Born to haggard my heart

□□Sitting on the back seat of the Bentley car returning home, the neon lights outside the window reflected colorful colors on his face.

It's hard to see what this 15-year-old is thinking. He already has the ability to control his expressions that he shouldn't be at this age.

What he learned from his father is to always be unsmiling in front of his subordinates and have stern eyes. Only in this way can he create a sense of oppression psychologically, even if he has the heart to resist, he has no courage.

Take action according to the amount, so that you can carry out your orders strongly!

He used this trick on Lu Xiaohan without even thinking about it. He didn't know why he wanted to control him with such a strong feeling.

It's just an idea I've had since the first meeting.

Last year, not long after school started, he and a class of classmates were playing basketball on the playground.

The sky is blue and transparent, and the clouds are white and dazzling.

He was in a good mood, dunked and scored repeatedly, and the more he killed, the more courageous he was. The opponent was not to be outdone. The ball drew an arc in the air and hit a little boy who had been practicing running on the next track. He was caught off guard. , the boy was knocked to the ground by the sudden ball.

A group of big boys playing basketball burst out laughing together seeing his distressed appearance.

He ran over, picked up the ball, and wanted to admire the embarrassing look of that little boy by the way.Look at the pair of black-rimmed glasses on his thin and fair face.

"Are you a freshman?" He looked very unfamiliar.

Moisture appeared in the little boy's eyes: "Secondary one." He tried to hold back his tears again.

"Oh, I'm in the third grade. From now on, watch your running and stay away from our ball!" He patted the ball and walked away.

Looking back at the thin body that got up again, I suddenly felt a strange feeling in my heart. It had never been like this before. It was an inexplicable, inexplicable feeling.

He threw the ball back to his teammates and caught up with the boy in a few steps: "What's your name?"

The little boy seemed taken aback. He turned his head to look at this tall, strong boy who smelled of sweat through the lens, and took a step back to keep a safe distance. "Lu Xiaohan."

He looked at this child carefully, his skin was a little fairer than others, unlike the children at the seaside, whose skin was black and shiny after being exposed to the wind and sun.

The face is small, like an apricot, sour?What about sweet?

The small lips were pursed uneasily, and the nose was high and straight, but not big.Moisture appeared in the eyes again.

Why is there a feeling of déjà vu?Have you seen it there?

"My name is □□, and I'm the big brother in this school. From now on, you have to follow me and be there whenever you are called! Do you remember?" The other party was not allowed any room for refutation.He ordered directly with a strong tone.

Lu Xiaohan looked at him in surprise, then murmured: "I don't know how to fight, and I failed to run 800 meters. I can't be your little brother."

"What?" His dignity as a big brother was ignored, and he couldn't help but get angry. "I let you be my younger brother. It's your honor. How many people want to be my younger brother? I don't want it anymore."

Startled by his aura, Lu Xiaohan took another step back; "If I treat you as your younger brother, I will embarrass you."

He felt relieved: "Well, don't worry, I have the final say on whether to lose face or not. Besides, who dares to laugh at my **** little brother? He doesn't want to live anymore!"

"I can only study, not good at sports."

"It doesn't matter, I need all kinds of talents around me. I will use them according to my talents. What shift are you in?"

"Secondary one and five classes."

"I'm in class three and four. I'll send someone to look for you if something happens in the future."

Unexpectedly, this little brother, this little brother, alas.

In the autumn sports meeting, his basketball team made it to the finals. As expected, let Lu Xiaohan come to the cheerleading team. The main thing is to let this new recruit see the majesty of the big brother!

The sent person came back and said: Lu Xiaohan is not feeling well and can't come.

He didn't believe it, and felt that it was not giving him face. "Ask him to come, even if he feels uncomfortable. Just pretend!"

He sent someone to forcibly pull Lu Xiaohan here. He looked at Lu Xiaohan who was standing on the sidelines holding a banner for him, and said, "Hmph, isn't this here? A guy who eats hard and doesn't eat soft!"

With Lu Xiaohan on the sidelines, he played extraordinarily hard in this game, sweating freely, every time he scored a goal, he couldn't help but glance at Lu Xiaohan, but why is this guy not in shape?

The look of bitterness and hatred is extremely inconsistent with the cheering atmosphere of the entire arena.One distraction, was overtaken by the opponent!This anger!Stride, layup, turned around but saw Lu Xiaohan about to be fainted by the sun, about to fall?

The ball went wide, missed the frame, and the whistle blew for the end of the game.

Seeing Lu Xiaohan fall down on the playground.

In his heart, he was angry because of the loss of the game, and because Lu Xiaohan interfered with him in the game, and because of Lu Xiaohan's fainting guilt, all kinds of emotions rushed into his heart, and he couldn't tell what it was like.

Regardless of sorting out the mess in his heart, his legs had already run to the sidelines, helped him up, touched his head, it was hot!Heatstroke?Qiuhu is still very powerful.

He was very light and frighteningly thin. The doctor applied an ice pack and hung him with salt water, and it took him a long time to wake up.

Seeing him next to him: "Is the game over?"

"ended."

"Go to work, I'll lie down for a while."

He doesn't care if he wins or loses!The emotion in his heart had no place to vent, and he rushed out at this moment; "Why don't you ask me whether I win or lose? You don't care at all, do you? Because of you! Lala

The team shouted hard!lost!Still fainted?Did you see the girl next to you faint? "

Lu Xiaohan felt even more aggrieved, as expected, he only cared about his own winning or losing, I fainted and was scolded!His eyes filled with tears again.He took off his glasses and wiped his tears.

Seeing her crying, she became even angrier: "Are you still crying?!" He snatched his glasses and threw them on the ground, crushing them with his foot! "Are you still wronged? I lost because of you, or I would have won!"

Seeing the crystal clear tears in those eyes, my heart was suddenly sore and unstoppable, I didn't know what it felt like, so I just yelled: "Don't cry"

Lu Xiaohan was so yelled at by him that he could only sob, his chest bulging.

□□Inexplicably wanted to comfort him, but couldn't do it, so I had to slam the door out depressed and unstoppable.

Seeing that his face was not good, his companion thought he had lost the game and was unhappy.

From then on, he began to pay attention to this person who could disturb his mood, and knew that his nickname was Sister Lin. No wonder, he was born weaker than a girl, it was a mistake!

I study very hard. Although I often ask for leave, my grades have always been among the best. I also study Japanese with Kazama.Seeing two people often cat together, reading Japanese under the shade of a tree, learning something, do you feel uncomfortable?

He often throws a ball or something, and grabs his favorite food from his dinner plate.Or grab his ice cream.Lu Xiaohan has no ability to resist him, so he has been submissive.

This made him bully with no sense of accomplishment.

Once again, I saw him and Kazama walking and chatting, the two of them were still smiling, talking and laughing, I couldn't bear it anymore, went straight over, and pulled him into the grove.

There are more than a dozen hundred-year-old trees, although the number is small, but they are all very old. The leaves are swaying in the sky above their heads, exuding the unique smell of plants, and birds fly by from time to time.

In the distance, some classmates occasionally walked by.Lu Xiaohan was pressed against the tree trunk, how could he make this soft little guy resist?Or where is his bottom line?

Looking at this little frightened face, he suddenly had the urge to kiss his pink and soft lips, just to see what he could do to him?

Lu Xiaohan whispered with his lips: "What do you want?" He could tell that Lu Xiaohan didn't like him, and he couldn't see the smile just now, only panic, fear, and disgust.

His competitive spirit was aroused by this expression, and he kissed him without hesitation, bullying him, just wanting to bully him!

Lu Xiaohan cried aggrievedly, his resistance was undoubtedly an ant defending an elephant, but his sobs and tears made him flustered, and as soon as he touched those soft, clean lips, he couldn't go on any longer.

He hated it, hated himself for not being able to ignore his crying, just kiss him directly!Does he cry or not?

He changed this resentment into hostility again: "Don't cry! Don't cry again in the future!"

Lu Xiaohan restrained himself from crying, tears still fell down, and there was resentment in his eyes, which pierced his heart like a knife.

He let go of Lu Xiaohan and left the woods, leaving a small figure weeping alone.

After that, for a long time, he stopped looking for Lu Xiaohan, so that others thought that Lu Xiaohan was not his younger brother.Accidentally, he bumped into a few scumbags from another class, stopped Lu Xiaohan, and asked him to give them all the money he had on him.

Lu Xiaohan still obediently gave them all the money as always, and he was so angry that Lu Xiaohan can only be bullied by me alone. When is it your turn?

Go up, beat the crap out of these little scumbags with three punches and two kicks, and run away crying.

He also hated iron and steel and asked: "They bullied you, why didn't you tell me? Do you still think I'm your big brother?"

"I thought you were in the same gang."

Angry, "When did you see me robbing other people's money? I'm your big brother! What does the big brother do? He's covering the little brother!"

Since then, the previous mode of only gangsters can bully Lu Xiaohan has been restored.

After a long time, I found out that you can grab his things, kick him, and let him be a cheerleader, but you can't touch him, especially Luo's exposed skin, you can't touch your hands, you can't touch your face.

Even though he has a good relationship with Kazama, he has never seen such intimate behaviors as holding hands, embracing shoulders, and hooking shoulders and backs like many middle school students.

Thinking of it this way, I feel relieved again. I don’t know where I read it. Children who lack maternal love don’t like to have intimate relationships with others.

Knowing that he is not a new mother, no matter how good it is, it can't compare to the biological, natural, intimate, blood relationship.

I met him at the gate of the school this morning. He seemed to have grown taller. At a glance, I found that he was no longer wearing glasses. His eyes seemed to be big and shining, full of anticipation for the new semester.

What are you looking forward to?Didn't he always bully him in school?Does he not hate himself?Still so happy to start school again?

Does he, like himself, miss each other every day?I haven't seen him for two months. Although he always has his appearance in his mind every day, he doesn't put this feeling in the column of missing, but he can't find anyone who bullies him, and he is not used to it.

His eyes swept over him, as if he didn't see it, but at this glance, his heart moved, this Lu Xiaohan seemed to be different from the previous one, because he knew too well, so he noticed the small changes that others didn't notice.

Those eyes were shining brightly, clean, clear, not tacky at all, or did they always wear glasses to block the light?

In the restaurant, He Fengma chose sashimi at the same time, looked at each other and smiled, could it be that he had a tacit understanding?The one who laughed, as if there were only two of them in the world, go and destroy it immediately!

Can I watch you flirt with others?Force him to feed himself.

In this international school, students from all over the world come from different skins, languages, small circles, cultural differences, exchanges, and the result of collisions is that the students are very open-minded and open to accepting various trends of thought.

Therefore, love and hatred between the same sex are often staged, like him forcing the other party to feed him, only sympathy for Lu Xiaohan, and anger towards him, but no one gives him the same sex* love discrimination.

So what if there is discrimination?Nor is he one to take other people's opinions to heart.

After taking a bite of the meal he offered to feed, I feel much better, especially in public places, it is quite face-saving.

Fighting against sashimi, thinking about it so far, I can’t stop smiling, it’s so cute, "Let you run again." Straight up and eat, small mouth pouted, fleshy, making me want to kiss him so much, I endured missing him for a summer, and seeing him bursting out, I couldn't hold back anymore.

Catch him, get him to the props room, but don't let him touch him!

The root of the tooth is itchy with hatred, I go up to take a bite, I don’t know who has bitten other people’s meat, the feeling, the more I bite, the more addictive it is, as if I can’t satisfy my craving.

Lu Xiaohan's attitude also irritated him, saying bite, kill me!

Dare to challenge me!Biting, biting, bleeding, he was shaking with pain, and he still didn't let go and begged for mercy!

I can't bear it anymore, you win!Looking at the bleeding wound, I felt distressed.

I didn't see anyone for dinner, so when I asked the fat man in the dormitory, I was very dissatisfied with him and said, "You still don't know?"

"What do I know?"

"The school doctor gave me stitches and bandages at noon, but he didn't tell the teacher." The fat man was very upset: "He can't hold the chopsticks! You did it."

After buying chicken leg rice, I went to his dormitory and saw the two of them in the bathroom. Lu Xiaohan raised his right hand and leaned sideways. Kazama stooped to hold his hand and washed his hands at the sink.

He, who has never seen such an ambiguous picture before, was burning with anger. Seeing these two little ones, loving each other, he threw away the lunch box in his hand: I kindly gave you a meal, who knew you wouldn't need it at all Me, I'm unnecessary!

Turning around and coming out, wandering around the campus, I thought again: If I come out like this, I won’t be cheap to that kid Kazama?

I went to cook again, and asked the aunt who was cooking: "My hand is broken, what should I eat?"

The aunt said: "Of course it is what you eat to make up for it." Pig trotters!

ah?this?It's too far behind Lu Xiaohan's hands.Rich in collagen protein, too.

Drive Kazama out, it's just two people's world.Watching him eat is a pleasure.The small mouth moved and moved, and the cheeks bulged.My heart is itchy.Just want to bully him, bully him.

This little hand can be grasped, it is thin and tender, no wonder it is broken when bitten, if you want to pull it back, it's so easy, don't rub it enough, don't let go.

The biggest reward today is hearing him call brother.Finally gave in!Finally recognized his brother's status!

When he called out "brother", all flowers blossomed in his heart!My legs feel weak.

This soft voice reveals those who are begging for mercy, who are coquettish, and who feel shy again and again, soft and charming, coquettish and shy.

With this big brother, □□ felt that the struggle against his authoritative father to stay in school for another year was worth it.

Go to the U.K., what kind of business school do you study, you don't know the place, and you don't have such a wonderful person, so you can be funny all the time.Don't go to study on the land of the British!

The author has something to say:

From the second part, the word count of each chapter began to increase.The pain of writing a long article is that when I was writing the article, I had a good time, and updating the article on the Internet every day became a grinding thing.Especially when I was still writing other articles at hand, it was like getting a fine score.Sometimes it is locked for no reason, and I have to find a few sensitive words in the whole article.So the number of words has increased, in fact, to save trouble.Ha ha.Thank you everyone, you who read the text.