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The snowflakes have already melted, and when the sky darkened, every household began to make dinner.When the breeze blew, Jiang Yu smelled the stewed chicken made by someone's house, and the smell made him hungry.

All three members of the Jiang family were at home, and the atmosphere was a bit dull. Jiang Dezhi went in and out without saying a word. When Xu Meiyin came back, the two of them simply said a few words and then nothing happened. Jiang Yu went back to the room and wrote nothing. Completed mock test paper.

He has been writing this test paper all afternoon.

The more she wrote, the more upset she became. Jiang Yujing couldn't even figure out the answer because she couldn't stop.He put down the pen and slumped back, raised his neck and closed his eyes for a while to rest.

Jiang Dezhi seemed to be going out again, because Jiang Yu heard Xu Meiyin say, "Where are you going? It's late at night."

"Go out and have some dinner." Jiang Dezhi said, "Leave me alone."

Tomorrow is Jiang Lai's death day, and they each have their own way of celebrating this day every year. Jiang Dezhi always goes to see Jiang Lai in the cemetery alone, and so does Xu Meiyin.And Jiang Dezhi would not eat at home at all during this time, and he could stay for several hours when he went to the cemetery.

Xu Meiyin didn't stop him this time, and said, "Call me if you need something."

The crescent moon popped out, and the light from the dark moon was very shallow, mixed with the light from the street lamps and shed quietly.Jiang Yu opened his eyes and looked at it for a long time, the hunger just now had subsided.

At this time Xu Meiyin knocked on his door: "Come out for dinner."

Jiang Yu responded and walked out of the room. There were only two dishes on the table, so he went to the kitchen and brought two bowls of rice, and handed Xu Meiyin a pair of chopsticks.

Scrambled eggs with green peppers and shredded potatoes with green peppers were simple but delicious. After Jiang Yu finished a bowl of rice, Xu Meiyin only ate half a bowl, and kept her head down without saying a word.

He sat there waiting for Xu Meiyin to finish his meal, cleaned the kitchen after the meal, and when he returned to the house, he found a faint light under Jiang Lai's door. Jiang Yu looked around but did not find Xu Meiyin, so he knew that Who turned on the light.

Jiang Dezhi didn't come back until after two o'clock in the middle of the night. Xu Meiyin leaned on the bed and closed her eyes, pinching a small photo in her hand. She opened her eyes and checked the time, feeling worried and calling Jiang Dezhi again.

This time it was connected, but it was Jiang Defa's voice: "He's with me, brother is drunk, I'll send him home right away."

Xu Meiyin said, "Is it convenient? I'll pick you up."

"It's okay, I'll be there later."

Unexpectedly, it was not only Jiang Defa who sent Jiang Dezhi back, but also Jiang Dexing, who was neatly dressed and had his leather shoes polished.Jiang Dexing drove the two of them back, and Jiang Defa took a lot of effort to get Jiang Dezhi into the house.

Xu Meiyin poured water for the two of them: "Drink some hot tea, it's so cold outside, sit down before leaving."

Jiang Defa drank half a glass. Jiang Dexing sat down and didn't touch the glass of water. He looked around and turned his gaze back to the table, saying, "Go to bed early, it's already this time."

This torment reached midnight, Xu Meiyin looked a little haggard, and said, "Don't drink with him, just send him home..."

Jiang Dexing laughed: "He has to be willing. I wanted to leave a long time ago, and they kept me from yelling and cursing."

Xu Meiyin didn't answer, and sighed.

"I persuaded and persuaded, but it's still like this for so many years, it's useless. Big brother has a hurdle in his heart. If you complain about this big sister, you don't hear it. Watch him talk at home. I guess you will be able to do it after a while." Better." It was quiet in the middle of the night, Jiang Defa spoke in a low voice, glanced at the door of Jiang Yu's room, stood up, "Call me if you have anything to do, I'm leaving."

The gate was closed, the car drove out of Baihua Hutong, Xu Meiyin poured a glass of water in the living room and returned to the room, everything returned to the silence that should be at night.

When Jiang Yu woke up the next morning, there was no one at home. He fell asleep at three o'clock last night, and he had only slept for five hours so far.At this time, with his red and swollen eyes open, he washed up and drank a bottle of milk, and sloppyly finished his breakfast.

Taking advantage of no one at home, Jiang Yu went to Jiang Lai's room.At noon, Xu Meiyin sent a message: Your dad and I won't be going home at noon, you can buy some food.

The sun was very sunny today. Jiang Yu lay on Jiang Lai's desk with his eyes closed for a while. After eating a bowl of noodles on the street, I walked slowly as if I had no destination.

But he has places to go.

After walking to the cemetery for an hour, Jiang Yu bought two bouquets of flowers at the flower shop down the mountain. He looked around, pressed his hat and walked up slowly.Instead of going to Jiang Lai's tomb, he went in another direction.

In the photo was an old man with thick black hair mixed with silver threads, and kind eyes. Jiang Yu took a look and called out, "Grandpa."

Jiang Honglin's wife had passed away when Jiang Dezhi was young, and when he got old, he found someone of the same age to live with him.When Jiang Honglin was alive, his health was usually not very good, and he never stopped taking medicine, but even so, he still couldn't get rid of his habit of getting drunk and going crazy.When he was drunk, he knocked on doors from house to house, sometimes swearing a few words outside, and sometimes left after knocking and yelling a few times.Jiang Yu didn't know about these encounters, but heard them from Jiang Dezhi and Jiang Dexing's chat.

Jiang Yu put the bouquet of flowers in front of Jiang Honglin's tombstone, knelt down and took out a lighter to burn paper money for him.He called his grandfather and said nothing else, but burned the paper money in silence.

There is no other reason, just because he and Jiang Honglin are not close.

When Jiang Honglin was still alive, every family would bring their children to Baihua Hutong during Chinese New Year, and sometimes a table would be set up in the courtyard if there was no room for one table. The people inside the house were all the elders, and the children outside were reserved.At that time, Jiang Yu was still very bored and didn't like to talk, so Xu Meiyin forced him to toast.I got up early in the morning without washing my face and ran to the old house to kowtow to pay New Year's greetings, in exchange for 200 yuan lucky money.

Except for getting together during the Chinese New Year, even if they lived on the same road for the rest of the time, Jiang Yu never stayed alone with Jiang Honglin much.

Jiang Yu stood up, glanced at the photo, and looked down to see the words engraved on the tombstone.The names of the descendants are all on it. Jiang Yu saw Jiang Lai, Jiang Ling, Jiang He, Jiang Xiaolong, and the two children of Jiang Honglin's youngest daughter, Shen Zhenzhen and Shen Wang.

Only without his name.

The wind was strong on the mountain, Jiang Yu glanced at the distant mountain, remembered that when he arrived at the cemetery and found that his own name was not on the tombstone, he went to pull Xu Meiyin next to him and asked, "Mom, why is there no my name?"

Xu Meiyin glanced at it, with an uncomfortable expression, and asked, "Yeah, why isn't Jiang Yu's name on it?"

Jiang Yu couldn't remember who said, "Forgot."

Forget it, and find someone to make it up later.

Everyone was tired after walking all the way, Liu Jing followed her son and daughter and sat down on the stone steps next to her, listening and watching this scene without saying a word.Everyone had forgotten by default. Jiang Yu was young at the time, so he thought it was not good to forget about it, but he probably forgot.

Now it seems that for so many years, the phrase "find someone to make it up later" has never been made up.

The wind blew up dust and fine sand, Jiang Yu turned sideways to face the wind, wiped Jiang Honglin's photo with his cold fingers, turned and left.

There were very few people in the cemetery. After walking for a long time, a few people occasionally passed by.Jiang Yu walked very slowly, and when he heard someone talking, he would turn his head to look, and he was relieved when he saw if he knew him or not.

"How's business those days?"

"It's okay, make some money without losing money, it's hard to do business now."

"Who isn't? I have a lot of goods in the store and I can't get rid of them, and the price cuts have made me lose a lot."

"How can our small shop compare with yours..."

The conversation was getting closer and closer, and the two female voices, Jiang Yu, felt too familiar to his ears. He didn't turn his head, but quickened his pace, turned sideways and hid directly behind the trees on both sides.

He poked his head out and found that the people who spoke just now were Liu Jing and Ma Aili, and Jiang Ling and Jiang Xiaolong were behind them.

Jiang Yu didn't walk up the steps anymore, he walked through the weeds and dead trees beside him, and almost climbed up the mountain all the way.He heard people talking from a long distance, it seemed that there were more than three or four.

Jiang Dezhi didn't know how long he stayed in front of the tomb. He sat on the ground, his face flushed by the cold wind.In front of him was a dazzling bouquet of flowers, which surrounded Jiang Lai's tomb.

Jiang Honglin's youngest daughter was rarely there, and Jiang Yu saw several of his grandparents and other elders talking together.Jiang Yu was too far away to hear what they said, knowing that these people would not leave for a while, he hid himself in the dead wood and did not go out.

Just now I was only focused on climbing up and didn't pay attention to it. Now I saw a few thin and long wounds on my hands. It's just that the skin was broken and didn't bleed, but there was a faint pain.

Jiang Yu came out without gloves, and shoved his hands back into his pockets.

When Jiang Yu was five years old, he knew that Jiang Lai had passed away, but from the beginning to the end, Jiang Dezhi kept him at home and didn't even leave the house, so that he didn't know where Jiang Lai's tombstone was for several years later.When he grew up, he learned to read words and deeds, and understood that Jiang Dezhi never intended to let him go from the beginning.

When he was ten years old, Xu Meiyin took him there by herself. Jiang Yu saw Jiang Lai smiling brightly at him in the photo, as if he really had a bright future.

But Jiang Lai never stopped at 15 years old.

Since then, he will avoid everyone on this day every year, and Jiang Yu will only appear when they are not around.

The wind whizzed past on the mountain, Jiang Yu felt cold all over, and there were flowers bought for Jiang Lai at his feet. He saw people coming up and down from time to time, all of them came to see Jiang Lai.

Finally, the number of people gradually decreased and the sky was already dark, but Jiang Dezhi hadn't left yet. Xu Meiyin pulled him up and said, "Go back, stay for a day, and get sick from the cold later."

Jiang Dezhi ran over before dawn. He hardly even ate food all day, and just sat there without moving.Xu Meiyin stood with him for a while: "Let's go, let's go home. Jiang Lai will feel bad when he sees you like this. Have you forgotten that he is the most filial?"

Jiang Dezhi only moved a bit, but his legs were terribly numb. After half an hour, Jiang Yu saw Xu Meiyin helping Jiang Dezhi go down, and he didn't come out until they were far away.

The surrounding area of ​​the tomb was covered with flowers, Jiang Yu put the one he bought on it, stared at Jiang Lai's photo for a while, his voice was a little hoarse at this time after he hadn't spoken for a long time, and shouted: "Brother."

The strong wind was blowing violently, and the whistling sound seemed to be crying, and there were only a few silver lights around, which happened to shine on Jiang Lai's face.

"Mom and Dad miss you very much." Jiang Yu said, "I miss you too, but... I don't remember anything about you."

"Brother, you love me so much, but I forget you."

"If you are still here, have you already become a doctor? Mom said that if you have good grades, then you must be a very good doctor, and you might have been promoted to be a director long ago."

"I can only come to see you while they are not here. I come late every year but I will definitely come. Brother, don't be angry."

Jiang Yu wiped the tombstone clean for him with his hands, smiled slightly at the photo and said, "I will remember it sooner or later."

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On the way down, no one was seen, only Dafeng was with him.The light was weak, and he couldn't see the road clearly when he was covered by his figure. Jiang Yu put his hands in his pockets and was dizzy from the cold wind, but he didn't feel scared anymore.

Jiang Yu didn't know how long it took him to reach the gate, the breath he exhaled seemed to be cold, the roadside was glowing with orange light, and the drop was very quiet, falling silently on a person's shoulder.

Zi Luo didn't know how long he stood under the streetlight, Jiang Yu looked at him from a distance, and finally smiled when his eyes met.

They approached each other. When Zi Luo approached, he saw Jiang Yu's face clearly. He stretched out his hand and touched his eyes a few times. When he felt that his face was not only tired but also cold, he covered his entire palm without hesitation. half his face.

Zi Luo's hand was very warm, Jiang Yu was already numb after being frozen all afternoon, but the reassuring warmth came at the right time, causing the protective wall he built in his heart to collapse completely at this moment.Jiang Yu couldn't hold back the soreness of his nose, he could only lower his head and smile to cover it up, and raised his hand to hold the back of Zi Luo's hand.

Jiang Yu's hand was not warm at all, Zi Luo frowned and held his hand in the palm of his hand, pulled him into his arms, and patted his back lightly.

Jiang Yu buried his face in his shoulder and did not speak, and Zi Luo waited for a long time before saying, "Are you hungry?"

"Hungry." Jiang Yu adjusted his mood and said, "Still thirsty."

Zi Luo took out the glove and wanted to put it on for him, but he saw the slender wound on the back of his hand by the light of the street lamp, and he grabbed it tightly: "What's going on? Let me see that hand."

With both hands, Zi Luo asked, "Did you fall?"

Jiang Yu looked at him, but didn't pull his hand back: "No, I guess I was rubbed by a branch, it's okay."

Zi Luo didn't speak, and rubbed his fingers lightly on the back of his hand twice.Jiang Yu looked at his frowning brows and smiled, "Do you love me?"

Zi Luo sighed, "What do you think?"

"You don't see any bleeding, it's okay, it will be fine in a few days." Jiang Yu pulled him down, "Why did you come here suddenly?"

"Is the signal not good up there? I sent you a message and didn't reply, so I came here and waited for you. From now on..." Zi Luo put on gloves on him as he walked, and paused when he said this, "If you don't mind, I will be with you Let's go up together."

Jiang Yu tilted his head to look at Zi Luo's side face, raised a smile and said, "Why, I was afraid you would mind."

Zi Luo shook his head, looked around without any storefronts, and said, "Let's go to the pedestrian street to eat, it's close, you're too cold, drink something warm."

"Okay." Jiang Yu tugged at the gloves, "Listen to you."

Zi Luo ordered two large bowls of porridge and put it in front of Jiang Yu, Jiang Yu was stunned for a moment: "Where are you feeding the pigs?!"

"You drink first, I'll drink if you can't finish." Zi Luo brought a basket of steamed dumplings and other fried pasta, "Eat."

The porridge was really delicious. Jiang Yu finished a bowl of preserved egg and lean meat porridge and ate a few small biscuits, then pushed the remaining bowl in front of Zi Luo: "It's still hot, I haven't touched this bowl."

Zi landed right on the spot, and the two of them finished eating and sat down to rest for a while.Jiang Yu didn't rest well and was blown by the cold wind all afternoon. At this time, he was full and warmed up, and couldn't help yawning comfortably.

Zi Luo's eyes followed his raising and lowering his hands. Just now, his vision was dim and he couldn't see clearly. At this time, the lights in the store were bright and dazzling, making the wound on the back of Jiang Yu's hand look a little more serious.

The two took a taxi to the entrance of Baihua Lane. Jiang Yu walked very slowly. In the last half day, he couldn't move a few meters. Zi Luo looked back at him: "What's wrong?"

Jiang Yu stopped: "I'll go with you."

Zi Luo smiled and said, "Where are you going?"

Jiang Yu said, "I'll go wherever you go."

"Oh." Zi Luo pulled him forward, "Let's go, go home."

There seemed to be no one in the Jiang family, and it was pitch black everywhere.Xie Xiaoan saw the two people and asked a few words before returning to the room. Zi Luo turned on the air conditioner and took out the cow pajamas for him: "I'll wash it first. The bathroom is just warm after washing. I'll put water on you Take a good soak."

Jiang Yu took off his coat and slumped on Zi's bed without saying a word.Zi Luo went back and pinched his chin, and said softly, "Did you hear that? Don't sleep now."

"Got it." Jiang Yu opened his eyes and looked at him, "You go."

Afraid that Jiang Yu would fall asleep, Zi Luo took a shower and washed quickly without blowing his hair, and went straight into the room to call for someone. As a result, Jiang Yu lay motionless on the bed as if he was really asleep.Zi Luo walked over and patted his face: "Jiang Yu? Get up and take a shower."

Jiang Yu ignored him.

Water drops from Zi Luo's hair dripped onto his face, Jiang Yu frowned and touched his face, muttering, "Ah, it's raining..."

"..." Zi Luo didn't know whether to laugh or cry, he put his arms around his neck and helped him up and shook him, "I can't sleep, I'll sleep after taking a shower, otherwise what should I do if I catch a cold."

Jiang Yu was awakened by the shaking, and went into the bathroom with the cow pajamas.The bathroom where the last person had just finished washing was foggy and hot, and the scent of the bath hadn't dissipated completely. Jiang Yu walked in and saw the bathtub full of water.

Zi Luo dried his hair on the air conditioner for a while, but the air conditioner was too dry, so he wiped his face with face cream, and checked the time from time to time.

He was afraid that Jiang Yu would fall asleep during the bath, so he couldn't rest assured and knocked on the bathroom door: "Jiang Yu?"

"Ah." Jiang Yu lay comfortably in the bathtub and almost fell asleep, but was suddenly woken up by such a call, "What's wrong?"

Zi Luo said: "No."

Jiang Yu looked at the door: "I thought you were going to come in and give me a bath."

Zi Luo: "..."

The water temperature was quite hot, and Jiang Yu's neck was flushed when he entered the room. Zi Luo sat on the bed and waited for him for a long time: "Come here."

Jiang Yu got on the bed and knelt in front of him with his eyes closed. Zi Luo kneaded two pieces of face cream on his face and said, "Hold out your hands."

Zi Luo rubbed some liquid medicine on the wound on the back of his hand, and then said: "Okay, you can go to sleep."

"I'm not so sleepy now." Jiang Yu opened his eyes and looked at him.

Zi Luo asked: "Then why did you close your eyes just now?"

"I'm afraid I can't help it," Jiang Yu finished the sentence looking into his eyes, "I want to hug you."

Zi Luo looked at him for a few seconds, tapped the back of his hand, and then opened his arms: "Come on."

Before the words fell, Jiang Yu had already rushed over, Zi Luo caught him firmly and fell on the bed, the two of them tossed and tussled together for a while, Jiang Yu pinned him down and did not move.

Zi Luo patted his back, like putting a child to sleep.

A soft voice rang above his head: "Are you sad?"

"It's okay." It's not sad, but he's already used to it, he's so used to it that he can't say it, and he doesn't even know how to say it. Jiang Yu tilted his head and listened to Zi Luo's heartbeat, "But it's not a big deal."

Zi Luo didn't ask any more questions.

"I miss Jiang Lai as much as they do."

"Yeah." Zi Luo slid his hand up and stroked his dry hair, "It's okay Jiang Yu."

Jiang Yu smiled and said, "Well, it's okay."

The two chatted in this position for a while, and Jiang Yu hugged him comfortably, but now his eyes were too sleepy to open.Zi Luo couldn't hear his voice and looked down, only to find that Jiang Yu had slowly slid down from his body, and now he had fallen asleep.

Zi Luo's fingertips slid across his cheeks, and he lowered his head slightly to get closer, smelling the faint fragrance of the cream.

"Sleep well." A kiss fell on Jiang Yu's cheek, and Zi Luo looked at him and said, "Good night, Jiang Yu."