Xiaqingshan

should regret

The long river fades away

The queen mother's surname is Ning.

Before she got married, she was the second daughter of Duke Wu. She has a bold and forthright personality on weekdays and learned martial arts from her elder brother.

She is famous for her straightforward temper, and her mother is always worried that she will not find a good family if she continues like this, while her elder sister, Duke Wu's eldest daughter, is well-known in Beijing for being gentle and gentle.The two sisters seem to be two completely different people. If it weren't for their similar looks, ordinary people would not think of them together.

However, she was still a young girl at that time, but she had her own secret.

This is an unspeakable secret - she has a crush on the young master of the He family who works in the Imperial College.It's just that the other party is as gentle as jade and treats people kindly. Every time I meet him, I can only blush. I don't know where the original free and easy treatment of people is. .

Others made fun of her when they saw her, especially Li Wenhao, who was not crowned king at that time, and said carefreely, "Ning Bixin, I didn't expect you to have such a girly side, does Mr. He know about you?" Can you kill a deer with one arrow in a hunting ground?"

She met Li Wenhao in the military camp and was considered a bad friend. Hearing this, she was about to kick the bad young man, but he easily dodged and continued to tease her.

This secret was buried in the deepest part of her heart until the year Mr. He got married.

Mr. He married her elder sister.

The elder sister, Ning Lanyu, lives up to her name, and her gentle temperament is the best match for that Mr. He Jinghe. The two of them will probably never blush and say a word in their lifetime together.

That's how it should be. My sister has a kind personality and treats everyone very well, and Mr. He's family background and appearance are also excellent. The two are a match made in heaven.

Ning Bixin buried this feeling deeply in her heart, and only regarded it as a little fantasy dream when she was a girl.When she grew up, she followed her father to the military camp.When she returned to Beijing, the eldest son of her sister and brother-in-law's family had already been born.

She went to visit her elder sister in the He Mansion. She wore a light-colored dress and a hairpin that she loved when she was young. It was very different from the armor of the army.After entering He's mansion, there were other guests in the mansion—an old Taoist priest, who seemed to be an old acquaintance of the He family.

My sister's child is ice and snow cute, and he is already out of the moon at this time.Ning Lanyu was holding the child, and her husband He Jing was sitting beside her. After exchanging pleasantries with the master of the He family, the old Taoist suddenly proposed to do a fortune-telling for the newly born eldest son of the He family.Ning Bixin didn't understand these divination techniques, she just did the calculations casually, but she didn't expect the old man to finish his calculations, and asked the child if he had a name?

He Jing said that the first name has not yet been chosen, only the baby name is called Zhanlin first.

The old man nodded, and it was appropriate to say it.If the name is not good, it is called Zishen, be careful in your words and deeds, and you can avoid the difficulties in this life.

The baby's baby name was not randomly chosen. Not long after the birth, an eminent monk in a temple in the suburbs of Beijing was invited to calculate it. He said that if there was a fire in his life, it could be suppressed by water, so the baby's baby name was Zhanlin.

However, the name Zishen was too reserved and old-fashioned. In the end, the eldest son of the He family was named He Zhihong.

Ning Lanyu's health is not good, and she hasn't seen anything since then, the husband and wife are still in harmony, raising their eyebrows together.And this little single seedling of the He family has become the treasure of everyone's heart, and they love it extremely.

After another year or two, Li Wenhao was named the King of Yan. Ning Bixin married him and became Princess Yan. She went to the fief Yanzhou with him, and never returned to the capital for a long time.

When I returned to the capital again, it was already after the chaos.

Years have passed, and the mansion of the He Mansion on Xuanwu Street has long been destroyed. She went to worship in the rain alone, and stood in front of the charred ruins, trying to remember what this mansion once looked like. The plaque of the He Mansion, the vermilion gate of the house, from here, is the He Mansion... She remembered the last time she saw her sister, He Jing, and the child named He Zhihong here.

After that catastrophe, these people are gone.The dead are gone, but between the heaven and the earth, relatives are scattered, and I don't know where they are.

Yan Wang Li Wenhao was originally the youngest son of the first emperor, and he was very talented in leading troops to fight.In the rebellion of the five kings a few years ago, when the army of Mobei people was about to break through the capital, he led troops from Yanzhou to rescue them, and they won more with less, protecting the already precarious court.

At that time, the reigning Emperor Li Wenpei was enthroned with the support of the ministers after Sejong was captured by the Mobei people. He and Sejong were both descended from the former empress, but Li Wenhao, the king of Yan, was not favored, and it was impossible for him to take the throne. .

Sejong Li Wencong's imperial conquest was captured by the enemy, and the Mobei people put forward many conditions for them to redeem the emperor who had become a prisoner.However, the old ministers in the court were stubborn and established a new emperor.When the other princes saw this, they all had their own thoughts. He, Li Wenpei, could do it well, why others couldn't do it, and those who had some soldiers in their hands all sent to the capital for a while, but the people from Mobei took the opportunity to go south.The capital city is about to be destroyed, and this most prosperous city will soon turn into a purgatory on earth.

The capital was besieged for a month, and some people surrendered, while others did not.The He Mansion, a century-old family, died in this turmoil. When King Yan's soldiers arrived, the He Mansion was already in ruins.

After the rebellion of the five kings subsided, several former Tianhuang nobles were imprisoned, while King Yan sent troops to Mobei and beat the enemies back to their hometowns all the way.Mobei was defeated, and no longer took the captured Emperor Sejong as a hostage. When the net was broken, he poisoned the self-willed emperor who had fallen into the hands of the enemy.

In the end, the emperor was exhausted physically and mentally after suffering such a catastrophe. His only son did not survive the flames of war. After he abdicated, the ministers finally welcomed Yan Wang Li Wenhao into Beijing and ascended the throne as emperor, and everything became stable.

When Li Wenhao was in power, Ning Bixin was the queen.After Li Wenhao's death, she became the queen mother.

The once invincible emperor died of illness from overwork. Years of wars did not defeat him, but he passed away on the throne in this palace city.When he was dying, he gently held Ning Bixin's hand and said, I know, Bixin, you never love me, but I really want to take care of you, always, always...

Where did this "always" come from?Was it the first time he saw the second young lady of the Ning family dressed as a man in the military camp many years ago, bowing and shooting arrows?Or when He Jing married Ning Lanyu, did he see Ning Bi who was crying silently?

As the bells in the palace rang, there was a great mourning in the world, and no one knew about the secret past in the heart.

She finally understood why Li Wenhao married herself, not because she felt sorry for her, nor because she wanted to see her joke, nor because she just let her go, but it was too late now.

The crown prince Li Changying is her son, and Li Wenhao has only one son.Li Changying was born in Yanzhou and grew up in Yanzhou. He came to the capital with his father when he was seven years old. His father became the emperor and he was the crown prince.For a while, all the joys of childhood were lost, and I was in the palace every day, which was extremely boring.

And his father Li Wenhao passed away, and he became a young emperor again.

His mother's queen seemed to be a different person after the death of his father. Li Changying sat on the throne, and his feet couldn't even reach the ground.He neither wanted to hear nor understood everything, it was his mother who made up her mind.

He used to like his mother very much.

Ning Bixin is his mother, and she often accompanied him to practice martial arts in the small school grounds when he was in Yanzhou. Her bow is very good, and she can hit the bull's-eye across the entire school ground.Li Changying wanted to learn archery from her, but she often joked that he couldn't even hold a bow with his small arms.

His mother was as good as his father said.So straightforward, but gentle to him, but that was all in Yanzhou.When they arrived in the capital, everything changed.

He hates going to the Wenhua Hall to listen to studies every day, going to the Jinluan Hall for the so-called political discussions, hates the palace, hates the capital, everything here is bound to him, it is a huge cage, he is like a A little bird, trapped in this cage.

No one is willing to listen to what he wants to say, no one wants to know what he is thinking and what he wants. All the servants will kneel when they see him and call him your majesty.He no longer had a playmate, nor did he have the cute puppy he liked in the palace when he was in Yanzhou.

He has nothing left, even though everyone respects him, everyone knows that he is the emperor of the world, but he is not his own.

Once, he wanted to escape from the palace, but he was discovered by the eunuch before he saw the appearance of the Shenwumen.The eunuchs closed the gates of the palace, and he was trapped inside again.

Later, he hated everyone who was sent by the queen mother to take care of him and teach him, until Li Zishen appeared.

Li Zishen was so different, he would wear old black clothes, cloth shoes on bare feet, and his hair was not tied up like others.He is like the only different existence in this palace city, even though others are like lifeless pawns and puppets, Li Zishen is so alive.

Even though later Li Zishen would come into the palace to give lectures with his hair tied up in official clothes, Li Changying still liked this young master the most.

He would pat the top of Li Changying's head with his hand to praise the young emperor, and he would also make some fun little things for Li Changying as rewards.

Li Changying can have all the delicacies and jewels in the world, but Li Zishen is the only one who can make him a moving wooden puppy, because Li Changying, who has finished memorizing the book, mentioned that she used to raise a puppy in Yanzhou when she was a child.

Li Changying gradually grew up, the queen mother intended to return the power to him, but there were still people in the court who wanted to sway his power, Li Zishen advised him and took the power to the emperor.

Li Changying once thought that when he grows up, he will make Li Zishen the prime minister. No one has ever been the prime minister in several dynasties, so he wants Li Zishen to be the prime minister.Or just become a cabinet bachelor, in short, you have to be the biggest official.

However, before "he grows up a little more", the southern border of Qingzhou fell ill.

One day, the Empress Dowager suddenly sent someone to look for him to go to the Compassion Palace.

Li Changying used to hate this place very much, but as he gradually grew up in the past few years, he understood his mother's good intentions, understood how difficult it is for a woman, and the relationship with the Queen Mother has eased a lot.

Walking into the hall, Li Changying found that the queen mother and his mother Ning Bixin were not wearing fancy clothes, but a simple skirt, just like when they were in Yanzhou.

The Queen Mother told him a story.

Li Changying didn't want to believe it anyway, he resisted to accept everything in this story, and even stood up emotionally and shouted at Ning Bixin: I don't believe it!

At that time, he was not like an emperor, but like an ordinary boy.He forgot his identity, but he kept thinking back and forth about the things Ning Bixin told him.

"Zishen has experienced too many ups and downs in his life. If it's time to defend the city with his body, I hope the emperor will let him go. Don't blame him."

Who didn't know that Li Zishen would definitely stay?He is Li Changying's most loyal subject, the most respected and respected elder, but Ning Bixin said that they owed Li Zishen, and hoped that Li Zishen could leave the land of right and wrong as soon as possible.

Li Changying didn't want to believe it, so she threw up her sleeves and left the Compassionate Ning Palace.

On a heavy autumn night, Ning Bixin suddenly dreamed of the night when her subordinates first reported Li Zishen's news in the Palace of Compassion.

She looked at the portrait presented by Jin Yiwei, and asked tremblingly, what is the name of this little Taoist priest?

The subordinate replied that he only knew that his name was Li Zishen, which should be a surname, but his real name was not known yet.

She looked at the face in the portrait that was [-]% similar to her old friend, and suddenly thought of her sister Ning Lanyu, He Jing, and the unattainable dream when she was young.

When she saw Li Zishen, she couldn't hold back the emotions in her heart, not only was excited, but also somewhat sad, but the child had already changed into a different person.

She only dared to call him "Lin'er" by his childhood nickname when he was about to step out of the palace door, but Li Zishen didn't stop.

Later, on a certain New Year's day, Li Zishen stayed in the palace to attend a palace banquet.

The Chinese New Year on Gaotu Mountain is not lively at all.There are only four people in Baiyun Temple in total. Xu Daogan wants to have a good meal, but the first and second apprentices are both boring, and they are more like cultivators than his master.

Li Zishen thought that it was always different in the palace, but Li Changying said that he wanted to spend the New Year with him, but Li Zishen said it was against the rules.Li Changying was even more unhappy after hearing this.

In fact, the palace banquet was deserted and there were not many people. In the end, Li Changying was young and was about to fall asleep, so he had to rest first.

When Li Zishen bid farewell, Ning Bixin suddenly said to him: "I... and your family were old acquaintances. When you were born, I went to your house as a guest. I have an old way, and I have received the favor of your family. I have no intention of telling your fortune for you, and the name Zishen... was also mentioned at that time."

Li Zishen was taken aback, a little surprised, but mostly evasive.He didn't expect that Xu Daoqian happened to give him this abandoned name later on.It was even unexpected that the Queen Mother would bring up these past events.

Ning Bixin said again, "You and your father look very similar."

Li Zishen had long forgotten what his father was like.When he was He Zhihong, when he was still very young, he only remembered that his mother was very gentle and his father was very kind.

"I met you before, when... you were not like this." Ning Bixin seemed to recall something from the past.

At that time, Li Zishen was also called He Zhihong, the only son in the family, and everyone loved him dearly. His mother always called him Lin'er. He was born smart and smart, and he was the focus of everyone wherever he went.

Similarly, he doesn't like reading, and he is very talented. Originally, his family wanted to be enlightened early, but every time he went to school, the teacher was so angry that his father had to let him stay at home and study by himself.

The past is over.

After Li Zishen saluted, he was about to leave: "The minister has been on the mountain since he was a child, the queen mother must have admitted his mistake."

When Ning Bixin heard this, she choked up for a moment.The young man standing a few steps away now, when he was young, she also hugged him in the arms of the elder sister, and said with a smile that Lin'er from her sister's family is so smart and cute, which is really enviable.

However, Lin'er, who is lively and playful, has become calm and quiet now, with few words.

When she was young, she didn't like red make-up and preferred armaments, and the school girls were not as good as her sister in everything.But now looking at Li Zishen who has grown up again, he thinks of Li Wenhao's words when he imitated others to show off his knowledge: The public did not cross the river, but the public actually crossed the river!If you fall into the river and die, what will you do!

How can she stop Li Zishen and keep Li Zishen?

Only in the dream, she was still the young girl back then, who would gallop the horse wantonly with a bow in her hand, quarrel with the young man, learn how to work as a female worker with her sister, and would blush and dare not see the young master of the He family.

Li Wenhao, Li Wenhao, you left so early, why did you leave me behind?

What if you could know everything about today?

You died, leaving me and your son behind.

You said you wanted to take care of me, how could you just die like this?

There are too many things to regret in life, Ning Bixin suddenly couldn't think of anything, but the sadness in her heart was like a stick in her throat, which lasted for a long time.

Why, why.

The author has something to say:

The plot about Sejong, Emperor Rang, and the Rebellion of the Five Kings was born out of a period of history in the Ming Dynasty. I can’t remember the details, but it is mainly a background.