, people would really break down.

But no matter how hard he smashed, there was nothing around Chi Yan. Gu Ji still thought that he couldn't hurt Chi Yan at this moment.

His Gu Ji is the person who loves him the most in this world.

When there was nothing to smash in the bedroom, Gu Ji also calmed down a little. He slid along the wall and sat on the floor in a collapsed state. It took a long time for his gaze to fall on Chi Yan, his eyes full of sadness.

In Gu Ji's sight, Chi Yan stepped on the mess on the ground and walked over slowly, squatting down in front of him, trying to take a look at his injured hand, but before he could move, he heard Gu Ji's voice .

"Ten years..." Gu Ji stared at Chi Yan: "How did you spend three years in prison? How did you spend three years in that kind of place?"

Chi Yan looked at him, opened his mouth, but didn't make any sound.

"Is it bitter? Is it cold? Is it lonely? Is it wronged? Have you thought about college? Have you thought about your future? Have you thought about your own life?"

"Brother Ji." Chi Yan grabbed his hand and shook his head at him: "It's all over, now..."

"Is it okay?" Gu Ji interrupted him, but he didn't say anything again for a long time. After a long silence, he closed his eyes and slowly opened them again, his eyes were bleak: "I can't make it through, your three-year return If you don't come, the prison record will be with you for the rest of your life, and your whole life...is ruined...for me."

Gu Ji withdrew his hand from Chi Yan's, slowly curled up his body, huddled in the corner of the wall and the bedside table, buried his head in his arms, and murmured to himself: "It's all ruined, It's all ruined, it's all ruined..."

Chi Yan watched Gu Ji curled up like a frightened little animal, as if he was never going to open it in his life, hot tears fell from his eyes on the carpet, silently.

He had never seen Gu Ji like this.

Ever since returning to Gu Ji's side, Chi Yan has fantasized countless times what it would be like when the truth was revealed in front of Gu Ji, how he would comfort him, how to say it to make Gu Ji feel better and feel less pain.

But it was only at this moment that Chi Yan realized that he was also in pain, and the bloody wound was on his body first, and then Gu Ji felt it.

But he is used to it, he is used to these wounds domineering and wreaking havoc on his body, so he can bear it, endured it for ten years, but because he knows how painful it is, he doesn't want Gu Ji to be hurt too.

Chi Yan sat down on the floor, looked at Gu Ji, and slowly raised her hand to touch Gu Ji's soft hair, once and for all, like comforting a child.

"Brother Ji." Chi Yan said softly: "That's not important, the whole world is not as important as you, I just want you to be well, I just want you to be well, I don't feel wronged at all, and I don't feel like sacrificing myself What, because if it were you, you would definitely do it for me, even more."

Gu Ji didn't speak, and didn't move.

"I haven't regretted it in these years. I admit that there are times when I can't make it through, but as long as I think that I didn't let you get hurt or bullied, I think I'm amazing, and everything I do is meaningful. .”

"You want to say whether it is bitter or not, bitter, but no matter how hard it is, I will keep you. If you want to say whether it is cold or not, it is cold. I have not had you by my side for ten years. If you want to say whether you are alone or not, lonely, I have told you for ten years You have said so many things, but you have never responded, if you want to say whether you are wronged or not..." Chi Yan looked at Gu Ji: "No wrong, you are mine, I have to protect you well, if you are broken, I will not be complete gone."

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