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When Jiang Yu rushed to the hospital, she saw Xu Meiyin crazily grabbing her hair, which was in a mess. She knelt in the corridor of the operating room, and kept making hoarse yells.

Approaching step by step, Jiang Yu looked at the three big characters "in operation" that were lit up, as if he couldn't even breathe.

He stepped forward and hugged Xu Meiyin, calling her over and over again.Xu Meiyin seemed unable to regain her senses, and looked around in fear, as if she had aged ten years in just a few months.

The operation didn't take long, the doctor opened the door and walked out, Jiang Yu looked at him, and didn't even have the courage to ask.

The doctor is used to seeing life and death, and his voice is as cold as giving orders: "Brain cancer is in the advanced stage, it is not easy to sustain it for so long, there is no need to rescue it."

Jiang Yu held his breath and stared at him blankly without saying a word.

"Your name is Jiang Yu?" The doctor glanced at him, "The patient asked to see you before entering the operating room. There is still time, go and see him."

Xu Meiyin buried her face in her palms, and when Jiang Yu entered, she saw the person on the hospital bed, thin, pale, with shaved hair and half-opened eyes, breathing weakly.

"……dad."

His voice trembled, fearing that Jiang Dezhi would not hear him, he called out again: "Dad."

Jiang Dezhi opened his eyes, his eyes were red when he saw him, and he raised his hand to touch him: "Xiao Yu, Xiao Yu is here..."

Jiang Yu held his hand and found that the back of his hand was full of pinhole marks.

All the questions in the past few months were answered at this moment. Jiang Dezhi hadn't appeared since the Chinese New Year. He didn't go out of town because of work, but spent the whole time in the hospital.

It wasn't because Xu Meiyin was busy in the shop, but because she was here to accompany him.

Only he doesn't know anything.

"Why didn't you tell me..." Jiang Yu knelt on the ground and looked at him, "Dad, why didn't you tell me?"

Jiang Dezhi took several breaths before he could speak: "We can't delay, you take the college entrance examination."

Jiang Yu shook his head, kept shaking his head, and put his face on the back of his hand.Jiang Dezhi sighed, and called again: "Xiao Yu."

"……exist."

"Dad has something to say to you." Jiang Dezhi's eyes were not focused, "You asked your mother before, asking... are you our biological child?"

Jiang Yu had already anticipated what he was going to say next, the corners of his eyes were red, and he looked at him without blinking.

"You are indeed not our own. When you were more than two months old, your aunt sent you here... She was only raising you temporarily for a few days, and she will send you away when she finds a suitable one." Jiang Dezhi always stopped after finishing his sentence. It took a while to continue, his eyes were cloudy, and he turned to look at him, "But your brother, Jiang Lai, he is reluctant."

"When he said he was going to send you away, he didn't want to, he... he loved you very much." Mentioning Jiang Lai Jiang Dezhi's voice trembled, and his eyes were wet, "Your name was given by him, He said that he was very happy to meet you and gave him an extra brother."

"Your mother is also reluctant, she is soft-hearted." Jiang Dezhi closed his eyes, "I know, over the years, you have blamed me and your mother. I also admit that I have not fulfilled my responsibility as a father to you. "

"But," Jiang Dezhi paused, "you can blame me, but not your mother."

"Your mother, this life is not easy, it is too hard...Jiang Yu, you have to be with her." Jiang Dezhi grabbed him very hard, "You must remember, it is your brother It was your mother who raised you up for giving you this life!"

Jiang Yu heard that it was difficult for him to speak, so he held him tightly with both hands: "Dad, I know, please stop talking, please rest for a while before talking..."

"Xiao Yu," Jiang Dezhi shook his head, interrupting him, "You must always remember your brother Jiang Lai, without him you would not exist."

"He is filial, he is the most filial, I saw him come to pick me up..." Jiang Dezhi gasped more and more, "If Jiang Lai is still alive, he is already a very good doctor."

Jiang Yu paused for a moment, and heard Jiang Dezhi continue to say: "Your brother never thought of leaving home... He, he just wants to be a doctor and take care of us for the rest of our lives."

"So, Jiang Yu, even if it's for your brother, you have to take good care of your mother, stay with her, and don't leave her alone, do you hear me?"

After Jiang Dezhi said these words, he almost exhausted all his strength. He stared at Jiang Yu closely, as if he wanted a promise, and he would feel at ease when he said it.

And Jiang Yu knew what this answer represented. He looked at Jiang Dezhi as if he had lost his mind.

"Did you hear that? Did you hear that!" Jiang Dezhi trembled all over, staring at him firmly, "Jiang Yu, did you hear that?!"

Xu Meiyin appeared at the door, watching with tears in her eyes, without making a sound.

Before Jiang Dezhi closed his eyes, Jiang Yu looked at him and said, "...I heard it."

Jiang Dezhi let go of his hand suddenly.

He smiled: "I saw Jiang Lai, come to pick me up..."

There was a plop behind him, and Xu Meiyin knelt on the cold ground, crying uncontrollably. Jiang Yu saw that the person in front of him had no signs of life, and his hand was hanging in his palm.

Up to the last moment, Jiang Dezhi's only concern was Jiang Lai, his only son. From birth to death, Jiang Lai was his only son.

Jiang Dezhi is Jiang Lai's good father and has nothing to do with Jiang Yu.

But he is not his own, but because he is not his own, his responsibility is heavier than anyone else.

Jiang Yu calmly walked towards the door step by step.

Just because he was not his own, because Jiang Dezhi was willing to keep him even though he already had a son, and because he and Xu Meiyin had raised him for so many years, regardless of how Jiang Dezhi treated him all these years, these were not important.

Just like what Jiang Dezhi and Xu Meiyin said, without this family, he doesn't know what kind of life he would live. Maybe he won't be able to eat and clothe as he is now, maybe he won't be able to survive.

Just because he was not his own, he could only promise Jiang Dezhi.

It was already dark outside, and Jiang Yu took the elevator down to the first floor, with his head down and motionless, and the people next to him kept looking at him with strange eyes.

Jiang Yu stopped at the gate, not knowing where to go.

As far as he could remember from the age of five, Jiang Dezhi had a bad impression on him. He would often hear Jiang Dezhi talking loudly at him, stern, unlike his father.Will bear his beating and scolding, so hard, not like my father.

Jiang Yu clearly remembered one summer night when he woke up and found that he and Jiang Dezhi were sleeping on the same bed, the curtains were not drawn, and the moon was shining outside. Sleep, he just wants to go back to his room.

Jiang Dezhi would bump into him when he turned over, and he could only sit in a corner and shrink himself into a small ball.

The adults were relatively light sleepers, Jiang Dezhi opened his eyes at some point, saw Jiang Yu in the corner by the moonlight, and let him leave without asking anything.

Jiang Yu went back to her room and fell asleep slowly with the quilt in between.

Maybe it was because he already had the answer in his heart. When Jiang Dezhi said that he was not his own, Jiang Yu didn't feel much fluctuation in his heart.He has never understood why his home is not like a home all these years, but now he understands that in Jiang Dezhi's perception, only the home where Jiang Lai is is a home.

His life was given to him by Jiang Lai, Jiang Yu remembered this sentence.

The phone rang.

When Jiang Yu saw Zi Luo's name, Jiang Yu's heart twitched fiercely. He turned his phone to silent, didn't answer or hang up, and put it back in his pocket.

He walked to Guqiao Park, took out his mobile phone after sitting down on the bench, and found that there were many missed calls and messages from Zi Luo, all asking where he was.

He is worried that something will happen to him.

Jiang Yu thought to himself, Zi Luo would definitely come out to look for him if he didn't contact him, maybe he had been to this place and left, maybe he had returned home now.

But he can't go back.

He didn't know how to face Zi Luo.

The summer night was windy, and at night the wind was getting stronger and stronger. Jiang Yu lay down sideways on the bench with his arms folded, staring at the starless night sky with his eyes open.

He stayed up all night, his phone turned off automatically when it ran out of battery, and he didn't know it was almost dawn until morning joggers appeared on the runway.

On a summer day, it's light up at five o'clock in the morning.

The sun hung high, exuding a scorching hot temperature.There was a voice of conversation in the distance, and the voice was not low. Jiang Yu listened and realized that he could check the results of the college entrance examination today.

After he stood up, he felt a shaking in his vision, a dull pain in his stomach, and he staggered a few times before he managed to stand still.The flowers at the entrance of the alley are blooming, with a strong fragrance, and the leaves on the trees are falling with the wind, swaying and being blown far away by the wind.

Jiang Yu sat in front of the computer and did not move for a long time.

Stomach pains came and went, like being stabbed by a knife. Jiang Yu suddenly felt nauseous. He rushed out of the room and went to the bathroom almost immediately. His stomach was empty and he couldn't vomit. Knees pressed against the floor just enough to keep myself from falling.

There was a sound at the door, and Jiang Yu clenched his hands tightly.

He stopped for a while when he heard footsteps entering the living room, and then entered the bedroom. Jiang Yu was relieved and realized that this was Xu Meiyin's return.He simply rinsed his mouth, locked the door and lay down on the bed after entering the house, his forehead was covered with sweat.

Xu Meiyin came to knock on his door, her voice was mechanical, like a machine without warmth: "Open the door."

Jiang Yu took a breath and opened the door.

Xu Meiyin's eyes were swollen like walnuts, but her eyes were as cold as her voice. She looked at him and said, "Follow me to the funeral home."

The car was parked outside the door, Jiang Yu turned his head and glanced at the door of Zi's house, it was not closed tightly, as if someone would come out from inside at any moment.He heard Xie Xiaoan's voice, but he got into the car in a panic and couldn't hear what she said.

When we arrived at the place, we found that everyone was there, Jiang Defa's family, Jiang Dexing's family, and some other relatives. Jiang met Jiang He and Jiang Ling, whom he hadn't seen for a long time. Go to a small get-together.

Jiang Yu only went to the funeral home once when Jiang Honglin passed away. Before Jiang Honglin died, he was dragged back to Baihua Lane, and a mourning hall was set up in the yard.Like everyone else, he wore a white cloth and sat on a mat beside him to observe his filial piety.

When the body was taken away, Jiang Honglin's second wife cried uncontrollably.

They walked round and round around Jiang Honglin's body in the farewell hall, and the staff next to him blew the suona for countless times. Jiang Yu heard someone crying, crying without emotion, covering up the real sadness whimpered softly.

He stood there and looked up to see black smoke rising from the chimney.People live for a lifetime, but in the end they will turn into a handful of ashes.

He didn't like this place, no one would like this place.

Jiang Yu didn't cry when Jiang Honglin died, and he still didn't cry today.He still stood there and looked up at the chimney, black smoke slowly rising, changing from thick to shallow, from visible to invisible.

After receiving the cremation certificate, Xu Meiyin walked towards him directly and asked him to pick up the urn.Her eyes seemed to remind him, don't forget all this, don't forget what Jiang Dezhi said.

Holding the urn, Jiang Yu looked at the photo of Jiang Dezhi on the tombstone without a smile. He was wearing a white shirt, his hair was still there, and his eyes were dull.Jiang Yu remembered that Jiang Dezhi's abnormal behavior and sudden change were all due to this reason.

This time, his and Jiang Lai's names were engraved on the tombstone.

There are people all around, just like Jiang Honglin was buried a few years ago.Jiang Yu looked at Jiang Dezhi, knelt on the ground and kowtowed three times. When he got up again, the sun was still scorching hot, and his whole body was numb from the stomach pain. His head was groggy, and he went down the stairs first.

Jiang Ling walked down with him: "Today's college entrance examination results, have you checked?"

Jiang Yu ignored him and didn't even look at him.

"Your grades are so good, which university do you plan to take?" Jiang Ling didn't care about his ignorance, and said to himself, "Qingheng? But the score line is quite high, can you pass the exam?"

Jiang Yu's footsteps were erratic, and everything he saw was doubled.He stopped and looked down, there was a figure standing there, and he had the illusion that the figure was just similar to Zi Luo.

The stairs were still a few steps away, Jiang Yu's footsteps softened and he rolled down the stairs.Before closing his eyes, he saw Zi Luo running towards him in a panic.

... It's really Zi Luo.Jiang Yu thought.

This person whom he has been hiding for a day and a night is always easy to find.