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The dinner party for several people was chosen on the third day of the National Day holiday. There were more people on the street during the holiday, and there were no places to eat without making a reservation in advance.Several people ran from one to another, and finally waited in a restaurant for more than half an hour before waiting for an empty table.

A few people who haven’t seen each other for a while can’t keep their mouths open at the moment. They are all sharing or complaining about life in the university, complaining about the many courses and the difficulty of the courses. Ordering.

He raised his head and yelled, "Do you want to drink?!"

"Drink, drink!" Zhou Shuosuo said, "Give me a basket!"

Zhong Tian buried him: "You can pull it down, you will drink the fragments later and no one will take you home."

"Fuck, how can you treat your old classmates like this?"

"...You've only been a classmate for a month?"

Zhou Shuosuo patted the table: "I want a basket."

Hou Yi ticked off the menu smartly, and went to see Jiang Yu and Zi Luo again, seeing that they were silent, he persuaded, "It's been a long time since I've had a drink, let's have some today, be happy."

Jiang Yu let him order, went downstairs to a bathroom, stopped when he saw the wine on the cabinet when passing by the bar, and paid for a few bottles.

Back in the private room, he put a few bottles of liquor in front of Zi Luo's eyes, pointed at himself, and then at the bottles: "Jiang, Xiaobai."

"Jiang—" Zi Luo looked at him with a smile, pointed at him and finished the sentence, "Little idiot."

National Day is the last holiday, and the next time I want to gather together is probably the time for winter vacation.They ate this meal for a long time, drank too much, and when they became crazy, they talked loudly.Jiang Yu finished a bottle of Jiang Xiaobai mixed with Sprite, and drank a few more bottles of beer, and was being dragged by Zi Luo at the moment, feeling dizzy.

The sky outside had already turned dark, the lights on the side of the road were dim, the whole street was full of cars, and every store was doing very well. Several people walked forward for a while, and no one left after stopping.

Hou Yi stood with Meng Shu, he looked at the light in front of him, and turned to look at Jiang Yu.

The man was so drunk that he couldn't even walk steadily, so he could only be led by Zi Luo.He didn't know how Jiang Yu made up his mind to stay here, and he didn't know how Jiang Yu had lived for more than a month. He didn't hear him mention it, nor heard him complain.

He didn't know anything, but meeting again after a month made him feel that Jiang Yu was not as happy as before.

Even with Zi Luo by his side now, he is not as happy as before.

"You can't drink enough." Hou Yi smiled and talked to him, "You still drink so much with a poor capacity for alcohol, so you just rely on Zi to fall."

Jiang Yu tilted his body, and smiled lightly after hearing the last sentence: "That's right, it's because of him."

Hou Yi looked at him for a while, then said with a smile: "I wanted to sing at first, but now that you and Zhou Shuosuo are in this state, I guess they can't go anywhere. Well, let's go back to our respective homes."

"...What's wrong with me? I'm not drunk." Jiang Yu's eyes were red, his fingers tightly clutched Ziluo's hand, and he said bravely, "I'm going to sing, I can do it, I'm not drunk."

Several people didn't go home at two o'clock in the middle of the night, maybe because they knew that he and Zi were together, Xu Meiyin didn't rush this time.Jiang Yu sat on the sofa and watched the screen, and listened to the whole song quietly with Zi Luo.

Jiang Yu looked at the lyrics on the screen and murmured, "Luoluo."

The lights in the private room kept falling down, and the colorful light sprinkled on everyone's face.Zi Luo kept looking at him, and hummed slightly when he heard it.

Jiang Yu was so dizzy that she leaned back: "I want to listen to that song."

Zi Luo lowered his head.

"I want to hear it." Jiang Yu seemed to be talking in his sleep, "The one you played just for me."

As soon as Zi Luo went out and went to university, no one touched the piano at home. Xie Xiaoan wiped the piano clean and covered it up. Zi Luo opened the piano cover and sat down. I haven't touched the piano for more than a month, and my hands are really itchy. This time I played for an hour.

When he played the piece again, Jiang Yu leaned on his shoulder and listened with eyes closed. After 5 minutes, the sound of the piano stopped slowly, and the surroundings returned to silence.

When Zi Luo turned his head again, he found that Jiang Yu seemed to be asleep.

He chuckled and slowly wrapped his arms around him, but Jiang Yu suddenly opened his eyes, his eyes were full of fatigue, and Zi Luo clearly caught the flash of uneasiness in his eyes.

Zi Luo paused for a moment before saying, "Go to bed and sleep."

Jiang Yu's hand was still holding him firmly, staring at him for a while, then closed his eyes again.

The short seven-day holiday has passed, and many students have embarked on the way back.

Zi Luo brought a lot of things when he went back, Jiang Yu helped him get to the train station, stood there waiting for time to go away bit by bit, without talking to each other.

Time seemed to be winded up, and it was time to check the ticket.

Jiang Yu carried things for him, made sure nothing was missing, and didn't look up, and said, "It will be cold after October, don't get sick."

Zi Luo looked at him: "Okay."

"If you finish class first, send me a message, and I will send you a message when I finish class first. Reply when you are free, and share with me more about what happened there."

"it is good."

"I want to learn a few more dishes, and I will cook them for you next time you come back."

"it is good."

Jiang Yu's voice became smaller and smaller: "...I will study hard, you have to trust me."

Zi Luo opened his mouth slightly and didn't answer. A few seconds later, when he saw Jiang Yu raised his head, he bent his lips and smiled, and said softly, "Okay."

Jiang Yu reached out and hugged him, watching him go further and further away.

Life returned to calm after the holiday, and Ji Wang was very happy to learn that he hadn't left Zhangcheng, and felt pity for him after he was happy.Jiang Yu originally thought about whether to continue this part-time job to make up for him, but there were too many courses in the freshman year, and he was running between school and home, and he didn't have much time on weekends.

Xu Meiyin will go to the store recently, and will return home soon.She remained silent almost all the time, and Jiang Yu didn't talk to her much after finishing the meal. After cleaning, she returned to the room and held the recording doll in her hand.

Zi Luo sent him a video call after class, and Jiang Yu saw his surroundings clearly and saw that he was still in school.The two chatted for a while, Zi Luo said that he met Cheng Mingzhang recently, and he recognized him as a student, Jiang Yu said which dishes he had learned recently, and he didn't eat for a few days after the anatomy class.

Autumn is coming to an end, the streets of City A are covered with fallen ginkgo leaves, the sun shines down, and the whole street is golden.

Jiang Yu looked at the scene on the screen and imagined Zi Luo standing among the fallen leaves.

Zi Luo turned back the camera and didn't hang up until home.

Jiang Yu lay on the bed: "When will you come back from the New Year's Day holiday?"

"There is a class that day, I checked and there are still tickets tonight."

"already bought?"

"Not yet." Zi Luo said, "Buy it now."

Jiang Yu watched him pick up the phone and thought for a while: "Don't buy it, let me buy it."

Zi Luo didn't understand: "Huh?"

"I'm here to buy your ticket back."

"What's the difference?"

Jiang Yu had already clicked on the interface, and said while searching, "I'll save you money."

Zi Luo woke up at [-]:[-] in the morning and had a simple breakfast. After entering the school, he saw Shen Bin not far away, his hair was frizzy from sleep, and he had a bun in his mouth.

He was accompanied by a few roommates who were also from the physics department, and they seemed to be still asleep.One of them saw him with sharp eyes and shouted from a long distance away.

All the eyes of the surroundings looked at this side in unison, Zi Luo kept walking, Shen Bin waved at him with the buns: "Do you want to eat?!"

"..."

Shen Bin was out of breath when he ran over: "You really don't want to eat?"

Zi Luo said: "No."

"Hey, why don't we say that Qingheng University's food is the best. The steamed stuffed buns in our cafeteria are far worse than Qingheng's."

Zi Luo watched him take a bite of the steamed stuffed bun, and asked, "Have you eaten it?"

"I have eaten." Shen Bin turned to look at him, "I have a brother who passed the postgraduate entrance examination and got into Qingheng. He took me there last year. The food was really delicious."

Zi Luo nodded slightly.

Shen Bin didn't walk as fast as him, and ran a few steps to catch up: "We agreed to have barbecue together after class in the afternoon, so you should come too."

"You go."

"Don't, there are too many people to have fun together." Shen Bin asked endlessly, "Actually, I have never understood why you rent a house to live in. City A's housing prices are very high."

Zi Luo was already sitting in the classroom at the moment, he flipped through the book, and looked up at him after hearing this sentence.

Shen Bin was stunned by him for a moment, his first reaction was that he said something wrong, but after thinking about it again, it seemed that there was nothing wrong, he was stunned for a while: "...then, pretend I didn't ask."

After a while of silence, he hooked his head and went over again: "Barbecue... really don't want to go?"

Shen Bin is not a bad person, but a bit nagging. During the military training, he cared about the people around him. Zi Luo didn't have a bad impression of him.Because he rented a room outside, he would not take the initiative to talk to others in school, and the people he knows now are still the same people he met during the military training. After he announced his sexuality at the time, the few people did not show any disgust. Can't accept it. On the contrary, he has been treating him eagerly, and it would be bad if he keeps refusing.

He thought about it and agreed.

There was no self-study tonight, Shen Bin and the others went back to the dormitory, and a few minutes later they went to take the subway together.

Zi Luo is not a local, and he is not familiar with the road here. He still holds a book in his arms, and just follows a few people, looking down at his phone from time to time.

Bai Yuancan leaned back and walked towards him: "Are you chatting with your boyfriend?"

Zi Luo put away the phone, not knowing how to answer.

He really wanted to see if there was any news from Jiang Yu, but this time he was thinking that he hoped that Jiang Yu's news would come later, preferably after he had finished eating and returned home.

After getting off the subway, Shen Bin walked forward with a few people, walked on the bustling road for a while, turned into a street, and the destination was in front of him.

The moment Jiang Yu just sat down, a message from Jiang Yu came, three words: What are you doing?

Zi Luo gripped the phone slightly, and heard someone calling him.

Shen Bin handed over the menu: "Look at what you want to eat, I'll recommend you the premium beef, it tastes good."

"That's it."

Zi Luo didn't want to look at it, and gave the menu to Bai Yuancan who was next to him. The phone vibrated, and Jiang Yu sent another emoji before waiting for his reply.

The two of them knew each other's courses clearly, and Jiang Yu also knew that he was out of class at this moment. If he didn't get a reply, he would probably keep sending messages, and maybe he would send a video call in the next second.

Zi Luo thought so, the phone turned on, and he looked down, it really was.

"Why didn't you answer?" Bai Yuancan asked after seeing it, "Are you having trouble?"

"No."

Hanging up automatically, Jiang Yu sent again:?

Zi Luo took a slight breath and replied, "We're eating outside."

Encounter: With whom?

Falling: A classmate in a department

Jiang Yu really didn't reply.

Zi Luo sighed, took a short video and sent it to him.

Luo: We met before military training, they invited me to eat barbecue together

Yu: Ah, very good

Luo: Have you eaten yet?

Encounter: um

Zi Luo looked at this "um", and his fingers froze there for a long time without moving.

He had always known that Jiang Yu was sensitive, that he was afraid of being separated and becoming a stranger.What did the two of them do every day during the time they were separated, and where did they go? Jiang Yu would almost always send a message to tell him immediately, and he would also tell Jiang Yu about the whereabouts of the day.

It doesn't matter even if they are not in the same place, as long as they know what each other has done, it seems that they will still maintain that knowledge.

Jiang Yu thought so.

He listened to Xu Meiyin smashing the pot outside, and slowly closed his eyes, the sense of loss and blockage in his heart still persisted.

Because of the constant self-comfort, he can only accept separation now. He is not afraid of the distance, nor is he afraid that Zi Luo will not be by his side when he wakes up from a nightmare. What he fears most is that Zi Luo will meet new friends. These were people he didn't know.

He has been hanging around Zi Luo since he was a child, he knows Zi Luo's life clearly, no one knows Zi Luo better than him, no matter what happens, he is the first person to know.

But Zi Luo had new friends, none of whom he had met before.

Xu Meiyin's voice sounded outside the door, getting closer.I don't know if it's because it's close to the Chinese New Year, Xu Meiyin's temper has obviously become irritable in the past two days, and she pulls her face every day. When she sees him, she will only chatter, complaining that he didn't do well here and there. , Even if the house is dirty and hasn't been cleaned, I have to complain for a long time.

Jiang Yu bit her lower lip tightly, listening to the dirty words in her words, as if she had suddenly returned to the time when Jiang Dezhi was still there, scolding him just like that.

For so many years, he thought he was already numb, but he had been anxious these days, his chest was full of negative emotions, and he almost wanted someone to light the fire.

Anxiety surged up in Jiang Yu's heart, and went straight to his brain: "There is no end."

Xu Meiyin seemed to hear it, and her voice stopped for a while.

Then a louder voice came to the ears: "Endless! You don't like to hear what I say now, do you! Why don't you know how to help me share the housework—"

Jiang Yu took a deep breath, and opened his eyes suddenly after a few seconds: "I am full of classes every day, and I will cook for you when I come back from class, and then rush back to school after finishing, you make me unable to stay in the house all the time. Dormitory, okay, I agree. I come back every two days. Although I don’t know what the meaning is, I do the laundry, the dishes, and the meals. Sometimes I can’t sleep for five hours. What do you want me to do?!"

He almost roared and finished speaking, Xu Meiyin outside the door fell silent, Jiang Yu's eyes were flushed, and his head was dizzy: "You always have a bad face when you see me, I have done everything I should do , what else do you want from me?"

He stepped back step by step, his legs softened and he sat on the ground, his eyes froze in one place: "...Dad was not killed by me, why did you treat me like this?"

As soon as these words came out, Xu Meiyin immediately came over and smashed the door: "Why did I treat you? Am I not good enough for you? I can't blame you for raising you so much, can I? You will talk back without saying a few words, I raised you What the hell, you owe us so much!"

"It's true that you didn't kill your dad, but...but don't forget what your dad told you." Xu Meiyin paused, "My family used to be poor, and your dad and I worked so hard that you had to go to school and learn knowledge .When other people have new clothes, your dad will buy them for you, and even buy you a pair of sneakers...Jiang Yu, you can't just remember other people's bad things. Your dad has treated you well. Be a man You can't be so heartless!"

Jiang Yu felt weak all over and buried his face in his knees, listening to Xu Meiyin still talking about the past without saying a word.

I could have spared you.

No one wants you, except your brother Jiang Lai who is reluctant to send you away.

Regardless of how your dad treats you, he shouldn't hold grudges against him.

You didn't cry when he died... If you really hate him, I can't control him, but you have to always remember Jiang Lai, even if it's because of Jiang Lai...

……

Everything she said was true.

The mobile phone rang nearby, and it rang several times in a row. Jiang Yu raised his head slightly to see that it was Zi Luo's voice.

Luo: go back immediately

Luo: I forgot to tell you. I told them during the military training that I have a boyfriend. When you come, I will introduce you to them.

Fall: Where are you going?

Luo: The temperature has dropped in the past two days, and there is a forecast of snow at home. I don’t know if it will fall.If it snows, remember to take a picture for me.

Falling: Xiaojiang Yu

Luo: Keep warm, I think of you every minute

The picture seen in the eyes becomes blurred, but the hearing is real.Surrounded by depressing and painful atmospheres, Xu Meiyin's complaints in his ears never stopped. In this small space, the only thing that made him feel warm was the sound of ziluo coming from a long distance away.

Jiang Yu tugged at her hair vigorously, raised her head, gasped for breath, and slowly returned to the bed to lie on her stomach.

I think about you every second.

He listened to this sentence dozens of times, and finally grasped the phone firmly in his hand, his voice hoarse: "...me too."