I'm not the only one in the mountain

"Gu Donghe."

It wasn't the first time I saw him shed tears, but it was the first time I showed such eyes in front of myself.

Heavy, desperate and begging.

The last time Gu Donghe saw such eyes was before his mother passed away.

My heart hurts.

"I'm here."

Gu Donghe walked to the side of the bed, bent down, and answered softly.

"eat something."

Helping Xiao Li to sit up, leaning against the pillow at the head of the bed, Xiao Li lowered his eyes and obediently drank the porridge that Gu Donghe fed to his mouth.

"Let's have a rest." After feeding half a bowl of porridge, Xiao Lian didn't want to eat it at first. Gu Donghe finished the rest of the porridge, put the bowl aside, helped him to lie down, and poked his forehead again. , the fever subsided a little, not as hot as before, "I'll stay here for you."

Xiao Greed closed his eyes, and his breathing gradually slowed down.

Gu Donghe carefully covered him with the quilt, packed the tableware, sat down beside the bed as he said, and read the materials with his notebook in his arms.

But can't see it.

Lin Su sent him a folder after looking for him yesterday, but I haven't had time to read it yet.

"you will like it."

Thinking of Lin Su's smile at that time, it changed from the gentle and polite in the past, and there was an unknown light in his eyes.

Gu Donghe looked at the folder at this moment, his eyes flickered, and he moved the mouse to open it.

There was a folder of pictures, the minimized icon didn't tell what it was, Gu Donghe clicked on the first one, he was stunned, he kept raising his hand and stopped in place.

The person on the screen is Xiao Greed.

Lying naked on his side on the bed, his arms covering his eyes, his body stretched out and exposed to the camera, the boy is well-proportioned, his waist is sunken, his legs are unnaturally straight, and his whole body is awkward.

Press the mouse to cut to the next picture, it's still Xiao Lian, this one is taken from the side, Xiao Lian is lying flat, his eyes are covered by a tie, his lips are slightly parted, and the smooth lines extend all the way to the jaw, neck, collarbone, and shoulders , hands on the side, the partial picture is full of lust and temptation.

Looking back, the body with lust during orgasm, the front side, the whole body half of the body; the eyes glowing with water, the red lips, the sexy lines in different poses; The exposed half of the cheek buried in the pillow, the beautiful butterfly bone on the back when she fell in...

Gu Donghe looked over one by one with a calm expression, and the last few made him almost grit his teeth.

Taken from Lin Su's angle, Xiao Greed is kneeling between his legs, with something in his mouth, and misty eyes.

This is a scene that Gu Donghe has never imagined, that proud and tough man, making such an act of submission to another person.

But he was neither angry nor disgusted.

He was distressed.

A person with such a strong desire for self-protection has to overcome many psychological obstacles to cooperate with him so unscrupulously.

It is said that Xiao Greed is kind to Lin Su because he loves him to the core, and even Lin Su believes it.

But Gu Donghe knew that it was one thing for Xiao Greed to love Lin Su, but he was kind to him because he thought Lin Su loved him—maybe it was true love, but it didn't matter anymore.

Xiao Greed longs for love, just like a traveler longs for a destination.

That was the paradise he couldn't see, and it was the source of his worry about gains and losses.

So humble, so desperate.

Xiao Lian lacked love when he was a teenager, so he was crazy about the feeling of love.

So the ignorant young man melted his sincerity into a bullet and handed it to the sniper with his own hands.

He thought he could protect himself with bullets, but in the end the direction of the muzzle was the opposite.

One blow hit the red heart, shattering all courage, trust and struggle.

The dark clouds that had finally come out covered the entire sky again, and he remained motionless in the rain, letting his heart be riddled with holes.

Like a child at a loss, he lost his way in this world.

The more Gu Donghe understands, the more distressed he is.

He didn't know why he firmly believed in this idea. When he didn't know what happened to Xiao Greed, maybe it was Xiao Greed's eyes when the life disappeared in the hospital. Something other than grief took up too much. large proportion.

It was many years later that Gu Donghe figured out why that look haunted him, and every time he thought about it, he felt sour.

There were mixed emotions in that look, not like a teenager.

What kind of experience has created such a soul.

Before Gu Donghe could figure it out, he fell into it and never looked back.

It's not love at first sight, it's just tossing and turning after thinking about it, so I fell in love.

He turned off the computer, his mind was in a mess, he had no intention of working at all, he got up and went to the balcony, and lit a cigarette.He knows how to smoke, and the company's affairs are really overwhelming. Gu Donghe, like many people, also uses smoking to relieve stress.

The strange thing is that even after looking at so many shocking photos, what Gu Donghe thinks about is the one Xiao Lian took when he was in the office, the sun fell on him, delicate and gentle.

No emotion, no desire, simple and clean beauty.

After Gu Donghe finished smoking a cigarette, he lit another.It is rare for him to smoke continuously like this, this time he was probably really upset.

After pondering for a moment, he lowered his head and sent a message to a computer friend. After a few messages, an email was sent to the opposite side. Gu Donghe then sent it to Lin Su: "The memory of the phone was accidentally cleared, and I didn't see the file. You sent it to me. email."

Then call Song Li.

After briefly talking about what Lin Su had done, there was a long silence on Song Li's side.

"I really didn't expect..." Sighed, as if he didn't know what to say, "How is Xiao Greed now?"

"He's resting, and I'll take care of him." Gu Donghe rested his hand on the window sill with a cigarette in his hand, "Tell me about what happened to Xiao Greed these years."

Song Li seemed to have changed to a quieter place: "I knew him from primary school, and his family moved across from my house."

Gu Dong and Ren Yan burned it by themselves without taking another puff, and threw it directly into the trash can after burning.

The smoke fluttered and still hadn't dissipated, and I heard Song Li talking about Xiao Li being locked up at home and being beaten, Xiao Li's parents divorced, Xiao Li suddenly became silent, Xiao Li disappeared for a while.

He talked about how good Xiao Greed used to be, and how Xiao Greed was lonely later on.

Gu Donghe listened to these fragments silently, as if he had pieced together a Xiao Greed he had never seen before in his heart.

A Xiao Greed who was becoming more and more complete, but also made him want to rush forward and hug him even more.

I want to give a bit of warmth to the soul that has been shattered and put together again, and I want him not to have to bear the breathless heaviness.

After Gu Donghe hung up the phone, he couldn't recover for a long time. What Song Li said was strung together with what Lin Su deliberately let him know, like a thread, strangling his throat, making him unable to breathe.

This person didn't say a word, and his heart seemed to be tossing over and over again as if in a frying pan.

Well, it's all over, it's over.

Gu Donghe thought.

With him in the future, he will not let Xiao Lian fall into the quagmire to be polluted with filth and suffering.

He can't wait for the person he holds dear in his heart to tolerate such insults from others and play around with him wantonly.

But Gu Donghe forgot that he is a human being, not a god.

He can keep Xiao Greed from asking for appeasement from others, but he still has to rely on God's will.

Maybe he can protect Xiao Greed for the rest of his life, but not now.

Fate has been written, can not escape.

whoever he is.

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Don't rely on others, but also rely on God's will.

——Yidong "The Eighth Style of Life"

=w= Amway is a very young song.