mentally and physically

Xifeng's apartment is not big, with two living rooms, one bedroom, one kitchen and one bathroom. The decoration is simple and simple, the furniture is light and simple, the furnishings are well placed, the daily necessities are tidy, and everything is cleaned and tidy.This apartment looks simple, but it has been furnished with care, but there is not even a photo of the owner.

After Peng Shuyi unlocked the door and came back, he wandered around the living room just to look at the photos and see the face of Xiufeng's boyfriend.

It turned out that when he was in a relationship with Xuan Feng, Xuan Feng took many photos of the two of them, and he took all the good ones and developed them.Some of the developed photos were made into photo albums by Xuanfeng and placed in his home, and some were pasted by him in the rental house where he lived after leaving school.

His rental house has only one room, no living room and dining room, and the bathroom is still shared.The room was small, with only a bed and a desk. The walls were cracked and yellowed, and one wall had a piece of wall peeling off.

Xi Feng hung a large whiteboard on the most broken wall inside as a photo wall, and pasted the photos in the shape of a heart, and added new photos to the periphery.

Every time Xi Feng went there, he would stand in front of the photo wall for a while, tirelessly recounting the origin of each photo, saying that they were proof of the good relationship between the two of them.And he can see the only scenery in the dilapidated house every day, and what makes him happiest is seeing the love on it grow bigger.

Logically speaking, if the relationship between the two is good, they can't help but show it.When he was dating Xuanfeng, Xuanfeng liked to take pictures so much, but Xuanfeng didn't have a single photo with his current boyfriend. Does it mean that they have a bad relationship?

Apart from the lack of a photo of the owner, there are other strange things about this apartment, but Peng Shuyi couldn't tell for a while, so he made this kind of guess instead of making a decision.

The night is getting deeper, except for some specific places, the lights in other places are turned off in twos and threes, so the light above the city is dimmed, and the new moon in the night sky, which has been hiding behind the clouds and haze, appears incomplete and dull body shape.

Peng Shuyi, who had no intention of sleeping, walked around the living room and came to the balcony. He found that there was half a can of beer left on the empty wine cans piled up on the balcony, so he picked it up and drank it directly.

The tall buildings are windy and cool at night.He opened a window, and the cool night wind whizzed across his face, but he ignored it, lying on the window frame, remembering the moon.

At the same time, Xi Feng, who fell asleep, was also remembering in the form of a dream.It's just that this form of memory is controlled by the subconscious, which is somewhat different from reality.

It was also night in Xuanfeng's dream.That was several years ago, not long after the first semester of his sophomore year, when he and Peng Shuyi first started dating.

That night, he skipped a self-study class and brought Peng Shuyi to the small forest on the mountain behind the school.The grove is the school's dating sanctuary, where couples do shameful things under the cover of trees and no street lights in the way.

Peng Shuyi didn't know at first that he skipped class to go there, but he suddenly realized when he took him to the back mountain in the name of being wronged and asked him to accompany him for a walk.

Peng Shuyi was upright, but also sensible, and tactfully exposed his lies. Seeing him lower his head in disappointment, he told him not to lie if he wanted a date. Under normal circumstances, he would not refuse, and then went with him.

At that time, the city was not as prosperous as it was later, and the pollution was not as serious as it was later. There was a moon in the sky, and the road could be discerned without lights.

Taking advantage of the moonlight leaking through the gaps in the leaves, the two of them walked along the stone steps to the depths, and came to an empty and remote lawn.The two sat down on the lawn, looked at the stars and the moon, and talked about their ideals...

When they go there, of course they won't just do these things, these are just shy adjustments beforehand.

The most embarrassing thing the two of them did at that time was kissing, but this kiss lasted for a long time. After the kiss was over, he was not intoxicated with alcohol, and he was dizzy and weak all over. He leaned against Peng Shuyi's arms. Li took a nap.

Peng Shuyi embraced him with one arm, and helped him drive away the mosquitoes with the other.When he woke up, it was already late at night, the couples there left one after another, and there were few pedestrians on the campus. Peng Shuyi took him to the school gate and watched him sit in the small car that his family had arranged to take him to and from school. .

In the dream, the matter changed.When they were kissing until there was nothing but them in the world, Wang Rang quietly appeared and stared at him with a sad face.When he noticed Wang Yang, he suddenly disappeared into a puff of green smoke.

Xi Feng's dream didn't end there, nor did it proceed according to the timeline, but was presented in an arbitrary way.

When Xuanfeng stood in a daze at the place where Wang Yang had turned into green smoke, time and space changed suddenly, and he came to Wang Yang's study on a weekend after he met Peng Shuyi for the third time.

Wang Rang, behind the writing desk, admires the line of characters just inscribed on his new landscape painting with a Langhao brush. This painting is a birthday present for Zuo Feng, their playmate from childhood to adulthood. There is a saying "Looking horizontally, it becomes a ridge and the side becomes a peak".

The derived meaning of this sentence is to look at the problem from different angles and draw different conclusions, but here he is cleverly using this meaning to mock Zuo Feng's character, which is as tangled as it is tangled and as lonely as Feng.

Wang Yang finished appreciating it by himself and asked Xuan Feng to comment.Xi Feng saw that this line of words and the painting were suitable for the scene, but it had nothing to do with the theme. He guessed that there were other meanings, but he couldn't tell why.

Seeing him hesitating, Wang Rang tapped his forehead with the tip of a pen, laughing at him for being an idiot.

When Xifeng knew the meaning of this line of words, it was at Zuo Feng's birthday party. When Zuo Feng was tasting paintings, he saw this line of words, pondered for a moment, and laughed loudly. After laughing, he said angrily: "I just said , Brother Rang, where did you come from Yaxing to give me a second painting, it turned out to be to tease me."

Friends and relatives around Zuo Feng also laughed out loud when they saw it. After laughing, they praised Wang Yang's penetrating description.

Wang Rang's original intention was to make people smile. With such an idea, he must be in a relaxed and happy mood when painting inscriptions.

However, at that time, Xuan Feng, who said he was going to ask questions, was holding the "Western Economics" and sat on the bay window beside him, but he didn't ask a single related question, but chatted with him and took Peng Peng's advice. loose information.

Xuanfeng used to secretly rejoice that he didn't notice his own thoughts, but in Xuanfeng's dream, he frowned the first time Xuanfeng mentioned Peng Shuyi, but Xuanfeng didn't notice it at all.

Xuanfeng continued to mention Peng Shuyi, his brows became more and more wrinkled, and his face turned bluer and bluer. Before he finished the painting, he stopped, walked up to Xuanfeng, and tapped his forehead with the tip of a pen. , said with a wry smile that he was a fool.

He stood facing the window, the bright sunlight outside the window shone directly on his face, the expression on his face clearly jumped into the eyes of Xuan Feng, casting a touch of melancholy blue in his eyes.

Time and space switched again, and came to the school library in the afternoon two days later.Xifeng learned from Wang Rang that Peng Shuyi would be working in the library that afternoon, and he had never stepped into the library since the beginning of school, not for reading, but for chance encounters.

At that time, Peng Shuyi had a face-to-face contact with him. When he met Peng Shuyi as he wished, Peng Shuyi was impressed by that contact and greeted him in a hurry.

And he was afraid that if he was not familiar with Peng Shuyi, showing too much enthusiasm for him would scare him, so he stopped talking after saying hello, quietly stayed near him and flipped through the books, using the book in his hand as a cover to secretly steal. Look at him.

The first long conversation between the two of them in the library was more than a month later. Peng Shuyi felt that it was a coincidence that he could meet him every time he went to work in the library once a week. At that time, I happened to see that the book in his hand was upside down, so I used this incident to ask him the purpose of coming to the library. When he was asked, he was anxious and confessed to him.

This is the first time he confessed to him.

At the time, Peng Shuyi didn't know that meeting him in other places besides the library was not accidental. He thought that such a brat would not know what love is, and it's not an ordinary love, so he didn't take his confession seriously. , but curious about what he likes about him, he chatted with him while going to work.

Although his confession was not taken seriously and his feelings were questioned, he was still happy after spending so much time and effort in exchange for a long talk with Peng Shuyi.He was as happy as a hundred flowers blooming in an instant.

However, in Xuanfeng's dream, he and Peng Shuyi confessed their love when they met in the library for the first time, and Peng Shuyi accepted his confession. They were both very happy, chatting from the afternoon until late at night.

In a blink of an eye, time and space changed again, and they came to the basketball court. The afterglow of the setting sun elongated the figures of the two of them. The two people on the ground spun and jumped around me, but the shadows on the ground were inseparably stuck together.Wang Yang, Zuo Feng and a few of their friends passed by the basketball court. When they saw them, they walked over with a smile.

At that time, it was the stage when Xifeng pursued Peng Shuyi fiercely, and Wang Yang and the others made peace with him after persuading him to no avail. In the past, Wang Yang and the others only invited Xuanfeng to go to the bar together, and they also invited Peng Shuyi incidentally. .

Peng Shuyi would never go, it just so happened that he had a part-time job to do tonight, so he refused with this reason.Xi Feng had already discussed with Peng Shuyi to go to his part-time job tonight, but he already felt that the bar was not much fun, so he didn't hesitate, and also refused, even the hype that Ren Zuofeng said, he was not tempted.

Being rejected, Wang Yang expressed his feelings, and mentioned the embarrassing incident that Xuan Feng was so angry that he couldn't go to the bar with him when he was 16 years old. He felt that he had grown up and had his own ideas, so he didn't force him , came with a smile, and walked away with a smile, without showing the slightest bit of displeasure.

On the other hand, Peng Shuyi, after Wang Rang and the others left, felt sorry for Xifeng for missing an opportunity to eat, drink and have fun, and his words were thought-provoking.

Naturally, Xuanfeng would not be so stupid as to brag about his glorious deeds in front of him, and replied that he could not break his promise, and that he could be with him, so what is there to regret?

Even though Xuan Feng didn't say anything, Peng Shuyi knew in his heart that ordinary eating, drinking and having fun could no longer attract him, maybe it was more attractive to him to experience the life of ordinary people, maybe it was because of this that he pursued him, It was not Wang Yang, who was on par with him in all aspects except his family background.

It's just that he didn't like Xuanfeng at that time, and thought it was not important, so he responded with a smile, and teased him about Wang Yang without distraction.

Being teased by Peng Shuyi about Wang Yang, Su Feng was afraid that he would think too much, so he hurriedly told him about the relationship between the two families and his childhood experience, just to prove one thing, that is, Wang Yang and him are just big brothers relationship with younger brother.

Compared with what Xiufeng wanted to prove, Peng Shuyi was more interested in the situation of their two families. Their father was a business partner, and their mother was a close friend in a boudoir. Bamboo horses against konghou.

Peng Shuyi couldn't tell what it was like in his heart, but if he didn't like Xuanfeng, these things had nothing to do with him, so he just smiled and continued playing as if nothing had happened.

In Xuan Feng's dream, this matter became completely different.When Wang Yang came over, the smile that always hung on his face disappeared, and the invitation that he said politely turned into "I love you", and the other people present turned a deaf ear and responded as they did in reality.

Rejected, he should have revisited the past and left.But he frowned and asked: "Guoguo, do you love me?" What he got was Zuofeng's jokes about Xuanfeng's embarrassing incidents and Xuanfeng's reproach.

When everyone else left, he stayed where he was, while Xuan Feng and Peng Shuyi seemed invisible, and continued the subsequent conversation.When Xuanfeng finished explaining to Peng Shuyi in a hurry, he turned his body from standing still, looked at Xuanfeng sadly, and said, "You really don't love me, you just rely on me."

Xuanfeng stagnates, looking back at him, as if he finally found that he is still there, or just casually glanced at him, and continued to play and joke with Peng Shuyi.

He asked angrily: "You don't love me, right?" Xuan Feng didn't answer.He stretched out his hand to Xuanfeng, wanting to grab him and ask him a good question, but the hand he stretched out passed through his body, no matter how hard he grabbed it, he couldn't grab it.Even so, he still circled around Xuanfeng, asking over and over again, "You don't love me, right..."

If the moment becomes eternity, maybe the world will be moved, but Xuan Feng is still holding the basketball with Peng Shuyi, laughing and joking.

Dreams are a reflection of reality, a window through which the conscious can see the unconscious. If this series of dreams means something, what are they telling Xifeng?It's a pity that he in his dreams couldn't sum it up, and these dreams will eventually disappear silently in the boundless night sky.

In reality, being forced to ask the same question by Wang Rang, Xuanfeng wanted to say it was wrong, but even Xuanfeng felt that he was just relying on him.