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Jiang Yu started to have a high fever, and he didn't close his eyes all day and night, so he didn't wake up all day.Zi Luo looked at him from the side, holding his hand firmly, even when Xie Xiaoan came in, he didn't let go.

Sanbai ran into the room when Xie Xiaoan opened the door, leaned on the edge of the bed to see the person lying on the bed, and ignored Xie Xiaoan's shouts.Zi Luo touched its head, and said to Xie Xiaoan: "It's okay, let it stay here."

Xie Xiaoan cooked light porridge at night, seeing that Jiang Yu didn't show signs of waking up, he said worriedly: "Why don't you wake him up, I haven't eaten all day, go to bed after eating."

Zi Luo touched Jiang Yu's forehead, the high fever finally subsided, he caught the bowl: "I'll do it."

Xie Xiaoan turned around and left the room.

Zi Luo looked at Jiang Yu, feeling a stabbing pain in his heart, he raised his hand to stroke Jiang Yu's cheek, and finally stopped on his eyes.

He kept this movement for a few minutes without moving, and said softly, "Jiang Yu."

"It's time to wake up, can you have some food?" Zi Luo bent over and pressed his forehead against his, with an imperceptible tremor in his words, "...Wake up, okay?"

But Jiang Yu didn't respond at all.

At this time, he was walking in the deserted park, there was no light around, only the dim moonlight shone dimly, he could not see the road under his feet clearly, and the surroundings were pitch black, the shadows of the branches looked like ghosts, and when the wind blew Made him tremble all over.

He yelled, but no one answered him, no one appeared.

Going forward, he saw a shimmering lake, which was a big lake. Jiang Yu saw the warning sign on the side through the moonlight: the water depth is dangerous, do not approach.

Tian'an Lake.

He stared blankly, and suddenly his brain began to ache violently.

Someone shouted in his ear: "...Xiao Yu."

The voice was gentle and doting, Jiang Yu opened his eyes to look for it, but found nothing, except that he fell into the darkness, there was no one else.

That voice was still calling him, it seemed to be coming from the bottom of the lake, one after another, from the gentleness at the beginning to the anxious, panic, and frightened cry at the end.

Jiang Yu approached the lake step by step, his eyes were dull, and he saw his reflection flowing with the waves, and suddenly he heard another voice: "Xiao Yu!"

This time the voice came from behind, he was shocked, before he could turn his head, his footsteps softened and he fell into the icy lake.

He didn't dare to open his eyes, the suffocation surrounded him, he flapped his hands and tried to break through the lake to breathe fresh air, but gradually lost his strength, he stopped moving, and slowly fell to the bottom of the lake.

He couldn't pant, he wasn't breathing.

In a daze, he heard someone whispering softly: "...Jiang Yu."

The voice seemed to be right next to my ears, delicate and gentle, saying, "Wake up, okay?"

Jiang Yu opened his eyes and saw Zi Luo, and then he felt that he was slowly coming to life.

Zi Luo clenched his hand tightly, resting his forehead on the back of his hand, calling his name in a low voice with deep anxiety, hoping that he would wake up.

Jiang Yu took a few deep breaths, and raised his other hand to stroke his hair.

Zi Luo trembled violently, as if awakened from a dream, looked up and saw Jiang Yu's eyes, those eyes were red, filled with distress, regret, and guilt.

Sanbai saw that he woke up and began to frantically pick up the bed, humming non-stop, Jiang Yu looked at it: "Sanbai?"

Sanbai yelled in response to him.

Jiang Yu smiled, and looked at Zi Luo who had been staring at him again, the two of them stared at each other in silence, neither of them said a word for a long time.

There was no blame, no questioning, just the emotions in the eyes of two people, one distressed and the other avoiding.

After a while, Zi Luo moved: "The porridge is cold, I'll go and warm it up."

When he went out, he also took Sanbai out, Jiang Yu opened his eyes and looked at the ceiling, Zi fell back quickly, and put a pillow behind him, trying to make him more comfortable.

Jiang Yu drank a few sips of water, held the bowl in his hand, and put the steaming porridge into his mouth.

Zi Luo kept looking at him, even if he didn't raise his head, Jiang Yu could feel the heavy gaze, as if it weighed a thousand catties.

"Luoluo." He said suddenly, his voice still hoarse, "I really don't have a father anymore."

"I thought I hated him, and I would blame him if I didn't hate him, but it was strange, I didn't feel anything." Jiang Yu lowered his head, resting his forehead on the bowl, "I didn't even cry..."

Zi Luo tightened her arms, hugged him into her arms, and patted his back lightly.

Jiang Yu held his shoulder tightly: "You can talk to me, you can say anything."

"Yeah." Zi Luo replied, "You have just subsided from a high fever, and you haven't woken up after sleeping all day and all night, which frightened me."

"Isn't it..."

Zi Luo interrupted him: "Are you still feeling uncomfortable?"

Jiang Yuwo shook her head in his arms.

There was only half a bowl of porridge left, and Zi Luo fed him to eat it himself. In the end, Jiang Yu looked at him and muttered, "You haven't had a good rest either."

During the day and night when he fell into a deep sleep, Zi Luo hardly closed his eyes, his eyes were a little tired, and he couldn't see anything else.

Zi Luo didn't speak, and was about to leave with the bowl in hand.

Without taking a step, his clothes were tightly grasped, and Zi Luo looked down at the white fingers, like a child clutching an adult's sleeve, afraid of being left behind.

In an instant, a lot of emotions that he couldn't describe himself surged in his heart, do you like it, it's not that simple, love?It was far from enough, Zi Luo frowned, closed his eyes and thought.

It's a heartache, a severe heartache, a pain like peeling him off.

He placed the bowl on the table randomly, unsteadily, the bowl and the spoon were separated, and it took a while before they were quiet.He turned around and hugged Jiang Yu tightly, so tight that his chest was pressed against each other, so tight that he couldn't breathe.

He buried his face in Jiang Yu's neck, rubbed and rubbed again and again, the feeling in his heart went straight to his throat, the soreness was so unbearable that his eyes were red.

That night, he lay down next to Jiang Yu, his eyes were bloodshot, making Jiang Yu feel uncomfortable.

Jiang Yu stroked his chin, raised his head and kissed his lips, followed by the tip of his nose, and then went up, staring closely at his eyes.

"Go to sleep." Jiang Yu hugged him, "I'm fine, just rest assured and sleep."

He imitated Zi Luo before rubbing his eyes, Zi Luo closed his eyes, Jiang Yu rubbed his eyes for a while thinking he was asleep, then stopped, Zi Luo opened his eyes as soon as he stopped.Jiang Yu kneaded again, Zi Luo still didn't fall asleep after stopping.

Jiang Yu looked at him for a while: "You are not obedient anymore."

Zi Luo still looked at him like that, without saying a word.

"You should take a good rest." Jiang Yu said, "I'm right here, I'm not going anywhere."

After he finished speaking, Zi Luo slowly closed his eyes.

Jiang Yu listened to his breathing and watched him for a long, long time in the light of the night light.He took a deep breath trying to catch his breath, and slowly approached Zi Luo, this time he patted Zi Luo on the back lightly.

Since he was a child, he has relied on Zi Luo, he has no other friends, only Zi Luo is willing to play with him.It was as if he had grasped a ray of light and never let it go. He was afraid that this ray of light would illuminate others and leave him alone in the dark.

Relying on this thing is terrible, very scary, Jiang Yu dare not imagine what it will be like if he loses it, so he has been careful all these years, and only after being together can he really feel at ease.He wants to be with Zi Luo, and also wants Zi Luo to never leave him. He is greedy, selfish, and wants more warmth when he gets warmth. Only Zi Luo can give him these.

He always thought it was like this, until today he found out that Zi Luo is not only his hope, but also for Zi Luo, he can't lose, can't leave, can't have an accident, can't go far.

Jiang Yu buried her face in his chest, and when she looked up again, her eyes were already wet with tears.

"Luoluo." He said the three words that were interrupted just now, "...I'm sorry."

Zi Luo lacked rest, and this time he slept very deeply, but he couldn't feel at ease in his sleep, frowning, he stretched his hands to the side, and touched the cold bedding.

He opened his eyes suddenly, it was still dark outside, and there was no one around him.

He only slept for a few hours, and didn't go out to find Jiang Yu. He just turned on the computer and opened the interface, and kept watching, just watching.He didn't know Jiang Yu's score until now, he didn't ask, and Jiang Yu didn't mention it.

There was Jiang Yu's mobile phone on the bedside table, and he didn't bring anything with him when he left.Maybe Zi Luo knew where he had gone, but he didn't go out to find him.

Today is the last day to volunteer.

There were still a lot of phone calls that day, but Zi Luo didn't answer them all.The group is still active, because his score is the highest in the city, and he won the first prize in science in S city.

In the afternoon, the senior three students went back to school, just filled out the form and signed it, and they were fine.Hu Xiaoping was agitated for a while when he saw Zi Luo, his eyes were shining brightly, he was immediately surrounded when he entered the classroom, Zi Luo looked at Jiang Yu's seat, there was no one there.

Hu Xiaoping was still praising him, and he didn't calm down until he had nothing to say.Zi Luo asked, "Is Jiang Yu here?"

Hu Xiaoping was taken aback for a moment, and then realized that he had forgotten this matter in excitement, and changed his smiling face just now, full of confusion: "He came early, signed and left. I still want to ask you, is he What's wrong?"

Zi Luo clenched her fingers tightly.

"Why did he apply for a medical university in Zhangcheng with such a high score? What is he thinking? He can go to A university with this score line. Haven't you seen him? This kid, after three years of hard work, he still stays. Now here, it's not that the medical major is not good, his score is completely okay..."

Zi Luo couldn't listen to anything.

In the evening, he found Jiang Yu in Guqiao Park.

He didn't know how long he had been sitting there, maybe from morning to noon, from noon to the sunset now.Sensing someone walking in beside him, Jiang Yu didn't turn his head, but just looked into the distance.

Zi Luo stood beside him.

Jiang Yu said, "I'm not my own, I should be the only one who doesn't know about this."

"Before my dad left, he grabbed my hand and told me about it." His voice was very soft, "I was wondering why he chose to tell me before he died. I should take the responsibility, I have raised me for so many years, I will always pay back."

"It's just that my responsibility came too soon." Jiang Yu smiled, "But I have no choice."

Jiang Yu turned to look at him, with a brisk tone: "Luoluo, I've filled out my application, how about you?"

Zi Luo didn't meet his gaze, Jiang Yu smiled again: "I know, number one in science."

His voice became smaller and smaller, so small that it was almost inaudible: "...I know, A is big."

"It's amazing." Jiang Yu lowered his head, "I know you will pass the exam."

His head was getting lower and lower, his voice was getting smaller and smaller, he bit his lips to prevent the trembling crying from overflowing, he was afraid that Zi Luo would notice, so he covered his cheeks with his hands.But the breathing became heavier and heavier, and the panting slipped through the fingers, accompanied by the wind, which could be heard clearly.

Jiang Yu didn't want him to see it, but couldn't help it anymore: "I'm sorry."

"I'm sorry Luoluo, I'm sorry." He cried so suppressed that even his voice was distorted, but he didn't know what to say, even if Zi Luo didn't like to hear it, he still owed him these words, "I'm sorry, I don't know What should I do, I don't know, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

Zi Luo had been standing beside him. He looked at the grass swaying with the wind not far away, and listened to Jiang Yu crying softly.

He had never seen Jiang Yu cry like this.

He suppressed the soreness in his throat, finally turned around, squatted down to face Jiang Yu, and gently took his hands away.

But Jiang Yu was unwilling to let go, but his strength was not as strong as Zi Luo's. When he took his hand away, his face was already wet with tears.

Zi Luo looked at him without saying anything.

strange?It's also weird, but what can I do.He could see Jiang Yu's hard work. Even if he got into the top five of the grade, he still felt that it was not enough. He studied in the middle of the night every day, got up an hour early to listen to English, and slept less than six hours for a long time, which made him feel distressed.

It's not that they didn't work hard, but that they could reach the destination they always wanted to go after working hard, but they were stumbled by other things.This is what makes them helpless.

Responsibility, responsibility, whether voluntary or not, no one in this world can lose it.

Without saying anything, he opened his arms and hugged Jiang Yu, and closed his eyes when he heard him sobbing softly.

Jiang Yu grabbed him tightly: "I can't, I'm going to University A with you."

"...Jiang Yu."

His heart ached beyond measure, but he said against his will, "It's okay."

Jiang Yu grasped him tightly with both hands, tears glistening in the sun, he heard Zi Luo say it was okay.

Since he was a child, Ziluo always comforted him that it was okay, but this time Jiang Yu knew that it was impossible for him to be okay.

They looked for part-time jobs a year in advance to save money, and made time to make money from the endless test papers and endless books in the third year of high school. The reason was that they could afford the rent and live in the small nest that belonged to the two of them in City A. , The reason is to leave here and go to college together, so many days and nights, Zi Luo has accompanied him to work hard, accompany him to solve the questions, and when he is tired, lying in each other's arms for a while will be full of energy, for the purpose of A Great, that cabin.

But now, whenever Jiang Yu thought that Zi Luo was the only one in that room, his heart ached as if someone had cut him apart with a knife.

The picture kept appearing in his mind, Zi Luo went to school alone, went home alone, cooked alone, and was alone, quietly without hearing other sounds.

He was the only one in the place where there were originally two people.