sun washed by spring rain

36. (28)

Reality is often cruel, and it does not rescue every brink of collapse.

Everything remains the same, nothing can change it for any reason, it's like... the sun still rises.

If only I could have predicted this was the end...

So will my initial choice change...

If the choice I made at the beginning was completely opposite to what I am now, would I regret it?

If I do it all over again... I think, my choice is still...

Everything happened so suddenly recently that Yan Qianming couldn't get used to it at all.All the things that were not his turn to decide came flooding in, engagement, investment, children...

I thought that I could completely control the overall situation and decide the future.But in the end, everything was still a dream, he lost to reality, and once again got into a predicament.

Zhang Keying in front of him was still the same as before, with a bright smile that was pleasing to the eye.Every time, Yan Qianming will be attracted by this charming smile, no matter how many bad emotions there are, they will be wiped away when he sees this smile.

Now, her brows are beaming with joy, her red lips are lightly pursed, and she is talking with Yan Qianming about all engagement matters, but to be precise, this is not a discussion, but a notice.

Yan Qianming kept letting himself go, he listened mechanically, did not express any opinions, and only nodded to Zhang Keying's inquiry. Anyway, everything has been decided, and this inquiry is just a formality.

Zhang Keying seemed to have expected Yan Qianming's numb reaction, she stopped all movements with a smile, fixed her eyes on Yan Qianming, made him look directly at her, and then became serious, as if she was about to pronounce the final sentence .

"Our engagement date has been advanced, the day after tomorrow..." Zhang Keying raised her eyebrows, and the smile returned to her serious face.

Yan Qianming recovered from her expectations.It took a few seconds to react before digesting the content of these words.

"What?! So fast? Why are you in such a hurry? Can you discuss with me about anything in the future? What do you think of me!" Yan Qianming suddenly became angry... For some reason, that one appeared in his mind again The thin and frightened figure of a person.

Zhang Keying leaned back on the seat, seemingly not surprised by Yan Qianming's reaction.

"I thought you still didn't respond." She straightened up again, getting closer to Yan Qianming. "I brought it up. I've always been a little uneasy recently. I want to confirm the relationship between you and me quickly. Don't worry, everything is ready. You just need to be ready to be the groom."

Yan Qianming frowned. "What are you worried about? Engagement is not something that will happen sooner or later. Why are you in such a hurry." Yan Qianming originally wanted to say that you were afraid that I might run away, but after thinking about it, he didn't continue.

"I just want to go early! To save... long nights and dreams." After Zhang Keying finished speaking, she leaned forward again, staring closely at Yan Qianming, as if waiting for him to say something.

Sure enough, Yan Qianming saw something was wrong, and asked again: "What's the matter with long nights and many dreams? What's wrong with you?"

Zhang Keying didn't intend to explain, but blinked meaningfully, and said something that made Yan Qianming flustered.

"Qianming, we are engaged, what will happen in the future...don't hide it from me."

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Finally, it was the end of the month, and today was his last day working here.

After running out of the store suddenly that day, Zhang Ke took another two days off.He changed the lock of the house again, and specifically told the landlord not to open the door for Yan Qianming again.Although the landlord was strange, he only thought that the young people had quarreled and had conflicts, so he didn't ask.

For the past two days, Zhang Ke lived in fear, stayed at home and did nothing, and didn't want to do anything.He dug out the diary he kept every day during the previous surrogate pregnancy, turned over the previous pages and stuck them firmly with tape.Then, record a few sentences on a new page, and what the baby wants to say now.

That year was the last memory he didn't want to bring up again. The reason why he didn't throw away this diary was because in addition to recording the unbearable events, it also contained the memories of him and Yan Qianming.Yes, when his memory was crazy and his thoughts were crazy, he wrote down everything they had known since high school.During that time, he relied on these memories to sustain himself.And now, although he was reluctant to let go, he also personally sealed this memory.

"That father said he didn't want me to kill you... Then, he loves you too... Don't worry, I love you no matter what."

When he came back to work again, the proprietress surprisingly didn't ask anything, the new delivery boy gave him a wink, Zhang Ke finally felt relieved.

For some reason, today's orders suddenly increased a lot more than before.Zhang Ke packed all the meals for the day into a box, and finally he was able to straighten up, hammering his sore waist.

The food delivery staff in the store have already left one after another.But there are still two big boxes left.Zhang Ke stood longer than usual today. After packing the boxes, he couldn't hold on anymore. Thinking that he could finally rest for a while after finishing the work, the proprietress stopped him.

"Zhang Ke, there is an extra order today, and there are not enough manpower, you can go and deliver it." There is no problem with what the proprietress said. Zhang Ke was originally a part-time job, and the boss ordered him to do some things, so he naturally didn't There is no reason to refuse, but now, his waist is really uncomfortable.

"Ma'am, I feel a little uncomfortable...can you wait..." Although he was embarrassed, Zhang Ke didn't dare to risk his body, so he opened his mouth.

"What? I don't want to work hard on the last day of work here. I treat you pretty well. I asked you to take sick leave. I didn't say anything before you said no. Today, there are not enough people, so I let you send it away. Is it enough once? Can this meal be fresh after a while?"

Ever since Zhang Ke planned to leave, the proprietress has been critical of him. This time Zhang Ke directly refused. It was the last day, and the proprietress was not polite when she was angry.

Zhang Ke blushed when he was told that the proprietress was ignorant of his physical condition, and she was reasonable, so a big man like himself should not refuse such a small job.Zhang Ke thought for a while, since it was the last day of work anyway, he nodded and agreed.

There are two full boxes tied behind the seat, and there is a prescribed delivery time, and you can't ride very slowly. When you arrive at the delivery location, Zhang Ke's back is already covered with cold sweat.

Holding a box in one hand, Zhang Ke stood outside in disbelief, and confirmed the delivery location several times.

How can a five-star hotel order takeaway from their store?

After wondering for a long time, he called again, and after confirming that he was not mistaken, Zhang Ke picked up his pace and walked in...

37. (29)

It's not that Zhang has never encountered a wall.

Not only met, but also encountered a lot.It is very common for people who live at the lowest level of society to suffer from a setback in their dignity at work.Zhang Ke had already gotten used to it, and had no choice but to develop a thick skin.

He was carrying two big foam boxes, and since he stepped into the hotel, he kept receiving attention.

This is the first time for Zhang Ke to step into this kind of five-star hotel. The decoration here is magnificent, and a hall is almost bigger than the school playground.No wonder he was stopped by the security guard at the door and questioned for a long time, but now that he came in, he realized that standing here, he belonged to a completely different category.

Ignoring the weird eyes and undisguised ridicule of passers-by, Zhang Ke bit the bullet and walked to the front desk, respectfully asking where he could go upstairs.

The good training made the service staff at the front desk of the hotel still smile when they saw Zhang Ke, and patiently told him the location of the elevator and stairs, but after Zhang Ke thanked him and turned around, he still couldn't help whispering and voted Contemptuous eyes.

Zhang Ke shrugged and pretended he didn't see anything.His whole body was surrounded by embarrassment. Although everything here was gorgeous, he felt uncomfortable. He just wanted to finish the work quickly and escape from this place.

After crossing the entire lobby of the hotel, Zhang Ke finally found the location of the elevator. At this time, the elevator door was just about to close. Zhang Ke called out to wait a moment, and ran over quickly.

The footsteps had already reached the door, but they stopped slowly...

There were already five or six people standing in the elevator. They opened the elevator door, looked at Zhang Ke, and then looked at each other in the next second.

They were dressed gorgeously, as if they were going to a banquet, and they were carrying two suitcases and wearing greasy overalls.

If it stains their clothes...it might be another troublesome thing.

"I'm sorry...I'll wait for the next trip." Zhang Ke nodded, embarrassingly gesturing.Someone in the elevator laughed, and the person on the far side pressed the button, and the door slowly closed in front of Zhang Ke, blocking his sight.

Zhang Ke froze in place, he was in a daze, his eyes were out of focus, until the elevator came down again, and a few men and women in Chinese clothes came over, and he came back to his senses...

Or take the stairs...

Zhang Ke unconsciously grasped the handle of the box and hurried away.

Zhang Ke didn't take a good look at this building, so he didn't know how tall it was.The weight of the two boxes of lunch was unclear, so Zhang Ke had to stop and take a break every time he went up a floor.

After a while, he continued to go upstairs, his stomach moved a little by chance, Zhang Ke was startled, and almost fell down on the stairs with the box in his hand.

"Little Ancestor, I usually tell you not to move you, why don't you join in the fun now, be good, and when Dad gets off work today, I will spend all my time with you." Without a free hand to comfort, Zhang Ke paused on the spot After a while, they continued upstairs.

Zhang Ke didn't go upstairs very quickly, but during the period, he called twice to remind him to order. Zhang Ke was a little anxious and nervous, so he could only speed up the pace of going upstairs to shorten the time as much as possible.

I don't know how long it took to climb the stairs. Zhang Ke felt that his steps and the box in his hand were getting heavier and heavier. When he finally arrived at the designated place, his innermost clothes were already somewhat soaked in sweat. .

This floor seems to be more spacious than the downstairs, but the layout is relatively complicated.

The location of the stairs is relatively remote, and there is no one else to see except the hotel waiter when you walk in.Zhang Ke made a call to remind him to come over, but strangely no one answered.

The waiters standing around glanced at him from time to time, Zhang Ke was a little at a loss and had no idea, so he could only stand in the corner with his suitcase, waiting for the other party to call again.

After riding the bike and climbing the stairs for so long, Zhang Ke's back was already sore, his stomach was still squirming with numbness, and there were so many pairs of eyes around him, Zhang Ke didn't dare to touch them blatantly.He squatted and leaned against the corner of the wall, while relieving the backache, while trying to make his sense of existence as low as possible.

Gradually, graceful piano music sounded in the hall not far away on this floor, as if some large-scale event had begun.Zhang Ke held his mobile phone all the time and dared not relax. Hearing this voice, he glanced at the takeaway box and frowned.

What's going on here?There is nothing wrong with the location of the delivery here. Could it be that the people who participated in this event ordered the takeaway?How can it be?This is a five-star hotel!

If you think this is normal again, then Zhang Ke is not normal.Just as he was about to go over to see what happened, the piano music suddenly stopped and was replaced by a very magnetic male voice.

"Today is the engagement ceremony of Mr. Yan Qianming and Ms. Zhang Keying, all guests are welcome."

What is a blow to the head, I guess this is it.How could Zhang Ke mishear these two names.Before he could walk over, he couldn't move forward.

got engaged?Yeah...he said it to himself last time, but he didn't expect...so soon...

My heart was beating chugly, something seemed to be rolling in my mind, my feet didn't listen, and I approached numbly...

"Hey! What are you doing! You won't be allowed in without an invitation letter!"

His footsteps were blocked, all voices were deaf, and he was completely stunned.Why didn't he see the large group photo of roses all over the place...

That person is in front, holding his fiancée... It seems that he is quite happy...

Zhang Ke took a few steps back, the takeaway box still in the corner looked so ridiculous.

Could this be a coincidence?I wanted to ignore it deliberately, but I must use this method to let me witness it?

There seemed to be some piercing eyes cast over.Zhang Ke's heart was shocked.He was not mistaken, Zhang Keying, who was toasting just now, glanced at him, and just one glance fell on him... It was also scalding hot.

Zhang Ke took a few steps back, he didn't expect it wrong... Zhang Keying took Yan Qianming's arm, as if to lead him to this side.

Don't, don't come here, don't let me see!don't see me!

Cold sweat broke out from Zhang Ke's forehead, his mind was blank, his heart was constricted, and his whole body was shaking non-stop.

getting closer...

Zhang Ke staggered, the ground was very slippery, he retreated quickly, and before Yan Qianming was about to turn his head to look here, he almost crawled and ran towards the original direction.

38, (30 on)

The stairs are so long... even longer than when I first came up...

Panting heavily, Zhang Ke rushed down the stairs in three steps at a time. He was very afraid, he was afraid that Yan Qianming would see him, and then he would hold her hand and say in front of him.

"Why do you come here like this, we are engaged, we are happy..."

yes!yes!Very happy, how happy you are!

Some moist liquid came out of the eyes while running, Zhang Ke opened his mouth wide, breathed desperately, sucked in a mouthful and swallowed hard, trying to swallow the unstoppable choking back.But he couldn't do it, his inhalation became louder and louder, and finally the choking turned into sobbing.

"Uh..." There was an untimely twitch in his stomach, Zhang Ke might as well, his feet were soft, and the next step was empty.

His legs became limp, and his feet seemed to be twisted. Zhang Ke grabbed the handrail and sat down on the ground.

Sweating all over again, I don't know if he was running or scared, Zhang Ke sat on the cold stairs with his stomach in his arms, tears streaming down his face no longer.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I shouldn't run, I shouldn't run..." Zhang Ke sobbed, with snot and tears hanging on his face, his stomach slowly calmed down, he didn't move, and the sudden pain disappeared .

After sitting for a while and making sure that there was nothing wrong with his stomach, Zhang Ke stood up slowly while supporting his waist.

The foot twisted a bit, but it wasn't too bad that he couldn't stand up and walk. Zhang Ke wiped away his tears with his sleeve.

Leaving here, I'm so tired, he just wants to go home now...

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After drinking hot water and taking some medicine, Zhang Ke buried himself in the bed, not even wanting to show his face.

The events of the day are in his mind, no matter how he closes his eyes or opens them, those mocking, indifferent, and blissful images are displayed in front of him one after another like a movie.

It was so cold even under the quilt, Zhang Ke closed his eyes and hugged his stomach and curled up into a ball, maybe this is the only way to warm himself up.

Get out of here... get out of here, tomorrow morning, we'll be out of here...

"Um...uh..." The stomach started to have bouts of dull pain at some point, and Zhang Ke woke up in a daze in his sleep. He was panting, his eyes were half-closed, and he was not fully awake yet.

Just now...he seemed to have a dream. In the dream, a small vague figure was waving to him, as if saying goodbye to him.

"don't want……"

Zhang Ke finally woke up completely, his hair was disheveled, the veins on his neck exploded, and the dull pain continued. He tightened his body and couldn't help rubbing and rolling on the bed.

□□Suddenly wet, Zhang Ke turned on the light with shaking hands, touched it, and looked carefully, his hands were already covered with blood.

"Impossible...impossible!"

Zhang Ke's eyes were bloodshot, and he struggled to get up and sit up.

Excessive fatigue and grief had already exhausted him, and the fragile fetus in his belly seemed to have finally reached the highest point it could bear.

It kept wringing, clamoring, struggling, and no more nostalgia.

"Impossible! Impossible!" Zhang Ke's eyes widened. He covered his stomach with one hand and moved his body slowly. The other bloody hand touched the mobile phone beside the bed.

It was almost midnight... Zhang Ke tried his best to calm himself down and called the ambulance. After that... there was an endless wait.

He was panicked, in pain, afraid... an unprecedented sense of darkness and fear surrounded him, the surroundings became colder and darker, and his eyes became darker and darker...

The hand touched the phone again, there were very few phone numbers saved in it, the first... was Yan Qianming's.

Without hesitation, he pressed the dial button.

Take it... Please, take it, I'm so scared, really scared...

One sound, two sounds...every sound seemed to hit Zhang Ke's heart.

The beeping stopped, the other party answered the phone, and hope seemed to be rekindled, revealing the dawn.

Zhang Ke smiled weakly. His throat was hoarse and he had no energy, but he was still in a hurry and wanted to speak.

"Hello, Zhang Ke? I'm sorry, today's situation is a bit special. What's the matter, can I go to you tomorrow? That's it, hang up first."

Zhang Ke's expression froze, and before he could make a sound, he didn't close his opened mouth.The beep on the phone continued, but it was more urgent than before.

"Ah——! Yan Qianming! Do you know that your child is going to die?! Our child!! It is going to die! Ah——! Why are you doing this to me!! Ah——!"

The phone flew out in an arc and fell to pieces, and Zhang Ke didn't know where he got more strength.

He wailed, the cry was terrible, and he twisted like crazy.One hand was clenched into a fist and the head was hitting the bed board one after another, and the other hand was pressing on the belly tightly as if about to sink into it.

The blood seems to be flowing more and more... Why hasn't the ambulance arrived yet... Yan Qianming... I'm going to die too...