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During the summer vacation, Zi Luo was on tour with Cheng Mingzhang, and Jiang Yu sent him messages every day, bombarded with emoticons, and his voice was crazy, saying that he would wait for him to go home.

Zi Luo returned to Zhangcheng when school was about to start again. He didn't inform Jiang Yu in advance, but he knew where he was at this time.

He got out of the car and went to the place where he worked. There were many parents waiting for their children at the front desk. Walking forward, he could see many students and several teachers in a classroom.

Jiang Yu was among them.

I am angry, but I still have to take someone home.

Zi Luo has been obsessed with his part-time job all the time, how could Jiang Yu not know that he hasn't really coaxed him well after so long, but forget about his small coffers, he thought about it seriously, two months later Should be enough.

On the way back, the two of them went to have a meal, Jiang Yu kept talking to him with a smile, stretched his head and praised him, and finally Zi Luo didn't hold back, stretched out his arms and hugged his waist and went home.

Zi Luo first went to see his grandparents, grandma and grandfather, and stayed at home for the last few days without going anywhere.Jiang Yu pestered him to let him play the piano, but he really wanted to learn other songs, so he held the guitar and asked Zi to teach him.

On the day he left, Zi Luo told him his next plan.

This year, Cheng Mingzhang's tour is abroad, and Zi Luo has to go to class. It is impossible to follow him all the way, so he can only go to a few shows. Jiang Yu was silent for a few seconds after hearing this, hugged him and smiled and said, my boyfriend is a Pianist.

Zi Luo didn't speak, he saw that there was no smile in Jiang Yu's eyes.

During the National Day, the money was almost saved, so Jiang Yu quit his job as a teaching assistant and continued to give Ji Wang tutoring in his spare time.Zi Luo is rehearsing in Cheng Mingzhang's piano room, and has no time to come back during the holidays.

So Jiang Yu bought another standing ticket and went to City A for eight hours.

In the past two years, he used the laboratory as an excuse to secretly take a car from Zhangcheng to City A many times. Xu Meiyin didn't find out that he was lying, and Jiang Yu gradually didn't take it seriously.He thought he could get away with it this time, but when he returned home from the holiday, he found that the house was in a mess.

The tea table was torn apart, there were broken tea sets on the floor, and some scattered other things. The water stains on the floor spread all the way to the door of the living room, and slowly slid towards his feet.

Xu Meiyin with disheveled hair was sitting next to the broken glass. When she heard the sound, she looked at him with red eyes.

The mother and son were in a stalemate for a few seconds, Xu Meiyin stood up suddenly and rushed over, raising her hand and slapping her.

"where did you go!"

This roar, and everything in front of him, was enough for Jiang Yu to understand why.He didn't speak, and from the corner of his eye, he saw Mrs. Yu coming out of the house.

Her ears are bad, but her eyes can still see.The old man didn't understand what happened, so he asked Xu Meiyin, but no one answered, he went to ask Jiang Yu again.Jiang Yu went over to support her, the burning pain on his face was still there, and he raised his voice: "It's okay, you can go into the room and sleep for a while."

The old man stopped after two steps and asked him what was wrong.

It took Jiang Yu a long time to coax him into the house, ignoring Xu Meiyin who was running away, and went to the living room to pick up the broken glass piece by piece.

"I'm asking you! Where have you been the past few days? You're still packing up and leaving, do you want to leave this house?" Xu Meiyin stood behind him with no image, "Who did you go to... Who did you go to? Don't forget that I am your mother!"

Holding a piece of glass in his hand, Jiang Yu stared at the small shattered light spots on the ground.

Xu Meiyin was still yelling from the side, like crazy: "White-eyed wolf! White-eyed wolf! I raised you so much, what does it have to do with her?! Now you think this family is not good and you want to admit your mother No? Okay, don’t come back after you go...Your brother, your brother..."

Without a broom and a trash can, the glass in this place cannot be solved. Jiang Yu turned and walked towards the door. Xu Meiyin thought he was really going to leave, so she grabbed him and knelt on the ground: "Don't go to Xiaoyu, you can't Go, mom please... Mom is only your son, what will you do if you go away, mom, she, she threw you away when you were just born, what good is she, don't go to her , Mom please..."

Tears welled up in the corners of her eyes, the begging look was completely different from the madness just now.

Jiang Yu suppressed the soreness in his throat and looked at this mother who was almost 60 years old. She had been earning money all her life and working hard for the family. Passed away, her husband passed away due to illness.

There is only one him who has no blood relationship left, and the two of them barely make up a family together.

Jiang Yu clenched her fists, and slowly squatted down to support her: "I won't leave. Mom, don't worry."

His voice was very soft, seeing Xu Meiyin crying in front of him with red eyes and messy hair, he reached out to help her smooth it out: "...I just went to find Luoluo, I didn't go anywhere else."

Xu Meiyin raised her head and looked at him suspiciously. Jiang Yu caught her gaze and felt the coldness of her fingertips.

He knew that Xu Meiyin was afraid that he would find his biological mother, so he would not think about why he went to City A to find Zi Luo for the time being.

He also guessed this point correctly before choosing to tell the truth, because now Xu Meiyin has no mind to think about other things.Xu Meiyin was afraid that he would abandon her, and in this situation, he was still trying his best to protect his relationship with Zi Luo.

Look how bad he is.

After this time, Xu Meiyin managed him more strictly than before. If she didn't see him for a day, she would lose her mind and keep muttering his name, and then added a sentence that she couldn't leave.

Jiang Yu hadn't met Zi Luo for a long time.

During this period of time, his insomnia became more and more serious, and he often sat on the bed waiting for dawn, with a dozen cigarette butts next to him. His stomach began to hurt in the morning, and he couldn't vomit anything when he went to the bathroom.

Looking up at the thin and lifeless face in the mirror, what Jiang Yu thought was that Zi Luo couldn't see him.

After finishing the afternoon class, Jiang Yu returned to Baihua Street and received a huge package. Although it was big, it was very soft. He carried it all the way home from the collection point.

He avoided Xu Meiyin and went back to the house. After taking it apart, he saw a huge Doraemon doll. The place of delivery showed City A, the small apartment where Zi Luo lived.

His intuition made him reach into Doraemon's pocket, and as expected, he found a small box. After opening it, a ring came into view.

There was also a small note attached, which was Zi Luo's handwriting: My Jiang Yu must be happy every day.

A strong sense of tearing gushed out from the bottom of his heart, spreading to all his limbs in an instant. He knelt down beside the bed, biting his lower lip, but his jaw trembled violently, tears blurring the words "happy every day".

It's really simple, but it turns out that it really can't be done.

His hand reached for the pocket again, unable to suppress the painful panting any longer, his fingers gripped the ring tightly.

"Can you, give me a bamboo dragonfly, I want to go to him." His voice was trembling, small, with sadness, and thoughts that broke through his mind, "I just want to go to his side..."

I just want to go where there is Zi Luo.

I just want to go where there is Zi Luo.

……

Jiang Yu seldom took Zi Luo's video calls again. He sat in a dark room, citing "inconvenience" as an excuse, and rejected Zi Luo again and again.

Zi Luo never asked.

At the end of autumn another year, the streets are covered with withered yellow branches and leaves, the autumn wind is rustling, accompanied by a bone-piercing drizzle, announcing the coming of winter.

San Bai lay obediently by the bed, looking up at the person lying on the bed from time to time, Jiang Yu curled up into a ball, holding the bear baby in his arms, in a daze.

After a few seconds, he raised his hand and stared at the ring for a while.

When the sound of Ziluo came out from the recording doll, Sanbai Jiling straightened his head and rang along with the bell.Jiang Yu turned to look at him, and was stunned for a while: "Three hundred?"

Sanbai stared at the doll in his hand, tilted his head and looked at it curiously, as if waiting for the sound of ziluo to sound again.

"You miss him too, don't you?" Jiang Yu touched his head and sighed softly, "I miss him too... I miss him very much."

Zi Luo ended a tour. During this time, he was too busy and tired, and he didn't have a good rest. When he got off the plane in the middle of the night, he was blown awake by the cold wind in City A.He said goodbye to Cheng Mingzhang and took a taxi back to the rented hut.

Taking out the key to open the door, he looked down and saw a faint light in the crack of the door.

A tall and thin figure stood beside the huge French window, with his back to the light, almost blending with the night outside the window.

Hearing the sound, the man slowly turned around.

They met again after a few months. One stood at the door and the other stood inside the room. They stared at each other for 3 minutes under the orange light. The air seemed to condense, and no one spoke first.

The door was closed, and Zi Luo put the luggage aside, and found that his hands, which were so unsteady when he went on stage, were shaking a little at the moment, and he stood there with five fingers curled up, until he was hugged from behind.

Jiang Yu buried her face on his back and said sorry in a muffled voice.

Zi Luo didn't speak.

"I know you don't like to hear it, but I still want to say it." Jiang Yu's arms tightened, and he greedily breathed in the breath that belonged to Zi Luo, "I sneaked here while my mother was asleep. Are you going to ignore me?"

As he said this, the strength in his hands didn't loosen even an iota, and Zi Luo couldn't break free, his body suddenly slackened and fell into his arms, his voice was actually hoarse when he uttered, "...What should I do if my aunt finds out."

"No." Jiang Yu said, "Just leave early tomorrow morning."

Zi Luo looked at a ray of moonlight slanting in from the corner of the wall, and after a few seconds of silence: "There is no need to make this trip, I originally planned to go back in two days."

"Different."

Zi Luo fell silent, and heard Jiang Yu repeat again: "That's different."

This time, Zi Luo tried his best to open his arm, and turned around to see him more clearly, but the light from the night light was too dim, and he could only see Jiang Yu's bright eyes and blurred outline.

The dazzling lights came on suddenly, and Jiang Yu couldn't adapt, so he closed his eyes for a moment.When he opened his eyes again, he saw Zi Luo frowning and staring at him closely.

Jiang Yu laughed, "What's the matter? You don't know me anymore."

Zi Luo ignored his pretending to be relaxed, raised his head and held his chin, and looked at him carefully for a while: "...is it difficult to take care of yourself?"

The smile on the corner of Jiang Yu's mouth faded, and he looked at him face to face.

"You've lost too much weight." Zi Luo said, "You don't tell me anything."

"There's nothing to say." After a short pause, Jiang Yu continued, "There's nothing to say about this kind of thing, it's no big deal."

Zi Luo looked at him and smiled, and repeated: "No big deal?"

"Yes." Jiang Yu looked into his eyes, "Do you think those things can overwhelm me? Aren't I standing right in front of you now?"

The atmosphere of stalemate filled the whole room, enveloping them from top to bottom, Zi Luo shifted his gaze and stopped looking at him, his breathing was light, his expression was calm, and he couldn't see what was going on in his heart.

In the end, Jiang Yu shook his hand and said softly, "Okay, it's hard to see each other once, do you want us to do this?"

"I don't want to be like this either." Zi Luo paused, "I just want you to be honest with me, but you've never been obedient."

Jiang Yuxin sank, grabbed his finger tightly, and rubbed the same ring as him: "It's useless to talk about it, and it can't be solved by talking about it. If it's a big problem, I can bear it alone. I don't want you to be affected too."

"Influence," Zi Luo murmured, "I don't know what happened to you since you were young. If you want to talk about influence, you have been influenced from the moment you remember."

Jiang Yu suddenly let go of his hand.

"But I don't think it affects me, Jiang Yu." Zi Luo turned to look at him, "You are a part of my life, your joys, sorrows, sorrows, and everything about you are the most important part of my life. "

Zi Luo looked at his trembling eyelashes: "This part will never be stripped, I hope you understand."

Jiang Yu frowned deeply, feeling pain in his heart. He looked down at the fingers of the two people who were intertwined, and said softly, "I'm sorry."

Zi Luo took a deep breath: "...I really don't like to hear it."

"Oh." Jiang Yu's voice was still muffled, with a bit of grievance, "I won't say anything."

Zi Luo watched him silent for a while, sighed as if defeated by him, cooked a bowl of porridge at night, and the two of them sat in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows and drank it.

"Jiang Yu."

"Ok?"

Zi Luo said softly, "Quit smoking."

The light of the night light was kept in the room, neither of them felt sleepy, and no one spoke again until dawn.

Jiang Yu said that he left early in the morning, but he still couldn't hold back and stayed until noon. The two of them went to the supermarket together to buy vegetables, and went back to the hut to cook together. made a phone call.

This time, when he entered the station, he took a step and turned his head three times. Zi Luo stood there looking at him, waved to him, and said nothing else.

In the years of high school, Jiang Yu always thought that time would go faster, so that he could leave with Zi Luo.In the first two years of college, he also wondered if the time could be faster, and faster, so that he could take the postgraduate entrance examination and come to City A.

But now seeing Zi Luo smiling at his face, Jiang Yu suddenly wanted to stop time.

The things planned are always good, but the promises made at the beginning were gradually obliterated. In the past few years, the lives of the two of them have undergone tremendous changes. It is the things that they gradually don't understand that pull the two of them farther and farther. He dare not I wonder if Zi Luo will be like this now, every time he looks back, he will be farther away from him.

It was almost evening when we returned to Zhangcheng.

Jiang Yu walked into the yard cautiously, but didn't hear any sound. The living room was still the same as when he left, and his heart was slightly relieved.

When he turned around again, he saw Xu Meiyin sitting in front of his desk. There were many photos of him and Ziluo spread out on the desk, as well as a thick stack of train tickets to and from City A in the past few years, but the most let him It was the jade that instantly felt the blood flow back.

... Zi Luo gave him the other half of the jade.