as always

Due to the impact of the typhoon, it was already Monday evening when Cheng Lin returned to the apartment.When he got home, Yu Yange hadn't come back from get off work.

Cheng Lin washed the rice absently, finished the meal, and then sat on the sofa in a daze.When Yu Yange opened the door and came in, what he saw was Cheng Lin who was sitting on the sofa and looked very quiet.

Hearing the sound of the door opening, Cheng Lin raised his head, just in time to meet Yu Yange's gaze.The two looked at each other for a full minute, but neither spoke.

"Phosphorus, I'm back." Finally, Yu Yange broke the silence.Cheng Lin nodded and stood up from the sofa.The two walked into the kitchen together, and Yu Yange started washing and cooking, while Cheng Lin stood at the door and watched him.

From Cheng Lin's silence, Yu Yange had vaguely guessed something.But he dared not ask, he was afraid of hearing the answer.In the long silence, Yu Yange prepared the dishes, and the two ate in silence again. When Cheng Li finished washing the dishes and came out, Yu Yange was already sitting on the sofa waiting for him.

"Pho, tell me the answer, don't bear it alone." Yu Yange pulled Cheng Pho to sit beside him, pondered for a while before opening his mouth.

Cheng Lin watched him quietly for a while, then finally lowered his head and said quietly, "Yu Yange, I'm sorry."

Hearing this answer, Yu Yange took a deep breath, raised his head and stared at the ceiling for a long time.

"As long as I can be with you, I can pay any price, but there is only one price I can't pay. I'm afraid my mother won't let it go. Yu Yange, you are the two most important people in my life. Anyone who comes out I'm going to go crazy."

Most of the time, Cheng Lin is the kind of very resolute boy in the eyes of others, but Yu Yange knows that he has a weakness, Cheng Lin is afraid of seeing people die.This may be related to the loss of his father since he was a child. Yu Yange didn't know how Cheng Lin's father died, but he knew that it was a deep wound in Cheng Lin's heart. There will always be the illusion of worrying about gains and losses.

Yu Yange reached out and touched Cheng Lin's head, and pressed his head to his shoulder, his movements were extremely gentle, just like his current voice: "Pin, I see."

After a long time, he continued to ask: "Can you tell me about the nightmare you had back then?"

Cheng Lin's body trembled slightly, and said quietly: "I dreamed that my mother found out about us, and then she took a kitchen knife and killed you in front of my face."

Yu Yange now finally understands Cheng Lin's abnormal behavior that day. In Cheng Lin's eyes, the scene at that time was so similar to his dream, that's why he was so panicked, even a little desperate.Cheng Lin actually took such a dream that was not worth mentioning in the eyes of others, this is actually a manifestation of his insecurity.And being with him, Cheng Lin must be under a lot of pressure, that's why he had this kind of distorted but close to reality nightmare.

Cheng Lin's fear was not unreasonable, because Yu Yange was also very aware of Cheng's mother's obsession with saving face.So after knowing about his son, he killed Yu Yange in a fit of anger. Such an extreme situation was not impossible in Cheng Lin's view.

Thinking of Cheng Lin's trembling with fear, Yu Yange's heart tightened slightly.

What Yu Yange thought of was that if Cheng Lin died in front of him, and was killed by Yu Yange's mother, such a thing would be horrifying just to imagine, not to mention that Cheng Lin was still dreaming about it.

Thinking of this, Yu Yange held Cheng Lin's hand tightly, feeling helpless and distressed: "You fool!"

Cheng Lin nodded in Yange's arms, then straightened up and looked at him: "Yu Yange, don't be so nice to me."

Smiling, Yu Yange also looked at him: "I want to too, but I can't."

Looking around the room, Yu Yange held Cheng Lin's hand, turned his gaze back to Cheng Lin's body, looked into his eyes, earnestly and persistently: "Pin, you remember, no matter where you are in the future , whoever you are with, you are the only one for me. So, no matter what happens, you can come to me anytime."

I will always be waiting for you.

Yu Yange didn't say this sentence, he didn't want Cheng Lin to bear more burdens, and he didn't want to put more pressure on him.

Cheng Lin sniffed, nodded under Yu Yange's gaze, and spit out the word "good".

That night, Cheng Lin and Yu Yange talked a lot, about his father's death because of myocardial infarction, about how naughty he was when he was a child, when he was in kindergarten, he threw other people's schoolbags into the ditch on the way back .One year when there was a flood, he even went to the stream to catch eels, but he caught a snake and ran to show his mother, who scared his mother half to death.

That night, they chatted late like two good friends, and it was the first time that Cheng Lin had spoken so much in front of Yu Yange.It wasn't until seeing him falling asleep from sleepiness that Yu Yange carried him to the bed, and kept his eyes open until dawn by himself.

On Thursday, Yu Yange moved out of the apartment.With Xiaoyou's help, he rented a house opposite Cheng Lin's community.It was also from that day that Cheng Lin no longer went back to the apartment after work, but had dinner at school, read and studied in the library by the way, and walked back slowly after nine o'clock.

After Yu Yange moved out, he didn't want to be alone in front of that house, facing the room that still had the smell of Yu Yange, thinking about it alone.

In the school library, he can meet at least a few people, although they are all strangers, at least it won't make him feel that he is the only one left in the world.

What Cheng Lin didn't know was that every night when he came out of school, not far behind him, on the opposite side of the road, there would always be a figure silently following him, watching him return to the apartment before turning around and leaving.