I can save it

Shen Mian finally accepted the Emerald Avalokitesvara, because he found that if he refused again, Pei Zhiyi would really get angry.

He could only ask Pei Zhiyi to tie the jade pendant on him while he was thinking about whether his small coffers would be enough to buy gifts for his brother.

His neck was slender and slender, as beautiful as a swan, with a thin red rope wrapped around it, making his skin whiter, and the emerald green Guanyin fell right in the middle of his collarbone.

Pei Zhiyi's eyes were dark, and he praised sincerely: "It's very beautiful."

Shen Mian didn't know why, but being looked at by Pei Zhiyi made Shen Mian feel a little hot.

He touched the jade pendant on his neck and wanted to say something, but he didn't know what to say, so he could only murmur, "Thank you brother."

Not long after, the lights in the room dimmed, and only a small wall lamp on the wall beside the bed was still on. The retro brass shape gave off a warm but not dazzling light.

Shen Mian lay on the bed with her eyes closed for a long time, but couldn't fall asleep.

It may be because today is his birthday, he has always been full of energy, replaying past memories in his mind like a revolving lantern.

He turned his head to look at Pei Zhiyi, and found that Pei Zhiyi had already fallen asleep.

Under the dim light, Pei Zhiyi's face was deeper than usual, handsome as a work of art.

Shen Mian found that his eyelashes were very long, almost one by one could be counted under the lamp.

He smiled unconsciously.

He has clearly seen this face for 17 years and is familiar with every inch of change, but he is still easily attracted.

Shen Mian glanced at the phone, it is now 11:58, only 2 minutes before twelve o'clock, and he didn't want to sleep anymore, his elbows were propped on the mattress, his upper body came out from under the quilt, and he just looked at Pei Zhiyi like this.

His eyes fell on Pei Zhiyi's lips, maybe because the room was too hot, he suddenly felt a little dry.

He gently called Pei Zhiyi: "Brother..."

Pei Zhiyi didn't respond, but kept his eyes closed.

Shen Mian glanced at the time on the phone again, it was 11:59, and in one minute, his birthday would be over.

He received a lot of gifts today, and he likes everything very much.

But he is very greedy, in the middle of the night no one knows, he still wants to ask for the last gift.

He became ruthless, held his breath, and quietly approached, and put his lips on Pei Zhiyi's.

He closed his eyes, but his eyelashes were trembling slightly, revealing the struggle and pain in his heart.

He secretly said in his heart, I will just kiss, and I will not do anything else.

In the wee hours of the morning when his birthday was about to pass, he had no other wishes, but a stolen kiss was all the consolation.

He and Pei Zhiyi have kissed many times, but all because of missions, this is their first kiss from the heart.

Maybe Pei Zhiyi will never know, but at least at this moment, Pei Zhiyi is the only one by his side.

Shen Mian was reluctant to let go of the kiss, but she didn't dare to make any more moves.

From the beginning to the end, he just touched Pei Zhiyi's lips superficially.

He kept his eyes closed all the time, afraid that everything would be shattered as soon as he opened them.

Inappropriately, he remembered the story of Sleeping Beauty.

In the tower forgotten by time, what mood does the prince in the story have to kiss the princess?

Can he guarantee that his kiss will wake up the princess?

It should not be possible.

No one can guarantee.

So that kiss was just desperate, a one-sided confession of love, the only time in this life to get close.

Just like he is now.

...

Finally, Shen Mian gave Pei Zhiyi a light kiss on the tip of her lips.

"Brother, good night."

He whispered in his heart.

He opened his eyes, thinking he would see Pei Zhiyi's tightly closed eyes.

But no.

Twelve o'clock had passed, and the birthday magic had worn off.

Just like in a fairy tale where the prince kissed Sleeping Beauty awake, he saw Pei Zhiyi also opened his eyes, his eyes were clear, without any sleepiness, and he looked at him silently.

The blood in Shen Mian's whole body seemed to be frozen.

Before going to bed, he was still complaining that the floor heating in the room was too hot, it was so hot that he was sweating, and his heart was restless.

But now he felt cold from his fingertips to the back of his spine.

He still stiffly maintained his approach to Pei Zhiyi.

It was dark outside, and the house was so quiet that the sound of needles falling could be heard, but the cold wind had picked up outside, beating on the windows restlessly.

He watched helplessly as Pei Zhiyi pursed his lips, as if feeling the residual touch on his lips.

Then he heard Pei Zhiyi ask him what he was most afraid of in a calm tone.

"Mianmian, why did you kiss me?"

This sentence exploded in the bedroom like a thunderbolt, smashing all the illusions of Shen Mian's meditation and pretense.

Shen Mian didn't know how to explain.

For a moment, he thought about putting the kiss off as a task, saying it was an inadvertent mistake.

Said that he remembered wrongly, thinking that this week's task had not been done yet.

But he looked into Pei Zhiyi's gentle eyes, but he couldn't say anything no matter what.

Because this is not the task.

This was the last birthday wish he secretly prayed for.

He obviously wasn't very greedy, he didn't dare to do anything else, he just wanted to steal a kiss, pretending that he and Pei Zhiyi had a different tenderness outside of the mission.

But even such a little selfishness was shattered.

Shen Mian bit her lip, her eye circles turned red little by little.

Obviously Pei Zhiyi didn't press him, didn't even blame him, but just looking at Pei Zhiyi's puzzled eyes, the defense line in his heart was breached.

His tears came so violently that they flowed all over his face without even realizing it.

He couldn't speak to defend himself, he opened and closed his lips several times but couldn't make a sound, like a puppy who was afraid of being abandoned by his master, he couldn't even speak, and could only look at Pei Zhiyi sadly.

But he knew that Pei Zhiyi's heart would be hurt when he cried, and immediately began to wipe away his tears in a panic, but it was useless, the more he wiped the more tears, wetting his eyelashes and cheeks.

Pei Zhiyi's expression also changed immediately, he was no longer calm and composed before, but stretched out his hand to hold him in his arms, and patted his back lightly like coaxing a child.

Shen Mian thought this scene was a bit funny, obviously he was the one who did the wrong thing, but now he asked Pei Zhiyi to coax him instead.

But he couldn't laugh, because they seemed to be like this all the time.

Pei Zhiyi was obviously only a few months older than him, but because of his status as "brother", he automatically took over the responsibility of taking care of him, and calmly helped him deal with all the bad things.

Even in such an embarrassing situation, he immediately chose to take care of his mood.

He was even more sad and felt that he was really useless.

But Pei Zhiyi was too gentle to him, even at this time, he was still greedy for the warmth in Pei Zhiyi's arms.

Pei Zhiyi is like a haven that belongs only to him, no matter how cold and snowy it is outside, it is safe to come back here, and because of this safety, he has become more and more vulnerable and helpless.

He heard Pei Zhiyi ask him very lightly, as if afraid of disturbing him.

"Mianmian...do you like me?"

……

Like it?

Shen Mian choked up a sob, buried his head in Pei Zhiyi's arms, tears wet Pei Zhiyi's shoulders.

Of course I like it.

If it wasn't because he liked it so much, how could he be in such pain.

But he should probably deny it.

Pei Zhiyi dotes on him so much, as long as he denies it, all this can be easily revealed.Pei Zhiyi will still be his elder brother, when he was young, he will always spoil and let him go.

But the crush was too painful for him.

It is too painful to convince myself that I don't like Pei Zhiyi.

He has never been able to restrain and endure. This dark relationship is like a life sentence, which makes him unable to see the boundary.

If you don't speak up, you will never be judged, and you will never get a response.

Shen Mian cried until she couldn't make a sound.

He closed his eyes.

He admitted softly: "Well, brother, I like you."

They obviously have no blood relationship, but at this moment, he has developed a sense of immorality, which is both sinful and intoxicating.

"I'm sorry, bro, I thought about never telling you, just being your brother like this, but I can't do it," he cried and apologized to Pei Zhiyi, crying so much that he was shaking, "I don't want to give you up to others... ..."

It was too difficult for him.

He no longer thought that one day he would be separated from Pei Zhiyi, he clearly couldn't do without Pei Zhiyi.

He thought about being the best man for Pei Zhiyi before, but now if Pei Zhiyi invites him to be the best man again, he's afraid he will mess up the wedding scene.

He suppressed not wanting to make a sound, like a shivering little animal after falling into the water.

He still threw the difficult problem to Pei Zhiyi, just like every time he did his homework before, he would just avoid the questions he didn't know. Anyway, Pei Zhiyi would always figure out the correct answer and teach it to him.

But he didn't know if Pei Zhiyi would give him the answer this time.

……

There was a long silence in the room.

The cold wind outside the window has not abated at all, and the wind chimes under the porch of the house next door have not been taken down, making a dull sound in this winter, far less crisp and pleasant than in summer.

Pei Zhiyi gently held Shen Mian's face and wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes.

His eyes no longer look like that of a gentle and generous elder brother, and he is no longer that young boy who sticks to the bottom line and dares not go overboard.

Shen Mian cried so pitifully, if it was before, he would have put on a gentle mask to comfort him and coax him.

But now, as long as he thinks about why Shen Mian's tears flow, the possessive desire in his heart is like wildfire on the plain, and seeing the wind grow wildly, it will eventually cause a catastrophe.

"Mianmian..." He wanted to say something to comfort Shen Mian, he had thought of many love words to say to Shen Mian, to make this confession romantic and beautiful.

But when it really came to this day, he couldn't say anything.

Language is too weak.

In the end, he just lowered his head and gave Shen Mian a deep kiss.

Different from Shen Mian's jerky and light kiss, his kiss was much more presumptuous, it could be called barbaric, he invaded the city involuntarily, absorbing every inch of air in Shen Mian's mouth.

Shen Mian didn't close her eyes this time.

He opened his eyes blankly, a tear fell from his eyelashes and landed on the lips between his and Pei Zhiyi's.

The author says:

Finally wrote the confession!Congratulations to Mianmian for breaking the window paper!