I'm not the only one in the mountain

In the evening, Gu Donghe got off work on time, and after picking up Xiao Li, the two of them went to eat first. There was a new Japanese food restaurant near home, and Xiao Li had wanted to go before.

Sitting cross-legged on the tatami, Xiao Li rested his chin on the menu while Gu Donghe poured him a cup of tea.

"Would you like a bottle of sake?" He turned to the wine at the back as soon as he flipped through it, and browsed happily.

Gu Donghe had no choice but to say, "Drink less, forget about sake, how many bottles of bozi can you drink."

Xiao Greed didn't want to talk: "How many bottles can I drink? Don't be stuffed to death."

Curling his lips, he turned forward when he ordered the original soda.

"I don't like sashimi... I can't eat it." I turned a page, my eyes quickly scanned the page, "Tempura, and this, set C, drinks at room temperature... Sakura roll you Do you want to eat? Another sakura roll, that's all, thank you."

Gu Donghe looked at him while drinking tea, and answered a few words from time to time, watching him hand over the menu to the waiter after ordering.

The soda came up first, and the waiter opened the bottle for him before leaving. Xiao Lian bit the soda, staring at the glass beads shining from different angles under the light, and there was still some foam floating beside him. He stirred it lightly, and the light When it shines on the glass beads, the colors seem to flow, which is kind of fun.

"Like to drink? Go back and buy some to keep at home." Gu Donghe watched him playful, and helped him warm the dishes with hot water and set them up.

Xiao Greed looked at him helplessly: "It's okay."

The dishes were served very quickly, and the two chatted one after another. After the dishes were served, the waiter bowed his head and walked out, closing the door. The two sat cross-legged in the small space, and the warm yellow lights shone on On the table, there was a softness.

Xiao Greed put a piece of sushi in his mouth, and commented: "Not bad, very delicious."

Gu Donghe also took a bite and chewed slowly, the tableware bumped against each other from time to time, making clinking noises, the two of them started eating without talking much, until Xiao Greed was full.

"I asked my assistant to buy a gift, but I don't know if your father will like it."

"Whatever," Xiao Greed didn't care, stuffed a big mouthful of rice balls, and said vaguely, with some sarcasm in his tone, "It's better to please his person than to please him."

"Xiao Greed." Gu Donghe said helplessly, but it was just a click. He didn't mind Xiao Greed's emotions, and he was happy to listen to him if he could express his emotions in front of him. He just hoped that he would not worry about these emotions. Make yourself uncomfortable.

"I know," Xiao Greed took a sip of his soda, his voice sounded muffled, "How well he can live, it's not that bad anyway."

The neighborhood where Xiao Li's father lived was some distance from his home, and it took the two of them nearly half an hour to drive smoothly. Xiao Li began to talk less and less on the way halfway, staring at the scene outside the window without taking his eyes off it.

The parking lot of the community is underground. After getting out of the car, Gu Donghe carried the large and small bags in his hands from the trunk. Xiao Lian led the way, went up to the ground, turned a few turns in the community, and walked to the front of a small high-rise building. , a man stood downstairs with a few cigarette butts by his feet, obviously staying for a while.

The man raised his head and saw Xiao Greed, stunned for a moment, pinched the cigarette in his hand and threw it into the trash can, stepped forward a few steps and stopped again.

Xiao Greed walked in front of him, the light in his eyes flickered and he lowered his eyes, put his hands in his pockets and clenched into fists, he opened his mouth but didn't say anything.

"Here we come." The man said a little jerky, and rubbed his hands together, feeling that there was nowhere to put them.

"Ah."

Xiao Greed responded.

"Go up, come." Swipe the card to open the unit door, Xiao Lian pulled it away, and the man noticed the person behind Xiao Lian, standing there with big bags and small bags.

"You are……"

"My friend," Xiao Greed paused, then turned around and said, "Boyfriend."

"Ah? Oh..." The man was taken aback for a moment, his expression darkened, and he said with some embarrassment, "Go in too."

Gu Donghe nodded to him and followed.

Father Xiao opened the door and shouted into the room, a figure came out from the back room, he was obviously stunned for a moment when he saw Gu Donghe, but Gu Donghe greeted him with a smile: "Mr. Qi, long time no see."

Xiao's father only gave him a surprised look, without saying anything, and let the two sit down on the sofa.

Qi Yuan brought teacups and put them in front of several people, the four cups were steaming, the living room was quiet for a while, as if the sound of silver needles falling could be heard, Xiao Li didn't know how to speak, and also had some struggles, sat silently, Gu Donghe naturally didn't want to speak first; Qi Yuan drank his tea in sips, obviously not intending to start a conversation; Xiao's father lowered his head in silence, turning the teacup around in his hands in a daze but didn't take a sip.

"These years... have you been okay?"

Father Xiao spoke first, speaking dryly.

"It's okay." Xiao Greed said it almost smoothly. He answered this kind of question too many times without even thinking about it. Then he thought of something and lowered his head with a smile, "It's hard to say, let's live like this."

Although it was very general, the topic was opened anyway.

"I see that you and Uncle Qi are having a good time."

Father Xiao twitched the corners of his mouth, but he didn't laugh. He finally sighed and said, "It's Dad who's sorry for you."

Xiao Greed thought he could face it calmly, but the moment he heard this sentence, he still felt his nose a little sore. He blinked a few times, crossed his fingers, and the knuckles turned white.

"Stop talking about that?" he said, "It's pointless."

In a word, the atmosphere became awkward again.

"Cough," Gu Donghe broke the silence, he felt Xiao Greed's emotions, and pinched the back of his neck to comfort him, "Uncle Xiao, the past is over, and Xiao Greed will come out, You don't have to blame yourself too much."

Xiao Greed just tilted his head to look at the floor, without saying a word.

"What happened back then... I was wrong, I shouldn't have done it in the first place." Father Xiao said slowly, with regret and self-blame in his words, "It hurt your mother, and it hurt you too."

"It's nothing harmful." Xiao Li's tone was indifferent, and his voice was fairly steady, "You have your own difficulties."

Gu Donghe glanced at him, a little surprised.

Father Xiao obviously didn't expect it, and his eyes turned red.

"I know, you've had a hard time these years. I've asked Song Li intermittently. That kid has a soft heart, but he has been hard on me a few times." He said with a wry smile, thinking of something, "I should thank him, having this friend, I'm very relieved."

"Heh." Xiao Greed smiled softly, not knowing what to laugh at, "Does Song Li ever get tough?"

"Xiao Greed..." Hearing what he said, Xiao's father was a little helpless, and said a little hesitantly, "I know, I don't have the right to tell you what to do, and give you compensation every month... Maybe it's nothing, I also ...can't do anything."

"Am I short of money?" Xiao Greed looked up at him, the first time he was looking directly at him when he entered the door.

This man had aged quite a bit, his brows that seemed to have withdrawn were stained with traces of wind and frost, there were more slanted lines at the corners of his eyes, and white was added to his temples.

Father Xiao was taken aback for a moment, this seemingly strong man was at a loss for what to do.

The sudden words were a bit emotional, Gu Donghe lightly tapped his arm to remind him, Xiao Greed remained silent and stubborn.

"Uncle Xiao, money is not everything, you should know what Xiao Greed needs."

He didn't wear his usual formulaic smile, and he spoke every word seriously.

Father Xiao sighed heavily, looking at Xiao Greed's eyebrows and eyes which were not the same as when he was young, he was slightly lost in thought.

The kid is still stubborn.

Over the years, not much has changed.

"It was my fault back then. I should take you away. It was my fault." After hearing a few words from Song Li, he has been unable to make up for it. Coldly rejected thousands of miles.

"Why do you care about me?"

The only time he went to look for Xiao Greed, Xiao Greed was standing inside the door, with his sleeves rolled up in his pockets, his whole body exuded the aura of "stay away from me", the eyes he looked over saw nothing, empty and broken.

After hearing the purpose of Father Xiao's visit, he threw out this sentence lightly, and was speechless.

Since then, although I have called every year during Chinese New Year, I have never gotten a good look from Xiao Greed.

"Yes, you were wrong," Xiao Greed said after being silent for a long time, "But you are not wrong here, you have been wrong from the very beginning, you have been wrong again and again, and have been wrong for decades."

Every word and sentence is like a dagger quenched with poison.

He watched Xiao's father lower his head, his shoulders were slightly slumped, and his back was bent, as if he had aged a lot in an instant.

It should be happy, but it is more uncomfortable, and the chest is full of traces.

His nose was sour, and something growled in his eyes, wanting to break out of the cage.

"Xiao Lie, maybe your father is at fault," Qi Yuan, who had been silent all this time, said without changing his expression. Xiao Lie looked up at him, "He's sorry for you, but you shouldn't use these things to hurt you casually. He, he loves you very much."

Xiao Greed sneered: "What's the point?"

Then he took a deep breath and raised his voice, which was already choked with sobs. He thought he could keep calm, but he didn't know until he was in front of this man that he couldn't.

"What's the point of you telling me I'm sorry?"

What happened can't be changed, the responsibility this man gave up can't be made up for, and the damage can't be ignored.

But people still have to move forward.

Gu Donghe hugged him and stroked his back to comfort him.

Xiao Greed returned to reason after a momentary gaffe, his chest rose and fell violently, and he stabilized his emotions.

"I'm not here today to question anything or ask for compensation."

He twisted his fingers and spoke with some difficulty.

"What happened in the past," paused, "it doesn't make sense to pursue accountability, I just want to show you someone."

The three of them were stunned, and Gu Donghe didn't expect him to come here.

Xiao Greed cleared his throat to cover up the choking.

"he's good."

Father Xiao froze for a few seconds, then laughed out loud.

"well."

It turned out to be a demonstration and show off.

it is good.

Of course it's good.

He didn't know what happened between Gu Donghe and Xiao Greed, but he must have recognized it for letting his son do this.

Now that he is happy, what else can he ask for.

For so many years, I have been unable to calm down, and I have an answer.

After sending the two of them out, he closed the door and turned around. Qi Yuan leaned against the wall and looked at him.

Father Xiao walked over, and before he could speak, he hugged him in his arms and let out a long breath.

"What's wrong?" Qi Yuan didn't move, turned his head and asked him, "Are you angry with your son?"

Father Xiao sneered: "Well, I'm angry, my son has grown up and was abducted."

Qi Yuan also smiled: "Children have their own lives."

"Yes, I have my own life." He raised his head, stood up straight and looked at Qi Yuan, saw the tenderness in his lover's eyes, lowered his head and nodded on his lips, "That child looked at Xiao Greed's eyes , exactly the same as you, I knew it and didn't run away."

"You." Qi Yuan shook his head helplessly, and laughed at him, "How old are you still doing this?"

"I've solved the knot in my heart for so many years," the two stood facing each other, neither of them moved in tacit understanding, "I'm sorry for him, and I'm sorry for you too."

Qi Yuan sighed: "Old Xiao, there is never any need to talk about this between us. I have already said that the past is the past. Don't mention it again, and I won't care."

"Yes." He added, "Thank you, I am very happy, A Yuan."

"I think so too, so you cook tomorrow, remember." Qi Yuan said with a smile, turned and walked to the bedroom.

"Hey……"

"Love you."

Qi Yuan didn't forget to blow him a kiss before entering the room.

Father Xiao: "..."

Fine.

Besides, Xiao Li and Gu Donghe went out of the building over there, Xiao Li looked at the sky in silence, the sparse starlight, without the moon, the lights of the city can illuminate the entire sky.

After walking a few steps, he grabbed Gu Donghe's hand, and Gu Donghe squeezed it back hard, and he clenched his palms together.

"Take my hand, and it's mine."

Xiao Greed uttered a sentence without beginning or end.

"Yes, your people."

Gu Dong and Submissive agreed.

"It's still a failure today, I can't help it." Xiao Greed said with a smile.

"No," Gu Donghe didn't go along with him now, they got into the car, squeezed out 2 minutes to kiss while Xiao Lian fastened his seat belt, "it's good enough to take this step."

"I wanted to talk about things, but I still didn't make it, no way."

Gu Donghe walked around to the other side and got into the car, buckled up his seat belt: "Take one step at a time, don't rush."

"En." Xiao Greed replied, adjusting his mood.

In fact, the moment I went out, I felt a lot more comfortable, and all the doubts and resentments that had been lingering in my heart were relieved.

He looked up with a smile: "Going to eat supper?"

"Walk."

Gu Donghe didn't say much, and turned the steering wheel to drive on the main road.

The street lights are flickering, there is no star river tonight, and the moonlight is not beautiful, but my lover is by my side.

There is hope ahead.

Facing the wind, facing the night, the world is big and the road is still long.

The author has something to say

At the end of the period, there are a lot of DDLs, and the updates are probably a bit clunky.

By the way, I hope that there will be no misunderstanding. There is an explanation behind the pair of fathers, not just whitewashing like this