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At the end of the first semester of his sophomore year, Jiang Yu received a scholarship. He calculated the money he had saved. Although he had been frugal all along, the money to buy a piano was still a little short.

He can't buy a very good one, but he can't buy a bad one anyway. He has already taken a fancy to one, and after participating in the event, the discount will cost more than 4 yuan.

The New Year's Eve at the end of the month is approaching, and Zi Luo won't come back for New Year's Day this year. Jiang Yu finally got time to look at the bus tickets when he came out of the laboratory.

He couldn't even buy a train ticket for the uncomfortable hard seat, only standing tickets remained.

So Jiang Yu got on the train with the doll in his arms, stood at the door of the carriage, and started the eight-hour ride.The carriage was full of people, and there were quite a few people who bought standing tickets. Jiang Yu leaned there with headphones on to watch the scenery outside the window. His hind legs felt numb after standing too much, so he could only walk back and forth in the same place.

At noon, the flight attendant pushed the small cart to sell snacks. Jiang Yu touched his stomach, bought a bucket of instant noodles and soaked them, and after receiving the hot water, the original seat was taken by a big brother, who was squatting there at the moment. rest.

Jiang Yu silently walked to the side, waited for a while with a bucket of instant noodles, and drank hot soup before recovering his mental state.

He squatted on the spot, took out the doll and looked at it in front of his eyes, pinched the doll's legs with both hands, and then gently placed it under his chin, staring at the ground in a daze.

The phone rang, and Zi Luo sent a message asking him what he was doing.

Jiang Yu smiled and replied with two words: Miss you.

Zi Luo: Huh?so nasty

Jiang Yu: When will I not be nasty?

Jiang Yu: What are you doing?

Zi Luo: At Teacher Cheng's place

After saying a few words, Zi Luo had no time to touch the phone. When he was about to arrive at the station, Jiang Yu stood up, but his legs were numb after squatting for too long, and he slowed down after standing for a long time. After getting off the train, he hid the train ticket in his bag , Exhausted all over, I took a taxi directly to the hut after leaving the train station.

He didn't know if Zi Luo had come back at this time, holding the key in his hand, he raised his head and knocked on the door.

No sound was heard for a long time, and it seemed that no one was there.

After entering, he turned on the air conditioner, and when the room gradually warmed up, Jiang Yu went to the bathroom to take a shower, and then sat in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows and watched the night scene for a while. in bed.

Too tired, plus standing all the way, he fell into a deep sleep. He opened his eyes when he felt his face was itchy, and saw Zi Luo who bent over to look at him.

Zi Luo's hand was still on his face, Jiang Yu grabbed it and put it on his heart, his voice was a little hoarse: "...Did you just come back?"

"Yeah." Zi Luo smiled and lay down on the bed, looking at him, "When did you come?"

Jiang Yu thought for a few seconds: "I don't know, what time is it? My car in the morning... No, in the afternoon, uh, I also forgot what time it is..."

He was still sleepy at first, but Jiang Yu was instantly refreshed when he almost leaked his mouth. Seeing Zi Luoyou staring at him, he got up and went straight into his arms: "Why are you back so late?"

"It's rehearsing." Zi Luo said, "Auntie, do you know?"

"I don't know. I told her that I was in the laboratory. It's the end of the term and I'm busy."

Zi Luo stroked the back of his neck and said softly, "Then you still make this trip."

Jiang Yu looked up at him: "I want to spend New Year's Eve with you."

Zi Luo kissed him, took a bath and made some hot soup for him to drink, after another year's zero o'clock, the two of them embraced each other and fell asleep at night.

Jiang Yu didn't go back until the night before the holiday. When he got home, Mrs. Yu was sitting in the yard basking in the sun. She saw him and asked a few words. After Jiang Yu answered in a loud voice, she saw Xu Meiyin walking in from the door.

Her complexion was not good, and Jiang Yu decided not to make trouble, and stepped up to go back to the room.

"Where have you been these two days?"

Jiang Yu was startled, and turned to look at her. Judging from his expression, he probably didn't notice it. He couldn't tell the truth, so he said, "In the school laboratory, there is a report to be written."

Xu Meiyin looked at him without answering, not knowing whether to believe it or not.

Last year's birthday, Jiang Yu was able to spare time to go to City A to spend with Zi Luo and then go home together, but this year, the two of them really can't spare the time for this trip. The two of them have maintained their birthday together for 20 years. was broken.

There was still no snow in Zhangcheng this year, not even a single snowflake.After Zi Luo came back, he stayed at his grandparents' house for a few days. Jiang Yu was cooking at home, while Meng Lu and Meng Chunxin were helping.

Meng Lu also praised him with a smile, saying that he has good grades and can cook, and his wife will be blessed in the future.

Meng Chunxin had just washed the dishes, her hands were wet, she looked up and saw Jiang Yu smiled and then lowered her head.

Because Zi Luo went to university in other places, he came back home too rarely. After dinner, the elders didn't agree to let him go out. Stuffing food in his arms, Zi Luo packed all the food in a bag, thinking of bringing it to Jiang Yu when he went back.

At this moment, Jiang Yu ran up to the top floor to watch the fireworks, wrapping up in thick pajamas in the cold wind.

Early the next morning, he received a big red envelope of 5200 yuan from his boyfriend.

Although it didn't snow, there were fireworks, and Baihua Street was full of New Year's flavor every year. On the second day of the Lunar New Year, Zi Luo ran out after eating and met Jiang Yu in a nearby street.

The weather was too cold, Zi Luo trotted over and grabbed Jiang Yu's hand directly: "Is it cold?"

Jiang Yu was still wearing that woolen glove, he took it off and touched Ziluo's face: "Warm you for a while."

Zi Luo held his hand in the palm of his hand, rubbed it, and put it in the pocket of his padded jacket. The two of them pressed the road on a road with no people, and walked to the vicinity of Yima Road, and bought one each when they passed by a candied haws stall.

Jiang Yu returned to Baihua Street, and when he turned into the alley, he saw a figure standing in front of his house, and when he got closer, he found that this person looked familiar.

The woman kept looking at Jiang's courtyard, and Jiang Yu stood behind her: "Who is it?"

The woman was startled, and turned to look at him. Jiang Yu frowned after seeing her face clearly, as if wondering where she had seen her before.

that rainy day.

"It's you again." Jiang Yu saw that she was well-dressed, so he ruled out other possibilities, "Excuse me, who are you looking for?"

The woman didn't run away in a panic this time, her fingers were tightly intertwined, revealing her uneasiness.

"You are... Jiang Yu."

Jiang Yu looked at her: "Yes."

The woman hesitated for a while, then looked up at him: "It may be a bit sudden, but I'm here this time to find you."

"You found the wrong person." Jiang Yu said, "I don't know you."

The woman nodded and said, "Of course you don't remember me."

While talking, someone passed by, and the aunt looked at them curiously with a small stool, but was startled when she saw the woman's face clearly, and walked away with the small stool.

The woman continued: "You left me two months ago, it's normal not to remember."

Jiang Yu's brain buzzed, and it took him a while to recover from her words.

He remembered what Jiang Dezhi had said, and realized that the person in front of him might be his biological mother.

"I've always been very guilty. I came to visit you secretly when you were young. You, your mother wouldn't let me in, and even drove me away." The woman smiled wryly, looked up at him and then lowered her head. , "You had an elder brother at that time, and he was very kind to you, so I was relieved."

"Since your brother passed away, I heard something about you. I always wanted to come to you, but I didn't dare." She paused, "After your father passed away, I heard that you have passed away in the past two years. Bad..."

"Who says I'm not doing well?" Jiang Yu looked down at her and interrupted her, "I don't know where you come from, but I hope you don't come to me again, I don't have any biological mother, I only have this one There is only one mother at home."

Jiang Yu pointed to the Jiang family compound: "It's the one inside."

The woman's face turned pale in an instant, and during the few seconds of silence, the gate of the Jiang family was opened from the inside.

Xu Meiyin almost threw her out of Baihua Lane.

She looked at Jiang Yu vigilantly like crazy, pulled him and asked, "What did she tell you?"

Jiang Yu didn't want to provoke her, so he replied, "I didn't say anything."

"Do you know that she is your mother?" Xu Meiyin still stared at him like that, panic flashed in her eyes, "What did she tell you, did she ask you to go with her?"

"No……"

Xu Meiyin grabbed him tightly: "Really? She asked you to go with her? Did she..."

"Mom." Jiang Yu looked at her and smiled, "Mom."

What is not biological, he only has this one mother.

When spring came again, Jiang Yu fell seriously ill.He has hardly had a good rest in the past two years. Today, he felt unwell when he was working part-time on Saturday, and it became more and more serious after returning home. At this moment, he was lying on the bed with a dizzy head, so tired that he had no time to think about anything.

The door was knocked, and Xu Meiyin's voice sounded outside the door: "What are you doing? Come out and cook something."

Her breathing was burning hot and her whole body was exhausted. Xu Meiyin knocked on the door again without hearing a response. Jiang Yu opened her eyes and looked at the ceiling for a few seconds before replying, "Understood."

But he was too sick, Xu Meiyin looked at him: "What's wrong with you?"

"No." Jiang Yu stepped past her, "Let me make some noodles."

His feet seemed to be stepped on cotton, and he walked leisurely as if he would fall down at any moment. Xu Meiyin called to him and reached out to reach his forehead.

"I have a fever." Xu Meiyin said in a calm voice, "Okay, go to bed and lie down. I'll make some porridge, and I'll take medicine after I'm done."

After this sleep, she didn't get up again. Xu Meiyin couldn't wake up when she shouted, the door was locked and couldn't be opened. In the end, Xu Meiyin almost removed the door. Jiang Yu finally opened his eyes, and got up with difficulty to open the door.

Xu Meiyin looked anxious, and was relieved to see that he was fine: "Did I tell you not to lock the door, and there is no one else at home."

With no strength in his body, Jiang Yu ignored her, opened the door and was about to go back to bed, Xu Meiyin said behind him, "Go and drink some porridge, I'll warm it up for you."

Jiang Yu closed his eyes: "Don't eat."

Xu Meiyin didn't say any more, and walked in with a bowl of water: "Then take the medicine."

After eating the medicine, Jiang Yu lay down on the bed, turned over and said, "Thank you, Mom."

Xu Meiyin looked at him without moving for a moment.

Jiang Yu said again: "Help me close the door."

Zi Luo had a performance recently, Jiang Yu didn't want to disturb him, and kept hiding the fact that he was sick, but Zi Luo asked for a video, so he couldn't dodge it. After getting up, he sat at the desk after washing up, and looked in the mirror Seeing that his face was a little pale, he hesitated and returned a video.

In the video, Zi Luo was wearing formal clothes, showing his handsome face, looking at him and asking, "Are you at home?"

Jiang Yuxiao: "That's right."

Zi Luo frowned after hearing his voice: "What's wrong with your throat?"

During the past few days of being ill, her voice has become very hoarse. Jiang Yu coughed and his eyes wandered: "No, it's a little dry. I'll just drink some water later."

Surrounded by staff, Zi Luo walked past in a hurry, because he was about to go on stage, and he didn't have much free time.He stared at Jiang Yu's smiling face for a while, and saw that the man was holding on.

But Jiang Yu didn't plan to tell, nor did he plan to ask.

"I'm about to perform."

"Ah, then go quickly." Jiang Yu propped his chin with his hands, turned his face to the camera, and said leisurely, "I just happened to watch the live broadcast, you have to work hard."

Zi Luo's frowning brows did not relax, someone around him called him, and there was no time left.

He looked at Jiang Yu and said, "Have a good rest."

After the performance, Zi Luo talked to Cheng Mingzhang, asked the teacher for two days off, simply packed some clothes, took the high-speed train back to Zhangcheng.

It was already dark when we arrived there, and the fragrance of Baihua Hutong filled the air, and it was still the same as when he left a few years ago.

Xu Meiyin was loosening the soil in the yard, when she heard the sound of footsteps, she turned her head and saw Zi Luo hurried in with an anxious expression on her face.

"Luoluo?"

"...Hello, Auntie." Zi Luo was taken aback for a moment, not noticing that there was someone in the yard, so he could only stop for a while and look towards Jiang Yu's window.

Xu Meiyin looked at him in surprise: "It's not a holiday, why did you come back when you have time?"

"Something." Zi Luo asked softly, "Is Jiang Yu at home?"

Xu Meiyin hesitated for a moment: "Yes."

Zi Luo pointed in the direction of the room: "I'll go in and see him."

The room was dark, the curtains were drawn tightly, Zi Luo locked the door, turned on the night light, and the room was lit with a warm yellow light.

A small lump bulged up on the bed, Jiang Yu curled up into a ball, buried half of his face in the quilt, and slept soundly.Zi Luo crouched by the bed to watch him, stretched out his hand and pulled down the quilt a little.

He saw Jiang Yu frowning tightly in his sleep, as if he was having a terrible nightmare.

"...Jiang Yu?"

He yelled softly, and reached out to touch his cheek. The moment Jiang Yu touched it, Jiang Yu's whole body trembled, and the next second he opened his eyes that were red and full of fear.

The two of them stared at each other for a moment.

His eyes were as dark as an endless black nightmare, as if he was firmly trapped by the overwhelming darkness. He didn't know if the scene at this moment was still a dream that couldn't come out, and he didn't know why the scene in the dream suddenly changed. Zi Luo will appear in front of his eyes.

Jiang Yu firmly grasped the quilt with his hands, stared at the person in front of him with empty eyes for a while, and then slowly closed his eyes again.

Zi Luo's hand that wanted to touch him stopped in mid-air, and finally slowly fell to the side of the bed.

In less than a minute, he saw Jiang Yu opened his eyes again.

Different from the panic just now, now he looked at him blankly and blankly, Zi Luo suppressed the pain in his heart, and smiled at him lightly.

In the next second, Jiang Yu rushed towards him.

His voice was hoarse, and the tail trembled slightly: "...is that you?"

With a sore throat, Zi Luo slowed down for a few seconds, and patted his back lightly: "Yeah."

Jiang Yu buried her face in his neck, her voice hoarse and muffled: "I'm fine."

He was still hot, and Zi Luo's hand reached for his waist: "Have you taken your medicine?"

"have eaten."

Zi Luo asked: "How many days?"

Jiang Yu replied, "The third day."

Zi Luo pulled him up, and when he went out, he saw Xu Meiyin cooking. He stopped and said truthfully, "Auntie, I'll take Jiang Yu to fetch water."

Xu Meiyin's eyes fell on Jiang Yu who was behind him, and then looked at the young man who had been looking at him in front of him.

Zi Luo didn't wait for her to answer, and directly pulled her away.

Zi Luo went to buy porridge during the water hanging, and fed it into Jiang Yu's mouth mouthful.From the time they left the house until they hung up the bottle of water, neither of them really said a word.

Zi Luo stayed with him all the time, without looking at him, his eyes stopped at a certain place.

Jiang Yu followed his gaze and saw nothing.He raised his other hand and gently grabbed Ziluo's sleeve.

There was too much emotion in the eyes of the two people, Zi Luo stared at his hands for a few seconds, then stared at his face seriously: "I lost a lot of weight."

Jiang Yu looked at him with a smile: "Isn't it good-looking?"

Zi Luo didn't move, didn't answer the question, just said: "Stop working part-time."

Jiang Yu shook his head.

Zi Luo took a deep breath, knowing clearly that he had this character.For almost a year before the college entrance examination, this person stayed up in the middle of the night. If he hadn't dragged him to sleep, he would probably have stayed up all night.It was like this when he was around, and what would it be like when he was gone.

"Can you think about your own body?" Zi Luo looked at him, "It has been two years since the freshman year, and now the sophomore year is coming to an end. When will you continue working like this?"

Jiang Yu could hear the sullenness in his words, and could see that he was upset, but she still didn't say anything, bit her lower lip and looked at him calmly.

Sensing that the strength of the hand on his arm was getting heavier, Zi Luo lowered his head, and after a long silence, he said, "Jiang Yu, please let me go."

"From the day I left here, you are the one I worry about the most." Zi Luo lowered his head and said softly, "You have always been like this, trying to be brave and taking everything into your heart."

"I couldn't see you, and I couldn't touch you. If you don't tell me the truth, I really... don't know what to do."

Jiang Yu just looked at him like that, there was no light in his black pupils, Zi Luo didn't look up, and he didn't see his eyes getting wet slowly.

"I see." He whispered, "Wait for me, okay? I won't do anything until the third year."

No matter how soft his voice was, despite the pleadings, the conversation still broke up unhappy.

Zi Luo wanted him to stop immediately, but Jiang Yu didn't want to.His savings were barely enough to buy that piano, he didn't want to stop suddenly at this moment, and he didn't want to change to another style, he wanted that one.

At a glance, it will never be changed.

Jiang Yu didn't know that Zi Luo had asked for two days off, but he was so angry that he left one day early. When they sent him to the station, they were still in a stalemate. No one spoke first. Zi Luo kept walking, and his pace became slower and slower , Resisted and did not look back.